[12/12/2014 5:56:52 PM] Mango Foalix/TheTaZe (Joe): ok
[12/12/2014 6:58:30 PM] live:caraghwaite:
I'm tired‏



But I can't sleep‏



And my parents have told me‏



If I wake up tired‏



I'll lose my wifi‏



I just can't sleep‏
[12/12/2014 6:59:05 PM] Mango Foalix/TheTaZe (Joe): oh
[12/12/2014 7:00:02 PM] live:caraghwaite: I sometimes really struggle sleeping
[12/12/2014 7:00:18 PM] live:caraghwaite: I've been tired for the last week
[12/12/2014 7:05:52 PM] live:caraghwaite: I've realise how major my signs of schizophrenia are
[12/12/2014 7:05:55 PM] live:caraghwaite: Delusions: Delusions are strange beliefs that are not based in reality and that the person refuses to give up, even when presented with factual information. For example, the person suffering from delusions may believe that people can hear his or her thoughts, that he or she is God or the devil, or that people are putting thoughts into his or her head or plotting against them.
[12/12/2014 7:06:06 PM] live:caraghwaite: Hallucinations: These involve perceiving sensations that aren't real, such as seeing things that aren't there, hearing voices, smelling strange odors, having a "funny" taste in your mouth, and feeling sensations on your skin even though nothing is touching your body. Hearing voices is the most common hallucination in people with schizophrenia. The voices may comment on the person's behavior, insult the person, or give commands.
[12/12/2014 7:06:17 PM] live:caraghwaite: Catatonia (a condition in which the person becomes fixed in a single position for a very long time).
[12/12/2014 7:06:35 PM] live:caraghwaite: •Talking in sentences that do not make sense or using nonsense words, making it difficult for the person to communicate or engage in conversation
[12/12/2014 7:06:53 PM] live:caraghwaite: •Shifting quickly from one thought to the next
[12/12/2014 7:07:12 PM] live:caraghwaite: •Being unable to make decisions
[12/12/2014 7:07:23 PM] live:caraghwaite: •Writing excessively but without meaning
[12/12/2014 7:07:38 PM] live:caraghwaite: •Forgetting or losing things
[12/12/2014 7:07:48 PM] live:caraghwaite: •Repeating movements or gestures, such as pacing or walking in circles
[12/12/2014 7:07:57 PM] live:caraghwaite: •Having problems making sense of everyday sights, sounds, and feelings
[12/12/2014 7:08:03 PM] live:caraghwaite: That's the major one
[12/12/2014 7:08:35 PM] live:caraghwaite: •Poor executive functioning (the ability to understand information and to use it to make decisions)
[12/12/2014 7:08:38 PM] live:caraghwaite: and that one
[12/12/2014 7:08:50 PM] live:caraghwaite: •Trouble focusing or paying attention
• Difficulty with working memory (the ability to use information immediately after learning it)
[12/12/2014 7:08:53 PM] live:caraghwaite: And those two
[12/12/2014 7:09:10 PM] live:caraghwaite: Those are only the symptoms I know I'm showing
[12/12/2014 7:09:44 PM] live:caraghwaite: •Lack of emotion or a very limited range of emotions
•Withdrawal from family, friends, and social activities
•Reduced energy
•Reduced speech
•Lack of motivation
•Loss of pleasure or interest in life
•Poor hygiene and grooming habits
[12/12/2014 7:09:47 PM] live:caraghwaite: Oh look
[12/12/2014 7:09:48 PM] live:caraghwaite: me again
[12/12/2014 7:11:41 PM] live:caraghwaite: apparently there's art theropy
[12/12/2014 7:12:02 PM] live:caraghwaite: I've looked back into it, only because the voices and people are back
[12/12/2014 7:12:36 PM] live:caraghwaite: The ones that put me in tears because I think they're going to hurt me
[12/12/2014 7:16:04 PM] live:caraghwaite: I know they're not real
[12/12/2014 7:16:17 PM] live:caraghwaite: But it's horrible
[12/12/2014 7:16:29 PM] live:caraghwaite: whenyou start talking to someone you know
[12/12/2014 7:16:35 PM] live:caraghwaite: but they're not actually there
[12/12/2014 7:16:53 PM] live:caraghwaite: and then these shadow things come along
[12/12/2014 7:17:00 PM] live:caraghwaite: and you forget about it all
[12/12/2014 7:17:13 PM] live:caraghwaite: you come back to the real world
[12/12/2014 7:17:30 PM] live:caraghwaite: and it just feels.... lonely
[12/12/2014 7:23:39 PM] Mango Foalix/TheTaZe (Joe): Well, it looks like to me that you need some help
[12/12/2014 7:23:47 PM] Mango Foalix/TheTaZe (Joe): Maybe a therapist or something?
[12/12/2014 7:24:02 PM] live:caraghwaite: I'd have to talk to my parent first
[12/12/2014 7:24:16 PM] live:caraghwaite: They would either give me shit or deny it
[12/12/2014 7:24:21 PM] live:caraghwaite: or both
[12/12/2014 7:24:29 PM] live:caraghwaite: I'll just go with my first plan
[12/12/2014 7:24:42 PM] Mango Foalix/TheTaZe (Joe): first plan?
[12/12/2014 7:24:49 PM] live:caraghwaite: Kill everyone at school and explain it all to the police
[12/12/2014 7:25:00 PM] live:caraghwaite: I'm a very violent person
[12/12/2014 7:25:10 PM] live:caraghwaite: who finds fun in others pain
[12/12/2014 7:26:27 PM] live:caraghwaite: I want it to be diagnosed
[12/12/2014 7:26:35 PM] live:caraghwaite: but I don't want the medication
[12/12/2014 7:27:21 PM] live:caraghwaite: I also have speech problems
[12/12/2014 7:27:32 PM] live:caraghwaite: and suspected dyslexia
[12/12/2014 7:27:37 PM] live:caraghwaite: I'm fucked
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