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- Karolan Benoit
- okay well, i have to talk to you
- SaturdayJack Merzetti
- go on
- SaturdayKarolan Benoit
- today and the talk i had with my mom earlier made me realize a few things
- not going to go into details but i'm not ready for anything, i thought having a blind and just hanging out could've been fine but i guess i'm not even ready for that either
- i need me time, and school and work time for now
- blind = fling
- SaturdayJack Merzetti
- hmm okay
- SaturdayKarolan Benoit
- i don't know what to say now
- SaturdayJack Merzetti
- well i mean do you not want to see me for a while
- SaturdayKarolan Benoit
- well, i really enjoy being with you and being friends with you - i mean, your a really good friend
- i just don't want to like, lead you on, or anything alike and that's why i couldn't wait to tell you because that would've made me feel like a really big bitch (even though i already feel like that)
- SaturdayJack Merzetti
- okay i have two questions
- do you currently have feelings for me
- do you WANT to have feelings for me
- SaturdayKarolan Benoit
- i think i rushed myself into thinking i had feelings for you but now that I've stepped back for a moment i don't really
- i just think i have the sort of feelings where i appreciate you as a person, but yet i don't know you that much
- SaturdayJack Merzetti
- is that a yes or a no
- SaturdayKarolan Benoit
- it's a I'm scared
- SaturdayJack Merzetti
- if you're afraid of hurting my feelings,
- don't
- SaturdayKarolan Benoit
- okay, i'll explain something to you
- when you meet someone and like them, you feel instantly comfortable with them, when your sitting beside them you can't keep your hands away from them, you constantly want to kiss them and when your not with them you want to kiss them even more and snuggle with them and go out and do things with them
- SaturdayJack Merzetti
- but,
- SaturdayKarolan Benoit
- but...?
- SaturdayJack Merzetti
- do you feel like that?
- or not
- SaturdayKarolan Benoit
- i don't
- and that's why i'm telling you now rather than waiting it out
- and i know you don't really feel that way too, and i know as a fact that you'll feel that way about someone and understand exactly what i mean
- because someone already told me that
- SaturdayJack Merzetti
- the thing is though i do feel that way about you
- but i don't know - you seemed kind of if-y today
- SaturdayKarolan Benoit
- i know i did and i'm sorry about that
- i think i just don't want to be involved with a guy for a while because before liking someone else i need to be over my last relationship, i need to be okay with everything and comfortable with myself again, you know?
- SaturdayJack Merzetti
- i understand
- it's just not sinking in at this point in time
- SaturdayKarolan Benoit
- what do you mean
- SaturdayJack Merzetti
- i don't know
- logically i can understand
- emotionally i just don't want to
- SaturdayKarolan Benoit
- i understand
- i know you don't attach yourself to people
- but, i know this sounds so like cliche and stupid but fuck
- you're so great jack you have no idea and i know you lack that confidence that your good looking and funny and smart but get it, i swear to god, get it because you're actually a good person (and i don't tell that to like anyone) you'll find a girl and be like "that's her" and it won't be me, i know it sounds stupid saying so right now though
- SaturdayJack Merzetti
- thank you
- SaturdayKarolan Benoit
- i mean it
- SaturdayJack Merzetti
- i know you do
- SaturdayKarolan Benoit
- and i'm sorry if i hurt you
- SaturdayJack Merzetti
- don't worry about it
- SaturdayKarolan Benoit
- i hope we can still talk and stuff
- SaturdayJack Merzetti
- i really had a feeling though this wouldn't work
- SaturdayKarolan Benoit
- why
- SaturdayJack Merzetti
- it was like you said, we're in such different levels in our lives
- you live so far, you're in cegep, your social life is completely split off from mine
- i don't want to sound like distance is a problem but
- it pretty much was in every aspect
- SaturdayKarolan Benoit
- i agree
- i wish age didn't matter but it does, whether you want to look around it or not
- SaturdayJack Merzetti
- sigh yes
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