The Ballad of Chelsea Chamberlain

Chelsea Ballamore: Well, we need to talka bout a few part togethers
Chelsea Ballamore: first, you said you were my floof, since when this changed ?
Chelsea Ballamore: second, you said you do not erp with other, why did you lied to me ?
Chelsea Ballamore: third, yeah i am not happy with alexander telling me he will kill himself and all that shit, so if you want to fix our relationship, you will have to make choices, because i am not ok with whatever you are doing
Cassius Faux: I thought that to you I was your fennecfluff to do things with. So I did all my stuffs with you until meeting him, and even then it was just light playful stuff, so I didn't think you'd mind much and didnt say much of it. which was a mistake on my part. So I am sorry for that. I should have told you about it but didn't.
Cassius Faux: So I understand that you are angry with me.
Chelsea Ballamore: It's true that i want to give you this ultimatum or him or me. I dont erp with everyone like you think i do, everytime i talk to you is everytime i actually have time, you have no idea what's going on in my life because of my fault not to talk about it
Chelsea Ballamore: i could have died a few days ago from 2 emergency, which are still critical if a bacterial infection happen, i been choking on blood yesterday spitting a huge amount of it
Chelsea Ballamore: and i am not really having the best time of my life, being on permanent headache and such
Cassius Faux: I just figured since you were so active in that other chat and with the other people in your stream, mixed with comments here and there you talked and did stuffs with them like me
Chelsea Ballamore: so yes, this is stressing me like crazy on top of him giving me threat, sayign he will kill himself when i had my fucking ex boyfrien dhanging himself in our bedroom
Chelsea Ballamore: i am not active, i barely talk
Chelsea Ballamore: look at my inkbunny
Chelsea Ballamore: i made maybe like 2 drawing in the past 5 months
Chelsea Ballamore: and i always been looking for oyu, ebcause you said we were special
Chelsea Ballamore: but you broke that word
Chelsea Ballamore: so you can fix it, but its either me or him, because after all the issues he caused, i am not comfortable with him still cuddling you or touching you
Chelsea Ballamore: when i checked his fa, he listed a lot of people as his family
Chelsea Ballamore: you, icy, megan, and a bunc of other i know, like kasa
Cassius Faux: He surprised me with that yesterday too.
Chelsea Ballamore: when i asked him about it, its like they mean the world to him, when i asked them about him, they barely know him
Chelsea Ballamore: so he is crossing limits i am not ok with it, and i dont care what he does with other, but what he does with you is tearing me apart
Chelsea Ballamore: Alexander Valentine [The Cat That Rocked], [19.05.17 02:33]
whatever choice he makes, I'll have to accept it.
Chelsea Ballamore: so i want to make a choice, its me or him, if you choose me, we will make change to make sure everyone know we are together, and i am fine being closed to you, fair deal
Chelsea Ballamore: if you pick him, i am out of your life, you loose me entirely
Chelsea Ballamore: if you decide to keep both of us, then you loose me regardless
Chelsea Ballamore: there was no ultimatum until he made one after being completly retarded ot me with his death threats and such
Chelsea Ballamore: all that because he couldnt accept to say no to a collar
Chelsea Ballamore: if you choose me, he will remain in all those groups, and no one else will get hurt
Chelsea Ballamore: if you pick him, i will make sure to let everyone know how much i have been lied to with your promise, and he will loose a lot more friends and places to go
Cassius Faux: That doesn't really sound like I have a choice to be honest...
Chelsea Ballamore: you do, you made a promise, you lied to me, so you either fix it by making the correct choice, or you take the other solution, and you ruin everything, though, it will also cause a lot of damage on him because people doesnt liek drama and lies
Chelsea Ballamore: so you fix it, or you make it worse
Chelsea Ballamore: and talkin about surprise, i was about to get you started on sl waiting for my pay check, i always told you that i wanted to meet you, and being more than just internet
Cassius Faux: I was just able to get SL up and working yesterday.Got a fennec model and everything to surpise you with today.
Cassius Faux: But today went a different direction
Cassius Faux: Thats why I was being a derp earlier. Before this happened.
Chelsea Ballamore: surprising me by breaking my heart and destroying me inside isnt really a nice surprise
Chelsea Ballamore: yes, i wanted you to have sl to be very close to me, each time i roleplayed with you was each time i was capable to
Cassius Faux: With SL.
Cassius Faux: Not this.
Chelsea Ballamore: ask kasa, ask people in my groups, ask them how often i rp with them, how often i talk to them in private and not in pm
Chelsea Ballamore: you might be surprised
Chelsea Ballamore: because the answer is zero
Chelsea Ballamore: i know i am giving you a weird choice, but you will have to make it if you want us to remain together and solve our issue
Chelsea Ballamore: that and i am getting fever, which is not good, especially 3 days after the surgery, that can result in really bad thing, so now i have to wait and see if thing get better otherwise i will have to go to the er, and all this happening along with you is really distressing me a lot
Cassius Faux: I'm sorry for this all..
Chelsea Ballamore: so what you will do
Chelsea Ballamore is now Online.
Cassius Faux: I'm apparently getting dragged to the store.
Chelsea Ballamore: let me know when you are back
Cassius Faux: I will
Chelsea Ballamore is now Online.
Cassius Faux: I'm back.
Cassius Faux: I have food as well
Chelsea Ballamore is now Online.
Chelsea Ballamore: Welcome back.
Chelsea Ballamore: i almost ended up at the emerrgency, luckily, the fever eventually stoped to go up
Cassius Faux: Thats good at least. You should probably have an ambulance on speed dial either way.
Chelsea Ballamore: i do, it got a ton worse because of the stress from this situation, the fever plus the anxiety attack made it a lot worse
Chelsea Ballamore: so i really want us to solve this problem, i really need you to make a choice, so we can move on and solve this issue we have between us
Chelsea Ballamore is now Online.
Cassius Faux: *Siiiigh* You aren't going to like this. But heres the deal. I like you. I like Alex. You two can have your fits or whatever it is, disagreements and all that. But I don't want to have to choose between one of you or the other. Its not right and you know it, he knows it, I know it. This is probably going to make you upset and go off on your other plan to do whatever to us both but just asking me to choose like that "or else" is just flat out wrong. I'm sorry but I just can't choose one of you. I have to have you both.
Chelsea Ballamore: then you won't have me and everyone will be hurt, thank you so much for hurting me, breaking your promise, lying and ruining me down to nothing.
Cassius Faux: The only reason people will be hurt is because of your actions.
Chelsea Ballamore: That would be a lie
Chelsea Ballamore: You let him do erotic roleplay, when you promised me you would not, you let him make you a pet and sort of collar you
Cassius Faux: You directly said you were going to.
Chelsea Ballamore: yeah, him will regret a lot, since you pick him
Cassius Faux: I pick both of you.
Chelsea Ballamore: you lied to me, and now you do this, you cannot be trusted at all, and yet i was here, helping you with telegram, helping you with a lot of things, and you hidden so much on me, like discord, and him
Chelsea Ballamore: you pick him because you created affinity with him, something you werent supposed to do
Chelsea Ballamore: and now you hurting me
Cassius Faux: I didn't even know you had any interest in Discord, because you pushed me so much to get Telegram, instead of using Skype or Steam.
Chelsea Ballamore: yes, i wanted you to have telegram because i didnt knew you could run discord, all tha tbecause iw anted to share pictures with you
Chelsea Ballamore: and you know very well the reason why you dont want to stop talking to him is because you know you will continue to erp with him
Cassius Faux: No, its because I care about him like I care about you.
Cassius Faux: I worry about you day after day because of all the medical shit you go though
Chelsea Ballamore: then you should review your type of care, because that not caring of me, i did everything i could for you, and in return you lie to me
Chelsea Ballamore: what you did with him hurt me a ton, i refuse that you keep both of us, not after what you have done with him
Cassius Faux: I did minor things with him, because you were hardly there. Either busy with streams or asleep, or at the doctors.
Cassius Faux: The collar and name thing? The name came first, and that was just silly derpiness because thought it matched my personality.
Cassius Faux: The collar was added as further cute.
Cassius Faux: And was something I enjoyed and found adorable and fun.
Chelsea Ballamore: yeah so pretty much no longer needed me
Cassius Faux: I didn't say that.
Chelsea Ballamore: obviously did indirectly, since anyone better than me can do whatever the fuck they want with you
Chelsea Ballamore: even in your logs during the drama you two were all cuddling and rubbing against each other
Chelsea Ballamore: you started a problem and you refuse to fix it
Cassius Faux: Because it comforts me, he knows that.
Chelsea Ballamore: yeah right, you two confort each other and here i am the one with all the problems and health issue, when i fight for it
Chelsea Ballamore: you decide to not fix the issue, then i will make sure everything go down, because i refuse to accept this, you cant just lie to me, and give me the only choice to deal with it.
Chelsea Ballamore: you are going to hurt all of hurt, more than just accepting my simple request
Chelsea Ballamore: you could have said" ok I made a mistake, i will fix this and we can start good again"
Chelsea Ballamore: but instead, you prefer to keep what hurt me, knowing you cannot have both in same time
Chelsea Ballamore: and obviously, you choose him because he been rubbing himself all over you daily while i try my best to have time for you while being fucking sick and ill
Chelsea Ballamore: so since you decided to continue hurting me, then i will make sure to reflect all of that
Cassius Faux: No. I chose both of you. But you can't have that apparently.
Chelsea Ballamore: you fucking hurt me with that person, and you decide to keep doing it
Cassius Faux: I wanted to keep both of you, with some sort of thing to keep the two of you from murdering eachother or whatever. But that isn't happening I see.
Chelsea Ballamore: because you fucking lied and cheated on me with him
Cassius Faux: I'm sorry that I can't choose one or the other.
Cassius Faux: I was entirely unaware you saw us as together. Based on you said you'd take me, but due to life/medical issues/living conditions, you couldnt and wouldn't pursue further.
Cassius Faux: When you called me your fennec, I thought it was like I was your fennec to do things with.
Chelsea Ballamore: if you cannot choose, then i will make sure you loose both of us, even if i have to destroy all his friend, him, you and everyone including myself, and you have no idea what i am capable of
Cassius Faux: That would do you no good, and only cause drama for everyone, with you being the root cause.
Cassius Faux: Everyone you know will find out I'm sure.
Cassius Faux: It'll only cause drama and ruin for you Chelsea.
Chelsea Ballamore: i spent a lot of effrot through pain to roleplay with you whenever i can, i spent lot of time trying to save money to get you art, surprise you, a lot of time to be here for oyu as much as i could, and this is how you thank me
Chelsea Ballamore: yeah but when peopel will know it will be too late
Chelsea Ballamore: you think i am evil, but you are
Chelsea Ballamore: you broke your promises, all the sweet words you told me ended up in lies
Chelsea Ballamore: "ohh i dont rp, but we can try, dont worry chelsea, i only do thign with you, you are improtant to me"
Chelsea Ballamore: and now you fucking did all that on my back, and put me in front of "well, he is my friend now that we fucked a lot, i am not removing him, deal with it, i fucking do what i want"
Chelsea Ballamore: how about i tell your brother all that since you are so afraid of a picture i wanted of us for so long
Cassius Faux: You gave me an option, three actually. All of which were wrong.
Chelsea Ballamore: because they all benefit you, not me
Chelsea Ballamore: of course its hard to let someone go after how hard you did stuff with him on my back
Cassius Faux: I don't want to lose you either but here you are, forcing it.
Chelsea Ballamore: i cannot trust you that you will just remain friend with him and stop hinm to call you name or collar you and erp, i cannot trust you anymore that i can let you near him and not worry
Chelsea Ballamore: you already lied to me
Chelsea Ballamore: yeah go play your game
Chelsea Ballamore: you give no fuck about me
Chelsea Ballamore: you give no compation on how i feel
Cassius Faux: I'm getting my daily shit before I forget. You started up your game too and I didn't react like this did I?
Cassius Faux: So stop.
Chelsea Ballamore: i wasnt playing, nor this is my type of game either
Cassius Faux: And I'm getting my daily login thing.
Chelsea Ballamore: i cant believe oyu are just careless like that, not even an apologize, not even a promise to never do it again, just a i am going to keep him anyway, go fuck yourself chel i do whatever i want
Chelsea Ballamore: you prefer to hurt me than him
Cassius Faux: I did apologize.
Cassius Faux: Or, tried at least.
Cassius Faux: But you weren't accepting.
Cassius Faux: You only want what you want.
Chelsea Ballamore: what the point to apologize that way if it wont change anything huh
Chelsea Ballamore: of course, what you want is just me to shut up so you can still fuck him
Cassius Faux: Maybe because you haven't given even the slightest chance past it for anything.
Chelsea Ballamore: you never agve me any chance, you hiden it on my back, after promising me over and over that we were special and it was just us
Chelsea Ballamore: you fucked him before even the last time you told me i was special to you and you would only erp with me
Chelsea Ballamore: you lied on purpose and you knew it
Cassius Faux: And I said I was sorry for not telling you of the minor things we did.
Cassius Faux: That was one of the first things I did.
Cassius Faux: I admitted I shouldn't have done it, and should have told you that I did.
Chelsea Ballamore: you havent said you would stop doing it either
Chelsea Ballamore: and how do i know, even if you say that, that you wont do shit on my back again and keep it secret with him huh
Cassius Faux: You don't. Just like I didn't know I was the only one you did stuff with.
Cassius Faux: Because with all the art, and comments in your streams, all of that
Cassius Faux: That made me think you were.
Cassius Faux: The names people gave you, the names you gave them
Chelsea Ballamore: you know very well my art is my income, and that the only reason why i am capable to pay my medical bills
Chelsea Ballamore: i would have been dead already without this
Chelsea Ballamore: why do you think i dont draw anymore lately and struggle
Chelsea Ballamore: you think i am happy to draw my character as a whore ?
Chelsea Ballamore: you think it make me smile to know that i cant stop people from calling me a slut, and hit on me, otherwise i loose them as commissioner
Chelsea Ballamore: do you even see how much i spend in medical bills alone and how much i suffer
Cassius Faux: I know that it is.
Chelsea Ballamore: alway sbeing in pain, forcing myself to try to enjoy it to please you when i am capable to rp
Chelsea Ballamore: and because i am so sick i cant give you daily care, you just go elsewhere, like i am nothing anymore
Cassius Faux: But I didn't know you didn't like to.
Chelsea Ballamore: i want a discord group chat with alexander and you, and i want to see you typing that you will never ever do any sexual play with him, nor collar or pet or family, and drop the pet names.
Cassius Faux: It was bad communication on both of our parts.
Chelsea Ballamore: then hurry with your game and fix this, i want a 100% proof that it will never happen with him or anyone else ever again
Cassius Faux: It can't even be done tonight. He went to bed already.
Chelsea Ballamore: then tomorrow, if you trully care for me, you will respect that, if you dont, then we are enemies
Chelsea Ballamore: dont put me in the bad guy role, because i never asked you to lie
Chelsea Ballamore: you cant expect to hurt me and think i will take it as a pat on the back after how much i fuckign suffer still trying to make you happy
Chelsea Ballamore: fix it with this group chat tomorrow, and i want a screen share over teamviewer as a solid 100% proof that you are not ploting on my back. then i will allow you to stay with him. if you have nothign to hide, and if you are honest, this shouldnt be a problem
Chelsea Ballamore: or you can continue to be dishonest with me, but liek i said, i will take everything down as i can, because i wont have anything to lose, i alreayd lost everything in my life, you were the last spark of happiness i had
Chelsea Ballamore: so i want you to agree with teamviewer and this group chat tomorrow. redeem yourself
Chelsea Ballamore: do we have a deal ?
Cassius Faux: I will see.
Cassius Faux: It will depend on if he wants to or not.
Cassius Faux: The group.
Chelsea Ballamore: he doesnt want to loose you, so i am sure he will accept
Chelsea Ballamore: regardless of the group, do you agree with my request, because i DO want teamviewer, to know 100% that you are honest with me
Cassius Faux: He didn't want to lose you either.
Chelsea Ballamore: he doesnt even know me
Chelsea Ballamore: we talked like 2 times
Chelsea Ballamore: he cling to people, especially all ym close friends, tryign to fuck everyone in ym group chat
Chelsea Ballamore: you make me regret you pulling you into groups
Cassius Faux: Maybe it was a mistake. I don't know
Chelsea Ballamore: yes it was, i wanted you to be happy and have friend, be more social than just space engineers
Chelsea Ballamore: but look at the end what i get
Chelsea Ballamore: you get attached to people by hurting me
Chelsea Ballamore: i dont understand why you allowed this, when you gave me those promises so often
Chelsea Ballamore: you promised me multipel times, not just once, that what we did was special just between us, and it would remain that why
Chelsea Ballamore: and now this guy tell me you been knotting and suckign each other for a veyr long time
Chelsea Ballamore: just why did you do that to me
Chelsea Ballamore: what did i deserve in this life that you hurt me
Cassius Faux: I didn't mean to hurt you Chelsea.
Chelsea Ballamore: i lost my family, i lost the only relationship i had from a suicide, i am ill like helll, i have so many problem, why did you do that to me
Chelsea Ballamore: if you want to keep me and fix this situation, i want teamviewer installed, goes both way. i want to regain trust in you
Chelsea Ballamore: the only reaosn why you would decline would be is you want to hide or lie to me more
Chelsea Ballamore: if you are honest, it wont be a problem for oyu ebcause there is nothing to hide
Cassius Faux: I will see if I can get it working on my PC. Last time I tried it didnt work, but that was when Windows 10 first came out. So there should be a windows 10 version.
Chelsea Ballamore: there is yes
Chelsea Ballamore: you still havent replied to me to my question
Chelsea Ballamore: do you agree to fix this situation, and no longer do anything sexual with him, including collar and the "floof" part, because that was something intimate between us
Cassius Faux: To be honest. Even if I did I don't think you'd trust me about it anyways.
Chelsea Ballamore: that why iw ant teamviewer
Chelsea Ballamore: i want to see it from all perspective
Chelsea Ballamore: this is the only way you can calm me down, and not ruin anyone, and this si the only way you wont loose both of us
Chelsea Ballamore: and give me your discord name
Chelsea Ballamore: so ?