I really, really, wanted to come within the top three in Daifugo,
And I still do, so I really want to work hard,
But I’m already so behind in the points,
So, I don’t want to tell you guys to work harder from here,
But that means I am basically giving up,
And as a result, everyone’s efforts will go to waste.
But the fact that everyone worked so hard for me made me really happy, so it’s not a waste at all.
I wanted to convey that to everyone with words,
But I’m no good at it.



Everyone,
This morning, I’ve been receiving a lot of responses from everyone for some reason, and they are all such kind replies…

“I’m just glad I feel closer to you now.”
“We’re doing it because we like you, so don’t worry.”
“The results don’t matter. We enjoy the process, so let’s keep it up.”

There are still so many more,
So many people are supporting me,
And working hard for me,
But I was losing courage on my own and ended up making everyone feel sad. I feel so sorry, I can’t stop crying.

I was telling you guys to have fun with it,
But the one who was not having fun was me
I realized that too late.

I couldn’t even give all my Yucchies words of encouragement,
I’m really sorry.

But you still haven’t given up on me,
You all are so kind and wonderful,
I really love you all.

I’m sorry for the people who were attracted to my energetic, positive, and bright side,
But normally, I’m the complete opposite,
The only reason why I can be like that is because of you guys.

I cry much more than you probably imagine,
Even though I won the Zero Position of Guts, I have absolutely no will-power,
When I’m alone and I’m discouraged, I lock myself up,
I’m as mentally weak as tofu and I’m hopeless.
But when I’m feeling good,
Everyone smiles and has fun, and that makes me happy,
And it makes me think, I want to do my best to be positive today,
So I can bring a smile to someone’s face.

But the Yucchi that everyone knows, the one who is having fun,
Exists along with the opposite side of me,
That’s why my moods change every day,
And everyone is surprised.

Right now, I feel so low that I’m writing this long passage about my feelings like a fool,
But if you like me, including this side of me,
Nothing would make me happier,
And that makes me want to do all that I can to make everyone happy too.

So,
If all of you wonderful and kind people are rooting for me,
How can I give up!? Right?
I may not make it to the top three,
But I want you all to work hard with me until the end.
I’m sorry for saying something completely different from yesterday.


Everyone!
Everyone who gets YuchiMail!!

I have an announcement.
I have been promoted to K2.
As my peers were being called one after another,
I was happy for them, while at the same time, because I wasn’t getting called,
I thought that was it for me, and I was really really sad,
As she was reading off the names, Makiko-san’s voice was fading away.

But when she said Shirai Yukino,
My ears picked that up,
And I will never forget that moment.

This isn’t the end, it’s just the beginning,
But I want to thank everyone who’s supported me, Kocchan, my family, and my seniors,

So that no one will think, why is she in K2?
I will do my best to  blend in with K2 while expressing my own personality!!!

Please continue to support me.

Shirai Yukino