Unloved but not broken

I was alone and not dying
But you came along to just understand me
We both understood how clashing I was...
But you insisted on knowing more..
You wanted to speak to me in my language
And I gave it a shot
But I never blew my cover...
I realized how conflicted you were because of your past
Maybe, you were hurt
Who knows ? It could have been deceit
Lack of trust
Self hate

But I still decided to pillar your temple
Trying to give you my best, but not love you
For you know how much love is not my friend
We are foes
I will give you happiness and put a smile on your face

You shattered me into terrible pieces
Destroying the only moments, I wanted to have
I couldn’t but feel stupid and neglected by you
I know you had personal issues, but I had mine too
The last night we spent together wasn’t a fairytale but a wish
I know our lips didn’t lock for the longest
For now, I regret not holding you to me a little longer
And I regret even kissing you for you’ve robbed me of trust
You were going to be the knight in my dream that had slain the dragon
But I guess I have to take the sword and fight for myself and conquer the dragon
Pain is what I feel and what I am
But I have to let my wishes fly away
And melt like ice in a sunny day
Shocked and deceived is what I feel and can’t think about
You would have told me, a second lived romance was what we should have built
I don’t believe in love but i felt you were going to bring rays into my dying heart
How could I have been so foolish ?
How could I have fallen for your tall charming picture?
How could I have not held you ?
How could I have locked lips with you?
I still can’t believe I fell for you and maybe I’m still falling for you...
After you pushed my heart to the bottom of my stomach
What have you done ?
Cupid might have taken me by the arrow and you shot me after with the arrow of inconvenience.
Farewell the not too charming prince
For I have to move on not to others who want my attention but to myself