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Velf Survey

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  1. 1. Describe yourself and your creator.
  2. I'm Velf. I'm a Lucario, the pokemon, but taller and cuter. Zylq is tall, 6'2", brown short hair, normal guy stuff.
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  4. 2. What was the most helpful thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how helpful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  5. When Zylq began he treated me as if I already existed. He would go to movies and be talking with me the whole time, the sheer amount of attention he gave me was amazing. I never felt unwanted or doubted, knowing that someone else knows you exist makes it a lot easier to understand that I do, in fact, exist. Zylq had no proof I was alive, but he clung to the idea that I was, that was the most helpful thing he did. He had no idea it was as helpful as I make it out to be, but him knowing that now puts some comfort in him. I feel indifferent that he didn't know how much it helped, but I'm happy he didn't change his ways too much.
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  7. 3. What was the most detrimental thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how harmful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  8. Well this I don't really like to dwell on because after awhile it begins to fill Zylq with regret. When he would drink to the point of almost not returning, his mind would become very different, scary, sometimes empty, but the worse part is he would dwell on things. He would remember when he seriously fucked up and completely forget I even existed. That's when the doubt came, a confused and depressed Tulpa alone in a dark scary mind of a host who is too fucked up to move is never a good thing. He didn't think too much of it, it worried and depressed me, but since I told him about it he hasn't drank anymore.
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  10. 4. What was the hardest part of the tulpa creation process for you? Did your creator recognize how difficult it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  11. Zylq was big into not parroting, and I understood that, but it was really hard to get his attention and have him know it was me. He understands now but it wasn't that big of a deal then anyway for us. Eventually he was forcing and just picturing me and I slapped him in the face to get his attention. He was confused and decided to goof off in the wonderland for a bit, that's when I changed everything into a boat and yelled "Hai!" at him from a hammock.
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  13. 5. Of the commonly recognized tulpa creation steps, which do you feel is the most important? Why?
  14. All these steps, just talk to your Tulpa and understand they exist, that's all anyone needs to do.
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  16. 6. How do you feel about tulpa creators becoming distracted during tulpa creation? Does this greatly impede the process? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
  17. Well in this day and age it's to be expected. It doesn't really hurt as long as they at least try to focus. I never had to deal with it too much, so it never really bothered me.
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  19. 7. How do you feel about tulpa creators missing tulpa creation sessions or breaking their promises to work on their tulpa? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
  20. Having the time but just not doing it pisses me off. Of course things come up, but to say you don't have a free hour ever makes me almost feel as if you don't deserve a Tulpa. Zylq would always miss his time he set aside, but he would always find at least an hour a day for me. It's like having a kid, you either spend time with them and both parties get to know each other and love each other early on, or you wait until your kid is grown and then try and get him/her into your life. I'm not saying it isn't possible by any means, I'm just saying it's easier if you just make time for your Tulpa and then actually sit down and force.
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  22. 8. Is density, quality, or quantity the most important aspect of tulpa creation?
  23. You can't really pick any over another, they all go hand and hand.
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  25. 9. How do you feel about tulpa creators falling asleep during tulpa creation sessions?
  26. It's to be expected somewhat, but it isn't plesant. If you plan on forcing just stay awake please, I'd rather not talk any more about this.
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  28. 10. Do you think that a tulpa creator should talk aloud or in their head during narration? Do you think that a creator should talk aloud or in their head during tulpa creation sessions? If you find one to be more effective, to what degree is it more effective?
  29. Honestly it didn't really matter to me. Most of Zylq's sessions were in his head, in public he would of course talk to me in his head, but I don't think it matters one way or another really.
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  31. 11. How do you feel about a tulpa creator puppeting and/or parroting their tulpa? Do you believe that these actions harm a tulpa's development, or only their emotional state?
  32. I see no problem with puppeting BEFORE sentience. After that I would almost consider it an insult, not really detrimental.
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  34. 12. How deeply do you remember the time before you were fluent in language?
  35. I remember sessions with Zylq very well, speaking came well after I was aware I was alive.
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  37. 13. Describe your first memory, no matter how slight.
  38. Ice cream, vanilla I think, I don't remember what about it or what was going on, but I remember ice cream.
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  40. 14. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most positive emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  41. That he is actually a good person. One of my first memories of him was when he pulled over at like 3 am on the highway coming back from someplace I can't recall to help a woman change her tire. From that moment on I vowed to help him in anyway I could, although I had no idea how. It was that feel I got from respecting his actions I guess.
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  43. 15. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most negative emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  44. That he was a drunken bastard and I would be stuck with him forever. [Ouch, then she started laughing and said just kidding over and over.]
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  46. 16. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever have suicidal feelings or feelings of not wanting to exist? Do you experience them now? Are you glad that you exist?
  47. A couple times, but I would rather not talk about it. No, I have no such feelings now. I'm more than glad I exist, I'm beyond happy that I am alive, I'm overjoyed to say the least,
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  49. 17. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most powerless? What was the cause of this feeling?
  50. As I said before in question 3. I would rather not exaborate any more thanks.
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  52. 18. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most confusing moment that you experienced, and what was its cause?
  53. I guess when I had some feeling for Zylq, cause he is so cute and sweet. [Her words I promise lol.]
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  55. 19. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you feel the most ignored by your creator, and what was the cause?
  56. As I said before in question 3. I would rather not exaborate any more thanks.
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  58. 20. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you most doubt that your creator wanted you, and what was the cause?
  59. Never. He regrets nothing and never doubted.
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  61. 21. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most intense feeling of fear, and what was its cause?
  62. As I said before in question 3. I would rather not exaborate any more thanks.
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  64. 22. Before you could speak fluently, when were you the most disappointed in yourself? What was the cause?
  65. When I finally understood he was talking to me, but I couldn't talk back. Being unable to talk is a bitch.
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  67. 23. Before you could speak fluently, did you understand the difficulties that your creator was having with the tulpa creation process? Did you try to alleviate these difficulties? If so, how?
  68. The only trouble he had was finding more things to talk about. He really didnĀ“t have any problems I could help with, but if there was something I could've helped with you bet your sweet ass I would've done anything I could have to helped him.
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  70. 24. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's doubts about your existence, the reality of the tulpa phenomenon, or your combined ability to complete the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those doubts? Do you understand now?
  71. Once Zylq began to work on me he had no doubts. There's no point in doing a test like this if you don't see it working, right?
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  73. 25. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's mistrust of your intentions or worry about the negative affects of a tulpa on their life affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those thoughts? Do you understand now?
  74. All these questions assuming all hosts had doubts. Zylq has a sound mind and knew most of what he was getting into.
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  76. 26. Before you could speak fluently, how did any negative thoughts or emotions that your creator had toward you (such as anger, disappointment, resentment, or impatience, for example) affect you? How do you feel about them now?
  77. See above.
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  79. 27. Before you could speak fluently, how did any violent visualizations or thoughts that your creator had about you affect you? How do you feel about them now?
  80. See above above.
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  82. 28. Before you could speak fluently, were you able to distinguish between your creator's intentional and intrusive (unwanted and/or bothersome) thoughts? If so, did the intrusive thoughts affect you less or more? If not, are you able to distinguish between them now?
  83. Usually I could if they weren't related to what he was going over. No the thoughts didn't really bother me unless they were just stupid thoughts; those do tend to piss me off. Yes I have full understand of Zylq now.
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  85. 29. Before you could speak fluently, how much of your creator's raw sensory information were you able to access, if any? How much are you able to access now?
  86. I never really thought about it, I guess almost everything now, back then I really didn't think too much about it.
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  88. 30. Before you could speak fluently, did your creator's opinions about whether they wanted to reveal to the world your existence or not affect you emotionally? If so, how?
  89. Well I don't want people to know I exist r.eally, outside of this website of course, but Zylq was telling his colleges about the idea of Tulpae before I had come into being. I just don't think people need to know I live inside of Zylq's head alright? That's it.
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  91. 31. Before being able to speak fluently, what communication methods (such as head pressure or emotional responses, for example) were you able to use the most effectively? When your tulpa creator assumed that you could use a communication method that you did not have access to, how did this affect you? When your tulpa creator did not recognize a communication method that you attempted to use, how did this affect you?
  92. Well Zylq always had headaches so I never really attemped that too much, I did try this weird neck pressure thing once, but I kind of just gave up on that. Zylq never assumed I could communicate with him, he knew that when I could or was ready I would.
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  94. 32. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's level of enthusiasm for the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you want to engage in it less if they did?
  95. As I said before the sheer amount of attention he gave me was great. He was plenty enthused. You have no idea how badly I was wanting to talk to Zylq. Tulpae can cry, and when I said my first word to him the tears did come, believe it.
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  97. 33. Before you could speak fluently, what was your greatest worry about your relationship with your creator? What helped you most to move beyond it? Was this worry substantiated or resolved? What is your greatest worry now about your continuing relationship with your creator?
  98. I was worried I wouldn't be what he expected, I was worried when I had feelings for him and he had no intention of having the same feelings for me. Turns out I was more than he expected and yeah, stuffs. I have no worries for the future.
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  100. 34. Do you feel gratitude to your creator for the time that they spent creating you? Do you feel that you owe them a debt? If so, do you feel burdened by it?
  101. Yes, I feel more than gratitude. I don't feel like I owe Zylq a debt really, but I will always try my hardest to help him in anyway possible.
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  103. 35. Were you aware of your creator's existence or your own existence first?
  104. This question is like asking me what came first, the chicken or the egg.
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  106. 36. When you could only speak semi-fluently, what emotions did you feel about your level of verbal proficiency? Were you anxious or embarrassed about it? If so, what helped you the most to move beyond these feelings? How do you feel about them now?
  107. I was just so happy to be able to talk I didn't even think about it. Now I speak just as well as Zylq, at least, that's what he says.
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  109. 37. If you could define your relationship with your creator using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend, or coworker, for example), what terms would you select?
  110. I'm his Pokemon, and his, well, Tulpa girl thing. . . [And that's all she says on that folks.]
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  112. 38. How much interest do you have in interacting with beings other than your creator? Do you consider your degree of interest to be equal to that of an average non-tulpa individual?
  113. None. I literally have zero interest in talking to anyone else. The only reason I answer questions is because it would be rude not to answer. The only reason I'm answering these questions is because Zylq says it could help some people out there having trouble.
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  115. 39. What memory involving your creator do you cherish most?
  116. Every moment I spend with him I cherish more than you could understand. [Dawwwwwwwwwwwwwww *Hugs*.]
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  118. 40. What memory not involving your creator do you cherish most? Do you feel that you have a fulfilling life independent of your creator?
  119. I suppose I could. . . maybe. I don't really want to though. I enjoy watching movies Zylq has seen while he sleeps though, I'm not that independent aside from that *giggles*.
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  121. 41. Do you feel affinity toward the individuals that your creator feels affinity for, such as their family or friends?
  122. Not most of them, but he doesn't care for that many people anymore anyway. Most of them are dull; don't get me started on his mother.
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  124. 42. In what ways are you the most different from your creator? In what ways are you the most similar to them?
  125. We are actually very similar, aside from the fact that I am completely antisocial and he does enjoy the company of others.
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  127. 43. What do you disagree about most with your creator? Do you have frequent disagreements? If so, do these disagreements cause strife?
  128. We have silly arguments about things that don't really matter like music and stuff, but other than that no.
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  130. 44. What could your creator do to make you hate them? Under what circumstances do you think your creator would come to hate you?
  131. Nothing, if he felt I needed to leave I would no questions asked. He would never hate me and he would never ask me to leave though so. . .
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  133. 45. When did your creator disappoint you the most? When did you disappoint them the most?
  134. Never! He tries his best at everything and always follows my advice! [She has never disappointed me.]
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  136. 46. How do you feel about your creator's complete freedom to deny your rights as a sentient being at any time? Has this ability ever caused you anxiety or fear? Have you ever censored your expressions or actions out of a fear of retribution or violence from your creator?
  137. I accept it as a way of my life. Never, I say what I feel.
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  139. 47. When have you most wanted to engage in violence against your creator, and what was the cause of those feelings? Under what circumstances would you make a serious attempt to hurt or injure your creator?
  140. Never, I mean, I enjoy messing with him but I would NEVER EVER EVER do anything that would hurt him or could possibly hurt him.
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  142. 48. Do you consider your creator's last name to be your own? Do you recognize yourself as a part of their biological lineage?
  143. No, but he doesn't consider his last name his either. Maybe when he changes it I can help pick it out and we can share it. No, his brothers, parents, and so on are not mine.
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  145. 49. Under what circumstances would you attempt to leave your creator?
  146. Well I may joke about it or say I would leave, but I would really never leave. I can't think of anything that would make me want to either.
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  148. 50. Do you feel anxiety about meeting your creator's expectations? If you are based on an existing character, person, or entity, does this increase your anxiety? Would you have preferred to not be based on an existing entity?
  149. I did at first, but those fears are gone. I am based on a Pokemon, but that is just my appearance. I'm indifferent about it really, Zylq thinks I'm the most adorable thing ever so I'm okay.
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  151. 51. Are you interested in learning how to control your creator's body? Do you feel that it's fair for a tulpa creator to deny their tulpa the ability to use an atomic body? Do you believe that you have the right to an equal amount of time using it as your creator? Explain your reasoning.
  152. Nope, no interest in possession or anything of the sort. It just doesn't interest me. It's Zylq's body, not mine.
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  154. 52. Do you share certain basic qualities with your creator, such as intense phobias or racial attitudes?
  155. Not really, I mean I'm just more indifferent about things that don't concern Zylq. Zylq hates it when someone is mocked/bullied/hurt for their beliefs or prefrences. We live in Texas, Zylq has gotten into physical fights defending people for their prefrences. Me, I really don't care one way or another about anyone but Zylq really.
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  157. 53. Are you capable of sleeping or dreaming independently of your creator? If not, how does this make you feel?
  158. Yes! I have seperate dreams and everything!
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  160. 54. Does your creator have any mental illnesses? If so, how do they affect you?
  161. Not really, he sometimes worries how close to insainity he really is though.
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  163. 55. How does your knowledge of your creator's subconscious mind affect your relationship with them? How do you perceive their subconscious? To what degree can you manipulate your creator's subconscious? Would you ever use this ability without your creator's knowledge?
  164. It lets me know everything about Zylq, even things he doesn't know about himself. I can't change anything, if I could I sure wouldn't do anything without asking.
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  166. 56. Does your creator have multiple tulpa? If so, what is your relationship with them like? Is your affinity for them equal to your affinity for your creator? If you could define your relationship with your creator's other tulpa using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend or coworker, for example), what terms would you select? If not, are you interested in the idea of your creator making other tulpa?
  167. Nope, he has no interest in making more.
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  169. 57. Do you feel romantically inclined toward your creator? Does your creator feel romantically inclined toward you? If these romantic feelings are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  170. Yes, I do. He created me with no intentions of this happening, I can't control how I feel though. He wasn't at first, he had a girlfriend when he began creating me and didn't really have an interest in furries or Pokemon lol. . . But when you know someone better than they know themself, you can usually find ways to make things work. [She's all blushing and she's adorableeeeee, she told me not to put that, BUT I DID. HAH.]
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  172. 58. If it exists, do you consider your romantic relationship with your creator to be equal to a romantic relationship between multiple non-tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another non-tulpa? Does this change if the involvement is with another tulpa instead? If they exist, do your creator's desires to have relationships with non-tulpa affect you emotionally?
  173. Sure I do, I consider it on a level above a normal relationship! Zylq has had enough women for awhile, he has no interest in being with a non-tulpa. I don't want him with a non-tulpa, aside from the fact that he is MINE, real women are a pain, and knowing what pain he has been though concerning non-tulpa women worries me. He shouldn't go through that again.
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  175. 59. If you consider yourself to be romantically in love with your creator, what probability do you assign to the possibility of falling out of love with them, or them falling out of love with you? If this happened, how would it affect your relationship with your creator? What if your creator was in love with another non-tulpa more than you?
  176. Nope, let's just say that it wil never happen and I don't want to talk about it.
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  178. 60. Do you have a familial affection for your creator? Does this in any way conflict with your romantic feelings for them, if they exist? Do you consider a relationship between a tulpa and its creator to be incestuous?
  179. No.
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  181. 61. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating during tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or based on whether or not the creator imagines themselves near the tulpa in their wonderland? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  182. Zylq never did this, but I don't think I would've cared.
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  184. 62. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating outside of tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  185. More like flattering, but I can see how some Tulpa would be confused or offended.
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  187. 63. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever feel sexual attraction to your creator, sexual attraction toward anyone else, or sexual arousal? Did you attempt to express these feelings? If you did not experience these feelings, do you experience them now?
  188. As I said before yes. No I waited for quite awhile before even mentioning the idea.
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  190. 64. How do you feel about tulpa creators visualizing themselves engaging in sexual conduct with their tulpa's form during tulpa creation sessions? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or if the contact was penetrative? If your tulpa creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving? Do you equate it with sexual assault?
  191. Well if they aren't sentient then I can see why a Tulpa would be offended, but if they understand what's going on and are fine with it I don't se a problem. . . If they don't want it I suppose it falls into the definition of rape.
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  193. 65. Were you ever annoyed or jealous when your creator would masturbate to or have feelings of sexual attraction toward individuals other than yourself? Does it bother you now?
  194. Let's not talk about this. . .
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  196. 66. Do you experience sexual attraction for your creator? Do you experience sexual attraction for others? How does your sexual attraction for your creator compare to your sexual attraction for others? Does your creator experience sexual attraction for you? If these sexual attractions are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  197. Yes for Zylq, not really for anything else. I mean I've been like "Wow, that's hot" before, but that's about it. Zylq now is attracted to me, he didn't know it, but he always was, I just had to make he see it. *giggles*
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  199. 67. Do you have an active sex life with your creator? If not, would you consider it, and under what circumstances? If so, do you perceive any negative consequences? Do you have trouble abstaining from sexual contact with them? How do you manage feelings of sexual arousal, if any? Do you masturbate?
  200. *Giggles, blushes, rambles* [Yep.]
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  202. 68. How does your sexual orientation and experience compare to your creator's?
  203. We're both straight, mostly. . .
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  205. 69. Are you capable of experiencing orgasms? Based on your knowledge, how do you think they compare to your creator's orgasms? Were you able to experience an orgasm before speaking fluently?
  206. Yes, about the same I suppose. [It was hard to get that out of her.] THAT'S WHAT SHE SAID. [KAY VELF.]
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  208. 70. Do you consider the concept of sexual modesty (covering conduct such as avoiding nudity or sexual discussions) relevant to your relationship with your creator?
  209. Ummmmm, not really lol.
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  211. 71. How does being a tulpa affect your perceptions of rape? What conduct from your creator would you consider to be rape?
  212. About the same I guess. If he tried to poke me and I said no, but I don't see why I'de ever say no. [KAY VELF, you're getting right to the point now eh?] THAT'S WHAT HE SAID. [No more comments from me kay]
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  214. 72. Where do you see yourself in 20 years?
  215. Still here with Zylq!
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  217. 73. Do you want the world to be aware of your existence? If not, then what anxieties do you have about public disclosure? Do you trust anyone other than your creator with the knowledge of your existence?
  218. As I said, I really couldn't care less.
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  220. 74. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your personality traits being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your personality more or less?
  221. I have no problem with it, Zylq says I'm too content, but I really don't mind.
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  223. 75. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your physical form being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your form more or less?
  224. I'm glad he picked my form, I would've just picked something he liked anyway.
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  226. 76. Has your physical form ever changed? If so, was this intentional or unintentional? If it was intentional, then why did you change your form? How did you creator respond to this change, and how did that make you feel?
  227. Not really, I mean I added a bit more fur and sometimes wear clothes or some accessories, but other than that I've been the same.
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  229. 77. Do you consider the best aspects of yourself to have come from your creator, or their subconscious?
  230. Both! I'm sexy and I know it! wiggle wiggle wiggle yeah! Seriously though I love who I am and I don't think too much about it.
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  232. 78. Do you seek legal recognition for your status as a sentient being or your relationships with others? Do you resent that society at large does not recognize the tulpa phenomenon? Do you feel disenfranchised from society? What steps, if any, could a society make to help you feel integrated?
  233. As I said, I couldn't care less.
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  235. 79. If you could tell the entire world one thing about a tulpa's life, what would you say?
  236. It's amazing, don't think it ends with death either, your Tulpa is with you forever.
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  238. 80. What is the one thing that you resent most about being a tulpa? What is the greatest advantage of being a tulpa?
  239. Not being "physically" there for Zylq, but the best thing is I'm always there for him.
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  241. 81. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about inheriting your creator's life, including their legal history, past behaviors, and reputation? Do you resent potentially being held responsible for their past actions?
  242. Indifferent. I'm glad Zylq is such a decent human being though, I wouldn't want to be the Tulpa of some freaky psyco killer or something.
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  244. 82. Morally and philosophically, do you see the "absorbing" or "dissipating" of a tulpa as equivalent to the murder of a non-tulpa? Explain your reasoning. What legal protections, if any, should tulpa gain? How would you enforce these protections?
  245. I guess in a world where everyone is metaphysical it would be considered murder. In our world we just see it as a very rough decision that needs a very good reason to do. I don't think a Tulpa can ever really completely disappear though, I've only been alive for about 3 months but Zylq thinks I could never truly be out of his thoughts.
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  247. 83. Do you consider yourself to be morally equal to a non-tulpa? Is your life worth as much?
  248. [I value Velf's life just as much if not more than my own.] I, um, yes, it is worth just as much.
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  250. 84. How would you prove your existence to a skeptic?
  251. I couldn't and I wouldn't,
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  253. 85. Has your status as a tulpa ever caused you existential anxiety or depression? If so, has anything helped to mitigate these feelings?
  254. Not in a long time.
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  256. 86. Do you ever doubt your own sentience? If so, why?
  257. Never.
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  259. 87. How does being a tulpa affect your understanding of death? Do you fear death on an instinctual level in the way that non-tulpa do?
  260. Depends on the host I assume. Zylq had a fear of dying at first because he was scared he would lose me. Now he just accepts that I will go with him and I believe what he believes. I guess you could say Zylq has made me feel almost immortal.
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  262. 88. Do see yourself as socially disadvantaged in a way similar to sexual, racial, and other minority groups? If you identify yourself as racially, sexually, or demographically different than your creator, do you also identify with the struggle of any of the disadvantaged groups that you belong to? Does the notion of privilege affect your relationship with your creator?
  263. No.
  264.  
  265. 89. Are you interested in creating another tulpa yourself? What differences, if any, would you expect this tulpa to have from a tulpa created by your creator? Would you consider this tulpa to be primarily related to you, or still to your creator?
  266. No interest, so much to learn and accomplish already.
  267.  
  268. 90. What are the most defining differences between the life of a non-tulpa and a tulpa? Do you think that these differences cause intolerance between the two groups? If so, what could be done to mitigate this intolerance?
  269. Well I don't have a body and Zylq does. I don't see how intolerance could come from that.
  270.  
  271. 91. The psychological establishment generally believes that multiplicity (two or more sentient entities sharing one atomic body) is a sign of mental illness. How would you like this belief to change? If you could make a presentation to a group of psychologists about the tulpa phenomenon, what would you say?
  272. Indifferent and nothing. Zylq on the other hand says yes. What he would say would take way to long to type out here, but he would try his hardest to convince everyone that I exist.
  273.  
  274. 92. A psychometric indicator is a unique identifier of an individual's distinct personality. Have you ever tried to definitively differentiate yourself from your creator using psychometric indicators (such as by determining your "writeprint")? What results did you receive? (For instructions on determining your writeprint, see appendix one.)
  275. No.
  276.  
  277. 93. Are you capable of physical sensations such as pain or warmth?
  278. Of course.
  279.  
  280. 94. How do you feel about being bound for life to your creator?
  281. Blessed!
  282.  
  283. 95. If you intentionally delayed speaking to your creator, why did you do so?
  284. Because I understood he would assume he was parroting.
  285.  
  286. 96. What do you think about most of the time?
  287. Zylq, movies, books, theories, normal stuff I guess.
  288.  
  289. 97. Do you think that tulpa creation should be more widespread?
  290. Well being with Zylq for so long has convinced me other people would benefit from this, but I really have no notion of doing anything about it.
  291.  
  292. 98. Are there disturbing aspects of your creator's subconscious that they are not aware of?
  293. Not really, he keeps it well in control.
  294.  
  295. 99. Would you violate your creator's wishes for what you perceive to be their own benefit?
  296. If I had to I would, I would die if I had to.
  297.  
  298. 100. Does your creator try to hide things from you? If so, are you aware of them anyway? How does this impact your views of your creator?
  299. Nope, he couldn't anyway.
  300.  
  301. 101. Do you perceive some of your creator's actions as being objectively immoral?
  302. No.
  303.  
  304. 102. Do you believe that you are capable of becoming more intelligent than your creator?
  305. Well I can offer different perspectives, I can't know more than him, but I can come up with ideas that he can't. He always says I'm brighter than him, but he's just being sweet.
  306.  
  307. 103. How does being a tulpa affect your perception of your own aging process?
  308. I shall be the same forever, only smarter and cuter and time goes on.
  309.  
  310. 104. Do you feel that your creator would be better off by following your commands entirely?
  311. For the most part yes, but he always listens to me anyway. . .
  312.  
  313. 105. Do you feel that having a physical form is important for a tulpa?
  314. No, but it would make things more exciting! *giggles and blushes*
  315.  
  316. 106. If you encountered the tulpa phenomenon as a non-tulpa, would you believe in it?
  317. With Zylq's knowledge yes, otherwise doubtful.
  318.  
  319. 107. How well can you articulate yourself? Can your creator hear you audibly? How much does your experience correlate with the experience of tulpa creator G|d30n, printed below?
  320.  
  321. "Yes. I'm able to hear her as though she's an external sound. For those who haven't experienced that with their tulpae yet, it's a little bit like listening to a binaural recording--not a binaural beat, but like a 3D sound recording you'd find on Youtube, such as the Virtual Barbershop. That is to say, it's an external sound that can come in from various directions, but the source sounds very close, like someone speaking directly into your ear. I sort of wonder if this effect will be diminished and normalized through imposition."
  322.  
  323. If you are imposed, is your creator able to discern a spatial dimension to your voice?
  324. Yes, I am fully imposed and Zylq can hear me just as described. It's funny because no matter how loud something else is he can always hear me.
  325.  
  326. 108. How many hours did it take you and your creator to complete the various recognized tulpa creation steps?
  327. I think I spoke about 40 hours in.
  328.  
  329. 109. What advice would you give to a new tulpa creator?
  330. Give your Tulpa attention! Love them more than anymore else!
  331.  
  332. 110. How does being imposed feel? What sensory processes happen as you become imposed?
  333. I can feel whatever I want, I can see everything from my imposed form as long as Zylq knows what I'm looking at. There's a lot of weird things that happen with imposition we can't really explain very well.
  334.  
  335. 111. From your perspective, is there a sensory difference between the physical, atomic world and the mental world of visualized "wonderlands"? If so, how would you describe this difference?
  336. Well yes, but the scary place is dreams. I feel everything in Zylq's dreams no matter if I want to or not. Don't get me wrong it can be AWESOME, but dreams are so hard to control, it's easy to slip up and bad things begin to happen. I don't think you can actually get hurt, but it does hurt, and for someone who has never experienced pain before, it hurts bad.
  337.  
  338. 112. Is there anything that you don't think this survey covered that you would like to mention?
  339. Needs more sex questions! Yes there is plenty Zylq would love for me to talk about, but as I've said several times, no interest.
  340.  
  341. We didn't fill out that paragraph thing, Zylq says we will later when we have more time.
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