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- obsequious bunny01/30/2018
- mmmkm soooo
- Im all hung up on impact play, pain and sub sapce feels right now
- sooooo like... this one sessoin, one of our longer pain play session that realllllyyyy pushed my limits and broke me mentally and left me a puddle of submissiveness went a bit like this
- I was ordered to lay on my stomach on the bed
- naked
- my soft bum nice and exposed and M had a couple things to use on me lined up
- a crop, a flogger, a couple skinny wood dowel rods and a paddly thing
- she ordered that I count along with her and thank her every ten hits
- at hearing every ten hits I felt my heart skip a beat
- how much was she planning to put me thorugh
- not that I have a say
- as she ordered me to ut my wrists together above my head
- looped some rope around them and fastened it to the headboard
- obsequious bunny01/30/2018
- i wiggled a bit, testing what defense I had left to squirm from her blows
- she noticed a bit too much freedom and address that by attaching my ankles to each other and then to the bottom of the bed as well
- now, more than ever i felt how helpless I was
- having given myself, my body.. my mind to her to play with
- to mold and to toy with
- to mark and to use
- the first blow came, almost like a kiss, it wasnt hard, it wasnt on already sensitive skin, it was a light blow as well just something to let my mind adjust to my cicumstances
- 1
- then another two three four five, she pauses to rub the rapidly reddening skin with the tip of the riding crop
- gently, almost soothing
- 6, 7, 8 come a bit harder, my body flinches involuntarily
- 9 and 10, I thank her obediently, she comes in closer to my face resting her handholding the drop on my lower back as she whispers in my ear, "how are you doing slave"
- I am still feeling the rush of the first ten blows coursing thorugh me and feel amazing, and tell her so, she said good before pushing down on me to lift herself back up
- 11, 12 13 14 15 much quicker now, and the areas of skin not already sensitive are dwindling
- each blow to a previously hit spot, stinging twice as much at least as the initial hit felt
- obsequious bunny01/30/2018
- my body is now anticipating each blow
- wincing in preparation of the next
- which makes her giggle and begin messing with me buildig up suspense letting my mind do the work for her
- until I'm left shaking and the release is actually the blow itself
- my mind is already melting to her will
- 16 17 18 19 20 thank you
- this time she doenst ask me how I'm doing just tells me I'm being a good slave
- rubs gently on the tender skin
- at this point I am flushed, my skin is red where its been hit, but also my ears and cheeks are flushed from the rush of chemicals being released in my brain, I am losing grasp now
- 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30, she keeps up a good pace, not giving my mind a moment to catch up now, I thank her with a trembling voice that is interrupted by sudden involuntary flinches from muscle memory
- she switches to the flogger and gently drags it across my sensitive skin
- shivers of icey lightning at shooting through me from this sensation
- my mind is crumbling now
- 31 - 35 came quickly, each blow sending my mind hurtling closer to my happy sub space at this point I still feel the pain but i am losing the ability to understand it?
- its pain... but what is pain
- my mind wanders I forget to count 36
- she starts back at 30
- i collect what fragments are left of my mind and focus on the numbers the hits
- the gifts
- 31- 40 are a mental struggle for me, my mind losing grasp on anything but the sensation my Mistress is allowing me to feel
- each hit and subsequent pain response interpretted by my brain is becoming something different
- I thank her again, barely able to focus but knowing what I was told still. i struggle now to keep my counting, she reminds me to count every so often as she goes through
- 41- 50
- each blow now feeling less like pain, and more like a gift, something that my Mistress is giving to me, letting my brain feel, its a connection directly from her to my brain that is in my subconscious now
- after 50 I am shaking and not flinching any longer
- she keeps up another two or three blows until she feels she has pushed me far enough
- I thank her, feeling emotional now, I feel so much love for her
- so much adoration and appreciation for her
- and I am left broken, brain exhausted
- obsequious bunny01/30/2018
- not done &^_^
- boss called
- unable to function without her at this point as she lays next to me and covers us with a blanket she carefully releases my hands then ankles
- and holds me and tells me how well I did
- and how much she loves owning me
- it feels like my body and mind melt into her as she absorbs my everything
- and yea...
- the recovery period from that one was long
- lol it was several hours till i would say I was back to normal
- mmmm
- this was a good memory
- obsequious bunny01/30/2018
- that weird moment when I stopped feeling it as pain
- and instead just an extension of her will
- and a gift that I should be grateful for
- mmph... made myself even more torment, wants....
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