11/22/2016 - this is a really sudden thing and probably nobody expected this but i think i should just say it now.

i need to leave smogon. this place is a hellhole. it's toxic. i was dragged in and now im just barely realizing that i need to get out. there are a lot of personal reasons that play a part in this, as well as the fact that this community is just not good for me.

i am failing classes. losing friends. losing touch with my parents even more than already. i'm becoming the stereotypical, antisocial, weird kid that everybody stares at. it's not good. i'm trying to focus on what i want to do in real life, be it computer science, statistics, swimming, anything. i need to leave this website if i want to succeed at any these things.

i'll just shout out people here. i'm so unbelievably sorry if i forgot you, i'm writing this on a whim and i probably have nothing against you if i accidentally leave you out.

im doing this in no particular order, so it isn't listed in order of favorite to least favorite, etc. let's begin:

kit kasai - we just became friends earlier this year, but i enjoyed every second of it. you're a really cool person and i'm glad we got to speak. http://i.imgur.com/ZWh48Kk.png

chloe (zangooser) - oh my goodness it has been a wild ride. i didn't become friends with you until mid-to-late 2015 (i dont fucking know lol) but im glad that i did. you're one of the best people that i've met on this website and i dont regret anything that we've done together. you have been one of the main factors of everything i've been able to confidently do and i have made sure to get your opinion on almost everything too. you are part of the reason why it has been so hard to actually leave the website but ill make sure to stay in touch with you when i do. thank you for being one of my best friends.

baconbagon - bestfriend; but really, you are one of the other people i can proudly call one of my closest friends. we haven't talked much lately, but that's a combination of conflicting schedules and timezones. regardless though, we have helped each other through thick and thin, even when we didn't want to. we might be rude to each other at times but i think we both know that's all mostly satire. you can tell when im being serious. you're one of the many people that im proud to call my best friend and while it might not show, i really think that you're a cool person. i helped you go from 0 to hero on smogon at light speed when i failed to. keep living the fun life that you have and don't forget to hit me up on discord. thank you for truly being my "bestfriend".

anto - this is going to hurt. you have been my mentor for as long as i remember, and to think that it all started from me insulting you in PMs on PS one day because you reserved more htmls than me. good times. you have gotten to a really high place in the smogon community and i couldnt have been more proud. you are one of my favorite people and im glad that i was able to meet you. please stay in touch with me. nobody gets to meet such phenomenal people like you every day. im so proud to call you one of my friends and i hope you can say the same. :)

uselesscrab - eh

peef rimgar - welcome back bud. you're another one of the many people that im glad to call a friend. this sounds horrible but i cant write very much because everything that happened between us i can't remember that well. just try to keep in contact with me after i leave.

eevee general - read chloe but ignore the hard to leave part because i dont like you at all you suck