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- "What's the matter Wills?" Buffy asked, wanting to help her overcome
- whatever was bothering her. "I'm feelin' better now. Come on tell your Buffy
- all about it, you know I love you."
- "I-I know." Willow sobbed crying deep wracking, soul wrenching sobs.
- "Something happened I...I saw...Oh Buffy I never knew! How can you stand
- it? How do you do it?"
- "How I do what Wills?" Buffy whispered softly, "please tell me."
- "I-I don't know how, I didn't mean to, but some how," Willow was so sad and
- confused she didn't know how to start. "I-I t-touched your mind and I
- s-saw...."
- "Saw what baby?" Buffy whispered in the girl's ear, her hot breath sending
- chills down Willow's spine despite the overwhelming sadness she felt. "Tell
- me what's wrong what did you see?"
- "I-I s-saw it all, everything you sacrificed, everything you missed, all the
- guilt you feel when you fail; I saw the cost Buffy, I saw it all." Willow
- whispered still weeping uncontrollably. "I saw what it meant to be a
- Slayer!" The young girl finished collapsing back into Buffy's embrace.
- Buffy stiffened a little even as she enclosed the Witch in a tight hug--she
- had hoped no one would ever know what a high price she'd paid to follow her
- destiny.
- "You weren't supposed to know," Buffy whispered. "No one was supposed to
- know, not even Giles."
- "Oh gods Buffy, how could you live alone with that?" Buffy didn't think it
- possible, but Willow began to weep even harder. "I saw the scars 'your
- destiny' has placed on your soul! I never knew, oh God Buffy, I never knew,
- what all the death and destruction had stolen from you!" Buffy felt Willow
- pause, breathing deeply trying to get her sobbing under control-the young
- Slayer was horrified that her soulmate had been subjected to all that
- pain-her pain. Her Willow had too much to deal with by herself; she didn't
- need Buffy's baggage overwhelming her.
- "I saw how badly it hurt when your first watcher died, how your calling
- destroyed your whole life." Willow continued and Buffy knew all she could do
- was hold the little hacker until she ran out of steam. "I saw so much pain
- and all because of this, this, 'destiny' you're forced to follow!"
- "Shh, Willow, shh," The Slayer cooed to her love. "It's over I've accepted
- my calling." She suddenly had the urge to see her lover's face so the
- Slayer picked the Witch up turning her to cradle her love in her arms.
- "I know, I saw the test and Giles' betrayal." Willow said simply,
- calmer-only to break down again as she cried, "I felt your pain, your guilt,
- your heartbreak over Angel--Angelus-it wasn't your fault! You didn't know,
- how could you know? You loved him, oh God, you loved him so much Buffy!"
- Buffy sat holding Willow close to her heart as this fresh spasm of sobs
- wracked her small frame.
- "Please Willow, I'm sorry you saw it, I'm so sorry...." She said stoking her
- lover's hot tear streaked face.
- "And I felt it, I felt how you loved me and how much it hurt to deny it."
- Willow picked up where she left off just a few moments ago. "I also know
- that it was me...I was the cause of a lot of that pain. Mooning over you,
- never leaving you alone, constantly reminding you of how alone you truly
- were. I'm so sorry Buffy I didn't know. I really didn't know what I was
- doing. I don't understand how you could still want me after what I did to
- you."
- "Hush now! Wills it's okay," Buffy whispered. "Its over, it's all over,
- thanks to you."
- Buffy buried her face in the soft silkiness that was Willow's hair. She
- inhaled deeply enjoying the subtle combination of oils, herbs, mixed with
- Willow's own chemistry creating a scent that was pure sweet Willow; it was
- intoxicating.
- "That's all over now baby" Buffy said softly into Willow's hair "You didn't
- know anything and you never would have if I could have stopped it. Remember
- all that happened over time, over years-not all at once like you experienced
- it. It's a wonder you didn't run off into the night screaming. Lord knows I
- wanted to often enough."
- "But Buffy I saw more than you realize," Willow whispered. She sat so long
- staring out the window that Buffy began to wonder if she had gone to sleep.
- Buffy looked up into her lover's eyes-they were so dark they appeared
- busied. Then with what seemed like one last hiccuped sob Willow said softly,
- "I saw the things you blame yourself for that weren't your fault. I saw the
- reason you sometimes wake up screaming in the middle of the night."
- "Really Wills, that's all over now." Buffy said as she dropped her face back
- into Willow's hair to hide her own tears. But once there she smelled
- Willow's scent again and a delicious feeling washed over her-she couldn't
- stop herself from nuzzling and nipping at Willow's neck and ear lobe.
- "We've got each other now and no one can ever hurt us like that again I
- promise. You are my other half you complete me. Surely with everything else
- you saw and felt tonight you must have seen that, too?" Buffy whispered, "If
- you hadn't been there, helping me, holding me when I needed you too, then
- there would be no Slayer, I would have given up. But now, with you, I can
- be Buffy again." She sighed, still not used to confessing her deepest held
- secrets, "with you by me, as my love, I swear I think I can face anything."
- Buffy didn't know where all that came from or how she knew a lot of the
- stuff she just said but it was enough that she knew it and said it to
- Willow.
- Willow could feel the truth of Buffy's words in her heart and felt as if
- she'd known it all along.
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