Hayley's RTS: The Outward Adjustment Phase

CelineKnightmare: ((How are you doing ?, posting))
CelineKnightmare: ((Also hey))
Tsaaq: ((Hola.))
Musik: (Peachy.)
CelineKnightmare: Tierre would pull her soaking wet hair back as the warm water from the shower would fall down onto her face as she leans back and then moves her hand out of the shower to her cell phone which would play Mariah Carey's All I Want for Christmas. Turning down the volume and bringing up the NWSU blog app, she would exit the shower and then wrap a towel around her body and her hair before then writing a new status update.
Musik: -She slipped the cookies into the oven before grabbing the sprinkles, putting an obnoxious amount all over the cookies on the wax paper. She walked over to the sink to wash her hands, nodding her head to music blaring from her seaker.-
Tsaaq: She walked down the row of houses until getting to the front of OCH. Hayley walked towards the house with a grumble, taking her sweet time while going up the steps of the porch and pulling the handle of the door to check if it was open, it was and stuff. She stepped inside, closing the door behind her. "Hey Harper." She greeted in a somber tone. "I'm just here for my cat, where is she? Upstairs in Adam's room or something?" She asked in a monotone.
CelineKnightmare: ''And ba da bub ba ba !, I'm lovin' it !, seriously am I that lame that I just used the McDonald's slogan ? !'' she would say aloud as she'd type the words into the status post and then hit update. Opening the door, a near columbian sauna of steam would flow out as she'd then wrap her hair and head into her room to put on her clothes, noticing the smell of cookies as she does.
Musik: -She turned to see Hayley and shrugged.- "I don't know. I haven't see a cat around.. Maybe? You can up there. He's not home though." -She pursed her lips, grabbing a container to put the alrady made cookies in.-
Tsaaq: She remained silent for a moment then sighed softly. "Oh." She muttered. "I asked him to watch her while Tony and I left for the weekend." She said, before lowering her head and going up the stairs towards Adam's room. She pulled back the curtain and instantly spotted the raven haired cat on his couch bed. Hayley picked her up and stroked her aimlessly as she turned out of the room and went towards the stairs again.
CelineKnightmare: Pulling on the black sweater, jeans and a pair of flip flops, Tierre would remove the towel from her hair and allow it to just hang loose in its natural state before then walking out of the room and heading downstairs behind a girl who carried a near raven hued cat with her. ''Lovely little cat you have there, reminds me of the one I used to have'' she'd pipe up.
Musik: -She brushed her hands together, smiling at her cookies before turning to walk over to the table, grabbing her phone. She unlocked it, changing the song. Once she heard the opening to Hold on till May, she smiled again singing along to the song.-
Tsaaq: Hayley looked back at the girl and then glanced down at Hera just as she reached the foot of the stairs. "Thanks." She said quietly and attempted to smile but quit halfway. She stepped back near the kitchen and nodded in Harper's direction. "Alright well... I've got her." Hayley said.
CelineKnightmare: ''You are welcome, I'm Tie . . . . . . . .'' she'd start to say as she follows the girl down the stairs but seeing that she had no interest in further communication would stop half-way. She'd then walk back into the direction of the kitchen, seeing the cookies that had been prepared as well as another girl whom she had seen the night before but never formally introduced herself to. ''So I see we got a young Rachel Ray in the house'' she'd laugh, trying her best to be friendly and not as creepy as she had been last night.
Musik: -She turned back around, looking at Hayley.- "You wanna hang out for a bit?" -She askedd raising her brow, then looked at the other girl, shaking her head.- "No. Paula Deen, yes. Fuck Rachel Ray."
Tsaaq: She glanced at the door then back at Harper, shrugging. "I have to head to cheer practice but I guess I have time." Hayley answered, seeing the girl had come into the kitchen as well. "Wasn't Paula Deen racist and got fired or something?" She asked in a flat tone as she blinked slowly, stepping deeper into the kitchen.
CelineKnightmare: A smile would spread across her face at the mention of Paula Deen, ''Of course, the Queen of Southern Cuisine, the answer I was hoping for, I don't even know why Rachel Ray is famous'' she'd say with a shrug of her shoulders before responding to the girl standing closest to her, ''Yeah she was for tossing the word around but hey, I've heard worse than the N-word on a daily basis''
Musik: "Yeah but she's a bomb ass cook. Her use of butter is amazing." -Harper said crossing her arms over her chest, eyeing the girl she didn't know.- "Hoping for? If you were hoping for that answer why did you say Rachel instead of Paula?" -She furrowed her brows slightly.-
Tsaaq: Hayley's eyes widened at the girl then stared straight ahead with an incredulous expression but that was for both of these broads. "Okay I guess butter cancels out racism." She muttered and lowered her head to look down at Hera, scratching behind the kitty's ear and sat down at the dining room table. "I don't watch food tv so I really don't know who's good or whatever. It's not like I can eat any of it." She muttered.
CelineKnightmare: ''She is an amazing cook even by Creole standards and not to brag but we have some pretty amazing chefs ourselves'' she would say, stepping over and leaning against the wall as she'd give the girl a gaze nearly as intense as the one she gave her. ''Because it lets me know where your standard of a chef is, if you were to have agreed with me, I would have known that standard was low since Rachel isn't much of a chef in my eyes''.
Musik: "I don't even know why this is going this far. I'm not a chef. I hate cooking. I made cookies for Adam. Let's change the subject." -She grumbled and looked at Hayley.- "What's up with you?"
Tsaaq: She pursed her lips and furrowed her eyebrows while the two talked about cooking shit, finally her focus was brought back. "Oh... That was nice of you. It's nice when people do nice things for people they like." She let out a sigh then shrugged. "I don't know. Nothing?" Hayley answered then bit the inside of her cheek. "Just existing."
CelineKnightmare: Hearing the girl's response, her eyes would slightly widen for a moment and a faint red hue would appear on her cheeks as she'd realize she had once again taken something too far, ''Yes lets do that . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . I'm Tierre by the way, the new girl on campus'' she'd say, casually looking between the two in her attempt to hide her embarassment.
Musik: "Cool." -She said to Tierre before looking back to Hayley.- "Somethings wrong. I can see it." -She said pointing to ther face before moving over to the oven again, pulling it open to pull the cookies out.-
Tsaaq: "Hey Tierre, nice to meet you. Run." She said with a straight face. "This place will rip your heart our of your chest and replace it with a black hole." Hayley said before lowering her head and petting the cat who'd been trying to leap from her arms now. She held onto the feline for dear life and hugged it tight. "Nothing is wrong. I'm like this all the time now, it's the new normal."
CelineKnightmare: She would look to the girl and smile at her before then looking to the other girl, her eyes slightly widening at her almost puzzling statements and then taking note of the serious face she had on when she was making them, ''Its a pleasure to meet you too even though I don't know your name but seriously ?, call it ignorance on my behalf but this place doesn't seem too bad, Eli and Bliss seem like pretty cool people'' Tierre would say. As she watches the girl hug the cat, she'd let out a soft sigh of adoration, remembering her own cat which she had left back home in Florida.
Tsaaq: ((>.>))
Tsaaq: ((Dammit Pey!))
Musik: (Where'd bitch go?)
Tsaaq: ((I don't know but whatever lol, he wasn't contributing much anyways. Need a repost?))
Musik: (Yes please xD)
Tsaaq: "Hey Tierre, nice to meet you. Run." She said with a straight face. "This place will rip your heart our of your chest and replace it with a black hole." Hayley said before lowering her head and petting the cat who'd been trying to leap from her arms now. She held onto the feline for dear life and hugged it tight. "Nothing is wrong. I'm like this all the time now, it's the new normal."((repost))
Musik: "Okay no. You're being even more weird." -She said pulling the cookies out to place them on top. She turned to look at her, crossing her arms over her chest.- "Dude what's wrong? We're friends, you can tell me."
Tsaaq: She pouted her lips. "Nothing's wrong and I'm not being weird." Hayley said quickly, keeping her head down. "Life just sucks, it's the usual. It's no big deal." She shrugged.
Musik: "Okay but you are being weird. What did Tony do?" -She asked grabbing the spatula, lifting the cookies up off the pan to place them on the wax paper, sprinkling the sprinklers everywhere on them.-
Tsaaq: "I'm not!" Hayley shouted, making Hera leap from her arms. "He keeps saying that he doesn't do romance and that he's an asshole and he's not going to change." She began to say with a frown. "But I don't want him to change, I just want him to be nice to me cause I love him. I want him to want to do nice shit for me to help me cheer up. But I already talked to Gabe about it and..." She sighed loudly. "He said that it sounds more like my problem than his and I should just deal with it." Hayley lowered her head again.
Musik: "Gabe shouldn't be giving you advice." -She shook her head, rubbing her hands together.- "It's not JUST your problem. He should be doing all those things. He's your boyfriend." -She said, dropping down to sit in the chair at the table.-
Tsaaq: Hayley shrugged her shoulders. "He told me if I needed somebody to talk to I could talk to him." She muttered weakly. "But he told me I can't change a person and if Tony's an asshole and I chose to be with him then it's my issue and not his." She brought her hands to her face and sighed. "I hate it here so much." Hayley sighed. "I thought high school was bad, at least I was invisible there."
Musik: "Alright, question. You knew Tony was an asshole when you started, no, BEFORE you started dating him, right?" -She asked, pushing back up to her feet, walking over to the cookies to put them into the container.-
Tsaaq: "Yeah, I guess." Hayley shrugged again.
Musik: "Okay then you why did you start dating him in the first place?" -She pushed the lid onto the container full of sugar cookies, picking up two of them that she had left on the wax paper, walking over to her. She handed one to Hayley before taking abite of her own.-
Tsaaq: She sighed as she got up from the table and picked up her fucking cat from under it. "I don't know. Cause I like him? Isn't that why people date each other? Because they like each other?" Hayley muttered.
Musik: -She looked at the cookie she was holding out to Hayley before rolling her eyes sitting down on the table.- "Whatever. Maybe Gabe is right. But look, if you love him you love him. But if he's an asshole he's always going to be an asshole. Maybe he will change but maybe he won't. It's Tony, you can't expect him to do anhything his hard head is set on."
Tsaaq: "Well I can't just break up with him so I guess I'm just stuck with him." Hayley sighed angrily and frowned as she looked at the door. "Whatever, I'm just not meant to be happy." She murmured. "I better get to cheer practice, I don't even know why I'm a cheerleader anymore. I don't know why I do anything. I'd rather just sleep all the time." Hayley said as she carried Hera out with her towards the door. "I'll talk to you later I guess." She called out to Harper and manuvered the door open.
Alexithymiaa: -Adam pulled his truck into the driveway of the house, killing the engine and slipping down from the vehicle to walk up the front walkway. He looked down at his phone in his hand, reading the text on his screen and grabbing for the door knob to push the front door open when the door opened out of his grasp. He stopped short, blinking at Hayley when he almost walked straight into her. "Oh.... hey."-
Musik: "You can too! He doesn't deserve you, Hayley." -She said, sighing as she watched her run off, moving across the kitchen to try and stop her.- "Hayley just wa-" -She stopped in her tracks seeing Adam, dropping her eyes to Hayley.- "Hayley will you just listen?"
Tsaaq: She heard Harper speak but her instincts had been to run. "He's obviously all I deserve." She whispered to herself.Hayley glanced up at Adam and took a step back for a moment then brought her head down once again and stayed quiet. Clutching her cat tight like it was her security blanket, it practically looked like it's life was over. "What?" She asked Harper softly as she turned around to look at her.
Alexithymiaa: -Adam's eyes dropped down to the cat suffocating in Hayley's arms, reaching his hand out to stroke her head gently before pulling his hands back to himself. "I'm going to miss having her here. She slept with me every night." He smiled, looking between both girls and his amusement slowly slipped from his eyes. "What's going on?"-
Musik: -She stepped closer to her, pulling on her arms softly.- "First of all, don't kill your fucking cat." -She raised her brows a little.- "Second of all, you do deserve better. If he's not going to treat you like you want or need to be treated, then it's not worth it."
Tsaaq: "Nothing." She answered Adam. Hayley inhaled deeply and loosened her grip on Hera. "No it's okay, really. I'll be fine." She said as she nodded her head at Harper, a tear sneaking from her eye and slipping down her cheek. "I just have to not expect a lot from him that's all. It's my fault. Like everything else." Hayley tried to reassure herself. "I really should go." She whispered.
Alexithymiaa: -He stood awkwardly, moving his hand up to scratch the back of his head, looking between both girls and deciding it wasn't the time to butt into whatever they were discussing even though he could guess by now. "Excuse me." He dipped his head and walked by them, heading over into the kitchen to drop his backpack down onto the table.-
Musik: -She shook her head, grabbing Hera to pull her from Hayley's hands. She stepped closer to her and wrapped her arms around her.- "Stop it. Hayley you need to do what makes you happy, and he's obviously not making you happy.." -She pulled away and wiped the tear away from her fae.- "You need to be happy, Hayley.."
Tsaaq: She accepted the embrace then cleared her throat. Hayley felt her lip quiver as she pulled away from the hug and touched her face as well. She looked up at Harper then glanced into the kitchen where Adam had been and frowned, shifting her gaze to Harper once more. "I can't." She whispered then shuddered, shaking her head.
Alexithymiaa: -He unzipped is bag and unloaded his books onto the table, dropping into a chair and glancing over his shoulder at the girls by the door, giving in because he knew he wasnt part of their conversation and turning his attention to his work because finals and studying.-
Musik: -She followed her eyes, not turning around because she knew what she was looking at. She sighed and crossed her arms over her chest.- "Yes you can.. Everyone can be happy if you let it in.."
Tsaaq: "But I don't want to hurt anyone, it's easier to just settle and suffer." She said softly as she kept her eyes on Harper then lowered her head with remorse. "And I wouldn't even know how to be happy if I did let it inside of me. Because I ruin everything for myself. All of the things that happen to me are my own fault, I made those choices. I don't know how to handle anything." She said quietly. "I'm broken."
Alexithymiaa: -He flipped open his books and grabbed his highlighter, beginning to scan the pages and highlight as he went, catching the tail end of Hayley's sentences and letting out a sigh, not wanting to interject, but wanting to help all at the same time.-
Tsaaq: ((-pats- It's okay Adam.))
Alexithymiaa: (So now hes jsut eavesdropping)
Musik: "You were happy when you came here right?" -She asked, raising her brows.- "You just need to find that place again. Are you going home for Winter break? Maybe that'll help. Being around familiar things, and.. and.. hanging out with old friends?"
Tsaaq: She shrugged her shoulders. "I don't even remember what that feels like." She said as she covered her face with her hands. "I don't know. I guess I am. It still feels different. Everything is different. I'm not who I used to be." Hayley rambled a bit before lowering her hands and frowning a bit. "You mean like... Pumpkin?" She asked, darting her eyes for a moment.
Alexithymiaa: -Adam sighed even heavier at the mention of fucking Pumpkin, dropping his head down into his open textbook with a deep groan that he just couldn't keep in.-
Tsaaq: ((Really xD?))
Musik: "Uh..sure? I don't know. If she's your friend then why not?" -SHe shrugged, crossing her arms over her chest, shifting uncomfortably.-
Tsaaq: "It just wouldn't be the same." Hayley shook her head again. "And she was pretty much the only friend I have from home, now at least. And we don't even talk to each other anymore." She sighed. "It's whatever, this is just how it has to be." She bit the inside of her cheek. "I guess this is what growing up is. Just learning how to deal with your misery so it doesn't bother anybody else." She turned her head to look for Hera.
Alexithymiaa: -Adam ran his fingers up through his hair, scratching at his head as he literally did not read a word of his book, just straight up listening to them at this point.-
Musik: "But maybe it'll help! Don't knock it till you try it." -She said, chewing on her lip.- "Look, I know shit seems bad right now I guess, but it does get better eventually. You just have to let it get better."
Tsaaq: She closed her eyes and shook her head. "It's not going to help, Harper!" She shouted. "I can't just go back to how everything was before. It's just like in Harry Potter when you witness a death and you see those Thestral things for the rest of your life. You can't take it back." The tears pooled at the bottom of her eyelids.  "And it's not going to get better. Every time I listen to some asshole telling me it's going to get better it magically turns worse. And you know why?" She paused then wiped her eyes. "Because it's me. I'm what's wrong. And there's nothing I can do about it. So I deserve to be with Tony, even if he makes me miserable. I deserve to sit at home by myself, waiting for the days to pass and turn into weeks then turn into months. Because everything I am is a mistake. I'm lucky I made it this far." Her voice strained as she spoke.
Alexithymiaa: -When he heard Hayley's shouting, he turned around to look over at the girls, raising his brows. "I beg to differ. You're not a mistake, Hayley. You need to stop beating yourself up over everything."-
Musik: -She lifted her hand to point over to Adam before crossing them again.- "Exactly what Adam said. You're not a mistake You're awesome and a great friend. Will you just open your eyes for a second? You have to make yourself happy before you can make everyone else fucking happy, Hayley!" -She shouted back to her, tipping her head back in a groan.-
Tsaaq: "Of course you guys don't think I'm a mistake, you're my friends." She scoffed before she started crying, just sitting on the floor and hugging her knees to her chest as she shook her head. "I can't be happy, I'm broken. It's too late." Hayley whimpered while rocking back and forth. "And now I feel bad because people want to help but no matter what I do I still feel alone."
Alexithymiaa: -He abandoned his studying and pushed up from his chair, crossing the room over to her and dropping to sit down on the floor next to her, his hand gently patting her back. "Don't you think your friends know you best? It's never too late, Halo." He tipped his head up to look up at Harper, a pained expression plastered over his face.-
Musik: -She watched Hayley and turned her eyes, letting them meet Adam's. She shrugged slgihtly and crouched down in front of her, placing her hands on her knees.- "Hay look. We care about you, and we're not going to let you continue to think you're broken. You're not broken. You're completely fixable. You're going to be okay, alright? I promise."
Tsaaq: She buried her face while she sobbed. "God, now I feel worse." She struggled to say. "Don't make promises you don't have to make. I'm the one who's fucked up. You guys could just go on without me. I'm just a weight on everybody. That's why my stupid birth parents abandoned me, that's why Remy hates me."  She stopped talking because she was crying harder cause that tends to happen, anybody else notice that? You just think of more sad shit and you just cry harder.
Alexithymiaa: (I noticed that. It sucks.)
Alexithymiaa: -Adam sat awkwardly beside her, just methodically patting her back because he had no idea what the fuck else to do for her. He move his hand to her head, petting her like a fucking dog and keeping his voice low. "You're not a weight on anyone. We all choose to have you in our lives because we want you there. No one hates you."-
Musik: "Hayley I used to hate you. I did. But now look at us? Of course I WANT you in my life or you wouldn't be here. The only weight on my shoulders is the worry that my pigs going to turn into bacon one day, so will you just take a fucking breath? Do you need some water?"
Alexithymiaa: (Dead.)
Musik: (OKay but she thinks Thaddeus is going to kill her pig. It's a legit fear shut up.)
Tsaaq: "I guess..." She answered Harper lifted her head and wiped her eyes repeatedly, still crying. "I sort of hate me, maybe that's why I feel like this." Hayley kept her knees to her chest while trying to calm the rivers flowing from her eye sockets.
Tsaaq: ((What if it was by like, mistake, like his family came and was like 'ooo look a pig, lets have dinner guys' and ate MJ but it was innocent.))
Alexithymiaa: (Hes from New York....)
Musik: (Harper would commit mass murder.)
Tsaaq: ((Oh yeah that's true. AND HIS FAMILY IS NICE IT WOULD BE BY MISTAKE.))
Alexithymiaa: "Well what can we do to make it better? Everyone deserves to love themselves so we just want to help you." He pushed up to his feet, lending his hands down to her in offering to help her up.-
Musik: (BITCH KILLING A PIG RUNNING AROUND A HOUSE WHICH WOULD CLEARLY MAKE IT A PET ISN'T A MISTAKE.)
Musik: -She nodded and pushed up to her feet, patting Adam's arm gently before walking into the kitchen to grab a glass, filling it with water. She walked back into the living room holding the glass out to her.-
Tsaaq: Hayley took his hands and stood up and shrugged her shoulders. "I don't know..." She answered. "I feel so lost." She muttered as she took the glass and took a few sips from it.
Tsaaq: ((Shushhh by mistake pig killing.))
Alexithymiaa: "Well that's what friends are for. To help you find your way." He sent her a half cocked smile, taking a step back to give her some room as she sipped her water. "Harper and I are always here for you. Whatever you need."-
Musik: -She nodded agreeing with Adam, standing right next to him, her arm barely touching his.- "He's right, Hay. We're always here. You can stay here tonight. You can just crash in my bed. I have another blanket and there's more than enough room.."
Tsaaq: "Thanks guys." She whispered, though she still looked pretty dour She wipe her eyes once more and sighed at the sight of her eyeliner smeared hands. "What about Tony?" Hayley asked quietly before taking another drink of the water.
Alexithymiaa: "I don't really know anything about Tony or what ya'll were talking about so...." He took a step back, trying to avoid the conversation he could guess would follow. He turned to his books at the kitchen table, closing them and shoving them back into his backpack, swinging it up onto his shoulder. "I'm going to head upstairs. You know where my room is if you need me. Just keep your head up." He leaned over and gave Harper a quick kiss on the cheek before turning to head up the stairs to his room.-
Musik: "Let him worry. He deserves it." -SHe nudged her gently and turned to look at Adam, smiling slightly at him watching him walk up the stairs before looking back to Hayley.- "It'll be good for Tony to worry about what's happening. Trust me." -She said before patting her arm.- "Let's go to bed."
Tsaaq: Hayley nodded her head. "Alright." She watched as Adam went from the kitchen then up the stairs as well. Sighing softly as she took a large gulp from the glass of water while trying to look away. "Okay." Hayley muttered then shrugged her shoulders as she headed towards the staircase. "What if it just pisses him off?" She asked quietly.
Musik: "Who cares." -She shrugged and walked towards the staircase. She climbed up the stairs adjusting her shorts.- "He'll be fine I promise." -She walked into her room, watching Mj jump up to his little stubby feet to rn over to her, oinking like crazy. She leaned down to pat his head, walking over to tottoman pulling the blanket out. She dropped it onto the bed, pulling her blanket over to her side before dropping down onto the bed.-
Tsaaq: "I hope so." She sighed again and put the glass down on the nightstand and kicked off her sneakers and took off her sweat pants. She took a seat at the edge of the bed. "Hera?" Hayley called out, her voice cracking from crying and shit. The black cat swished into the room into her lap and she cuddled it. "Night Harper." She muttered as she laid down, pretty much just laying awake for a while until she fell asleep.
Musik: -Harper rolled onto her side,f acing away from Hayley. She pulled MJ up onto the bed, cuddling up to him.- "Night, Hayley."