Stuck

(Hook)
(Girl singing)
He pushes everyone away like a hurricane
Step away or you will pay
Buy in and feel dismay
Such is the nature of the disorder
Chaos is his perfect order


(Verse 1)
The monotony’s starting to bother me
Constant constancy constantly
Can’t see beyond my own eye
I’m blind, stuck in my own mind
A bee sees spell it out(a b c’s)
I’m less then an insect
A reject, I introspect
I take a step, it’s always left
It’s never right, I’m never right
I’m not serious, I’m just oblivious
Can nobody see beyond the emcee?
Yet I feel mysterious
There’s a huge variance
Cognitive dissonance
Mirrors, smoke, shroud, a cloud
An invisibility cloak
I’m imperious, cursed
The things I’ve done are unforgivable
I’m so fucking miserable


(Hook)
(Girl singing)
He pushes everyone away like a hurricane
Step away or you will pay
Buy in and feel dismay
Such is the nature of the disorder
Chaos is his perfect order


(Verse 2)
Dismiss the show
Oh no
I know
I need the audience
Wheres the confidence
Forget the consequence
It’s pathological
Not conscious, not path of logical
Spent years numb, the tears stung
Oh look, the freaks come, I clear off
Please, the jeers stop
He appears dumb, a peers dumb
They keep on, getting more severe, every year
Persevere, and I’m sincere
Come here, come near
You’ll see steel, then kneel still
I will kill, so volunteer
Oh god, the sheer qualm, I feel wrong
Not to worry I can heal wrong
Got to hurry til I feel strong
But the truth is it’s all delusion
Shielding me from this lifelong confusion
Til I come up with some conclusion
Rationalization is my basis for existence
This is my realization


(Hook)
(Girl singing)
He pushes everyone away like a hurricane
Step away or you will pay
Buy in and feel dismay
Such is the nature of the disorder
Chaos is his perfect order


(Verse 3)
I think everything’s about me
From the birds in the trees
To the songs that she sings
Whispers in the air
Rearrange them I don’t care
You can’t outstare
Someone who can only see themselves
So I go out into the world
Strategize like a chess board
And I have to ask myself
Am I gonna raise or raze it
Let’s face it
I’m too scared to be
So I have to act
Well I’ve been thrown off the stage
Too many times to gauge
I became so fucking enraged
A traveling parasite
Who leeches off of someone else’s life
I have no connections
No ties, just lies
It’s a war
Between what you know and what you feel
Yet emotions are what makes the world real
Then it’s not real for me
At least I don’t feel, right?
It’s all a game
I play
It’s a shame
The same lesson drilled, instilled
To no avail, fail
Please lend an ear
Be where friends, not here
Trust makes for the simplest deceptions
But I have a goal
To be remade whole
To regain a soul
Swear I’ll bear
The weight of all
The pain I’ve caused
The scars I’ve lost
The whole dang cost
Do I dare to care