Update - Should Probably Read

	The past few months, really beginning in September, I was trying to step up my stream game. I wanted to stream more often and really try to grow my channel. I began committing to streaming Tuesdays, Thursday, Saturdays and Sundays, and for a bit had fun. However, it has been less and less fun with many streams, and it was my first day of this typed theme challenge that made me realize what was going on. But first, let me back up a bit.

	When I first started streaming, my goal was simple - stream my speedruns so that I could easily have video proof. For a while, that was it. I would stream very occasionally, sometimes less than once a month, and barely talked. As I began speedrunning more and more games, I joined a variety of speedrunning communities, many of which I am still active in to this day (Such as Ty, Rugrats, Pac-Man, PMD, and Scooby-Doo). Additionally, I began getting more and more followers, which I thought was really cool (and still do, don't get me wrong). This encouraged me to stream more and more.

	The issue with streaming more and more is that I needed fun things to do that I could stream. I have always said i don't like grinding out speedruns, so i wanted to do other stream ideas. These were idea's I had to give me something to stream while at the same time was something I kind of wanted to do. This began back with the 100 games challenge I began back in 2017, and throughout the last few years I have done a few different projects, some longer term than others. But with many of these, I wasn't really having fun. I tried to, but just wasn't.

	This really came to the front of my mind with this typed theme challenge. In my head, I was very excited by the prospect of doing it. Additionally, I was at a point where I had 0 idea on what to stream, but still felt compelled to in order to grow my channel. Sundays remained my rando/bingo day, and Thursdays/Mondays became my shiny hunting day, but Tuesdays and Saturdays I felt helpless at what to stream. Occasionally I did have something I really wanted to stream that excited me (recent examples being Rumble collect em all and Keep Talking yesterday with wh0m). So I decided to do this challenge, and set it all up.

	That first stream I did was one of my worst streams ever. For one, it wasn't properly thought out but that's less of an issue. The bigger issue is that I finally realized what made the difference between streams I had fun and streams I didn't. Whenever I was voice calling with my friends, or had an active chat I was happy and having fun. It was only when chat died down and I was alone that I felt like streaming was a chore. In other words, I enjoyed streaming not because I enjoyed being entertaining, but because I enjoyed being around all the new friends I have made over the past few years. Any time I talk with anyone I met through speedrunning, I can honestly say I have been happy.

	So......what now, and what does this mean going forward? First off, let me be clear - I am not quitting streaming. But I am not going to stream regularly anymore. I will stream every Monday and continue shiny hunting, however only if I have someone to talk to. Additionally, this does not change my current series of Danganronpa with Nacho, as I am having way too much fun with that to stop. But everything else is going - I will not be streaming every Tuesday/Thursday/Saturday/Sunday anymore, and I will be doing a majority of my speedrunning offline too. Any time I am racing someone, doing a co-op run, or doing a more important run (A CeA, Sprashfecta, 1545 any%, etc.) I will still stream. I will still be just as active, if not more active in other people's streams/discords.

	I really hope I don't come off as an asshole, who is complaining about not having more viewers because that is not what I am trying to do. I am simply facing reality - I will never be a major twitch streamer, and that wasn't my goal initially. In my mind though, that became a possible reality and I lost sight of my own happiness trying to chase it. I also think me becoming affiliate partially caused this for me. The more people subbed and gave me bits, the more I felt pressured to deliver high quality streams.

	If anyone has any questions, ask away, but please DO NOT feel guilty/apologize to me for anything. Nobody should feel guilty about anything, and nobody has a reason to apologize. With that being said, I probably won't stream again until Sunday (possible Danganronpa then?!?!) Until then, have a great week everybody! - Robthegamer115