To put it simply, the running order, the deadlines — they’re your system. They’re ultimately variables that help the show, but don’t actually need to be there. It’s an additional effort that you put in which actually is much appreciated in the long run, but just isn’t absolutely crucial to the running of the show for anyone but yourself. Don’t get me twisted, they help massively, but like I said — they’re for you, by you and that’s all it is. There’s no real need beyond that.

As I’ve said in the past when discussing the issue of deadlines, to me, I don’t view them as super important because this our show — we can discuss things. If I need a few extra days I should be warranted them. If that leads you to feeling annoyed or rushed for time, you should tell me. How hard is it to say “you can have extra time, but it’s up to you to make sure I have them on Saturday”, or “you can have extra time, but it’s up to you to make the master vid then”?
There’s an unspoken pressure to keep with your way or working that I don’t like. Some people, like myself, like and need the time to tweak and change their numbers right up until the night of the show. I don’t get that luxury when your deadline shows up and, although nearly finished, half the time when the bell rings I’m busy with my own commitments and don’t get a second to sit down at my computer and render/upload/send a link to you to suit your timeframe and thus you get them a day or two late. Other times, rather than submitting half-assed mixes that I don’t want to perform, I opt to ask you to wait and apologise for the delay. This is Oh My Drag, and as a key member to the show, I’m pretty sure I’ve earned and explained enough times why I need to be afforded that flexibility.
If your commitments are  becoming such a hassle for you, it’s up to you to lessen them. It doesn’t become my fault that you’ve cancelled plans to finish a running order that you decided to make, just as it’s not your fault when I cancel my plans to finish the posters. That hassle could be easily avoided by a little less micro-managing and perhaps passing on responsibility to others as, after all, OMD is a collective.
In hindsight, I could bring tracks with me on the night via USB, pre-labelled and ready to be added to the folder. The running order could have generic title lines “Luna Track 1”, “Luna Track 2” that I could rename my tracks to as I see fit after giving them a practise pre show. I wouldn’t/haven’t done that though, because I know how important numbers and organisation is to you. I try my hardest to stick to your deadlines and you know that but it’s clear at this point there are changes and compromises to make for it to work because I will never fulfil it in the way you want.
As I said, your system isn’t the core to the show and with that in mind, if you find that it’s taking a toll on your life/health, you need to remember it’s a completely optional contribution. I’m not saying to drop all you do, but I’m saying lessen the work load. When it comes down to it, it’s all a choice.
OMD is a joint effort, some contribute more than others — like me and you for example — but that doesn’t mean you get to hold it above someone’s head when your expectations aren’t met. This isn’t your show, you aren’t my boss, we’re a team. If something is stressing you out/doesn’t work for me, we need to start discussing it as a group. I’m tired of running anything & everything to do with drag by you and, to be quite frank, I’m not anymore. I respect and love you as much as I always have and don’t take to comments indicating otherwise, I just don’t appreciate when you’re STILL talking about me, still being distant and still want to pick issues about a beef we should have squashed. That’s all.



I know there are other points raised in your message, but right now this is what I’m talking about. I wasn’t being catty with my prior response by intent but if it came across that way I apologise. I just know that you’ve been off with me and wanted to figure out why. It seemed odd that you were being so abrasive with your messages rather than being forward and sometimes biting the bullet and bringing it up is the better bet. Like I’ve continuously said, I don’t need the animosity.



Just want to add as well about Thurs — we didn’t make final plans. It was a “I’m off Thursday eve, let’s do it!” and then no further arrangements or discussions about it. I already knew I had the show rehearsal which ran until half 7, I would have came to yours after if you didn’t reply with a catty comment to my story. Next time, rather than “so I guess you’re not coming then?” you can say “are we still on?” and I won’t opt to go home rather than seeing you.



And about the Blu show, I opted to squash rather than rehash because, as I said, we both had adequate reason to be upset with each other, time passed, both feelings were valid then but there’s no need for resentment. What would it prove to dissect it all and say how you feel or I feel when they’re conflicting views? We might find a middle ground but I’m happier to keep a friendship than keep tearing it down with something that’s been and gone. I’d rather just reignite my support for you and cheer you & Lilly on than sit back and feel tore down any longer. I meant what I said when I said that I miss and love you but if you insist on cliff notes about every argument we have as a resolution, I don’t see how there can actually be one?