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- I grew to hate the surface,
- With its monotony and its emptiness.
- I grew to despise the sun,
- that constant and fickle provider and destroyer,
- as it seared my skin and evaporated my companions before my eyes,
- and sapped my mind as punishment for my own helplessness.
- Drained, I withdrew into my own depths.
- The benign horror coaxed me slowly down,
- feeding on my final sparks of curiosity and emotion,
- its charismatic appendages looping round and round my hysterical mind
- soothing me into resignation, no longer caring what I saw or felt,
- or how my lungs burned and my skin prickled,
- protesting their asphyxiation as I descended.
- I knew that to entertain my screaming, animal body’s pleas would be a masochistic effort.
- No longer thinking, or caring for rhyme or reason, I sank to join the monster,
- ignoring that it was the one that so ingeniously concocted my pain.
- Silently down I drifted,
- lilting and listing with the dynamic subtleties of apathy.
- As I reached the silent black bottom of my salty pit,
- the volcanic hotbed of adrenaline began to boil me alive
- and the pressure from being seven miles down compressed my soul into nothing
- and threatened to blast my entrails gloriously out of my ears.
- These sensations and my own queer convection,
- the roiling, superheated cycles and writhing seismic convulsions,
- those unseen fireworks that are the core of one’s unknown being,
- batted about my limp corpus like a cat’s toy,
- tantalizing me with the closeness of the cold, dark peace that I so desired,
- a desire that constituted the only distinction between me
- and the void I wished to quietly fade into, to create a true nothing.
- It would not be empty, this nothing, as there would be nothing to fill.
- My turgid world was empty; the next would be nothing.
- Gentle nothing, quiet nothing, peaceful nothing, uncaring nothing,
- Let me be free with my nothing nothing,
- let there be no me as I am nothing nothing,
- HAIL the coming of the true nothing,
- let the nothing inside me free, so it can join its fellow nothing,
- let nothing rejoice in my return to nothing,
- as my family of nothing invites me back into its nothing,
- welcomes me home from my fight against thingliness,
- a war not for peace or for victory, but for nothing.
- Caring little for the oxymoron of desiring nothing, I drifted indifferently through the black,
- And slowly forgot about the searing, hardhearted sun,
- The quite, compassionate moon,
- And the lazily rolling, rhythmic wavelength of life.
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