Ameba Blog Post 2019-02-12

Title:  My Feelings. Yuna Obata


It’s not “banana”!
It’s “Yunana”!
What fruit does Yunana like?
It’s not bananas!  It’s cherries!
Natural and leisurely Yunana- that’s Yuna Obata!

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To start off,

I, Yuna Obata…

… will be graduating from SKE48 at the end of March!!

I’m really sorry for letting my first post in a while be like this.

I’m sure that there will be many people who will be surprised by this sudden announcement, and many people thinking, “How come??”.

If I start to tell all, it will be a long story indeed, so I’ll just convey the feelings that I wish to convey to you.

I’m pretty bad at putting what I want to say into words, so I’m sorry if I’m rambling.

Firstly,

I’ve been thinking about my graduation since last year.

Last year was truly a fun year with no regrets.

*Being chosen to be center in “Muishiki no Iro”, and receiving the wonderful ranking of 34th place in the election…

Being able to participate in really a lot of events from summer through autumn...

If I began talking about it, I fear I would never stop!  That’s how many wonderful, happy things that have happened.


And in the midst of all of this, the thing which I had been hoping for and anticipating…
This really makes me happy.

I even had a lot of people say that they were rooting for me at the meet and greets.

But
In the midst of all of that

When I would be asked:

“As a new goal, what would you like to be doing next?”

There was a part of me which couldn’t really answer.

There was a part of me which felt, as an idol, that I had run my course.

But really what does that now mean for me as an idol?
Trust me, I understand that more than anyone.

I should keep my head up and aspire for more.
I understand that I cannot be satisfied yet.



Because of this,

I believe that it’s wrong to continue being an idol with such a lukewarm attitude.

Around me there are plenty more members which feel like this is what they want to do and this is what they want to become.

And with all of that, I feel like it’s wrong for me to stand in their way.


In the very beginning, I entered the group with just an audition, which I was introduced to by my grandmother who didn’t know much about idols or SKE.

Still not completely understanding,
I began participating in their activities, full of nerves.

I often felt, “What should I do?”.

But even so, I was surrounded by the very enthusiastic fans of the members.

I would end up thinking, “What even is this group??”
“How did they get so passionate and hyped up?”

But
Being in the midst of all the activities, I would think, “What a wonderful group this is.”

A goal emerged or me,
I want to become like this too…

I think in the beginning; I may have troubled the fans by not being able to even put that into words.

But I would always do the activities without fail, holding that goal in my heart.

Also, seeing as I get asked this a lot, I would like to answer.

Position!

There are a lot of things which I get asked quite frequently, but
As for myself, I really don’t have any objections about my position.

Of course, If you ask me: “Do you want to become center?”, I would say, “Yes, I would.”

It’s the position coveted by everyone.
It’s the position that you make your goal when you become an idol.

I, who had no issue with my position before I was able to be center,
First aimed to be in the selection.

So, with that as my goal, I continued to do what was set before me, always with the feeling of being true to myself.

*Those days flew by, and before I realized it, I was chosen to be center for the first time with “Mango”.

I thought to myself many times, “Will I be alright?” etc.

Even so, I thought

Because I was chosen for this, I will stay true to myself as I become center, and hopefully I will be able to bring a good name to SKE.

It’s all happening in a flash.

I, who from the beginning had no confidence,

Have often been saved in many ways by the words of the fans...

I have nothing but gratitude to offer my fans.



That’s right--.

I may have taken this story a little off track, but

If you ask me what I would like to say,

My goals as an idol were to

Sing at the top of my lungs with all of the fans, and

When I have an opportunity to shoot for the stars,

To do my best as I hope for and anticipate more things to come.

I’ve thought this as I’ve come all this way.


However,

As there’s a part of me that feels that I’ve done all that I can as an Idol,

I have a growing feeling that I wish to challenge myself with more.



And so,

I’ve chosen to graduate from this.



After all,

A lukewarm attitude is no good.

It’s too rude to the people who are doing it with all of their hearts.


Of course,

As an idol,

On the stage, or at the meet and greets,

I was certainly not doing it with anything less than my all.

Most definitely.


I want to give it my all until the very end of the end,

And because I feel like I want to give so much gratitude from here on out

In my performances, when I smile,
When I look happy,

If it is something which I can do,

I would like to return that feeling of gratitude in my own way.



I promise.



This has gotten rather long, but it’s how I’m feeling.

So, at the meet and greets,

When you would ask me, “What are you wanting to do next?”, I’m sorry for not being able to completely answer you, okay?
This has been very difficult.

I couldn’t just say it.  I really didn’t want to.
I really floundered on the decision and it caused me a lot of worry.


But it’s because of passionate fans like you that

I’m able to be as I am now

Because I received your courage

I was able to realize that

I want to continue down a new path

This is what I want to do.




For the remainder of my time, I want to try hard and make it so that I can repay you all

*I, Kira-kira idol Yuna Obata

Will enjoy this with all of my heart!

Let’s make tons of memories, okay!!

I’m looking forward to your support until the very end!!



I love you.

(yu ❛ ڡ ❛ )na