you're the cause of my pain.

I'm happy and always smiling, but they don't know my world is dying
They see my smile on my face, but not the pain
I’m tired of this game; I look at myself and see nothing but shame
It’s building up and wants to roar but i won’t let it happen
It drops on me like a nuclear bomb, and there’s no one but me to blame

I look back at my life, it all seems wrong
All the choices I’ve made, it’s too long
The damage is in my soul, it’s crumbling apart and that’s just a start.
I’m lying here, crying, dying and surrounded by my fears
I’m in denial, I’m even becoming suicidal