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- xVTMxPoseidon: okay
- xVTMxPoseidon: you talk
- xVTMxPoseidon: ill listen
- xVTMxPoseidon: and respond
- xVTMxPoseidon: and you will do sme
- xVTMxPoseidon: okay?
- xB34UTYx: My walls I have up I understand them very well
- xB34UTYx: I put them up to protect myself from my family an people
- xVTMxPoseidon: i know but you saying no one understands is false
- xB34UTYx: No let me finish
- xVTMxPoseidon: okay
- xB34UTYx: I have been abused from the time I could walk. My mom has tried to kill me 7-8 times growing up. I have been handed off from family to family to family till I was 18 because my mom didnt want me but everytime she handed me off she would pull me away from my family the one she would send me too when I had a great life she would yank it from me an make me her lil bitch growing up... me an my brothers was taken from her twice an I had to raise them at the age of 10 I had to be a mom an a sister so I didnt have a childhood what so ever I got beat for trying to raise my bros I got beat for not being a good enough daughter I got beat for not doing something the right way I got beat for doing it the wrong way sometimes so everything I did was never good enough I was never enough for what seemed like anyone. The one who raised me the most when she got her hands on me was my grandma she tried her best to save me from the life I had.... I still raise my bro sometimes when my mom cant besides being rapped an sexually assulted growing up I was abused an I've seen death as well my mom use to kill my pets in front of my face growing up because it was her way to punish me an make me bow down
- xB34UTYx: I am strong trust me I am... I have been through hell my whole life I protect the ones I love I defend the ones who are important to me I try my best to be me all the time
- xB34UTYx: I understand my walls an sometimes I feel like others dont an I get shot down for my walls
- xB34UTYx: yes I need help taking my own walls down
- xB34UTYx: I struggle taking them down
- xB34UTYx: shush let me finish
- xB34UTYx: I do care about you an when I say that you make me feel safe I mean it
- xB34UTYx: There is so much in my life people dont understand... an I get pushed aside for it
- xB34UTYx: You can decide if you want to be with me or leave me or pick if you want to be here or not... I will fight for you if I need an believe me I wont give up on what I love
- xB34UTYx: So for the walls I have built I am sorry
- xB34UTYx: Its hard for me to bring them down when so many people have given me reasons to keep them up
- xB34UTYx: If one person would just give me reasons good reasons an show me its okay to bring them down I will
- xVTMxPoseidon: shhhh im typing my turn
- xB34UTYx: x..x
- xB34UTYx: okay
- xVTMxPoseidon: I have been abadoned since birth. My biological father gave up on me and left me with an evil scumbag. Who married my mom when i was 4. At the weddding i dropped the ring and got my ass beat and locked in a van with no air for rest of night. For years i was beaten and abused. Didnt get to eat for a week or days. At age 8 i had to pick up the fuckery so my siblings wouldnt be hurt which resulted in my ass getting beat more and more. I wasnt a person i was a punching bag. I didnt have friends. I had aspergers and was never taught how to live life. I was considered a literal retard. In and out of metnal hospitals for trying to kill myself. Was in juvie residential places like foster homes till i got better. Was pissed on every few days by my stepdad i had. All when i got out at 12 it was for nothing because my brother and sister who i was protecting were being raped whole time and i seen it once and could of stopped it but didnt cause didnt understand what was going on. That has tore me up till i was 16 where i did die from killing myself and came back to be thrown away from my family. I had to bring myself outof that as well as learn how to speak, function, behave, and not think of myself as a constant fuck up and that is all i was meant for . I was that way till just this past year where i got myself out of that mindset and walls
- xVTMxPoseidon: because you need to be able to learn to do this for yourself because in life stuggles and shit is always guranteed
- xVTMxPoseidon: you have to be strong and know you cna get passed it cause youve been through it
- xVTMxPoseidon: i have every right to tell you that your wrong
- xVTMxPoseidon: and that i understand in my own
- xVTMxPoseidon: way
- xVTMxPoseidon: your walls dont define as a person and what you do
- xVTMxPoseidon: i am living proof of that
- xVTMxPoseidon: so get off of your pity high horse
- xVTMxPoseidon: because im here to tell you
- xVTMxPoseidon: its a waste of time
- xVTMxPoseidon: and you will onyl become more bitter evil and worse
- xVTMxPoseidon: and hurt others around you for it
- xVTMxPoseidon: those are excuses
- xVTMxPoseidon: what you are saying
- xVTMxPoseidon: if you wann drop wall
- xVTMxPoseidon: and trust someone
- xVTMxPoseidon: just do it
- xVTMxPoseidon: stop making excvuses
- xVTMxPoseidon: and using the pain as a way to hold yourself back
- xVTMxPoseidon: someone told me this same thing
- xVTMxPoseidon: i was in your shoes as you are right now
- xVTMxPoseidon: and i needed to hear this
- xVTMxPoseidon: you need to stop
- xVTMxPoseidon: you know there will be struggles
- xVTMxPoseidon: and you have been through them already
- xVTMxPoseidon: so fuck the past ones
- xVTMxPoseidon: and focus on the future struggles
- xVTMxPoseidon: focus on now
- xVTMxPoseidon: they arent struggles anymore
- xVTMxPoseidon: they are things to make you stronger
- xVTMxPoseidon: you can either own up to the challenge and cards you have been dealt
- xVTMxPoseidon: and change them for yourself
- xVTMxPoseidon: or let them over bear you
- xVTMxPoseidon: pokay?
- xVTMxPoseidon: there is no in between
- xVTMxPoseidon: im thankful for my past now
- xVTMxPoseidon: and my struggles i go through now
- xVTMxPoseidon: cause when i get through them
- xVTMxPoseidon: and be who i wanna be
- xVTMxPoseidon: i defy any negative that they could hold onto me
- xVTMxPoseidon: and take away that power from the people who hurt me
- xVTMxPoseidon: if you hate something
- xVTMxPoseidon: fight it
- xVTMxPoseidon: dont accept failure and pain
- xVTMxPoseidon: you fight it
- xVTMxPoseidon: if your step dad is something you hate
- xVTMxPoseidon: and you dont wnat him doing shit
- xVTMxPoseidon: you struggle and fight agaisnt him
- xVTMxPoseidon: even if it could kill you
- xVTMxPoseidon: cause worst case scenario si you die
- xVTMxPoseidon: it is something we all wish at oine point
- xVTMxPoseidon: but iof you fight
- xVTMxPoseidon: and you win
- xVTMxPoseidon: you are so much more
- xVTMxPoseidon: and you become so happy
- xVTMxPoseidon: because you fight
- xVTMxPoseidon: and put up as much as you could
- xVTMxPoseidon: understand?
- xVTMxPoseidon: either way is a win
- xVTMxPoseidon: if you tried and fought
- xVTMxPoseidon: there is no negative or postivie
- xVTMxPoseidon: there is what you want
- xVTMxPoseidon: and what you make of something
- xVTMxPoseidon: cause death anbd hurtles in life will always be
- xVTMxPoseidon: its what you do when facing them that defines who you are
- xVTMxPoseidon: are you gonna fight
- xVTMxPoseidon: or give up?
- xVTMxPoseidon: cause if you dont hear and think abotu thsi now
- xVTMxPoseidon: and continue as you are
- xVTMxPoseidon: you already have given up
- xVTMxPoseidon: and that isnt what you deserve
- xVTMxPoseidon: you deserve to fight and say fuck the shit
- xVTMxPoseidon: and it has no power over you
- xVTMxPoseidon: im done
- xVTMxPoseidon: read
- xVTMxPoseidon: thnk about it
- xVTMxPoseidon: tjhen answer
- xVTMxPoseidon: cause if you dont
- xB34UTYx: I dont know how to answer... im actually for once speechless....
- xVTMxPoseidon: not only will you hurt yourself
- xVTMxPoseidon: but others around you
- xVTMxPoseidon: sit here with me
- xVTMxPoseidon: and thnk
- xVTMxPoseidon: i thought about it for days and weeks when i was told
- xVTMxPoseidon: i needed this talk
- xVTMxPoseidon: just like you need it now
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