Journey of Self Discovery

I need to that timeline is fuzzy here, I will try to give the best explanation I can of events in this period.

So with the discovery of Joy of Satan and my confirmation into that group on 4/11/2011 (if I recall) (thankfully I NEVER had the thought that I got trolled by Anu, I'm an anxious guy) I learned about the reality of race and the Yellow Jews.

I don't think I was THAT stressed out about Jews early on, I mean it was certainly disturbing to learn about this worse form of human that was here, and the appearances could be frightening, but it was not that bad early on I think because Satan had won and I was going to be immortal (I very much avoided the seriousness of what I read about Anu, I had to and whatever a mind is at the end of the day it did a good job of keeping my thoughts away from that madman (and my midconscious is bringing up serious emotions as I type that)). The quaint madness of Anu was and is something to behold, it's an aesthetic I enjoy the light darkness of (but since the light is weak and racist, I enjoy it must less these days, we don't need that shit whatsoever, and thus as I Jew I'm torn, I'm White, but I'm not necessarily helpful to that concept at all).

The real stress about Jews occurred when I got sick (I guess about halfway through the Joy of Satan period) and probably also in the aftermath of the first loony bin visit may have been my worst experiences concerning Jews (and I knew I was Green at time).

Also very notable during the Joy of Satan period was the very warm feelings I had towards Black people.

I began to have suspicions that I was Jewish at some point during the Joy of Satan tale, I don't know if it was before or after I got sick. I have very cromagnon high-arch feet, which kept me centered on it for a while but eventually my suspicions boiled over and I accepted that I was probably Jewish. Thankfully, I discovered the Greens (and quickly figured I was one) shortly after this and that's still the best night of sleep I've had in I don't know how long, but it is a very very long period of time. I was so unbelievably happy to discover the Greens, because it gave me pride in something that I don't know if I would have been able to handle otherwise. I don't know how waking up to this situation might change things for people, but say a prayer for the Yellows (and especially the Cyborgs).

One of the more wild thoughts I had concerning what my exploits would be in the future with Satan was removing predators from the environment completely for animal welfare. My shell has always been extremely concerned for animals. During the woodburning period of the sickness, this was seriously challenged as I was obsessed with finding pretty much anything related to the exploitation of that disease. Thankfully this kind of demonicness did not carry 'up here'.