May 20th Journal

I'm not sure if anyone will ever read this, but I thought I would use my signature a bit of a journal.

For those who don't know, I was a member of staff during the transition of the various original owners on New Eden to the current original community. To say I was busy at the time would have been an understatement: I regularly under preformed in my duties, was consistently stretched to my limits from exams, and generally had a terrible attitude whilst doing it all. For that, I apologize. I will forever be in awe that during that tumultuous time, a period of time where I was a very negative person: the community nothing but positive to me.

Following my departure from the Administration, I posted a series of unnecessary and practically untrue rants against the server on Reddit; said although I have already apologized three times over, I want to do so again. I'm very sorry for the things I said, and although they can no longer be seen; I understand that they did some serious damage at the time.

Some people don't like me, I continued to get flak after I was no longer an active user for a number of months, and I can imagine that my case is still referenced on a regular basis. Although it's been 3 years, I have no doubt that certain members of this community still remember my name very well: for good or bad. As such, I understand that some probably won't enjoy my presence, for that, I thank you. I don't want to be readily accepted back into the CM Community, Rahzel made that very much clear when we had a public blowout.

I just hope that this entry has a little meaning; and if it is seen by someone, shared, because I don't have the willpower to do it myself.