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- As promised, here is the first of many examples of
- my experiences I plan to share in the coming weeks.
- Please know that I hate doing this in public, it's
- unfair on me, and on the people, I'm going to talk
- about, but I don't see that I've been given any other
- choice. What's the point in doing the right thing,
- following guidelines, to just be lied to, misled and
- dismissed. The top people at British Gymnastics
- haven't shown any empathy or desire to
- acknowledge change so it's time their behavior is
- shared in public.
- It's vital that gymnasts, coaches and parents
- continue to speak out and share their experiences.
- Be brave, we all need to stand together and tell Jane
- Allen and her team that change is needed.
- In January 2017, I was 17 years old and had recently
- moved gymnastic clubs for reasons that I'll explain
- once the investigation into South Durham GC has
- been completed.
- At the end of January, I took part in an assessment
- with a performance nutrionist from the EIS as part of
- a national squad performance camp at Lilleshall.
- On Wednesday 1st February, the nutrionist emailed
- me with my results. It was a positive email and I felt
- good about myself and the small changes lid need to
- make to get back into full-time training and
- competitive shape. I read the email whilst at training
- and discussed the results with my Coach. We were
- happy and excited for the year ahead and he told me
- that as long as I could complete my routines then my
- weight wasn't an issue.
- The next day, Thursday2ndFebruary, I trained
- between 1200-1900, it was a positive session and I
- went home happy. Mam made dinner, and after I'd
- finished my main meal I sat down on the sofa to
- catch up on my emails. It was then that I read an
- email exchange between Colin Still, the National
- Coach, and the nutrionist. I felt sick when I read it
- and started crying.
- Mam came into the room and asked what was
- wrong. I showed her the emails.
- In his first email, Colin questioned the data and said,
- 'I already looked a little heavy'. I remember thinking
- 'what?' A few coaches at the squad had mentioned,
- as they always did, that I should try and lose weight,
- but he hadn't said anything to me. My weight has
- been a sensitive issue with me since I was 13 years
- old, with the National Coaches always mentioning it
- as a problem. It really hurt. Why would he say that?
- What's been said behind my back? I also asked Mam
- what 'A about F' meant and was surprised that the
- National Coach would use that language.
- It was the second email that really made me cry.
- Colin called me a 'fat dwarf'. I just sat there crying. I
- asked Mam if I looked fat. So many thoughts went
- through my mind. He's the National Coach but why
- would he say that? What have I done for him to be
- that mean to me?
- Mam asked me if I wanted the fruit that I normally
- have after dinner. I said no, there was no way could I
- eat, I felt sick, like my stomach was the size of a pin
- head. Mam tried to make me feel better and said
- she'd phone my Coach as he hadn't been copied in
- on the emails. She was furious.
- I went to bed but didn't sleep, I couldn't, it just kept
- going around and around in my head. Over thinking it
- all. Worried that I was too heavy, how was I going to
- lose all this weight. I kept repeating it. He thinks I'm
- a 'fat dwarf', why does he think that? If that's what
- he says about me in an email then what else do they
- say about me?
- On Friday8rdFebruary, Mam drove me to training. I
- lined up as usual and my Coach came straight up to
- me and talked about the email. I cried, I tried to keep
- it all in, but I couldn't. He couldn't believe Colin had
- written that email either and said he'd sort it. He told
- me not to worry about the emails, that my data was
- exactly as expected, that I wasn't heavy and I looked
- great. I went to the toilet to gather myself and did my
- best to finish the training session.
- I just couldn't understand how 2 coaches could be so
- different in their approach, well, that was until I
- realized that my Coach was a decent World Class
- Coach and human being. It's only when you've
- experienced both sides that you can tell the good
- from the bad.
- My Coach contacted British Gymnastics and
- explained how the emails had really upset me. How
- Colin must've not known I was copied in and that his
- comments were surely 'light hearted'. We all knew
- they weren't, but why rock the boat? I was already in
- trouble with the National Coaches for moving clubs
- and this just felt like too much.
- 4-days later I received a text message from Colin. No
- phone call, just a text. He didn't apologise for calling
- me 'heavy' or a 'fat dwarf'.
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