I don't know if Twitch DMs allows posts this long, so I'll write here.
	At some point recently your personality degraded rapidly and you got really toxic. It made me think in retrospect about our relationship and how little you ever did for me and how shittily you treated me. All the shit you lied about for no reason, all the things you've hidden and probably still hide to this day, the way you always got on my shit for trying to help you with something, and the way you reacted to and still treat the whole csm debacle. You never put any effort into the relationship, like meeting up when I really wanted to, and you acted as if you did as well. I know you never really wanted a relationship, but I put so much fucking emotional effort into you, helping you with anything I could, trying to make you happy, making sure you feel good about yourself, and I never really got anything in return, emotional or physical. You never even thought that "oh, this guy is pretty vulnerable and I might be abusing that". You were really just kinda using me the whole time and still do to an extent to this day. Another thing that peeves me off but I guess isn't too important now considering the circumstances, is how much you avoided sexual things when we were together, and how open you are about sexual things now on the internet. I don't know about how it is in real life and don't particularly care to know, as I'm sure it would just add fuel to the fire.
	I think a big reason I feel the way I do now is because of your obvious lack of will to improve your current situations. You often complain about not being able to pass college or find a job, but that's all you do about it; complain. Nobody is bound for failure, unless they set themselves on that path and willingly stick to it. At least it's what brought up the other thoughts to my mind.
	I don't know how to close this, so I'll just leave it at that. Take it as you will.