smaniddles - Today at 2:27 AM
you logged
동성애 곰 - Today at 2:27 AM
yeah
not gonna play anymore
smaniddles - Today at 2:28 AM
why not
동성애 곰 - Today at 2:28 AM
tried to be nice to lif and he told me to fuck off
so w/e
smaniddles - Today at 2:28 AM
you asked him why he didn't want to talk to you, his reasons are fair bree :/ You were defensive of me and i know you were joking but just how jello comes off
동성애 곰 - Today at 2:29 AM
i apologised and told him i wouldnt be a dick anymore
its not a huge deal
idrc
i just wont hang out with you when youre with him
easy solution :stuck_out_tongue:
we need to not hang out as much anyway
ez fix
smaniddles - Today at 2:32 AM
Meh I appreciate you apologizing to him (: you have your thing beaut.
you okay?
동성애 곰 - Today at 2:33 AM
mmmm
4/10
better than what i was but still feel like shit
if im going to be honest i was trying really hard around you, i thought i could erode your relationship with your boyfriend if i tried enough
:eyes:
smaniddles - Today at 2:34 AM
and you would
but id let you too
and it's not fair
동성애 곰 - Today at 2:34 AM
yeah ik
i figured youd realise that eventually
youre not that kind of person
zzzz
oh well
was fun while it lasted
dont call me on breaks any more
ill stop talking to you as much
if youre gonna be serious about trying to fix shit with him
i'll at least give it a chance
smaniddles - Today at 2:35 AM
we can still hang out and play now and then
but i don't see us chatting throughout the door as much
day*
동성애 곰 - Today at 2:35 AM
tbh i probably shouldn't even be around
my ego kind of just took a huge smack soooo
im a little butthurt rn but i saw this coming
smaniddles - Today at 2:36 AM
im sorry :/
동성애 곰 - Today at 2:36 AM
i meant it when i said im gonna stand by you no matter what decision you make according to him
no no
its fine
smaniddles - Today at 2:36 AM
i didnt mean to hurt oyu like I wanna be your friend.
동성애 곰 - Today at 2:36 AM
i care about you, which is why you need space away from me
nahhh
im fine
(;
dw
smaniddles - Today at 2:36 AM
I care about you too and I find myself very attachedto you already
I
care
about you
it's not
동성애 곰 - Today at 2:37 AM
i mean
it's fine on this end
i';m sorry if you feel bad about how youve been acting but
i dont
and im not gonna stop acting this way
i made my intentions clear
which is definitely why i shouldnt be around
zzzzzzz
fuck
i thought id be able to get another week or two
:upside_down:
smaniddles - Today at 2:38 AM
I think I can control myself , seriously, if i put my mind to it kinda thing. I want to be youre freaking friend. I want to see you go places in life. I want to have fun with you still and be ur friend
동성애 곰 - Today at 2:39 AM
it's not a good idea
i'm sorry but it's just really not
smaniddles - Today at 2:40 AM
If you want to push me out, that's fine, that's fair
but im not shutting you out
동성애 곰 - Today at 2:40 AM
msg me after your game.
smaniddles - Today at 2:42 AM
i will
smaniddles - Today at 3:20 AM
sorry
i had something come up
동성애 곰 - Today at 3:21 AM
aye npnp
smaniddles - Today at 3:22 AM
dankee
anyways
I care about you very much bt I also know this isn't healthy for either of us. If it's better for me to let you alone, you let me know. I still want you around though and to talk with you
동성애 곰 - Today at 3:25 AM
zzzz
i'm more than content just talking to you
but i don't think i can change the way i act around you
which is why i'm saying i think it's better i'm just not around period
trust me i rly don't want to
yeah the couple of times i stopped and realised this was gonna happen eventually was usually on skype right before we got off and i immediately got pissy
:upside_down:
tbh i don't give a flying fuck about your boyfriend or your relationship
but if you rly want to try and "give him a chance" i don't think that wanker deserves then i need to step back
bc you shouldn't need to "control youself" just because i like you
ughhh what a bother
smaniddles - Today at 3:28 AM
well
i dont even fucking know what to say
동성애 곰 - Today at 3:29 AM
yeeee
it's
complicated
and a delicate situation
ik
i'm not going anywhere
i meant it every time i siad it
i'll always be here for you
i just feel like
it's not what's best rn
smaniddles - Today at 3:32 AM
i feel so exhausted and puleld out tbh. I was really fucking angry at you for pushing me out the way you did.
But it was kinda that reminder that we weren't , aren't, an actual thing despite how much I care about you.
Anyways. I never really set limits or acted properly myself so I'm .. idk im to blame for all this. Like none of this should have happened.
I keep thinking about how i encouraged it, ya know?
and I remember us being friends.. just friends and having a good time. and I guess there is no going back to that especially with what you shared.
I want you in my life though cause I care about you but iunno.(edited)
동성애 곰 - Today at 3:32 AM
yeah. i figured it'd get to you.
i want you to be happy.
not me. not him. not anyone else. you
you need to prioritize yourself.
aaaand sorry to say but i agree with blaming part on you
but
i knew this was going to happen
i;m not an idiot
this is the SPECIFIC reason i dont get involved with relationships
because at some point you snap back to reality
and realise you're already someone else's
smaniddles - Today at 3:37 AM
I was so ready to leave him, you should see my message to my family lol.
Like not even for you though. For me. I don't care enough about myself. Even now looking at why I stayed it's because im so scared of hurting him and he's trying so hard. Just like I was so scared of this because I didn't want to hurt you. I went along with this because I got attention but more so because I fucking care and don't want to hurt anyone. I live my life trying to make everyone happy. I agree with prioritizing me but AF LAKFJ AL


Anyways, I know you aren't an idiot, You're really flipping intelligent which is part of why I enjoy speaking with you.
I guess you're right, that pulling away completely is best, but i need you to know I care about you. That it's not me just going because i don't care or it's like a fuck you kinda thing,
동성애 곰 - Today at 3:37 AM
i understand. i know you were going to be with yourself for a while if you broke up.
im gonna reiterate(spelling???) again
and this'll be the last time i'll say it to you
i think you're making the wrong choice. i really do.
gimme a second, lemme try and find what i said...
https://gyazo.com/88328093d6d43a6b0e7b7a5a7816ddf3
Gyazo
Gyazo

i already knew that's how it was
smaniddles - Today at 3:39 AM
No
idk
동성애 곰 - Today at 3:40 AM
it's okay!
seriously
do you want me to be 100% honest?
i can lay myself and this situation completely bare if you want to understand my point of view
and then you can decide what you want me to do from there
smaniddles - Today at 3:43 AM
tell me it
동성애 곰 - Today at 3:44 AM
kaaaay
im gonna break this up so its a little easier :smiley_cat:
1 . you are hurting me. but it's nothing fucking awful, i'm not gonna go cut myself and cry into a million oz bottle of alcohol. more than anything i'm fucking scared. i don't get attached this quickly. i fuck around with people and move on. i was just scared that i got waaaay too attached to you, considering the situation. the most you've "hurt" me is when i get annoyed you can't talk to me bc fuckin BALDY is a baby
2. i do love you. but you know that, i told you that already. so that pretty much i'll automatically shut my mouth and do anything you think is best. i'm easily one of the most loyal people you'll ever meet. i will do what you want me to. if you think it's better i leave, i'll be fucking upset af for about a week, but i'll accept it and wait for you to make a final decision on whatever you want to do.
3. you need to focus on YOU. and it is legit infuriating me to no extent that you just REFUUUUSE to do so. there's no other way to say it. it makes me soooo hecking angry. the only reason i was fighting so hard against myself when i knew how this was gonna turn out was because it seemed like i made you smile, and i just want you to be happy.
4. i push EVERYONE away when i get upset. please don't take it personally. normally i wouldn't have even talked to anyone for 2 days minimum. it's just how i am. sorry that it bothered you :pensive: i also don't want to talk about my problems around you because i just want to talk about good stuff with you. i want you to associate me with you being happy.
even if its not in a romantic sense.
but that's all.
i'm a simple person. if you say "bree we can talk a lil but you need to stop being a horndog" i will say "okay ro i will try my best for u"
:}
i'll do what you think is right and what you think the situation calls for. just know i will wait for you, whatever you decide.
also josh is explaining to me what im like when im drunk
sorry :upside_down: :upside_down: :upside_down:
smaniddles - Today at 3:54 AM
thanks bree for sharing with me, I appreciate it.
동성애 곰 - Today at 3:54 AM
yeeee
smaniddles - Today at 3:54 AM
I dont really have an answer for you right now
동성애 곰 - Today at 3:54 AM
any time
if you need time to gather your thoughts or whatever, that's fine. i'll just take that as i get to talk to you at least one more time.
smaniddles - Today at 3:56 AM
Peeps dont like when you're drunk fyi. I just want you to be more reasonable when you drink, I don't know if you're exaggerating that you can't feel your eye or feel yoour body part, but that scares me. It kinda freaks me out cause i docare about yo.
It wasn't a seemed thing, you do make me smile, you do make me happ.

I know right now I need to go to bed. I feel like I'm falling apart, tbh.
동성애 곰 - Today at 3:57 AM
hecc
sorry
that's why i didnt wanna have this talk
smaniddles - Today at 3:57 AM
not you
it's a me thing
I was feeling shitty prior to it.
동성애 곰 - Today at 3:57 AM
rly?
i couldnt tell
:eyes:
but yeah
smaniddles - Today at 3:58 AM
u being saracastic, scummer?
동성애 곰 - Today at 3:58 AM
;D
maybe
you need to sleep
aaaand
be a well rested lil peanut
so you can do good with work and other stuff
yeah?
smaniddles - Today at 3:58 AM
yeah something like that
동성애 곰 - Today at 3:58 AM
yes
:}
go bed
smaniddles - Today at 3:59 AM
i will then
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:00 AM
good~
have a nice sleep
night night
smaniddles - Today at 4:00 AM
you should get some sleep too
btw
thank you for the boxer tag
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:02 AM
yeeee they were cute and it hought youd like them
now no more looking at shit
sleep
lil peanut
or youll crack
smaniddles - Today at 4:03 AM
are there ways to uncrack peanuts
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:03 AM
:thinking:
go away
lmao
smaniddles - Today at 4:04 AM
glue?
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:04 AM
ro
sleep
please
smaniddles - Today at 4:09 AM
are you okay
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:09 AM
yeah :smile_cat:
smaniddles - Today at 4:10 AM
you lying to me
?
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:10 AM
no
im okay o:
go sleepppp
cmon
stop worrying about me
you need sleep
smaniddles - Today at 4:11 AM
meh
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:12 AM
im gonna stop replying now~ go sleep
night!
smaniddles - Today at 4:12 AM
imma srtill be here
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:12 AM
no
wtrf
ro
sleep
ffs
GET
OUTTA
THAT VOICE CHAT
AND GO SLEEP
smaniddles - Today at 4:12 AM
stop stalking me
D:
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:12 AM
NO
GET OUT
rn
ro
im serious
miss im falling apart
go sleep
then youre gonna whine youre tired
smaniddles - Today at 4:13 AM
i just wanna hear
people
laugh
:/
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:13 AM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iYVO5bUFww0
YouTube
HollywoodLaughTracks
Laugh Track


put this on repeat
smaniddles - Today at 4:13 AM
it's not the same
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:13 AM
>--->
smaniddles - Today at 4:13 AM
i have no connection to any of those people
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:13 AM
butyouhaveaconnectiontolif
zzzzzzzzzzzzz
smaniddles - Today at 4:13 AM
ive chatted with them before
it's not some random fuck face in hollywood
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:14 AM
okay
lmfao
i was joking
okayyy
smaniddles - Today at 4:14 AM
that i know nothing about
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:14 AM
ikik
itso kay
as long as youre actually trying to sleep(edited)
or
sleep
fml
i need sleep too
smaniddles - Today at 4:14 AM
go to sleep
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:14 AM
i will in a lil
i dont have to be up early
smaniddles - Today at 4:14 AM
same
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:14 AM
you still have a wake up time
whyre you being difficult
:thinking:
smaniddles - Today at 4:15 AM
naturally difficult
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:15 AM
mmmm
thats okay
clay is difficult too until you put effort into it then it becomes beautiful
same thing with you
smaniddles - Today at 4:15 AM
kk cornball
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:16 AM
:astonished: me?
nah
smaniddles - Today at 4:16 AM
yah
i turning off laptop
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:16 AM
good
smaniddles - Today at 4:17 AM
what does ur name say
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:17 AM
:thinking:
youll make fun of me
smaniddles - Today at 4:17 AM
yeah probs but itd be cute
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:17 AM
its my league name
dongseong gom
literally translates into
homosexual bear
:joy:
smaniddles - Today at 4:18 AM
of course it does
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:18 AM
aw man i was gonna say listen to me screaming anime music in spanish but thats on your laptop huh
:thinking:
smaniddles - Today at 4:18 AM
it is
lol
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:19 AM
dang
oh well
what do you mean of course it does
:((((
hecc u
smaniddles - Today at 4:19 AM
cause its uh.
i canr think of words
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:19 AM
lets hope your eyes shut down after your thinky parts
maybe then youll sleep
smaniddles - Today at 4:19 AM
i can type fine my pgonee is hareful
My eyes are survivors
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:20 AM
:thinking:
smaniddles - Today at 4:20 AM
they never shut down
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:20 AM
nooo
sleep sleep sleep
smaniddles - Today at 4:20 AM
use energizer barteries for em
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:20 AM
im gonna poke your eyes
smh
smaniddles - Today at 4:20 AM
noo
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:20 AM
yes
smaniddles - Today at 4:20 AM
no
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:20 AM
y
gimme a good reason
and il stop nagging
smaniddles - Today at 4:20 AM
they need to be unloked
poked
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:21 AM
:rolling_eyes:
you got fingers
last time i checked
smaniddles - Today at 4:21 AM
no i dont
thats why i was fascinated by urs
my fingers are fake
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:21 AM
https://youtu.be/omY60_Z35g0?list=LL34TOzNKjW-eYDKiYbH0KdA
YouTube
정유빈
IU (아이유) - Through the Night (밤편지) 유빈 X 정완 cover (male ver.)


id believe it
explains why they're so long
smaniddles - Today at 4:21 AM
hateful
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:22 AM
:thinking: me? i'd never
i'm the nicest person alive
:stuck_out_tongue_winking_eye:
smaniddles - Today at 4:26 AM
facts
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:27 AM
did you rly just agree with me?
fuck
you really need sleep
:thinking:
UH
WHAT
EXCUSE U
?
WHAT TIME DO YOU NEED TO BE UP
smaniddles - Today at 4:30 AM
ill go to bed shortly
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:30 AM
RO
DO YOU NOT WORK AT 1?
smaniddles - Today at 4:30 AM
like in 5 mins
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:30 AM
w h a t
?? wtf why
smaniddles - Today at 4:30 AM
no i mean
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:30 AM
oh
smaniddles - Today at 4:30 AM
imma go to bed in 5mins
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:30 AM
bed
okay
but why do you need to be up soon
what're you getting up at 6 for
??
smaniddles - Today at 4:31 AM
my aunt and uncle
they asked me to drive hom to work
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:32 AM
:angry:
smaniddles - Today at 4:32 AM
jaykay
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:33 AM
no you're not
i'm mad at you now
smaniddles - Today at 4:33 AM
im noooooot
lying
bout jk
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:33 AM
ik you're not lying about it
smaniddles - Today at 4:34 AM
i just told my aunt id talk to her before she went to work. ill probs tell her when she tries to wake me nono
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:34 AM
:unamused: you better
smaniddles - Today at 4:35 AM
shall see
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:35 AM
smh
okay
smaniddles - Today at 4:35 AM
want to cook fud
bree
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:35 AM
what
smaniddles - Today at 4:35 AM
talk to me
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:35 AM
no i dont want to cook at 4:39 am
?
we are talking
smaniddles - Today at 4:36 AM
nvm.
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:36 AM
?
kk
hhhhhh
did you leave lif's chat?
yeah you did
you talking to anyone else?
smaniddles - Today at 4:37 AM
no
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:37 AM
zzzz
동성애 곰 started a call.Today at 4:37 AM
동성애 곰 - Today at 4:44 AM
huhuhuhu