Song

sitting here staring at the still colors on my screen
nothing tonight, so i drift off and daydream
about the days when i could vent without measures
and i found happiness in the simplest of pleasures
back then, before this coal needed pressure
to become a diamond, another man's treasure
remember when you and i were the nicest
yeah now it feels like i got hemoptysis
its like my lungs been sundered by knives
cause every day i have to wake up to thunder & lies
rainstorm, it pours like tears from my eyes
and the fact that you're gone is still a surprise
yeah i mean you, and my mother too
both girls i loved, how can any of this be true
cause since i was 13 i've found it quite hard to sleep
and i fell into a hole of mistakes, six feet deep
i don't regret anything, the past is the past
but if i had the chance i would've made it last
life goes on i learned that when i was young
even if i still remember the taste of your tongue
nowadays i just stay up all night and write
cause even in the dark i can see without light
truth is everything i've ever said and done
you didn't think i was going away, did you hun?
i'm never leaving you, believe that this is a fact
you don't have a choice cause i'll keep coming back
it may sound like a threat or a warning or such
but honestly baby, you've got my heart on a crutch
and i hate you i hate you i hate you so much
but i love you even more, and still feel your touch
i'm sittin here thinking of even going on
you didn't even know that i ever wrote a song
about you and me and all those fun times we had
just thinking about it sorta makes me sad
cause even simple bars hold truth in each little line
i don't know what he calls you, but to me you're a dime