I suppose I should preface this appeal with the knowledge that I've been banned for behavioural issues multiple times, and the fact I even have to write this appeal reflects pretty poorly on whether or not I'm a good fit for the community.

My previous restrictions have been, needless to say, stupid, one for cheating behaviour, and another for multiple silences and being (for lack of a better word, excuse my British language) a bit of a twat in general, be it by baiting people into arguments in public, or by calling out cheaters in IRC which I've always been aware is forbidden. I've moved past this and I think everyone knows it and that's why I was unbanned the second time, sadly I'm not immune to being a bit of a moron from time to time and that leads me to now.

The act of changing my avatar was a spur of the moment lapse of judgement, there was no malicious intent or ulterior motives, just a funny joke between friends that went wildly out of hand and was misinterpreted. I do not condone mass shooters nor did I attempt to glorify the horrifying acts of the shooter shown in the collab, that'd be utterly stupid given the already thin-ice I stood on given my previous restrictions for behaviour, it was truly just an act performed in a moment of stupidity rather than malice. To reiterate, this was something STUPID that I made as a decision when asked to join the Collab by the other offending user (cool username) in the early hours of the morning, it was a silly joke that I did not have the foresight to see the ramifications of, A repeating occurrence for me at this point I suppose.

I'm truly sorry for what I did, even if it was a complete misunderstanding it was my actions that allowed the misunderstanding to happen and thus the responsibility lies with me. You can rest assured I've really learnt my lessons, the minor silences and silly pranks aren't worth the risk assosciated with them anymore. I don't want to lose my osu! account over some jokes that aren't really that funny to me, or to anyone else anymore. I don't want to be known as the person who was so poorly behaved they got permanently banned and not for cheating.

I've always genuinely cared for osu! as shown by my activity reporting cheaters and keeping the game as clean as I can as an entry-level user, this game really does mean a lot to me and I have so many friends here who I just want to talk to again and experience the game as usual without feeling like a branded moron.

I know that I've always been one to "push my luck" and the fact I'm even able to appeal right now is out of the mutual "good-will" between us(?), I've always tried to repay the game for what I've done be it by reporting cheaters or other means. I just ask for a final chance to prove that I am different, that I'm not the same kid who got banned for cheating all those years ago, that I'm not the same teenager who got banned for being deliberately hard to handle, allow me to show that I'm an adult, and know how to conduct myself as one. Thank you.

-Dawnsday