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That also explains the reason why a version of my name can get things done while I can’t get things done anymore regardless, of which name I use even though that’s never been a problem until someone had the power to manipulate which name orientation I use and which has things done to make it seem as if they are the authentic one and I am the fraudulent one, so they can easily stop me from trying to correct things and look like an authentic version of somebody trying to pay a Bill Since they can stop and use the other version of my name to stop me from paying my own bills on my own account regardless of which name I use because they need to assume the other name but that person doesn’t have an identity or a body, and I need them to be brought into the open

 The love of my life gave me concussions when playing night today pushed me into a wall in the back of my head caused me to blackout for a couple of minutes and then I thought she didn’t like me because she thought I was gonna take her to court because her mom told her to be my friend so I wouldn’t take them to court and then we moved to Hamilton because the girls are crazy

SPEAK!!! Yolandie, Visser voice DA GAWDS MUZT B CRAZY

Because I was able to see the 50-50 of it all it’s not just one-sided I’m not looking at it like a hateful vengeful idiot or overly obsessive ment*l illness patient this is the neutral observation of everything that’s happening and reasons why things happen without any emotion because how the fuck are you supposed to feel about this if you’ve never had a girlfriend

They use that excuse to make it seem like I don’t know how to be around people that’s so ipathetic. It literally just means I haven’t had anybody like everything that I am because I’m too much is always too much for everyone so now I have to find girls that are, cool enough to have group relations whatever better for me will be Asian will play league together and will be on a team and will always win. Fuck you guys we play online games together all the time and you’ll be the only fifth wheel in our foreman posse for women posse in our little posse so you’re always the fifth wheel and some random fuc*ing Group with a bunch of inside jokes where you feel stupid no they couldn’t get far because of everything I laid down. I shortened the distance so they had to do things extremely difficult plus Covid helped me shout out to big daddy big daddy p*zza party g*te brought up on it. You know how easy it is to learn about the technology. It’s not new and they’ve been doing this since. Vice city

Getting the information first isn’t as beneficial when it’s this critical the type of information where you have to wait and see how everyone else deals with it. Enjoy your Headstart.

How can you possibly think you could be the psychic on the lower end of the p*ychos*s scale on types of brains p*ychot*cs the type of brain you have dictates the level of human, and since my family is up type of royalty, who had a special type of ment*l illness grow It’s no wonder why we’re over achieving highly auto didactic and articulate. I must’ve gotten the worst of it because of how much I like the dark stuff. It’s so much to the point you can feel it so intensely it’s like physical pain. It technically is physical pain since it registers at the hospital I know where I am on the food chain. You don’t know the type of food chain types of human brains, cause you don’t do that type of research yourself, absorbed inside money, and that’s just a currency to people who have multiple types of currency billionaire weirdos, do you think the world has deep mysteries and fun things that are never ending until you meet somebody who’s pockets never ending so they can do a research on the same types of things you like dark wild games and paranormal stuff that’s where you find those guys that are in the chat room with the Scully people because you know they are like I want to absorb a soul I will pay so gross. I didn’t know what gross was back then, so I was given a pass, that’s why you can see the undertones are so black even if I smile and put on a face that’s fucked up you k8lled what is that it’s from the crypt keeper, archives, librarian, deep, deep book seller it’s called accomplice ice stood around and learned a bunch of lessons, so I wouldn’t be a problem But the solution to everyone trying to make me a problem you’ve already seen the worst everything after is just an explanation to the horrible sh*t you’ve seen so that’s what that was. I understand how horrible humanity is. Thank you. I will only play games and stay away from a man who ask for my phone number and only play with girls Group of people always ask me to do drugs and get drunk. They did the same thing back then just the miscommunication would say obviously I understood the fact they left as a kid and went through all that already. I would be in a senior design position by now, but I wouldn’t have ideas this good I would be one of the basic NFTs like one of those other people I wouldn’t have the dynamic ability I’ve transferred from my life experiences into my art is the most important thing dynamism

They’re on about this Angelina and Rachel bullsh*t talking about how I’m Brad Pitt. Meanwhile, this other third thing named Nari Oxman dumped Brad Pitt and is the smartest woman I’ve ever seen in my life and I want to create an art lab that’s funded by the government animations that help release internal subconscious pain, since that’s what they do for me with Music I want to learn how to trigger people senses by hooking them up and helping them sensory clinic la Cucaracha when you take your art into the Medfield, you get the government Gateway that was the whole purpose of the brain computer interface, but I had to find another way with Generative art same same but different I don’t need the computer in a phase I have the program and I can connect the sensors and make my way through with help

Illegal intelligence I’d like to thank the Internet and all of the girls were curated by the police to break my heart so that I would go back to the Internet, deeper and deeper like breezy I think her dad or something or her mom was somebody they liked me in the beginning until I started doing hard drugs with my friends after being kicked out by my mom and she always liked me. She always loved me. I just didn’t know what to do about it since I was always dealing with grown man problems instead of, somebody of my age was supposed to be that accidentally sad

The hardened Street kid always dates the pretty cop, daughter military background. Of course it’s typical it’s a part of your citizen package it’s been paid for already. I just want to utilize it with my art so I can become a government artist like I was supposed to with the media demon as a child Keeping with it alternative I don’t even know what the alternative is they think I’m actually the weird one when I’m the outlier who knows better than the ones programmed by reality I’m vibrating so fast I’m just enough of a fraction to perceive other golden strand bullsh*t, it looks like visual snow, and then you keep focussing and then randomly you’ll see yellow lines connecting And that’s part of the Ireland condition which is fuc*ing stupid. Why are they yellow and then if you blink it the colour blue yeah that’s the phrase. Thank you for validating my official dis*bility and only thing wrong with me nothing in my head I’ve been concussed, and I’ve bounced my head around in my skull so much as a kid it’s developed enough calluses, where concussions should not damage at all That hitting my head and I’m gonna have long-term problems. If you hit it hard enough, you’ll have to crack it to do damage since I’ve done all the bouncing around my head needed to be reinforced remember how they say you’re not supposed to bounce a kid upon your leg too fast, they hit their head. I used to sit on the couch and slam the back of my head into the couch, over and over and over because of the springs for hours And then when they wouldn’t let me go crazy and I draw blood and then I went to the clinic and they did the things that happened after I got it was lightning I was doing that overactivity in a different way and then they did the convulsive therapy and all of the fuc*ing bullsh*t Yeah because I didn’t have a reason all of the other concussions I’ve had didn’t do anything like when I slammed my face and I had to get served on my lip from cutting my lip on the ice and my front teeth went to it went through my upper lip and had to surgically stitch it closed and repair it And that was because I was playing on the ice but that was before the lightning hit me. I could fight idk about win that officer. It just don’t want the smoke and consequences and then I had to like refuse to fight on other officer who I would’ve easily damaged and couldn’t take me down mind you I know the other big officer seen that And he experienced the difficulties because I’m the one who went down holding him and using him to cover my top while the other officer came from the side and let me turn around and let them arrest me. I’m not fuc*ing idiot, literally used his body to protect me from being shot by taser And then he says he threw the other officer who seen it from following me after being chased seen something else and then the one lady was just like this is my job. Yeah shoot the taser and then my fuc8ing personality about the situation is still positive because I’ve had to fight officer so fu*king much. It’s so fuck*ing stupid, I hate how I always have to end up fighting. I don’t want to fight and then I have to bear hug the guy at the school. Who’s the fucing mascot of bearhug this is this I hate the recursion it’s like I’m fulfilling the prophecy and it’s pissing me off like I couldn’t speak my way through it. That’s the worst thing because I am psychic and I know these things I couldn’t talk my way out of it even though I knew there was a physical coming and they needed to see how you managed Physical situation. Yeah, let me just fuck*ng text this bi*ch can’t attack the girl that’s a different charge be g*y and hug the guy whatever fuc*ing stupid and then I have to talk like friends with this guy so I’m like yeah I feel sorry about that. I really fu*king hate touching people so much, I only have experiences touching people in aggressive ways. That’s why I hate touching people. What am I supposed to be embarrassed? That’s literally just for me. I think that happened on a Tuesday. I don’t even know what day that I have done that’s the that’s reaching the default for daily activities of Elias. Random bi*ches called the police on him for fuc*ing ment*l health. Checks have to fight them because they think I’m too friendly when they’re stupid for fu*king checking on me because of some other idiot, I’m the idiot who called the ambulance and couldn’t I was going to call them again I wasn’t gonna go to that officer for some reason even if that wasn’t the first time I’ve seen him I felt like I’ve seen him somewhere Dwalk maybe it was a voice. He called my name when he came out the door and I’m like nope heard everything I needed to hear. Goodbye Hacker hack there was nothing that man was going to say to me that was gonna benefit my situation. Everything in that vicinity was planned to fuck me in the a*s and some Indian guy thought he could be smart to get a front row.seat Fuck you.  Yeah I’m allowed to as long as I know what the alternative situation could’ve been so I can actualize what I’m missing out on that’s fine you should already know I don’t fucki*g trust sh*t too dirty cops are better than one and you’re supposed to always assume one cop is dirty automatically because why would a good cop be out by himself, you’re gonna be approaching talking with your partner instead of all the radio with a private channel

I also just want to take a moment to recognize the fact that this is a lightning recognized fact, like everything else in my life, which is why you were trying to either send me signs or messages to see what I was perceiving of the situation and me being like this is what I see even though it applies to me who cares do you understand how you show me matters I could be in a black box and you could be doing things outside in regards to me and anybody who opened the box and made a sound would let me know everything that happened just based on how they said the speed they said the tone they said they open the box everything would be downloaded and would be factored into an algorithmic function with an AI Multi strand generations, so that I can do the math on finding out exactly what the the same way that you would do the math to find out how to figure out what people are saying based off of the vibrations on the window using a laser

Team blue beam team blue beam

And they thought going to the hospital and switching the orientation of my name again was gonna help them who cares again and tell them they got it wrong since they input it the way that they want even if they take the Health card they get to choose the orientation they input it, but why won’t they check both of them since usually they have to because someone always makes a mistake and I am always both of those fuc*ing people

I don’t have to worry about sh*t I’m always on the right side doesn’t matter what side the tables turn on I gotta calm down just remembered I am my mother‘s son by birthright, and she forcefully would not let me emancipate myself to go live with the circus, I would’ve been so much better off because of the genius school wouldn’t have been able to afford me, and the people recognize that at least doing the other thing would’ve benefitted instead of being bored every day out of my mind my babysitter son taught me how to sneak p*rn so I started sneaking DDA watching p*rn at six years old and sneaking around to watch it real. I just really hope somebody talks to me soon. I’m not gonna stop talking until someone does because I don’t even know what I’m supposed to do technically, I want to go to school even if they pay me the cash they know they owe me, or am I gonna go? I’m not bullsh*tting about the plans I made. It’s literally transparent. I would literally be a fraud if it was all lies I’m just gonna be patient and take one day at a time knowing everything doesn’t change how I feel because I never know how I feel and my temperature seems fine and I’m mature enough to understand and emotionally regulate myself and get over it instantaneously so I don’t know if I’d even need to check how I feel or how I feel came and went so fast me trying to figure out how I feel is waiting for something that I will never come

Did the truckers remember me causing problems on the radio as a kid on the Internet that’s fuc*ing hilarious. I downloaded the program from LimeWire and just started going on the radio and I got yelled at by two guys and one lady who called me sweetheart and honey, and told me why it was bad and then I never went back on Two guys yelled at me like belligerently they really don’t like you talking sh*t on the airway and if you don’t speak properly your instantly because it’s pure codes first thing you’re supposed to say is a code and I fuc*ed it all up and they got triggered I know all too well I’m supposed to it goes down bikers, truckers, cops, and groups federal agents actually feds go before cops in groups they are third I think that’s the whole old trailer Park hillbillies the fuc* are they gonna lie to you for stupid as hell there’s bad seeds in that last one is iffy. I wouldn’t even really technically classify that I would just stay with the main three bikers, truckers and feds that’s it, my parental figures growing up

Fuc*ing metal LOOOL