Leila:
	Throws me off
Jessica Law:
	I get you
	I mean I can give you time if you want
	But you know me, I brush off and move on
Leila:
	I don’t
	Especially after everything
	It’s not just a oh well
	That sucks
	Kinda thing
	🤷‍♀️
	Guess it doesn’t matter now Bc it’s done but doesn’t feel right
Jessica Law:
	i do get it, which is why I was offering time
Leila:
	Yeah
	Loose respect and idk not so easy to get over for me I guess
	I pretty much closed discord so need to head past it
	Otherwise feels like you said, just brushing it off which really doesn’t feel good
	Especially considering that ofc I’m the one who left and lost a massive thing, with pretty much nothing to show for or any kind of positive departure
	It’s just not something I can get over especially now Bc saying you brush stuff off, when it happened to me does feel super invalidating and shitty
	Anyways
	No point in rebasing
	It really is done and clearly not a big deal to anyone
	Guess I’ll see what happens
	🤷‍♀️
	Or if how I feel now changes
	The whole ignoring and brushing it off a day later is part of why I struggled towards the end w  everything, Bc it feels like everything I’ve done is just not worth anything
	That’s me being transparent
	Pretty sure that’s all I have to say after sharing yesterday too
	Hopefully I can feel less shitty if I take space away from all of it
Jessica Law:
	ok
	i have lots of things to say but nothing to say, so, if you want to talk let me know otherwise ima just leave it
Leila:
	Now I feel just how everyone else who left felt, except I put in a massive amount of work and energy and put up w the stress and disrespect of assholes and worked soo hard to build something w you. And not only that but supporting you threw building it and encouraging to keep moving forward and reach your goals. and I did Bc I believed in haven and I believed in you. I think you’re right that I should leave Bc I’m happy this happened now if this was how it ended and played out after such an astronomical time both of us spent on it. But it’s your project and I’m very aware of that. I just feel stupid more than anything.
	And considering that we talked so many times about this and was reassured that for it to become a reality is like wow why do you keep doing stupid things and believing shit that isn’t solid. Even though I don’t think that being a part of haven was stupid at all and I’m happy if I helped anyone. I thought I had legit goals but just didn’t align I guess. Feels more isolated now than when I joined. Such is life
	I don’t really want to think about it so idk why I keep talking about it and responding
	I am genuinely grateful
	Doesn’t ever erase that
	Just diff going forward in the future
	I really don’t want to end angry or negate all of the good and there was a lot of good so why this sucks for now but maybe I’ll feel different .