sticki - Today at 8:56 AM
Hey man, I'm not trying to be passive agressive aboit you but if that's really how i still come off I sincerely apologise. All I would like is to truly understand exactly where you're coming from so I can work on my shortcomings, because despite my efforts to understand without your guidance you're still one of the only people on sploder who really, truly have it out for me with no seemingly real reason, at least from my point of view. I'm not doubting the legitimacy of your feelings, rather I'm requesting that when you have the time you share the context with me. I don't like being a bad person, yesterday I got angry about you withoit any real reason and I felt shitty about it afterwards because there was no reason to say what i said in the first place, truth is though I've been scared about confronting you. Moreso than Matty whom i had sent an entire essay too, because he offered to talk things out. I'm not sure if you're so willing, and if you still aren't thats fine and I won't make anything further out of this.

Josh - Today at 8:56 AM
If you want me to confront you tell your leaker to fess up

sticki - Today at 8:57 AM
Wym
The one relationship what you're saying?
I can't help it if people send me things like this but first of all there are multiple parties who do it and I see no reason to necessarily rat them out when it's not about the problem at hand because it would accomplish nothing in the matter of mending a broken relationship in the end(edited)
They're two unrelated manners

Josh - Today at 9:07 AM
You seem to know a lot of things that I say (Calling you manipulative where the only place I said that was in the bunker, that I mentioned you making passive aggressive comments which I again said in the barracks) so it's pretty obvious that someone is leaking to you. If you want me to explain then I want to see your leaker(s) fess up and take their punishment

sticki - Today at 9:15 AM
If that's really the game you want to play, I'm not really having it. You show no signs of ever wanting to work things out if all you care about is petty justice and you'd treat a healthy case of talking shit out as a superficial reward instead of a reward within itself. When i worked things out with Matt, he didn't have any major comeback in the end but was happy to clear up misunderstandings and leave me alone moreso, and I've been cool with CG fpr months now. The only one still holding onto anything about me is you. I'm not mad, just confused. If you would put your dismay over being called out over actually working out the problem at hand to render said issues irrelevant, then all I can say is I'm disappointed. The offer still stands, though I'm doubtful you'll take it. I will not be bringing anyone to justice over such a petty, petty manner, and would rather take the heat myself if thats what it has to come to. I know you'll like that.(edited)

Josh - Today at 9:25 AM
Well I guess you're gonna be disappointed then. I never spoke shit about you in the barracks unprovoked and the first comments were just me stating my reasons for voting no to you, something Mat and CG also did and I'm sure you already know that

sticki - Today at 9:28 AM
I don't care about what you said, or how often you said it, I don't care about any of those things. Its obvious to me that you have a problem with me, and I'd simply like to know what it is. Like, define me being passive aggressive? How exactly do I manipulate people because that fucked me up for a week with me trying to figure out how I do that but I can't see it because no matter how self deprecation i can be there's still a level of bias and insecurity that'll hide it from me until I was shown these issues from another viewpoint. You're still missing the point here, Lord.
Allow me to clarify that I still have no problem with you. I'd like to be friends but that's obviously not going to be the case based off of how this has played out so far, but I'd at least like to lie any active tensions to rest.(edited)

Josh - Today at 9:32 AM
Well, you know what I want before I give you what you want :wink:

sticki - Today at 9:33 AM
Did someone say "passive aggressive"?
You're starting to get hypocritical and if that's really how you're going to be this ismt worth the effort(edited)
Allow me to apologize for anything bad I've done to you, and leave this here(edited)
And trust me I'm not trying to manipulate you or anything if thats how you truly perceive it you're wrong. If that's why you're reluctant to confront these issues then I'm sincerely apologetic if that's how i come off. When I face issues, any issues at all, ever since I began my life changing experiences this year I learned the importance of treating issues not as a "me vs. you" type of thing, but rather as an "us vs. the problem" ordeal. I just want to fix this, man. It seems like I'm in the wrong but I don't know what I'm doing wrong.
I'll be honest this is the first instance where someone didn't want to better things between us, I said it before but I'm honestly just confused. I really want to right my wrongs, if it's even possible to begin with, but i don't know what they are!! You're killing me here.
Maybe I'm approaching this the wrong way. If there's anything you want me to do, anything at all, I'll go ahead and do it
Besides ratting out others, it can only involve me and you
I'm not bringing other people into this