Anxiety Conversation

Babylonius — Today at 11:02 AM
So like I mentioned in the midweek channel, I’m reaching out to everyone to get their thoughts and opinions on a variety of things.

Before I get to the more targeted questions, is there anything you want to get off your chest about your own play, the team, the raid, the people, the game, anything?

Death💀 — Today at 11:05 AM
give me just a couple mins just got showered need a few mins

Babylonius — Today at 11:11 AM
No worries

Death💀 — Today at 11:24 AM
Alrighty then, not even sure where to begin lol my brain isn't fully awake this morning and didn't fully expect this, i had just read that post in midweek right before i hopped in the shower lol. I'll start by saying I do really enjoy oe, and i really like a lot of the people/personalities we have in oem. I'm personally a very introverted kind of guy, so i'm not super social or always around doing variety games with the guild as a whole or anything, but i do really enjoy the environment and the guild as a whole. We have definitely been struggling a lot with re clears, to me, more so than we did during prog for each of the bosses. As much as i'd like to break down all the reasons we struggle on individual bosses, i genuinely couldn't tell you unless I deep dive into logs which i've never really been that great at. Like I can say, yeah all of our wipes are because early deaths but without breaking down every death and the reasoning behind it, there's no telling, plus there's always context behind a death, it could be so much more than just a misplay by 1 individual. I do think there's information to be looked at regarding some of the same people who die consistently to a lot of the same mistakes, I just don't know how to go about it or any solutions. Like yeah I can look and see a lot of people are dying to their own mistakes, and a lot of people are still not using heathstones whichi imo is very bad. Its like some of our raiders need to be told to use the heathstone to use it, otherwise they won't and will sometimes rot without pressing anything to try and live. There were many times lastnight for example where I had to use a healthstone on p1 of sire for example, just to live.
Otherwise I would have 10000% rotted to just raid damage, I feel like others are either too greedy with their healthstone/pot, need to be told to use it, forget it's even there, or maybe even they feel silly to use it in p1, when there's another 10 minutes to go but sometimes you just gotta do what you gotta do. Especially on nights where we have newer people in on the fight like orin, or would constantly cleave during p1 and spawn 10000 extra adds

Death💀 — Today at 11:31 AM
As for my own play, this tier has been very up and down for me, for many reasons. I'm straight up not a fan of CN, nor am I a fan of SL as a whole. Raiding is really big for me, more so these days than before now that I play this game pretty solo outside of raid. I enjoy raiding on most days, not all. And I enjoy trying to be the best that I can be every single time I step foot into raid. That's one thing about me, it doesn't matter if its pull 1 of SLG wipes for the night or pull 35, You can expect me to do the same shit pretty much every single pull and unless I get hard cucked or I make a mistake myself, which does happen, you can expect me to be alive. Again sorry my brain isn't awake and im rambling back and forth about random shit lol but I'm trying here. I will say, even though I'm not a fan of CN or SL as a whole, I do still enjoy raiding with the boys on raid nights. And until I'm truly unhappy with it, I do plan on being here. I'm no the type of raider to just bail on you guys without saying anything, or just to burn out of no where. If I have any problems, I'll come to you guys straight up, Jake knows this first hand. And for me personally, this week's re clear wasn't shit lol I've been raiding for a very long time, and before OE I was in massacre scene for over 7 years non stop, not a single break from the game. Even when the gm took a break, I stepped up. Now that's not something I'm interested in these days at all, but it does show I can have some tough skin, and hard struggling on a few bosses isn't enough to break me, i
I've been through it all when it comes to this game and raiding XD, fallen avatar couldn't break me, SLG sure as fuck can't
I've just been trying to find a personal purpose for myself this tier which i've struggled with a bit. I do really enjoy parsing and i'm normally pushing to be rank 1 in the world but I've honestly kinda given up on that in CN. I ended nylotha rank 2 for dk, and had the goal of rank 1 for this tier, but they truely fucking ruined parsing this tier with PI, blessing of the seasons, benevolent faerie, like I just cba lol. I do still try my best in raid and I do still try my best to out perform every other dk out there, but I'm also realistic and it's just not even close to being possible for me to get even close to rank 20 let alone rank 1
That's about all i can come up with off the top of my head atm, as far as my thoughts go. Again I was just rambling and typing as I go kinda thing, while trying to think of everything I could

Babylonius — Today at 11:40 AM
Thats all good stuff and things I was going to ask about, don't worry about the rambling, thats kind of what I'm looking for, just all the thoughts.

Death💀 — Today at 11:43 AM
Good good, and let me just clarify on this comment really quickly I made, "And for me personally, this week's re clear wasn't shit lol"
This weeks raid was absolutely fucking dogshit lol
I was just saying in comparison to raids I've seen or had in the past
But we absolutely dropped the ball hard this week

Babylonius — Today at 11:47 AM
I agree, and after struggling on SLG the week before, its a big part of why I wanted to reach out to everyone and see how they're feeling. The officers spent almost two hours last night talking about solutions and things we can do, and these conversations are step 1 to trying to fix some of the problems.
Overall we've been happy with your performance. There were some issues with you on early sludgefist progression as you were a nightmare to get paired with, but those solved themselves before we got the kill. Other than that we fell that you've been a strong part of the team this tier.

Death💀 — Today at 11:54 AM
Yeah sludge was a bit different for me, but in my defense you gotta understand I had maybe 1 hour total playtime on sludge prog, i would randomly get tossed in, and then you guys all had your set melee posistioning, and I was in the dark a bit on my few pulls outside of you messaging me the one time to tell me my positioning was bad, I've since done pretty well on sludge i'd say outside of a few little things here and there, and on my 1 and only kill I ran to the tank soak for some reason idk why I did but I did XD but I can definitely agree that sludge was my worst fight all tier and the rest I felt like I played pretty well on. I choked on shriekwing intermission a couple of times but it usually didn't even result in deaths, just a mess.
Our SLG is definitely the worst by far though, more so than sire for sure

Babylonius — Today at 11:59 AM
I agree
Well I'm reaching out to everyone, so if there's anything that pops into you mind over the next few days, please reach out.

Death💀 — Today at 12:00 PM
For sure, you as well if anything comes up you wanted to ask go for it I'll be here

Babylonius — Today at 12:02 PM
I will, thanks for the time

Babylonius — Today at 2:47 PM
One thing I forgot to ask that I'm trying to ask everyone is whether or not you feel that you personally need to take a week or two off, or whehter you think the team, as a whole, would benefit from such.
Our research showed that a large portion of guilds took a week or few off after killing Sire, so I was interested in people's opinions on it

Death💀 — Today at 2:54 PM
Me personally, no I dont need a week or two off, but I wouldn't be opposed either. Both options are completely fine to me personally atm. Do I think the team would benefit from a break as a whole, no. Unless it came back that like 60% of the team would like a break off, I think just running from our problems is the wrong approach, I think we should work harder on improving our weak points for next tier maybe, and getting a lot more consistent
right now the things we're most consistent at, is dying to unavoidable things and pulling the boss at 2 seconds

Babylonius — Today at 2:59 PM
lol
you are not incorrect at all
So Prodding a little bit more, is there anything that you think me, as the GM, or the officers can do different or better to help the team?

Death💀 — Today at 3:04 PM
As someone who was an officer for quite awhile, I genuinely think you guys do a lot already and at some point we have to just be better players as individuals. You guys can only do so much tbh
Can only tell someone so many times to not AD spam with lines on denathrius, or use healthstones when low, or not cleave in p1 denathrius, or not to stand on the wrong side of the boss in SLG

Babylonius — Today at 3:06 PM
That's technically true, but doesn't mean that we couldnt do more

Death💀 — Today at 3:06 PM
Its up to us to actually do our part
Yeah i mean everyone could do more, in anything in their life
but there needs to be a balance
you guys do so much and i know its already like a parttime job lol ive been there
you cant make it a full time job
unless you guys truely want that

Babylonius — Today at 3:08 PM
nah, thats what I have with the Monk discord and stuff, i have enough jobs

Death💀 — Today at 3:12 PM
And adding even more to your plate isn't something you need or want it's only going to make the game more of a chore when it should be fun to play, when in reality the extra work that would be put in might not do anything for us at all in the long run. Idk what more can be done atm unless you guys sat down with people individually who are under performing and try to help them improve with certain things but even that is a stretch imo

Babylonius — Today at 3:17 PM
Well I can tell you that is somethign we have been doing

Death💀 — Today at 3:23 PM
Gotcha well its one of the only suggestions i could think of and had no clue you guys did that, which is a good thing for me i guess lmao. Other than that just some minor things, like using our healthstones/pots a lot more, using personals a lot more, including fleshcraft for our necrolords. Wurzel and dan die a lot and i can almost promise you they're not using fleshcraft as often as they could be, for both the shield and the wall aspect it offers. It's really damn strong I love it. We can use dps pots A LOT more, and have healers using pots/dpsing a lot more when we can. Tbh, for denathrius specifically, I can almost guarantee you we can make that p1 push without having to hold dps, if we had people using pots and trying to push, and had our healers dpsing when they can. Or like SLG, we are getting screwed over by seismic coming out at bad times right as we go into intermission 2, a lot of that we could avoid with just dps pots to push it faster, even skip those skirmishers maybe if we tried, which would make it so much cleaner as a whole

Babylonius — Today at 3:27 PM
I think those are good points

Death💀 — Today at 3:32 PM
Then i guess that would be my suggestion to the officers, that we bring up some of these points next week and try to focus on improving everything we can, even the small things like I mentioned. Because in the end it will all add up, and it all does matter in someway or another

Babylonius — Today at 3:32 PM
Sounds good, i'll bring them up to the others
I appreciate your thoughts and your time