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- Are you reading this? Of course you are, you're seeing this.
- But please humor me and my late-night thoughts and read to the end, because this is a confession.
- My friends... well, some of them, anyways, know I've asked this. Asked why people care about me.
- I do ask, because I don't know the answer.
- I'm clingy.
- I get paranoid easily.
- I'm a depressed and anxious mess.
- And yet people still care.
- Why?
- I know two people that I talk to frequently that I'd die for. I'm dating one, and consider the other a sibling.
- They're the two I should be able to open up to.
- But I can't.
- I have an image to keep up.
- The strong, reliable friend with a smile on their face who cheers people up.
- Who's always cheerful and joking around.
- That other me... she's not the real me.
- Actually, I can't say that.
- I don't know the real me.
- It's a terrifying thought, not knowing your identity. But it exists.
- I wonder if it started when I stopped being okay.
- If you're reading this and you know who I am, why do you care about someone like me?
- I don't get it.
- Anyways, moving on.
- I'm scared. I'm scared of losing the people that matter. I'm scared of being abandoned, worthless, a thrown away doll.
- My friend told me he loved me two nights ago.
- I don't know if he was joking.
- I asked about someone who I got concerned about and I think I made two good men feel immense guilt because I brought it up.
- If either of you are reading this, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
- This isn't a suicide note. I don't have plans to leave.
- But I'm already in Hell, I guess.
- And it's nobody's fault but my own.
- -Maki
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