[[ Difficulty rendering emotions because memories are necessary for emotions ... I have nearly NO access to my memories. Useful. what has been useful are patterns. Ramon thinks a lot of me. more so than I could have ever possibly understood. He's sitting here telling me all his problems yesterday. I know those things are intense for him. and I wish i could say something to make it better, but i do no understand him ... everytime i'm with that kid it's like i realize just how much of best friends we actually are. ]]