[21:33:12] +ConicSans: heya jerome
[21:33:17] +ConicSans: have a minute to talk?
[21:33:26] jeromewt: hey, sure
[21:34:04] +ConicSans: you're about as disappointed in the vgc room as I am
[21:34:28] +ConicSans: heard you were feeling stressed with it
[21:34:45] jeromewt: yeah, a little
[21:35:21] +ConicSans: what grade are you in right now?
[21:35:31] jeromewt: tenth
[21:35:53] +ConicSans: you're doing quite impressively for a tenth grader
[21:36:28] jeromewt: well, thanks
[21:36:38] jeromewt: i really am trying
[21:36:40] +ConicSans: there are way older adults that get scenarios you see day in and day out wrong and you've been doing consistently well
[21:36:47] +ConicSans: I can tell you are and that's good
[21:37:04] +ConicSans: you've definitely come a long way and I for one am happy to see it :)
[21:37:29] jeromewt: needed to hear that right now : )
[21:37:40] +ConicSans: I went on semi-loa a while back and I'm sorry I left you to deal with the room like this
[21:37:58] +ConicSans: it genuinely wouldn't be an issue if the other mods were as consistent as you
[21:38:42] jeromewt: yeah, it's totally cool
[21:38:46] +ConicSans: unfortunately I've been enjoying my semi loa a little too much now that I'm seeing how fucked our roomstaff is as a whole
[21:38:58] jeromewt: for all the bad experiences ive had, there have been a lot of good ones too
[21:39:32] +ConicSans: for your own sanity I encourage you to go on semi loa as well, you can still always reap the benefits of the good experiences you have because this is completely voluntary
[21:40:14] jeromewt: Yeah ive been kinda feeling like shit lately
[21:40:24] jeromewt: way too much computer time and not getting enough exercise
[21:40:40] jeromewt: i'm getting better though
[21:41:06] +ConicSans: that's good!
[21:41:58] +ConicSans: I will be frank though, the only good Showdown room has gotten me are connections to the VGC community at large
[21:42:45] +ConicSans: They have helped me to be more aware of the world and a better LGBTQ+ ally and a better moderator at large but the site is not officially sanctioned by tpci so it will never go on a resume
[21:44:00] jeromewt: Yeah, for sure
[21:44:02] +ConicSans: I would vouch to say that you've been noticed, you're in the boys chat, moderated the scramble, and an up and coming player in our community and a swell guy at that
[21:44:53] jeromewt: yeah i'm glad for the friends ive made
[21:44:59] +ConicSans: I'm only telling you this because you've proven you're a good guy and I would hate to see you get burnt out on this site because our room and the site at large is crumbling beneath our feet
[21:45:57] jeromewt: i really appreciate that
[21:46:19] +ConicSans: I've done my best to apply what I've learned from showdown to other gaming communities like the buckeye gaming collective and friend groups and I think you should definitely consider doing the same
[21:46:53] +ConicSans: unfortunately it wasn't until this past summer when I realized this and didn't apply what I knew fast enough I feel
[21:47:23] +ConicSans: you're in tenth grade and you have time to make use of the experiences I guarantee you only a few will have in their lives
[21:48:52] jeromewt: Yeah im really grateful for that, ive learned a lot about how to be a more understanding person from talking to everyone
[21:49:13] jeromewt: i really just don't want to end up valuing my obligation in the chat over my mental health
[21:49:32] jeromewt: i'm trying to avoid it and i think i'm headed in that direction
[21:49:57] jeromewt: so i think a break is good
[21:51:17] +ConicSans: It's a hard pill to swallow to hear that your efforts might yield more fruits elsewhere when you've poured a lot of time and mental stamina being here but take a week off and see how little change happens and you'll realize how much you've been carrying the chat