okay so.. 4 years ago or around that, while i was playing a game which she was playing too,
we got to talk for something about that in there, and i added her as a friend, normal as i
used to add other people anyways. Then we just started talking.. and slowly got into knowing
her.. also got to know she had a "bf" on internet already.. but for fun we were pretending
to be brother and sister.. until like many months ago i "felt" she was special as i had
fun and was smiling and laughing a lot with her. She just wouldnt leave that other guy even
if she didnt love him, but i dont know why i was stubborn and kept being after her.. while
i wouldnt actually gain anything much if you think about it now.. its just,ive kept trying
to get into her heart (it may sound weird to you but if you "live" in internet its different,
and im not like i was before anyways about this stuff).. well.. we argued a lot also for stupid
reasons.. however.. on 2 years ago summer.. she kinda broke up with that guy but there was another
one who she got to know ( which was from poland too ) and when she went to holidays she went to
meet him as they live far, but the place where he lives is far like 10h with train.. anyways,
i was still after her.. even if some weeks before i got to know they were together... and
she hided that from me. She started not coming on msn anymore.. and i didnt hear anything about her
until december, was kinda happy anyways, since i wasnt thinking about her anymore..
on december she misscalled me and so i went back on my old msn that day and we just started talking
again.. she was still with that guy who was so annoying, like she was going to him a week every month
but he wouldnt let her talk with her friends LOL. so since she was missing talking to me and
spending time with me they kinda broke up..
so we were like "lets meet this summer", comes the summer she disappears and i never see her on msn
anymore. on september she comes on msn and gives me a letter (which i still have, its scanned, if you
wanna read it idm uploading it and showing you) where she says we have to say "goodbye" as she had
to go to uni and she would have to move to another city and she wouldnt know when she was gonna have
her internet again.. but we decided in the end we would meet on december so she didnt go to uni.
all happy until that day.. when i saw planes were cancelled due to storm and bad weather.. i cried
so much that day. just imagining she'd be near me and i could finally hug her.. but we were still
strong.. and we said we'd try again on february, ok, february... she couldnt get to the airport
so we couldnt meet again... and we said we would try again on june ( this years ).. well things
went shitty, she was always playing and i didnt feel like playing with her, reasons were because
she never wanted to either webcam or talk with mic with me... we did it during those years yes
but not so much.. in the end i only wanted it because it would make us more happy. and also because
i was kinda bored tbh, plus she said she would find a work to save some more money but she never did.
we argued a lot and there were some days where we didnt even talk.