i would be messaging john, but i don't think he'd respond, or even look at my message. thats all i really ask of you, to read; and consider, that alone would make me happy. i know ive been an asshole to you and john, which was wrong of me to do, and also made me look really ungrateful for what i was provided; you two as friends. i shouldn't have been so blinded by such minuscule things, blinding me enough to the point where i wasn't able to see the importance of keeping john and you as friends. I should have been more careful; and more caring. its probably too late for me to send such a thing but its so hard to live my life without issues knowing my once best friend blocked me on twitter, and refuses to talk to me, its like a breakup, maybe worse. i feel like you'll block me on this account and john too, but i just ask of you to please let me be friends with you two again, i really miss when we were all friends.