Pastebin Tuesday thing

So, recently (a few weeks ago) I started streaming again. I wanted to get back into speedrunning, because I missed being apart of a community and that sense of accomplishment from slowly bring down my times. It feels good to look back at all the runs you did as sort of a collective work in progress.

The past week of trying to do runs of different games I have run in the past has sort of felt forced, and made me notice I've lost any sort of drive to work on a specific game. Its like I've got no drive right now to speedrun even though I want to and it really feels shitty. I'm not sure if I'm feeling pressured by myself or perceived perceptions of those who follow my stream. So I don't wanna be all like "fuck this shit, I'm done with speedrunning. I'm going to take a 3759694 month hiatus." Only to want to speedrun the following week.

Basically, I've had an epiphany. I'm just gonna do what feels natural and stream whatever I'm feeling like. I'm gonna abandon this perceived feeling of pressure and just relax a bit. If I want to do a random speedrun I'll do it. If I want to stream destiny I'll do it. If I want to stream me dying several thousand times in rage playing VVVVVV or bloodborne I'll do it. I want to stream a lot more, because it's Hella fun, but for the time being there's no set "thing" my stream is gonna focus on.

I've decided it'll just come natural once I stick to a new "thing". :>