Advertisement
Not a member of Pastebin yet?
Sign Up,
it unlocks many cool features!
- 1
- 00:00:51,820 --> 00:00:56,820
- Subtitles by explosiveskull
- 2
- 00:01:25,483 --> 00:01:31,388
- <i>♪ Earth stood hard as iron ♪</i>
- 3
- 00:01:31,390 --> 00:01:37,326
- <i>♪ Water like a stone ♪</i>
- 4
- 00:01:37,328 --> 00:01:40,430
- <i>♪ Snow had fallen ♪</i>
- 5
- 00:01:40,432 --> 00:01:43,433
- <i>♪ Snow on snow ♪</i>
- 6
- 00:01:43,435 --> 00:01:46,502
- <i>♪ Snow on snow ♪</i>
- 7
- 00:01:46,504 --> 00:01:48,640
- Stand up straight.
- 8
- 00:01:50,242 --> 00:01:51,675
- Meant to be quiet.
- 9
- 00:01:51,677 --> 00:01:54,744
- <i>♪ In the bleak midwinter ♪</i>
- 10
- 00:01:54,746 --> 00:01:56,547
- - Liam! Liam!
- - Ba-a-a!
- 11
- 00:01:56,549 --> 00:01:57,681
- <i>♪ Long, long ago ♪</i>
- 12
- 00:01:57,683 --> 00:01:58,714
- - Ba-a-a!
- - Sh-sh-sh!
- 13
- 00:01:58,716 --> 00:02:00,652
- - Hi!
- - What are you doing?
- 14
- 00:02:01,719 --> 00:02:03,419
- Ba-a-a!
- 15
- 00:02:03,421 --> 00:02:04,520
- Ba-a-a!
- 16
- 00:02:04,522 --> 00:02:07,523
- <i>♪ Heaven cannot hold Him ♪</i>
- 17
- 00:02:07,525 --> 00:02:11,865
- <i>♪ Nor earth sustain ♪</i>
- 18
- 00:02:25,311 --> 00:02:27,244
- OK, everyone
- into your position.
- 19
- 00:02:27,246 --> 00:02:30,513
- I'm missing a sheep
- and an angel.
- 20
- 00:02:30,515 --> 00:02:31,748
- Has anyone...
- 21
- 00:02:31,750 --> 00:02:33,584
- Oh, there you are.
- 22
- 00:02:33,586 --> 00:02:34,750
- Liam, Lacey.
- 23
- 00:02:34,752 --> 00:02:36,586
- Do you wanna
- come join us?
- 24
- 00:02:36,588 --> 00:02:37,687
- Not really.
- 25
- 00:02:37,689 --> 00:02:39,256
- But we need you.
- 26
- 00:02:39,258 --> 00:02:40,291
- What?
- 27
- 00:02:40,293 --> 00:02:42,459
- Do you know how we come
- to church once a year?
- 28
- 00:02:42,461 --> 00:02:45,294
- - Do you wanna come every Sunday?
- - No!
- 29
- 00:02:45,296 --> 00:02:46,929
- Sh-sh-sh! OK.
- 30
- 00:02:46,931 --> 00:02:49,268
- We have to make
- tonight count.
- 31
- 00:02:50,936 --> 00:02:53,173
- - Go make me proud.
- - OK.
- 32
- 00:03:06,651 --> 00:03:09,720
- <i>♪ The holly and the ivy ♪</i>
- 33
- 00:03:09,722 --> 00:03:11,687
- <i>♪ When they are
- both full grown ♪</i>
- 34
- 00:03:11,689 --> 00:03:13,357
- Quiet!
- 35
- 00:03:13,359 --> 00:03:15,424
- <i>♪ Of all the trees that
- are in the wood ♪</i>
- 36
- 00:03:15,426 --> 00:03:17,893
- - Come on, where's your Christmas spirit, Liam?
- - Quiet!
- 37
- 00:03:17,895 --> 00:03:19,929
- <i>♪ The rising of the sun ♪</i>
- 38
- 00:03:19,931 --> 00:03:21,330
- Quiet!
- 39
- 00:03:21,332 --> 00:03:23,802
- <i>♪ And the running
- of the deer ♪</i>
- 40
- 00:03:33,444 --> 00:03:36,412
- Hey, you guys. You guys.
- 41
- 00:03:36,414 --> 00:03:38,281
- Good kids...
- 42
- 00:03:38,283 --> 00:03:39,316
- get better gifts.
- 43
- 00:03:40,919 --> 00:03:43,019
- Wait a minute.
- You did not just do that.
- 44
- 00:03:43,021 --> 00:03:44,687
- I did. You noticed
- that, didn't you?
- 45
- 00:03:44,689 --> 00:03:46,590
- - I did it because it works.
- - That's not fair.
- 46
- 00:03:46,592 --> 00:03:48,858
- - It worked on you for years.
- - You didn't do it to me.
- 47
- 00:03:48,860 --> 00:03:49,959
- Always, always.
- 48
- 00:03:49,961 --> 00:03:50,960
- Look, we're home!
- 49
- 00:03:53,966 --> 00:03:56,365
- What?
- 50
- 00:03:56,367 --> 00:03:57,366
- What the...
- 51
- 00:03:59,671 --> 00:04:00,971
- Oh, my God.
- 52
- 00:04:03,942 --> 00:04:06,980
- Mom. Mom.
- No. Don't!
- 53
- 00:04:14,986 --> 00:04:17,257
- Oh, my God.
- I can't believe it.
- 54
- 00:04:18,589 --> 00:04:19,723
- Hi, Mom.
- 55
- 00:04:19,725 --> 00:04:21,791
- Oh, let me see you.
- Is it you?
- 56
- 00:04:21,793 --> 00:04:24,029
- Is that Ben?
- 57
- 00:04:26,764 --> 00:04:28,332
- Come on. Look.
- 58
- 00:04:28,334 --> 00:04:29,800
- - It's Ben.
- - Yeah, it is Ben.
- 59
- 00:04:29,802 --> 00:04:31,567
- Take hold of my hand.
- Come on. Hurry!
- 60
- 00:04:31,569 --> 00:04:32,902
- Oh, my God.
- I was just...
- 61
- 00:04:32,904 --> 00:04:34,870
- I was truly just wondering.
- 62
- 00:04:34,872 --> 00:04:36,873
- Just wondering what if.
- 63
- 00:04:36,875 --> 00:04:38,742
- Ben!
- 64
- 00:04:38,744 --> 00:04:40,013
- Don't let go.
- 65
- 00:04:46,451 --> 00:04:48,385
- So, my roommate,
- Timmy, has two years,
- 66
- 00:04:48,387 --> 00:04:50,486
- and is, like,
- a recovery rockstar.
- 67
- 00:04:50,488 --> 00:04:52,389
- And he offers me
- a free ride.
- 68
- 00:04:52,391 --> 00:04:54,457
- And I was like,
- "Yeah, I'm down."
- 69
- 00:04:54,459 --> 00:04:58,495
- But I'm thinkin', there's no way
- my sponsor's gonna go for this.
- 70
- 00:04:58,497 --> 00:04:59,596
- But he did?
- 71
- 00:04:59,598 --> 00:05:01,630
- But he did because
- that's how good I'm doing.
- 72
- 00:05:01,632 --> 00:05:03,599
- Wow, honey.
- 73
- 00:05:03,601 --> 00:05:05,901
- So, Timmy's mom and dad and
- his little brother pick us up.
- 74
- 00:05:05,903 --> 00:05:07,570
- I'm squeezed in the middle.
- 75
- 00:05:07,572 --> 00:05:08,637
- They're very Christian.
- 76
- 00:05:08,639 --> 00:05:09,839
- They're all super healthy.
- 77
- 00:05:09,841 --> 00:05:10,841
- They don't even
- drink caffeine.
- 78
- 00:05:11,843 --> 00:05:12,909
- Great.
- 79
- 00:05:12,911 --> 00:05:14,110
- Mom, Ben is feeding Ponce.
- 80
- 00:05:14,112 --> 00:05:15,878
- Oh, yeah. Guilty.
- 81
- 00:05:15,880 --> 00:05:17,748
- Bread is bad for his teeth.
- 82
- 00:05:17,750 --> 00:05:19,815
- I think a little
- bit is OK, honey.
- 83
- 00:05:19,817 --> 00:05:21,418
- OK. Go on.
- 84
- 00:05:21,420 --> 00:05:23,553
- OK, so we're, like,
- 10 minutes into the ride,
- 85
- 00:05:23,555 --> 00:05:26,055
- and suddenly
- there's this smell
- 86
- 00:05:26,057 --> 00:05:27,656
- that just hangs there.
- 87
- 00:05:27,658 --> 00:05:28,858
- And it's a...
- 88
- 00:05:28,860 --> 00:05:30,394
- And just when
- it starts to clear,
- 89
- 00:05:30,396 --> 00:05:33,796
- another cloud of... of
- stink is unleashed.
- 90
- 00:05:33,798 --> 00:05:35,464
- - Wait, it's human?
- - Mm-hmm.
- 91
- 00:05:35,466 --> 00:05:36,800
- - Oh, my God.
- - It was the silent but deadly kind.
- 92
- 00:05:36,802 --> 00:05:37,868
- Oh, my God.
- 93
- 00:05:37,870 --> 00:05:39,569
- That's the worst kind.
- 94
- 00:05:39,571 --> 00:05:41,538
- This is great.
- So great.
- 95
- 00:05:41,540 --> 00:05:42,772
- You know, Ponce,
- 96
- 00:05:42,774 --> 00:05:44,974
- all of us in
- the kitchen.
- 97
- 00:05:44,976 --> 00:05:46,476
- You happy.
- 98
- 00:05:46,478 --> 00:05:47,577
- Zip me, please.
- 99
- 00:05:47,579 --> 00:05:48,779
- Oh, you got one on.
- 100
- 00:05:48,781 --> 00:05:49,846
- Good job. OK.
- 101
- 00:05:49,848 --> 00:05:50,846
- Leave these on.
- 102
- 00:05:50,848 --> 00:05:52,548
- - OK? All right.
- - Bye!
- 103
- 00:05:52,550 --> 00:05:53,617
- - Be smart.
- - Bye!
- 104
- 00:05:53,619 --> 00:05:54,784
- All right.
- 105
- 00:05:54,786 --> 00:05:56,586
- - Then what happened?
- - OK, so,
- 106
- 00:05:56,588 --> 00:05:58,721
- we're trapped in the back and
- the farts just keep on coming.
- 107
- 00:05:58,723 --> 00:06:00,156
- Front door.
- 108
- 00:06:00,158 --> 00:06:02,726
- And so, I'm thinking, surely
- someone is gonna say sorry.
- 109
- 00:06:02,728 --> 00:06:04,060
- - Or excuse me...
- - Excuse me. Yes.
- 110
- 00:06:04,062 --> 00:06:05,728
- Or, like, maybe
- crack a window.
- 111
- 00:06:05,730 --> 00:06:07,663
- But, no, they act like
- nothing is wrong.
- 112
- 00:06:07,665 --> 00:06:08,697
- Oh, my God.
- 113
- 00:06:08,699 --> 00:06:09,933
- So, I just said,
- 114
- 00:06:09,935 --> 00:06:11,635
- "You know, you can
- let me out here."
- 115
- 00:06:11,637 --> 00:06:12,868
- Mom?
- 116
- 00:06:12,870 --> 00:06:14,204
- It's not that funny.
- 117
- 00:06:14,206 --> 00:06:15,572
- But it is.
- 118
- 00:06:15,574 --> 00:06:17,673
- So, I just hiked the
- rest of the way home.
- 119
- 00:06:17,675 --> 00:06:18,875
- You didn't!
- 120
- 00:06:20,946 --> 00:06:22,779
- Oh, they did it again. Ugh.
- 121
- 00:06:22,781 --> 00:06:25,649
- - Rascals.
- - All right. You're gonna regret this.
- 122
- 00:06:25,651 --> 00:06:26,985
- Oh, go get 'em.
- 123
- 00:06:28,821 --> 00:06:30,553
- The big brother.
- 124
- 00:06:30,555 --> 00:06:31,923
- Aah!
- 125
- 00:06:50,242 --> 00:06:51,640
- Mom? Mom?
- 126
- 00:06:51,642 --> 00:06:54,043
- Did you see? He's gained
- some weight and...
- 127
- 00:06:54,045 --> 00:06:56,146
- he's got the sparkle
- back in his eyes.
- 128
- 00:06:56,148 --> 00:06:58,113
- He's clearly doing better.
- 129
- 00:06:58,115 --> 00:06:59,716
- Then why are you
- hiding everything?
- 130
- 00:06:59,718 --> 00:07:00,851
- You know why.
- 131
- 00:07:00,853 --> 00:07:02,885
- Sad. Having to hide.
- 132
- 00:07:02,887 --> 00:07:05,087
- Well, I would do
- the same for you.
- 133
- 00:07:05,089 --> 00:07:07,257
- But you'll never have to.
- 134
- 00:07:07,259 --> 00:07:10,560
- Sweetie, I've got a very
- good feeling about this.
- 135
- 00:07:10,562 --> 00:07:11,661
- Well, I don't.
- 136
- 00:07:11,663 --> 00:07:14,531
- Listen. This time will
- be different. You'll see.
- 137
- 00:07:14,533 --> 00:07:16,132
- It will.
- 138
- 00:07:16,134 --> 00:07:17,868
- Mom?
- 139
- 00:07:17,870 --> 00:07:19,269
- Why is he here anyway?
- 140
- 00:07:19,271 --> 00:07:22,538
- Weren't we supposed to
- go visit him tomorrow?
- 141
- 00:07:23,675 --> 00:07:24,740
- OK, you need to
- go watch him.
- 142
- 00:07:24,742 --> 00:07:26,108
- No.
- 143
- 00:07:26,110 --> 00:07:27,676
- No, he'll think
- I'm spying.
- 144
- 00:07:27,678 --> 00:07:30,747
- No, then just, uh, film
- him on your phone then.
- 145
- 00:07:30,749 --> 00:07:32,615
- Hmm?
- 146
- 00:07:32,617 --> 00:07:33,617
- Are you serious?
- 147
- 00:07:33,619 --> 00:07:34,750
- Yes, Ivy.
- 148
- 00:07:34,752 --> 00:07:35,851
- Now.
- 149
- 00:07:37,154 --> 00:07:39,288
- - Yeah?
- - I want hot chocolate.
- 150
- 00:07:46,098 --> 00:07:48,298
- Go, go, go!
- 151
- 00:07:49,535 --> 00:07:50,834
- What are you doing?
- 152
- 00:07:50,836 --> 00:07:53,637
- I'm making a video
- of holiday highlights.
- 153
- 00:07:56,708 --> 00:07:58,811
- - Run!
- - No, hurry!
- 154
- 00:08:12,156 --> 00:08:13,957
- Hurry, hurry!
- 155
- 00:08:23,701 --> 00:08:24,868
- Come here, boy!
- 156
- 00:08:24,870 --> 00:08:26,803
- Come on, Ponce!
- 157
- 00:08:28,706 --> 00:08:30,307
- Let's go!
- 158
- 00:08:42,687 --> 00:08:43,954
- Don't do that.
- 159
- 00:08:43,956 --> 00:08:45,055
- No...
- 160
- 00:08:58,302 --> 00:09:02,173
- <i>♪ When Ben was ten ♪</i>
- 161
- 00:09:03,708 --> 00:09:07,279
- <i>♪ Lacy was a baby ♪</i>
- 162
- 00:09:08,379 --> 00:09:11,583
- <i>♪ When Ben was ten ♪</i>
- 163
- 00:09:12,783 --> 00:09:15,986
- <i>♪ Liam was a maybe ♪</i>
- 164
- 00:09:15,988 --> 00:09:17,290
- What about Ivy?
- 165
- 00:09:19,191 --> 00:09:22,858
- <i>♪ And now we're all here ♪</i>
- 166
- 00:09:22,860 --> 00:09:25,996
- <i>♪ So let's go crazy ♪</i>
- 167
- 00:09:25,998 --> 00:09:28,864
- <i>♪ Let's go crazy! ♪</i>
- 168
- 00:09:28,866 --> 00:09:31,800
- <i>♪ Who's gonna help me today? ♪</i>
- 169
- 00:09:31,802 --> 00:09:33,236
- Neal?
- 170
- 00:09:33,238 --> 00:09:36,042
- <i>♪ We're going crazy ♪</i>
- 171
- 00:09:36,975 --> 00:09:38,407
- I got it under control.
- 172
- 00:09:38,409 --> 00:09:41,744
- Ivy called, texted.
- Why didn't you?
- 173
- 00:09:41,746 --> 00:09:43,079
- <i>♪ Let's go crazy ♪</i>
- 174
- 00:09:43,081 --> 00:09:47,286
- <i>♪ Let's go crazy! ♪</i>
- 175
- 00:09:50,022 --> 00:09:51,324
- Hey, Neal.
- 176
- 00:09:52,423 --> 00:09:55,025
- Hey, Ben.
- 177
- 00:09:55,027 --> 00:09:58,862
- How about 15 extra minutes of
- screen time starting right now?
- 178
- 00:09:58,864 --> 00:10:00,199
- Yay!
- 179
- 00:10:04,836 --> 00:10:06,238
- We better hurry up!
- 180
- 00:10:08,940 --> 00:10:10,242
- I'm... I'm confused.
- 181
- 00:10:12,977 --> 00:10:15,146
- I thought we had
- an understanding.
- 182
- 00:10:16,847 --> 00:10:18,381
- The therapists.
- 183
- 00:10:18,383 --> 00:10:19,348
- The doctors.
- 184
- 00:10:19,350 --> 00:10:22,451
- Everyone, even... even
- you, agreed that it's in
- 185
- 00:10:22,453 --> 00:10:24,153
- your best interest
- 186
- 00:10:24,155 --> 00:10:26,222
- not to be home yet.
- 187
- 00:10:26,224 --> 00:10:27,156
- I know.
- 188
- 00:10:27,158 --> 00:10:30,859
- There's too many
- triggers for you here.
- 189
- 00:10:30,861 --> 00:10:32,061
- That was months ago.
- 190
- 00:10:32,063 --> 00:10:33,930
- And, and, and
- your sponsor said...
- 191
- 00:10:33,932 --> 00:10:36,733
- Please, let... let Ben
- tell me, please.
- 192
- 00:10:36,735 --> 00:10:37,733
- Please, honey.
- 193
- 00:10:37,735 --> 00:10:40,002
- OK, I know...
- 194
- 00:10:40,004 --> 00:10:42,204
- I know I really fucked up
- last Christmas.
- 195
- 00:10:42,206 --> 00:10:44,210
- And the one before that.
- 196
- 00:10:46,344 --> 00:10:47,844
- It's true.
- 197
- 00:10:47,846 --> 00:10:51,116
- Yeah, I know I've made
- a lot of mistakes.
- 198
- 00:10:51,850 --> 00:10:54,084
- But...
- 199
- 00:10:54,086 --> 00:10:55,819
- Now, since I'm doing so good,
- 200
- 00:10:55,821 --> 00:10:59,455
- and... and with all the support
- I'm getting and...
- 201
- 00:10:59,457 --> 00:11:02,358
- w-with my sponsor?
- 202
- 00:11:02,360 --> 00:11:05,261
- I honestly didn't
- think I'd ever...
- 203
- 00:11:05,263 --> 00:11:06,699
- feel this good again.
- 204
- 00:11:11,903 --> 00:11:13,368
- What? You don't believe me?
- 205
- 00:11:13,370 --> 00:11:14,469
- Sweetie, we do.
- 206
- 00:11:14,471 --> 00:11:17,239
- Which is why she hid all
- the meds and the jewelry.
- 207
- 00:11:17,241 --> 00:11:19,844
- I was just removing
- the temptation.
- 208
- 00:11:21,913 --> 00:11:24,917
- Wow. Fuck. You're all
- still scared of me.
- 209
- 00:11:26,884 --> 00:11:30,423
- Which is the last thing
- I wanna make any of you feel.
- 210
- 00:11:33,958 --> 00:11:36,861
- You should just... you
- should take me back.
- 211
- 00:11:43,501 --> 00:11:45,103
- Mom, take me back.
- 212
- 00:11:48,240 --> 00:11:50,205
- <i>Front door.</i>
- 213
- 00:11:52,110 --> 00:11:54,911
- - Mom?
- - You should have known better.
- 214
- 00:11:54,913 --> 00:11:56,246
- Don't blame him.
- 215
- 00:11:56,248 --> 00:11:58,147
- It's my fault.
- 216
- 00:11:58,149 --> 00:12:00,983
- When he called and asked
- what I wanted for Christmas,
- 217
- 00:12:00,985 --> 00:12:03,085
- I shouldn't have
- said him home.
- 218
- 00:12:03,087 --> 00:12:04,253
- That's what you said?
- 219
- 00:12:04,255 --> 00:12:06,122
- I wanted him to know
- I missed him.
- 220
- 00:12:06,124 --> 00:12:08,424
- I didn't... I never
- dreamed he would just...
- 221
- 00:12:08,426 --> 00:12:10,359
- show up.
- 222
- 00:12:10,361 --> 00:12:11,460
- Is he in the car?
- 223
- 00:12:11,462 --> 00:12:13,463
- Yup.
- 224
- 00:12:13,465 --> 00:12:15,364
- It's not like he
- came home to stay.
- 225
- 00:12:15,366 --> 00:12:17,934
- Obviously, that can't
- happen right now.
- 226
- 00:12:17,936 --> 00:12:19,334
- It wouldn't be
- good for him.
- 227
- 00:12:19,336 --> 00:12:20,469
- He needs to go back.
- 228
- 00:12:20,471 --> 00:12:22,070
- I agree.
- 229
- 00:12:22,072 --> 00:12:23,339
- And if it weren't Christmas...
- 230
- 00:12:23,341 --> 00:12:25,340
- It's the right
- thing, honey.
- 231
- 00:12:25,342 --> 00:12:26,242
- It is, Mom.
- 232
- 00:12:26,244 --> 00:12:28,011
- We hope. We don't know.
- 233
- 00:12:28,013 --> 00:12:29,445
- I mean, honestly...
- 234
- 00:12:29,447 --> 00:12:32,080
- I'm so goddamn angry at
- the two of you right now.
- 235
- 00:12:32,082 --> 00:12:33,081
- I am.
- 236
- 00:12:33,083 --> 00:12:34,184
- What did I do?
- 237
- 00:12:34,186 --> 00:12:35,951
- You gave up on him.
- 238
- 00:12:35,953 --> 00:12:37,052
- You both have.
- 239
- 00:12:37,054 --> 00:12:39,122
- This is not giving up.
- 240
- 00:12:39,124 --> 00:12:41,424
- - It is.
- - It's... no, it... it's giving a shit,
- 241
- 00:12:41,426 --> 00:12:44,026
- which we do, about
- what's best for him.
- 242
- 00:12:44,028 --> 00:12:45,195
- And for you.
- 243
- 00:12:45,197 --> 00:12:46,863
- You have a problem
- with him, Neal.
- 244
- 00:12:46,865 --> 00:12:49,165
- No, I'm rooting for him,
- but I'm frustrated.
- 245
- 00:12:49,167 --> 00:12:50,867
- He's lucky,
- and we're...
- 246
- 00:12:50,869 --> 00:12:52,368
- - We're playing loose with it.
- - OK, Neal.
- 247
- 00:12:52,370 --> 00:12:54,570
- If he were black,
- he would be in jail by now.
- 248
- 00:12:54,572 --> 00:12:56,138
- Maybe this isn't the time.
- 249
- 00:12:56,140 --> 00:12:58,208
- We said we weren't
- going to do this again.
- 250
- 00:12:58,210 --> 00:12:59,912
- Remember?
- 251
- 00:13:01,413 --> 00:13:03,414
- I remember.
- 252
- 00:13:09,421 --> 00:13:10,923
- Holly?
- 253
- 00:13:11,856 --> 00:13:12,988
- Here's the list.
- 254
- 00:13:12,990 --> 00:13:14,324
- I don't care
- who gets what.
- 255
- 00:13:14,326 --> 00:13:15,224
- Just get it done.
- 256
- 00:13:15,226 --> 00:13:16,995
- Yeah.
- 257
- 00:13:29,206 --> 00:13:31,143
- God, damn it!
- 258
- 00:13:32,076 --> 00:13:34,145
- God, damn it!
- 259
- 00:13:35,480 --> 00:13:37,015
- We're all set.
- 260
- 00:13:48,225 --> 00:13:49,258
- It's okay, Mom.
- 261
- 00:13:49,260 --> 00:13:50,962
- It's for the best.
- 262
- 00:13:53,631 --> 00:13:55,300
- Seat belt, please.
- 263
- 00:14:07,946 --> 00:14:09,378
- Mom.
- 264
- 00:14:09,380 --> 00:14:11,046
- Mom!
- 265
- 00:14:18,023 --> 00:14:19,291
- What?
- 266
- 00:14:21,025 --> 00:14:23,225
- I'm thinking.
- 267
- 00:14:35,005 --> 00:14:37,175
- All right. Come on.
- 268
- 00:14:48,285 --> 00:14:49,618
- OK.
- 269
- 00:14:49,620 --> 00:14:52,722
- Here's the deal, and
- it is not negotiable.
- 270
- 00:14:52,724 --> 00:14:54,293
- You get a day.
- 271
- 00:14:55,125 --> 00:14:56,693
- Are you sure?
- 272
- 00:14:56,695 --> 00:14:59,127
- So long as you pass the drug
- test I'm about to administer.
- 273
- 00:14:59,129 --> 00:15:00,629
- Stay clean while you're here,
- 274
- 00:15:00,631 --> 00:15:03,098
- and that this time tomorrow
- you are back in Sober Living.
- 275
- 00:15:03,100 --> 00:15:04,267
- Yeah, OK.
- 276
- 00:15:04,269 --> 00:15:05,535
- Now, I'm not done.
- 277
- 00:15:05,537 --> 00:15:06,603
- These are our terms,
- 278
- 00:15:06,605 --> 00:15:09,171
- and I don't give a shit
- if you hate these rules.
- 279
- 00:15:09,173 --> 00:15:11,574
- You do not leave
- my sight ever.
- 280
- 00:15:11,576 --> 00:15:14,042
- You do not close
- the door to your room,
- 281
- 00:15:14,044 --> 00:15:16,212
- where, by the way, I will
- be sleeping on the floor,
- 282
- 00:15:16,214 --> 00:15:17,446
- and if you try
- to sneak off,
- 283
- 00:15:17,448 --> 00:15:19,181
- if your bed so much
- as make squeak,
- 284
- 00:15:19,183 --> 00:15:21,084
- I will be all over you
- 285
- 00:15:21,086 --> 00:15:25,356
- because, for the next 24 hours,
- you are mine. All mine. Got it?
- 286
- 00:15:26,157 --> 00:15:27,459
- I got it.
- 287
- 00:15:28,460 --> 00:15:29,392
- Good.
- 288
- 00:15:29,394 --> 00:15:31,096
- Let's get you tested.
- 289
- 00:15:38,470 --> 00:15:40,069
- Mom.
- 290
- 00:15:40,071 --> 00:15:42,504
- Relax, I'm not going to be
- looking at your privates.
- 291
- 00:15:42,506 --> 00:15:43,339
- OK, then.
- 292
- 00:15:43,341 --> 00:15:45,273
- I will be keeping
- my eyes on you.
- 293
- 00:15:45,275 --> 00:15:47,078
- Just like I said.
- 294
- 00:15:51,249 --> 00:15:52,448
- This is so not cool.
- 295
- 00:15:52,450 --> 00:15:55,086
- Nothing about this
- is cool, Ben.
- 296
- 00:15:59,157 --> 00:16:00,189
- Come on, pee-pee time.
- 297
- 00:16:00,191 --> 00:16:01,757
- Shut up.
- 298
- 00:16:03,461 --> 00:16:05,494
- Do you want me to
- turn the faucet on?
- 299
- 00:16:05,496 --> 00:16:06,631
- Stop.
- 300
- 00:16:09,500 --> 00:16:11,633
- - Shh.
- - All right, all right, all right.
- 301
- 00:16:11,635 --> 00:16:14,203
- - Sometimes it helps.
- - Mm-hmm.
- 302
- 00:16:14,205 --> 00:16:15,671
- - What are you doing?
- - OK.
- 303
- 00:16:15,673 --> 00:16:19,175
- - There's a surprise coming.
- - What surprise?
- 304
- 00:16:19,177 --> 00:16:20,343
- Do you trust me?
- 305
- 00:16:20,345 --> 00:16:21,344
- - Yes!
- - Yes, I do.
- 306
- 00:16:21,346 --> 00:16:22,811
- Awesome. That's awesome.
- 307
- 00:16:22,813 --> 00:16:24,546
- Good. Good to hear.
- 308
- 00:16:24,548 --> 00:16:25,415
- All right.
- 309
- 00:16:25,417 --> 00:16:27,282
- - You close your eyes.
- - Yeah.
- 310
- 00:16:27,284 --> 00:16:29,151
- - Can you see anything?
- - No.
- 311
- 00:16:29,153 --> 00:16:30,489
- OK, no peaking.
- 312
- 00:16:33,357 --> 00:16:35,257
- I hear something.
- 313
- 00:16:35,259 --> 00:16:37,660
- - When I was your age, this was my favorite.
- - It's gross.
- 314
- 00:16:37,662 --> 00:16:39,695
- Ivy, chill out.
- 315
- 00:16:39,697 --> 00:16:42,065
- Liam doesn't like crust.
- 316
- 00:16:42,067 --> 00:16:44,269
- There's a crust-less option
- 317
- 00:16:44,802 --> 00:16:46,201
- in the works.
- 318
- 00:16:46,203 --> 00:16:47,538
- Oh, really?
- 319
- 00:16:49,274 --> 00:16:50,640
- Are you two ready?
- 320
- 00:16:50,642 --> 00:16:51,840
- Yes.
- 321
- 00:16:51,842 --> 00:16:53,508
- <i>Back door.</i>
- 322
- 00:16:53,510 --> 00:16:56,481
- OK, open your eyes and feast.
- 323
- 00:17:00,418 --> 00:17:02,350
- - Yum!
- - Right?
- 324
- 00:17:02,352 --> 00:17:04,152
- It's really good.
- 325
- 00:17:04,154 --> 00:17:05,421
- What have you done?
- 326
- 00:17:05,423 --> 00:17:07,222
- I know. I know.
- There's no going back.
- 327
- 00:17:07,224 --> 00:17:11,393
- Mm-hmm. More, please!
- 328
- 00:17:11,395 --> 00:17:13,662
- But Ashley's
- wings have glitter.
- 329
- 00:17:13,664 --> 00:17:17,232
- Well, we are going to bedazzle
- these things like crazy.
- 330
- 00:17:17,234 --> 00:17:18,834
- Mom, seriously,
- they're so good.
- 331
- 00:17:18,836 --> 00:17:20,236
- I don't want to brag.
- 332
- 00:17:20,238 --> 00:17:22,270
- Well, yeah, I do.
- These are gonna be good.
- 333
- 00:17:26,711 --> 00:17:28,212
- Ben?
- 334
- 00:17:40,290 --> 00:17:42,859
- Boy. Hey, buddy.
- 335
- 00:17:47,231 --> 00:17:48,230
- Hi Mama.
- 336
- 00:17:48,232 --> 00:17:50,298
- You knew it.
- 337
- 00:17:50,300 --> 00:17:52,301
- You came back for Ponce.
- 338
- 00:17:52,303 --> 00:17:54,202
- Busted.
- 339
- 00:17:54,204 --> 00:17:55,473
- Actually, no.
- 340
- 00:18:05,849 --> 00:18:07,752
- OK, let's party.
- 341
- 00:18:12,390 --> 00:18:13,555
- You know, I really
- wouldn't appreciate it if you leave me.
- 342
- 00:18:13,557 --> 00:18:14,757
- - <i>Holly.</i>
- - Hi.
- 343
- 00:18:14,759 --> 00:18:15,691
- <i>How'd the test go?</i>
- 344
- 00:18:15,693 --> 00:18:17,626
- - Negative.
- - <i>That's great.</i>
- 345
- 00:18:17,628 --> 00:18:18,594
- Yeah.
- 346
- 00:18:18,596 --> 00:18:20,729
- And he's
- helping out with chores.
- 347
- 00:18:20,731 --> 00:18:23,199
- - <i>Really?</i>
- - <i>Mm-hmm.</i>
- 348
- 00:18:23,201 --> 00:18:24,432
- <i>OK, well...</i>
- 349
- 00:18:24,434 --> 00:18:26,736
- <i>I left word with
- Sober Living.</i>
- 350
- 00:18:26,738 --> 00:18:28,837
- OK.
- 351
- 00:18:28,839 --> 00:18:32,510
- It hurts to think about
- the shit I've done.
- 352
- 00:18:33,912 --> 00:18:35,911
- And what I'm learning in
- recovery is I can't undo
- 353
- 00:18:35,913 --> 00:18:38,847
- what I've done, but I can
- do it differently now.
- 354
- 00:18:38,849 --> 00:18:40,182
- I think we're good here.
- 355
- 00:18:40,184 --> 00:18:41,449
- One... just one sec, Ivy.
- 356
- 00:18:41,451 --> 00:18:43,518
- What I mean is, is
- I have to be present.
- 357
- 00:18:43,520 --> 00:18:44,754
- I have to be present.
- 358
- 00:18:44,756 --> 00:18:46,655
- - It's about this log.
- - OK.
- 359
- 00:18:46,657 --> 00:18:48,391
- - It's about this log. It's...
- - That's enough.
- 360
- 00:18:48,393 --> 00:18:50,660
- It's about taking care of
- this log and placing it here.
- 361
- 00:18:50,662 --> 00:18:52,728
- And I have to take
- it one log at a time,
- 362
- 00:18:52,730 --> 00:18:54,930
- - No, stop.
- - otherwise it's not gonna...
- 363
- 00:18:54,932 --> 00:18:56,535
- Ben, stop!
- 364
- 00:19:05,410 --> 00:19:06,808
- Aah!
- 365
- 00:19:06,810 --> 00:19:08,411
- - God!
- - Come on. You got this.
- 366
- 00:19:08,413 --> 00:19:10,680
- Come on.
- 367
- 00:19:10,682 --> 00:19:13,248
- Fine. Just leave it.
- We don't need anymore, Ben.
- 368
- 00:19:13,250 --> 00:19:14,883
- Cleaning up your mess.
- 369
- 00:19:14,885 --> 00:19:18,286
- - We'll do it. We're gonna do it.
- - Aah!
- 370
- 00:19:18,288 --> 00:19:20,422
- - It's so heavy!
- - I got it. I got it.
- 371
- 00:19:20,424 --> 00:19:23,692
- - You're good. You're good.
- - Ponce!
- 372
- 00:19:23,694 --> 00:19:25,294
- Nice. OK.
- 373
- 00:19:28,566 --> 00:19:30,565
- We're in no danger
- of it burning out.
- 374
- 00:19:30,567 --> 00:19:33,469
- What the fuck is this?
- Where did our ornaments go?
- 375
- 00:19:33,471 --> 00:19:35,438
- They don't share
- the current aesthetic.
- 376
- 00:19:35,440 --> 00:19:37,606
- Is there a problem?
- 377
- 00:19:37,608 --> 00:19:41,009
- Ben was just asking where
- our old ornaments are.
- 378
- 00:19:41,011 --> 00:19:42,580
- Did you throw them away?
- 379
- 00:19:50,255 --> 00:19:51,557
- Come with me.
- 380
- 00:19:57,428 --> 00:19:59,996
- Be quick and
- be careful, yeah?
- 381
- 00:19:59,998 --> 00:20:02,601
- - Mommy!
- - Yes, yes. OK.
- 382
- 00:20:13,744 --> 00:20:15,479
- Do you see 'em?
- 383
- 00:20:17,615 --> 00:20:19,651
- It should be right there.
- 384
- 00:20:31,296 --> 00:20:33,296
- Ben?
- 385
- 00:20:33,298 --> 00:20:34,596
- Fuck!
- 386
- 00:20:34,598 --> 00:20:35,831
- Ben?
- 387
- 00:20:35,833 --> 00:20:36,935
- Can you come up?
- 388
- 00:20:44,041 --> 00:20:47,543
- - That's it.
- - I hate it up here.
- 389
- 00:20:47,545 --> 00:20:48,643
- OK, then let's go already.
- 390
- 00:20:48,645 --> 00:20:50,379
- Wait...
- 391
- 00:20:50,381 --> 00:20:51,883
- I need you to check.
- 392
- 00:20:52,950 --> 00:20:54,553
- I'm, uh...
- 393
- 00:20:55,920 --> 00:20:57,987
- I used to stash
- my... my, um...
- 394
- 00:20:57,989 --> 00:20:59,955
- OK.
- 395
- 00:21:05,395 --> 00:21:06,731
- Back there?
- 396
- 00:21:09,666 --> 00:21:13,638
- If there's something there, then
- you have to make it go away.
- 397
- 00:21:21,913 --> 00:21:23,414
- Nothing.
- 398
- 00:21:29,386 --> 00:21:30,688
- We're good.
- 399
- 00:21:31,955 --> 00:21:33,424
- I'll help you down.
- 400
- 00:21:36,027 --> 00:21:37,696
- Come on. Let's go.
- 401
- 00:21:56,713 --> 00:21:59,014
- Oh, wow. Ben.
- 402
- 00:21:59,016 --> 00:22:01,816
- Nice.
- 403
- 00:22:01,818 --> 00:22:04,056
- Liam, I have
- a pine cone nose.
- 404
- 00:22:05,690 --> 00:22:08,026
- This is better.
- 405
- 00:22:09,727 --> 00:22:11,760
- - Yeah.
- - Yeah, cotton balls.
- 406
- 00:22:11,762 --> 00:22:14,965
- Ben, Ivy, can you
- two come with me, please?
- 407
- 00:22:16,601 --> 00:22:19,701
- I know, I went a
- little overboard this year.
- 408
- 00:22:19,703 --> 00:22:21,603
- - Mom?
- - Keep wrapping.
- 409
- 00:22:22,740 --> 00:22:23,972
- Hello?
- 410
- 00:22:23,974 --> 00:22:25,074
- - <i>Hey, honey.</i>
- - <i>Yeah?</i>
- 411
- 00:22:25,076 --> 00:22:26,174
- <i>They only have regular.</i>
- 412
- 00:22:26,176 --> 00:22:27,742
- No.
- 413
- 00:22:27,744 --> 00:22:29,711
- Organic cranberries.
- 414
- 00:22:29,713 --> 00:22:32,748
- Mom, we don't
- have to be 100%...
- 415
- 00:22:32,750 --> 00:22:34,616
- It's important.
- 416
- 00:22:34,618 --> 00:22:35,985
- - <i>Got it.</i>
- - <i>OK.</i>
- 417
- 00:22:35,987 --> 00:22:37,018
- Thank you.
- 418
- 00:22:38,855 --> 00:22:40,155
- Ugh, gotta love that Neal.
- 419
- 00:22:40,157 --> 00:22:41,757
- Mom?
- 420
- 00:22:41,759 --> 00:22:43,859
- Running all my last-minute
- errands so we can just...
- 421
- 00:22:43,861 --> 00:22:46,027
- - stay here till church.
- - Mom. Mom, I wanna do some shopping of my own.
- 422
- 00:22:46,029 --> 00:22:46,862
- Why?
- 423
- 00:22:46,864 --> 00:22:49,064
- I wanna get them
- something from me.
- 424
- 00:22:49,066 --> 00:22:52,535
- Well, sweetie,
- you are the present.
- 425
- 00:22:52,537 --> 00:22:54,103
- Something that
- they can unwrap.
- 426
- 00:22:54,105 --> 00:22:56,639
- Well, OK. Let's just say these
- are from you, then.
- 427
- 00:22:56,641 --> 00:22:58,641
- But they're not really from me.
- I didn't pick them out.
- 428
- 00:22:58,643 --> 00:22:59,741
- They'll never know.
- 429
- 00:22:59,743 --> 00:23:01,443
- But I'll know.
- 430
- 00:23:01,445 --> 00:23:04,747
- All right. Well, honestly,
- they have everything they need.
- 431
- 00:23:04,749 --> 00:23:06,815
- They really don't
- need anything more.
- 432
- 00:23:06,817 --> 00:23:07,650
- So true.
- 433
- 00:23:07,652 --> 00:23:09,184
- OK, but...
- 434
- 00:23:09,186 --> 00:23:11,653
- if I didn't pick them out,
- then they're not really from me,
- 435
- 00:23:11,655 --> 00:23:13,122
- which makes me a liar.
- 436
- 00:23:13,124 --> 00:23:15,024
- And the whole point of this
- 437
- 00:23:15,026 --> 00:23:16,124
- is to be honest.
- 438
- 00:23:16,126 --> 00:23:18,227
- It's no good if
- I'm not honest.
- 439
- 00:23:35,680 --> 00:23:37,046
- This is nice.
- 440
- 00:23:37,048 --> 00:23:39,785
- Getting to spend a little
- quality alone time together.
- 441
- 00:23:45,088 --> 00:23:47,625
- What do you think
- you'll wear tonight?
- 442
- 00:23:48,526 --> 00:23:49,924
- This is all I brought.
- 443
- 00:23:49,926 --> 00:23:53,629
- Oh, well, no worries.
- We can pick up a sweater
- 444
- 00:23:53,631 --> 00:23:56,701
- or maybe even
- a whole new ensemble.
- 445
- 00:23:57,234 --> 00:23:58,702
- Ensemble?
- 446
- 00:24:00,171 --> 00:24:03,171
- That way you'll... I want
- you to be comfortable.
- 447
- 00:24:03,173 --> 00:24:04,606
- Oh, I'm okay with just...
- 448
- 00:24:04,608 --> 00:24:06,241
- No, come on.
- 449
- 00:24:06,243 --> 00:24:09,079
- It's Christmas Eve. We're
- gonna be in a front pew.
- 450
- 00:24:14,719 --> 00:24:16,251
- Hey, Burns!
- 451
- 00:24:16,253 --> 00:24:17,819
- What's going on?
- 452
- 00:24:17,821 --> 00:24:21,025
- - Hey, man.
- - Wow, it's been a long time.
- 453
- 00:24:21,826 --> 00:24:23,627
- I thought you were dead.
- 454
- 00:24:25,262 --> 00:24:26,728
- What's new?
- 455
- 00:24:26,730 --> 00:24:30,132
- - I'm... I'm good.
- - Yeah?
- 456
- 00:24:30,134 --> 00:24:32,634
- Dude, it's... it's
- really good to see you.
- 457
- 00:24:32,636 --> 00:24:34,536
- - Yeah.
- - And you look good.
- 458
- 00:24:34,538 --> 00:24:35,537
- Oh, thank you.
- 459
- 00:24:35,539 --> 00:24:36,875
- OK.
- 460
- 00:24:41,311 --> 00:24:43,879
- He was a little full of
- himself, don't you think?
- 461
- 00:24:43,881 --> 00:24:45,680
- He's all right.
- 462
- 00:24:45,682 --> 00:24:48,017
- And what's his drug of choice?
- You know he has one.
- 463
- 00:24:48,019 --> 00:24:50,686
- - Speed? Weekend cocaine?
- - Mom.
- 464
- 00:24:50,688 --> 00:24:53,322
- - High caffeinated energy drinks?
- - Mom.
- 465
- 00:24:53,324 --> 00:24:58,227
- All I'm saying is you
- forget how special you are.
- 466
- 00:24:58,229 --> 00:24:59,795
- You just don't... you don't...
- 467
- 00:24:59,797 --> 00:25:01,596
- Well, people look up to
- you, and they love you.
- 468
- 00:25:01,598 --> 00:25:04,866
- You're a natural leader,
- and you are so, so smart.
- 469
- 00:25:04,868 --> 00:25:06,768
- No, Mom, Ivy is smart.
- 470
- 00:25:06,770 --> 00:25:08,770
- Well, nobody wants
- to be that smart.
- 471
- 00:25:08,772 --> 00:25:12,607
- It's not like she's having a
- tremendous amount of fun, hmm?
- 472
- 00:25:12,609 --> 00:25:13,308
- What was my point?
- 473
- 00:25:13,310 --> 00:25:14,776
- You don't have a point.
- 474
- 00:25:14,778 --> 00:25:15,944
- I do have a point.
- 475
- 00:25:15,946 --> 00:25:17,813
- My point is, look,
- you lick this,
- 476
- 00:25:17,815 --> 00:25:19,815
- and who knows
- how far you can go
- 477
- 00:25:19,817 --> 00:25:21,049
- and what you can do.
- 478
- 00:25:21,051 --> 00:25:23,187
- There's so much to
- look forward to.
- 479
- 00:25:34,731 --> 00:25:37,600
- OK, honey, you've
- barely touched your breakfast.
- 480
- 00:25:37,602 --> 00:25:40,071
- You've got to eat this.
- Come on now.
- 481
- 00:25:40,904 --> 00:25:41,903
- Mrs. Crane.
- 482
- 00:25:41,905 --> 00:25:43,104
- Dr. Crane.
- 483
- 00:25:43,106 --> 00:25:44,675
- Oh, hello.
- 484
- 00:25:45,609 --> 00:25:46,810
- Do I know you?
- 485
- 00:25:47,778 --> 00:25:49,711
- Holly Burns.
- 486
- 00:25:49,713 --> 00:25:52,146
- Yes. Oh, yes.
- 487
- 00:25:52,148 --> 00:25:55,249
- He doesn't always remember.
- 488
- 00:25:55,251 --> 00:25:59,254
- Holly is the mother of Ivy,
- whose singing we love.
- 489
- 00:25:59,256 --> 00:26:01,323
- She was your patient.
- 490
- 00:26:01,325 --> 00:26:02,991
- I remember.
- 491
- 00:26:02,993 --> 00:26:05,760
- You must
- be so proud of her.
- 492
- 00:26:05,762 --> 00:26:08,299
- I am proud of all
- of my children, yes.
- 493
- 00:26:17,842 --> 00:26:20,345
- Oh, fuck.
- 494
- 00:26:24,315 --> 00:26:26,315
- Oh, look, I need
- to get a napkin. I...
- 495
- 00:26:26,317 --> 00:26:27,850
- I'll sit with him.
- 496
- 00:26:27,852 --> 00:26:29,718
- You're a dear.
- 497
- 00:26:29,720 --> 00:26:30,822
- Be right back.
- 498
- 00:26:32,789 --> 00:26:37,793
- So, if you remember Ivy, then
- you must remember my son, Ben.
- 499
- 00:26:37,795 --> 00:26:39,061
- Right over there.
- 500
- 00:26:39,063 --> 00:26:40,332
- Who?
- 501
- 00:26:43,366 --> 00:26:44,967
- - I don't remember him.
- - Hmm.
- 502
- 00:26:44,969 --> 00:26:48,036
- I understand.
- You had so many patients.
- 503
- 00:26:48,038 --> 00:26:50,271
- But when was 14,
- he had a small
- 504
- 00:26:50,273 --> 00:26:52,207
- snowboarding injury.
- 505
- 00:26:52,209 --> 00:26:54,375
- And you prescribed
- painkillers.
- 506
- 00:26:54,377 --> 00:26:58,113
- And when I asked, you told
- me they weren't addictive
- 507
- 00:26:58,115 --> 00:27:00,282
- and kept upping his dose,
- and he got hooked,
- 508
- 00:27:00,284 --> 00:27:01,816
- and it fucked up his life.
- 509
- 00:27:01,818 --> 00:27:03,451
- So, you can pretend
- you don't remember,
- 510
- 00:27:03,453 --> 00:27:05,720
- but I won't forget.
- 511
- 00:27:05,722 --> 00:27:08,359
- I hope you die
- a horrible death.
- 512
- 00:27:11,194 --> 00:27:13,228
- Merry Christmas.
- 513
- 00:27:13,230 --> 00:27:15,099
- I'm just here for a day.
- 514
- 00:27:17,067 --> 00:27:18,199
- OK. Yeah.
- 515
- 00:27:18,201 --> 00:27:19,703
- I will.
- 516
- 00:27:20,471 --> 00:27:23,375
- OK. Yes. I gotta go.
- I gotta go.
- 517
- 00:27:24,942 --> 00:27:26,141
- Who was that?
- 518
- 00:27:26,143 --> 00:27:28,142
- Um, my... my sponsor.
- 519
- 00:27:28,144 --> 00:27:30,446
- I'm feeling...
- I'm feeling shaky.
- 520
- 00:27:30,448 --> 00:27:32,914
- So, I... that's
- why I called him.
- 521
- 00:27:32,916 --> 00:27:34,248
- He told me to
- go to a meeting.
- 522
- 00:27:34,250 --> 00:27:35,450
- They all say that.
- 523
- 00:27:35,452 --> 00:27:38,386
- Whenever you feel shaky,
- get to a meeting.
- 524
- 00:27:38,388 --> 00:27:40,889
- OK, well, let's just
- get your clothes...
- 525
- 00:27:40,891 --> 00:27:42,894
- I gotta find a meeting. Now.
- 526
- 00:27:45,863 --> 00:27:47,132
- Did you hear me?
- 527
- 00:27:47,765 --> 00:27:49,797
- OK.
- 528
- 00:27:49,799 --> 00:27:51,933
- I'm so proud of you.
- 529
- 00:27:51,935 --> 00:27:53,134
- Knowing what you need.
- 530
- 00:27:53,136 --> 00:27:55,304
- I just, I think
- it's so great.
- 531
- 00:27:55,306 --> 00:27:58,940
- Like they say, it's
- working when you...
- 532
- 00:27:58,942 --> 00:28:00,109
- What do they say?
- 533
- 00:28:00,111 --> 00:28:01,209
- It works if you work it.
- 534
- 00:28:01,211 --> 00:28:02,244
- It works if you work it.
- 535
- 00:28:02,246 --> 00:28:03,277
- Well, you are working it.
- 536
- 00:28:03,279 --> 00:28:04,412
- Oh, let's go in.
- 537
- 00:28:04,414 --> 00:28:05,881
- You're not coming in.
- 538
- 00:28:05,883 --> 00:28:07,282
- No, why? Of course I am.
- 539
- 00:28:07,284 --> 00:28:08,750
- No, Mom, I-I'm... I'm good.
- 540
- 00:28:08,752 --> 00:28:10,251
- It's... it's a... it's a meeting.
- 541
- 00:28:10,253 --> 00:28:11,886
- I'm gonna come right
- out afterwards. No.
- 542
- 00:28:11,888 --> 00:28:12,787
- I may just tag along.
- 543
- 00:28:12,789 --> 00:28:14,288
- - Hi!
- - Mom.
- 544
- 00:28:14,290 --> 00:28:15,891
- - Hey, yo, what's up, baby?
- - Hello.
- 545
- 00:28:15,893 --> 00:28:17,025
- - How are you?
- - Hey, how you doing?
- 546
- 00:28:17,027 --> 00:28:18,126
- Stop.
- 547
- 00:28:18,128 --> 00:28:19,128
- Never hurts to
- be friendly.
- 548
- 00:28:19,130 --> 00:28:20,129
- Dial it down.
- 549
- 00:28:20,131 --> 00:28:21,130
- OK.
- 550
- 00:28:21,132 --> 00:28:22,296
- Maybe I'll just... Hi!
- 551
- 00:28:22,298 --> 00:28:23,902
- - Hi, guys.
- - Hello.
- 552
- 00:28:25,035 --> 00:28:26,738
- Everybody seems so nice.
- 553
- 00:28:32,509 --> 00:28:34,042
- The minute I think I have it,
- 554
- 00:28:34,044 --> 00:28:37,045
- the minute I think
- I've got this, uh...
- 555
- 00:28:37,047 --> 00:28:38,479
- it's waiting, you know?
- 556
- 00:28:38,481 --> 00:28:40,516
- It's out there, doing
- push-ups right now
- 557
- 00:28:40,518 --> 00:28:42,316
- while we're sitting in
- these folding chairs.
- 558
- 00:28:42,318 --> 00:28:45,921
- So, I'm really, really grateful
- to be here with all of you.
- 559
- 00:28:45,923 --> 00:28:48,222
- And I-I thank you
- for keeping me clean.
- 560
- 00:28:48,224 --> 00:28:50,092
- Thank you for
- letting me share.
- 561
- 00:28:50,094 --> 00:28:51,160
- So, uh...
- 562
- 00:28:51,162 --> 00:28:53,230
- Thank you.
- 563
- 00:28:55,499 --> 00:28:57,165
- Go on to show of hands?
- 564
- 00:28:57,167 --> 00:28:59,934
- I have a deep
- fear of using.
- 565
- 00:28:59,936 --> 00:29:03,305
- I have a deep fear of going
- back into those dark places.
- 566
- 00:29:03,307 --> 00:29:06,007
- This fellowship,
- this group of people,
- 567
- 00:29:06,009 --> 00:29:07,809
- is what keeps me alive.
- 568
- 00:29:07,811 --> 00:29:10,578
- You know, I have two
- new baby nieces,
- 569
- 00:29:10,580 --> 00:29:13,915
- and they're going to meet
- me for the first time.
- 570
- 00:29:13,917 --> 00:29:18,286
- I'm just so grateful that
- they'll never know me high.
- 571
- 00:29:18,288 --> 00:29:20,959
- They'll just know
- me as... as me.
- 572
- 00:29:22,358 --> 00:29:25,294
- Hi, I'm Ben, and I,
- um, I'm an addict.
- 573
- 00:29:25,296 --> 00:29:27,129
- Hey, Ben.
- 574
- 00:29:27,131 --> 00:29:29,264
- I got 77 days.
- 575
- 00:29:33,470 --> 00:29:36,604
- And, uh, that's
- my most ever.
- 576
- 00:29:36,606 --> 00:29:38,974
- So, I just want
- to get to 78...
- 577
- 00:29:38,976 --> 00:29:40,007
- right now.
- 578
- 00:29:40,009 --> 00:29:42,276
- Um, so, I, uh...
- 579
- 00:29:42,278 --> 00:29:45,046
- I called my sponsor and...
- 580
- 00:29:45,048 --> 00:29:49,284
- the thing about my sponsor is
- that he's a... he's a loud talker.
- 581
- 00:29:49,286 --> 00:29:53,555
- And, so, uh, I say,
- "Hey," and he goes,
- 582
- 00:29:53,557 --> 00:29:55,023
- "What's up?"
- 583
- 00:29:55,025 --> 00:29:57,058
- And I was like, "Well,
- I-I got big news.
- 584
- 00:29:57,060 --> 00:29:59,428
- I just bought presents that I
- actually picked out for someone."
- 585
- 00:29:59,430 --> 00:30:03,131
- And he was like, "Oh, well,
- you're feeling pretty good, huh?"
- 586
- 00:30:03,133 --> 00:30:06,602
- And I was like, "Yeah, you know,
- I actually feel like I'm being honest."
- 587
- 00:30:06,604 --> 00:30:09,103
- And, well, he said,
- "If you were honest, Ben,
- 588
- 00:30:09,105 --> 00:30:13,007
- you'd look in the mirror and
- say, I'm a great big phony."
- 589
- 00:30:13,009 --> 00:30:14,442
- So, I was like, "OK."
- 590
- 00:30:14,444 --> 00:30:16,143
- "Because Ben you're
- a fucking addict,
- 591
- 00:30:16,145 --> 00:30:18,646
- and you're the last person who
- should believe his own bullshit.
- 592
- 00:30:18,648 --> 00:30:20,449
- So, now get to a meeting."
- 593
- 00:30:20,451 --> 00:30:22,383
- So, here I am.
- 594
- 00:30:22,385 --> 00:30:25,187
- 77 days clean.
- 595
- 00:30:25,189 --> 00:30:28,289
- Some things are better now.
- 596
- 00:30:28,291 --> 00:30:30,191
- Like I can actually
- take a shit.
- 597
- 00:30:32,363 --> 00:30:35,197
- Yeah, uh, even
- better than that,
- 598
- 00:30:35,199 --> 00:30:38,436
- I'm waking up more often
- than not with an erection.
- 599
- 00:30:40,938 --> 00:30:41,670
- Sorry, Mom.
- 600
- 00:30:41,672 --> 00:30:43,508
- And my... yeah, my mom's here.
- 601
- 00:30:45,174 --> 00:30:46,476
- Um...
- 602
- 00:30:48,645 --> 00:30:52,049
- I've put her
- through a lot, um...
- 603
- 00:30:53,951 --> 00:30:56,450
- This summer, she found me
- upside down on the stairs
- 604
- 00:30:56,452 --> 00:30:59,389
- with, um, a needle in my arm.
- 605
- 00:31:00,356 --> 00:31:01,625
- And, uh...
- 606
- 00:31:03,093 --> 00:31:05,928
- with my dog trying
- to keep me awake.
- 607
- 00:31:05,930 --> 00:31:07,028
- So...
- 608
- 00:31:07,030 --> 00:31:09,498
- The doctor said that if
- it weren't for my dog,
- 609
- 00:31:09,500 --> 00:31:11,266
- I... I would be dead.
- 610
- 00:31:11,268 --> 00:31:14,268
- Um, and my mom.
- 611
- 00:31:14,270 --> 00:31:18,673
- Without her, I wouldn't be
- here right now in this room.
- 612
- 00:31:18,675 --> 00:31:24,446
- Uh, the things that
- I've done to myself
- 613
- 00:31:24,448 --> 00:31:25,950
- and others.
- 614
- 00:31:28,652 --> 00:31:32,321
- Uh, so, I don't...
- Why am I still...
- 615
- 00:31:32,323 --> 00:31:34,392
- here?
- 616
- 00:31:36,226 --> 00:31:38,259
- There's gotta be a reason.
- 617
- 00:31:38,261 --> 00:31:39,961
- Maybe it's to...
- 618
- 00:31:39,963 --> 00:31:42,564
- come back and... and make
- this Christmas right
- 619
- 00:31:42,566 --> 00:31:44,665
- or maybe this
- is the biggest
- 620
- 00:31:44,667 --> 00:31:47,469
- fucking mistake of my life.
- 621
- 00:31:47,471 --> 00:31:50,505
- Um, anyways,
- here I am.
- 622
- 00:31:50,507 --> 00:31:51,640
- Still here.
- 623
- 00:31:51,642 --> 00:31:54,178
- So, thank you.
- Thank you for...
- 624
- 00:31:58,715 --> 00:32:00,548
- ...grant us the serenity
- 625
- 00:32:00,550 --> 00:32:03,184
- to accept the things
- we cannot change,
- 626
- 00:32:03,186 --> 00:32:06,087
- the courage to change
- the things we can,
- 627
- 00:32:06,089 --> 00:32:08,457
- and the wisdom to
- know the difference.
- 628
- 00:32:08,459 --> 00:32:12,397
- Keep coming back.
- It works if you work it.
- 629
- 00:32:19,269 --> 00:32:21,402
- Ben?
- 630
- 00:32:21,404 --> 00:32:23,671
- - Ben. Good job, sweetie.
- - Thanks.
- 631
- 00:32:23,673 --> 00:32:25,440
- And you coming back
- was not a mistake.
- 632
- 00:32:25,442 --> 00:32:29,678
- Someone wiser than me, your
- sponsor, said you can do this.
- 633
- 00:32:29,680 --> 00:32:32,546
- OK.
- Yeah. That's right.
- 634
- 00:32:32,548 --> 00:32:34,548
- I think some people
- want to talk to you.
- 635
- 00:32:34,550 --> 00:32:35,549
- I'll just wait over here.
- 636
- 00:32:35,551 --> 00:32:37,087
- OK.
- 637
- 00:32:38,422 --> 00:32:40,488
- Hey, man.
- Thanks for your share.
- 638
- 00:32:40,490 --> 00:32:41,789
- It's been a long time, yo.
- 639
- 00:32:41,791 --> 00:32:45,026
- - Yeah.
- - That really hit home.
- 640
- 00:32:45,028 --> 00:32:47,432
- - Thanks, man.
- - Thank you.
- 641
- 00:32:52,669 --> 00:32:54,135
- Hey.
- 642
- 00:32:54,137 --> 00:32:55,437
- I-I loved what you said.
- 643
- 00:32:55,439 --> 00:32:57,104
- You were... you
- were very funny.
- 644
- 00:32:57,106 --> 00:33:00,142
- There's not enough
- funny around here.
- 645
- 00:33:00,144 --> 00:33:02,309
- Thanks.
- 646
- 00:33:02,311 --> 00:33:04,112
- - You're the mom?
- - Yes.
- 647
- 00:33:04,114 --> 00:33:05,146
- I am.
- 648
- 00:33:05,148 --> 00:33:06,314
- It's great you
- came with him.
- 649
- 00:33:06,316 --> 00:33:07,248
- Aw, I hope so.
- 650
- 00:33:07,250 --> 00:33:09,383
- No, my mom died before
- I ever got clean.
- 651
- 00:33:09,385 --> 00:33:12,554
- I would have given anything for
- her to see me get my shit together.
- 652
- 00:33:12,556 --> 00:33:14,057
- I'm sure.
- 653
- 00:33:18,095 --> 00:33:19,394
- It was honest.
- 654
- 00:33:19,396 --> 00:33:25,734
- And it was you saying it.
- Someone young and hot. Oh, shit.
- 655
- 00:33:25,736 --> 00:33:29,438
- - Oh, uh, it's... that's okay.
- - Oh, I'm blushing... I'm blushing now.
- 656
- 00:33:29,440 --> 00:33:32,140
- That makes me nervous.
- 657
- 00:33:32,142 --> 00:33:33,842
- - Is it your first meeting?
- - Uh, yeah.
- 658
- 00:33:33,844 --> 00:33:36,411
- - I'm, you know, new to it all, so...
- - Yeah?
- 659
- 00:33:36,413 --> 00:33:37,778
- Well, you should
- get a sponsor.
- 660
- 00:33:37,780 --> 00:33:39,680
- Um, it should
- be a woman.
- 661
- 00:33:39,682 --> 00:33:42,217
- It should be someone
- really tough, who will
- 662
- 00:33:42,219 --> 00:33:44,585
- you know, call you
- on your bullshit, and
- 663
- 00:33:44,587 --> 00:33:49,190
- it's all about, you know,
- rigorous honesty.
- 664
- 00:33:49,192 --> 00:33:50,758
- Oh, they're just
- talking program.
- 665
- 00:33:50,760 --> 00:33:53,094
- It's how we help
- each other.
- 666
- 00:33:53,096 --> 00:33:53,895
- OK.
- 667
- 00:33:53,897 --> 00:33:55,729
- So, nothing to
- worry about then.
- 668
- 00:33:55,731 --> 00:33:58,101
- Oh, I didn't say that.
- 669
- 00:34:00,503 --> 00:34:02,740
- You don't remember, do you?
- 670
- 00:34:08,244 --> 00:34:09,780
- You were my dealer.
- 671
- 00:34:11,248 --> 00:34:12,514
- Oh, fuck.
- 672
- 00:34:12,516 --> 00:34:13,682
- Oh, my. I'm sorry.
- 673
- 00:34:13,684 --> 00:34:16,117
- No, it's fine.
- I'm, uh...
- 674
- 00:34:16,119 --> 00:34:18,720
- I'm going to rehab the
- day after Christmas, so,
- 675
- 00:34:18,722 --> 00:34:20,822
- that's why I, um, I,
- you know, I related to
- 676
- 00:34:20,824 --> 00:34:22,757
- so much to what
- you were saying.
- 677
- 00:34:22,759 --> 00:34:25,630
- It was very inspiring, so...
- 678
- 00:34:27,731 --> 00:34:30,599
- I just want... I just want to
- get high just one last time.
- 679
- 00:34:30,601 --> 00:34:31,633
- That's normal.
- 680
- 00:34:31,635 --> 00:34:33,200
- I'm not going to, though.
- 681
- 00:34:33,202 --> 00:34:36,137
- Good. Don't.
- 682
- 00:34:36,139 --> 00:34:38,141
- Unless I could
- do it with you.
- 683
- 00:34:49,552 --> 00:34:50,851
- - Hey.
- - Hi.
- 684
- 00:34:50,853 --> 00:34:53,190
- - Have a good one.
- - Merry Christmas.
- 685
- 00:34:59,762 --> 00:35:02,930
- I think this one will work.
- 686
- 00:35:02,932 --> 00:35:04,865
- Or this.
- 687
- 00:35:04,867 --> 00:35:06,601
- And they have it
- in light blue.
- 688
- 00:35:06,603 --> 00:35:09,470
- And everybody looks
- good in light blue.
- 689
- 00:35:09,472 --> 00:35:10,639
- - Ben?
- - What?
- 690
- 00:35:10,641 --> 00:35:11,639
- Which?
- 691
- 00:35:11,641 --> 00:35:12,907
- Yes.
- 692
- 00:35:12,909 --> 00:35:13,775
- Good.
- 693
- 00:35:13,777 --> 00:35:15,313
- OK, light blue.
- 694
- 00:35:19,315 --> 00:35:22,550
- Looks like she's gonna have
- you try on the whole store.
- 695
- 00:35:24,688 --> 00:35:25,720
- Thank you so much.
- 696
- 00:35:25,722 --> 00:35:27,322
- You're welcome.
- 697
- 00:35:27,324 --> 00:35:29,925
- These will both complement
- your complexion as a gift
- 698
- 00:35:29,927 --> 00:35:31,659
- from your mother.
- You're welcome.
- 699
- 00:35:31,661 --> 00:35:32,726
- - Coat, please.
- - OK.
- 700
- 00:35:32,728 --> 00:35:34,896
- Nice. I'm good.
- 701
- 00:35:34,898 --> 00:35:36,233
- Come on.
- 702
- 00:35:43,539 --> 00:35:44,875
- Pockets.
- 703
- 00:35:52,748 --> 00:35:54,382
- This is humiliating.
- 704
- 00:35:54,384 --> 00:35:55,450
- Shh.
- 705
- 00:35:55,452 --> 00:35:58,656
- No, this is love.
- 706
- 00:35:59,922 --> 00:36:01,791
- All right.
- Free to go.
- 707
- 00:36:04,561 --> 00:36:06,396
- You didn't check my shoes.
- 708
- 00:36:14,938 --> 00:36:16,470
- That's not funny.
- 709
- 00:36:16,472 --> 00:36:17,606
- It was a joke, Mom.
- 710
- 00:36:17,608 --> 00:36:18,873
- Ben.
- 711
- 00:36:18,875 --> 00:36:20,374
- - Mom, it was a joke.
- - It's not funny.
- 712
- 00:36:20,376 --> 00:36:21,443
- Excuse me?
- 713
- 00:36:21,445 --> 00:36:23,744
- Can I get a key
- to this door, please?
- 714
- 00:36:23,746 --> 00:36:25,579
- Unlock the door, Ben.
- Right now.
- 715
- 00:36:25,581 --> 00:36:26,615
- Ben.
- 716
- 00:36:27,650 --> 00:36:29,617
- Open the door.
- 717
- 00:36:29,619 --> 00:36:30,851
- This is not funny.
- 718
- 00:36:30,853 --> 00:36:32,554
- Open this fucking door
- 719
- 00:36:32,556 --> 00:36:33,554
- right now.
- 720
- 00:36:33,556 --> 00:36:34,856
- Ben. God, damn it.
- 721
- 00:36:34,858 --> 00:36:36,794
- Open this fucking door.
- 722
- 00:36:39,396 --> 00:36:40,865
- What is going on?
- 723
- 00:36:44,367 --> 00:36:45,670
- What's going on?
- 724
- 00:37:01,617 --> 00:37:04,019
- Fuck. You stupid fuck.
- 725
- 00:37:04,021 --> 00:37:04,853
- Hey.
- 726
- 00:37:04,855 --> 00:37:06,155
- Where did you get this?
- 727
- 00:37:06,157 --> 00:37:07,921
- - I've been with you the whole time.
- - Excuse me.
- 728
- 00:37:07,923 --> 00:37:09,291
- The... the... the girl
- at the meeting.
- 729
- 00:37:09,293 --> 00:37:10,791
- The one that
- you're helping.
- 730
- 00:37:10,793 --> 00:37:12,661
- She was gonna use, now,
- so I took it from her.
- 731
- 00:37:12,663 --> 00:37:13,662
- Excuse me.
- I'm gonna have to
- 732
- 00:37:13,664 --> 00:37:14,862
- ask you two to leave.
- 733
- 00:37:14,864 --> 00:37:16,563
- She was gonna use.
- Now she can't.
- 734
- 00:37:16,565 --> 00:37:18,532
- Mom, the last time I didn't
- help someone they died.
- 735
- 00:37:18,534 --> 00:37:19,836
- Ma'am?
- 736
- 00:37:23,507 --> 00:37:25,572
- You think I'm an idiot.
- 737
- 00:37:25,574 --> 00:37:27,876
- - Can you please just exit the store?
- - Yes!
- 738
- 00:37:27,878 --> 00:37:28,976
- Fuck. Maybe she's a dealer.
- 739
- 00:37:28,978 --> 00:37:31,579
- - What?
- - Maybe she played me.
- 740
- 00:37:31,581 --> 00:37:34,316
- - You can't trust addicts, Mom. All we do is fucking lie.
- - What do I do with that?
- 741
- 00:37:34,318 --> 00:37:35,617
- I don't... I don't know.
- I don't know.
- 742
- 00:37:35,619 --> 00:37:37,021
- Mind your own
- fucking business.
- 743
- 00:37:39,989 --> 00:37:41,588
- Mom. What...?
- 744
- 00:37:41,590 --> 00:37:42,923
- Get out of the car.
- 745
- 00:37:42,925 --> 00:37:44,694
- What is this?
- 746
- 00:37:47,396 --> 00:37:48,630
- What're we doing here?
- 747
- 00:37:48,632 --> 00:37:50,001
- Get out of the car.
- 748
- 00:37:50,599 --> 00:37:52,534
- Now.
- 749
- 00:37:52,536 --> 00:37:55,570
- - Why are you...
- - Because I'll be too angry to do it at the time.
- 750
- 00:37:55,572 --> 00:37:57,371
- Huh? So, where?
- 751
- 00:37:57,373 --> 00:37:58,405
- Where do you wanna be?
- 752
- 00:37:58,407 --> 00:37:59,807
- Oh.
- 753
- 00:37:59,809 --> 00:38:01,575
- Don't say next to grandpa.
- That's prime placement.
- 754
- 00:38:01,577 --> 00:38:02,876
- And you don't get
- that when you OD.
- 755
- 00:38:02,878 --> 00:38:04,612
- - I'm not gonna OD.
- - So, where?
- 756
- 00:38:04,614 --> 00:38:05,813
- The new section is nice,
- 757
- 00:38:05,815 --> 00:38:07,749
- or do you want to
- be near a tree?
- 758
- 00:38:07,751 --> 00:38:09,016
- I don't know.
- 759
- 00:38:09,018 --> 00:38:10,818
- Well, you better
- figure it out.
- 760
- 00:38:10,820 --> 00:38:13,054
- OK, why... why don't you
- cremate me and sprinkle me over
- 761
- 00:38:13,056 --> 00:38:15,090
- Mrs. Blink, my second grade
- teacher? She was pretty hot.
- 762
- 00:38:15,092 --> 00:38:17,691
- - No, you don't get to be a smart ass about this, young man.
- - Ow!
- 763
- 00:38:17,693 --> 00:38:18,892
- I wasn't gonna use.
- 764
- 00:38:18,894 --> 00:38:20,628
- I was... I-I'm
- not gonna use.
- 765
- 00:38:20,630 --> 00:38:22,130
- - You just...
- - I'm just... Mom.
- 766
- 00:38:22,132 --> 00:38:23,498
- You just told me.
- 767
- 00:38:23,500 --> 00:38:25,900
- I should never believe you.
- 768
- 00:38:25,902 --> 00:38:27,905
- Don't say another
- fucking word.
- 769
- 00:38:29,505 --> 00:38:32,606
- Just tell me, son,
- 770
- 00:38:32,608 --> 00:38:34,911
- where you want
- me to bury you.
- 771
- 00:38:38,148 --> 00:38:39,650
- I'll wait all day.
- 772
- 00:38:40,916 --> 00:38:43,918
- I'm not going to die.
- 773
- 00:38:43,920 --> 00:38:46,824
- That's right.
- You will, and soon.
- 774
- 00:39:08,778 --> 00:39:10,878
- Mommy's here!
- 775
- 00:39:10,880 --> 00:39:14,749
- They didn't like my
- spaghetti special, for some reason.
- 776
- 00:39:14,751 --> 00:39:16,717
- Go figure.
- 777
- 00:39:16,719 --> 00:39:18,686
- Ben, they only wanted
- your sandwich.
- 778
- 00:39:18,688 --> 00:39:20,088
- What did you put in it?
- 779
- 00:39:20,090 --> 00:39:20,954
- Drugs.
- 780
- 00:39:20,956 --> 00:39:22,824
- It's not funny.
- 781
- 00:39:22,826 --> 00:39:25,959
- - It was a joke.
- - Still not funny.
- 782
- 00:39:25,961 --> 00:39:27,095
- The kids are watching TV?
- 783
- 00:39:27,097 --> 00:39:28,630
- Yeah, they're
- watching TV.
- 784
- 00:39:28,632 --> 00:39:29,630
- You OK?
- 785
- 00:39:29,632 --> 00:39:30,865
- You come with me.
- 786
- 00:39:32,902 --> 00:39:33,901
- Hi, sweethearts.
- 787
- 00:39:33,903 --> 00:39:35,637
- Hi, Mommy!
- 788
- 00:39:35,639 --> 00:39:37,704
- - Ben is gonna watch some TV with you.
- - Yay!
- 789
- 00:39:37,706 --> 00:39:41,075
- - Mom, can I talk to you for a second?
- - Sit down.
- 790
- 00:39:41,077 --> 00:39:43,778
- <i>...out of a canon
- and now we can't find her anywhere.</i>
- 791
- 00:39:43,780 --> 00:39:44,813
- Come on.
- 792
- 00:39:44,815 --> 00:39:46,117
- Right in the middle.
- 793
- 00:39:47,751 --> 00:39:49,851
- Stay.
- 794
- 00:39:49,853 --> 00:39:52,586
- <i>Everyone grab on to me,
- and I'll swing on this tree branch</i>
- 795
- 00:39:52,588 --> 00:39:54,125
- <i>into the pond!</i>
- 796
- 00:39:59,695 --> 00:40:01,464
- You fucking monster.
- 797
- 00:40:04,800 --> 00:40:06,534
- Honey, you OK in there?
- 798
- 00:40:06,536 --> 00:40:09,938
- Yes, just getting changed.
- 799
- 00:40:09,940 --> 00:40:12,443
- How'd it go? How's
- he... how's he doing?
- 800
- 00:40:14,677 --> 00:40:16,543
- Great. He's doing great.
- 801
- 00:40:16,545 --> 00:40:17,947
- How are you doing?
- 802
- 00:40:18,648 --> 00:40:21,916
- I am doing great.
- 803
- 00:40:21,918 --> 00:40:24,117
- OK.
- 804
- 00:40:24,119 --> 00:40:26,787
- Honey, I... I better get ready.
- 805
- 00:40:26,789 --> 00:40:27,822
- Of course.
- 806
- 00:40:27,824 --> 00:40:30,124
- You get ready.
- I will take care of the chores.
- 807
- 00:40:30,126 --> 00:40:30,825
- Thank you.
- 808
- 00:40:35,898 --> 00:40:37,534
- Would you just?
- 809
- 00:40:43,507 --> 00:40:44,938
- No. No, not those slacks.
- 810
- 00:40:44,940 --> 00:40:46,874
- The ones from
- when you were skinny.
- 811
- 00:40:46,876 --> 00:40:48,075
- Skinnier.
- 812
- 00:40:48,077 --> 00:40:49,077
- Ivy?
- 813
- 00:40:49,079 --> 00:40:50,412
- What?
- 814
- 00:40:50,414 --> 00:40:53,184
- I need your big safety pins.
- There's some in the kitchen.
- 815
- 00:40:54,717 --> 00:40:56,918
- - It sounded great, by the way.
- - Mm-hmm.
- 816
- 00:40:56,920 --> 00:40:58,920
- Thank you.
- 817
- 00:40:58,922 --> 00:41:00,188
- I'm feeding Ponce.
- 818
- 00:41:00,190 --> 00:41:01,956
- Oh, I'm so glad.
- Thanks, honey.
- 819
- 00:41:01,958 --> 00:41:03,657
- - Mom!
- - Yes, sweetie.
- 820
- 00:41:03,659 --> 00:41:04,858
- It itches.
- 821
- 00:41:04,860 --> 00:41:06,927
- - Where?
- - Everywhere!
- 822
- 00:41:06,929 --> 00:41:09,930
- I wish I'd known that earlier. Mommy
- can't do anything about it now.
- 823
- 00:41:09,932 --> 00:41:11,932
- But it's everywhere.
- 824
- 00:41:11,934 --> 00:41:13,668
- Well, it's just part
- of being a sheep.
- 825
- 00:41:13,670 --> 00:41:17,539
- Hey, buddy. The thing about
- an itch is just don't scratch.
- 826
- 00:41:17,541 --> 00:41:19,210
- - Um...
- - Shh. Ivy!
- 827
- 00:41:19,943 --> 00:41:20,941
- Thank you.
- 828
- 00:41:20,943 --> 00:41:22,809
- I beg your pardon.
- 829
- 00:41:26,849 --> 00:41:27,949
- I'm gonna need a sweater.
- 830
- 00:41:27,951 --> 00:41:30,150
- OK. Coming right up.
- 831
- 00:41:30,152 --> 00:41:32,153
- All right, everybody.
- Let's get going.
- 832
- 00:41:32,155 --> 00:41:34,925
- We don't want to be late.
- 833
- 00:41:35,791 --> 00:41:37,758
- I'm so sorry.
- 834
- 00:41:37,760 --> 00:41:39,063
- Don't.
- 835
- 00:42:10,659 --> 00:42:11,928
- Stay put.
- 836
- 00:42:19,902 --> 00:42:21,605
- I'm so sorry, Beth.
- 837
- 00:42:22,771 --> 00:42:24,208
- This has gotta hurt.
- 838
- 00:42:30,746 --> 00:42:32,248
- Maggie was an angel.
- 839
- 00:42:34,083 --> 00:42:35,618
- We think about her.
- 840
- 00:42:41,023 --> 00:42:42,625
- Hold on tight.
- 841
- 00:42:44,293 --> 00:42:45,628
- I am.
- 842
- 00:43:08,851 --> 00:43:10,153
- What'd she say?
- 843
- 00:43:12,789 --> 00:43:14,224
- No one blames you.
- 844
- 00:43:16,126 --> 00:43:18,358
- There were
- shepherds out in the field
- 845
- 00:43:18,360 --> 00:43:21,162
- keeping watch over
- their flock by night.
- 846
- 00:43:21,164 --> 00:43:23,798
- And an angel of the Lord
- appeared to them...
- 847
- 00:43:23,800 --> 00:43:25,400
- Ben. Hi, Ben!
- 848
- 00:43:25,402 --> 00:43:28,670
- shone around them, and
- they were filled with fear,
- 849
- 00:43:28,672 --> 00:43:31,271
- and the angel said to
- them, "Be not afraid.
- 850
- 00:43:31,273 --> 00:43:33,675
- I bring you good
- news of a great joy,
- 851
- 00:43:33,677 --> 00:43:35,876
- which will come to
- all the people.
- 852
- 00:43:35,878 --> 00:43:38,146
- For to you is born
- this day in the city
- 853
- 00:43:38,148 --> 00:43:41,349
- of David, a savior,
- who is Christ the Lord.
- 854
- 00:43:41,351 --> 00:43:45,219
- You will find a babe
- wrapped in swaddling clothes
- 855
- 00:43:45,221 --> 00:43:47,391
- and lying in a manger.
- 856
- 00:43:51,293 --> 00:43:54,461
- <i>♪ O, Holy night ♪</i>
- 857
- 00:43:54,463 --> 00:43:59,733
- <i>♪ The stars are
- brightly shining ♪</i>
- 858
- 00:43:59,735 --> 00:44:01,469
- <i>♪ It is the night ♪</i>
- 859
- 00:44:01,471 --> 00:44:07,842
- <i>♪ Of our dear savoir's birth ♪</i>
- 860
- 00:44:07,844 --> 00:44:10,978
- <i>♪ Long lay the world ♪</i>
- 861
- 00:44:10,980 --> 00:44:15,215
- <i>♪ In sin and error pining ♪</i>
- 862
- 00:44:15,217 --> 00:44:21,791
- <i>♪ Till He appear'd and
- the soul felt its worth ♪</i>
- 863
- 00:44:23,293 --> 00:44:26,927
- <i>♪ A thrill of hope ♪</i>
- 864
- 00:44:26,929 --> 00:44:30,965
- <i>♪ The weary world rejoices ♪</i>
- 865
- 00:44:30,967 --> 00:44:34,135
- <i>♪ For yonder breaks ♪</i>
- 866
- 00:44:34,137 --> 00:44:38,139
- <i>♪ A new and glorious morn ♪</i>
- 867
- 00:44:38,141 --> 00:44:44,211
- <i>♪ Fall on your knees ♪</i>
- 868
- 00:44:44,213 --> 00:44:51,219
- <i>♪ And hear the angel voices ♪</i>
- 869
- 00:44:51,221 --> 00:44:57,925
- <i>♪ O, night divine ♪</i>
- 870
- 00:44:57,927 --> 00:45:04,334
- <i>♪ O, night when
- Christ was born ♪</i>
- 871
- 00:45:05,300 --> 00:45:11,307
- <i>♪ O, night divine ♪</i>
- 872
- 00:45:12,876 --> 00:45:16,144
- <i>♪ O, night ♪</i>
- 873
- 00:45:16,146 --> 00:45:22,083
- <i>♪ O, night divine ♪</i>
- 874
- 00:45:22,085 --> 00:45:23,918
- Hey!
- 875
- 00:45:23,920 --> 00:45:26,954
- Ivy, by the way, that
- was your best singing ever.
- 876
- 00:45:26,956 --> 00:45:29,523
- I think the
- two of you were great.
- 877
- 00:45:29,525 --> 00:45:32,193
- Yeah, they're completely right.
- You were amazing.
- 878
- 00:45:32,195 --> 00:45:34,028
- - Yeah, you were awesome!
- - Really amazing.
- 879
- 00:45:34,030 --> 00:45:35,796
- - Yes!
- - And you, little buddy.
- 880
- 00:45:35,798 --> 00:45:37,231
- - You think so?
- - Yes.
- 881
- 00:45:37,233 --> 00:45:38,800
- For a second there,
- I literally thought
- 882
- 00:45:38,802 --> 00:45:39,800
- that you were a sheep.
- 883
- 00:45:40,971 --> 00:45:43,804
- And, and, and you didn't
- even have to pretend
- 884
- 00:45:43,806 --> 00:45:44,938
- because you're an angel.
- 885
- 00:45:46,342 --> 00:45:48,141
- <i>Front door.</i>
- 886
- 00:45:51,481 --> 00:45:53,280
- All right, kiddos.
- 887
- 00:45:53,282 --> 00:45:55,583
- Jammies and teeth
- brushed right now, please.
- 888
- 00:45:55,585 --> 00:45:59,119
- - Start jammin'.
- - All right. Come on.
- 889
- 00:45:59,121 --> 00:46:00,220
- What happened?
- 890
- 00:46:00,222 --> 00:46:01,488
- Oh, my God.
- 891
- 00:46:01,490 --> 00:46:03,157
- - OK, kids.
- - Stay right here.
- 892
- 00:46:03,159 --> 00:46:04,492
- - Shh, sit down. Sit down.
- - Why?
- 893
- 00:46:04,494 --> 00:46:05,592
- - Don't move.
- - Sit down.
- 894
- 00:46:05,594 --> 00:46:07,094
- Sit down,
- sit down right here.
- 895
- 00:46:07,096 --> 00:46:08,429
- - Mom.
- - Sit down.
- 896
- 00:46:08,431 --> 00:46:10,530
- It's okay.
- It's okay, honey.
- 897
- 00:46:10,532 --> 00:46:12,499
- There's broken glass.
- 898
- 00:46:12,501 --> 00:46:15,302
- - Don't be scared. Daddy's just checking...
- - Ben.
- 899
- 00:46:15,304 --> 00:46:17,271
- Be careful.
- 900
- 00:46:26,114 --> 00:46:28,249
- Come on. Fuck.
- Come on.
- 901
- 00:46:28,251 --> 00:46:29,816
- This can't be
- happening. Not again.
- 902
- 00:46:29,818 --> 00:46:32,119
- Stay right here. Don't move.
- It's okay. I know. Don't move.
- 903
- 00:46:32,121 --> 00:46:33,856
- - I'm scared.
- - It's okay. It's okay.
- 904
- 00:46:36,860 --> 00:46:38,394
- Come on, motherfucker.
- 905
- 00:46:43,498 --> 00:46:44,834
- What?
- 906
- 00:46:46,302 --> 00:46:47,838
- I was at church.
- 907
- 00:46:50,039 --> 00:46:51,942
- Coast is clear.
- 908
- 00:46:53,242 --> 00:46:55,041
- We still got the TV,
- 909
- 00:46:55,043 --> 00:46:56,344
- and we got the computers,
- 910
- 00:46:56,346 --> 00:47:01,949
- and, most importantly,
- we got the presents.
- 911
- 00:47:01,951 --> 00:47:04,985
- Yeah, it was probably
- just neighborhood kids.
- 912
- 00:47:04,987 --> 00:47:06,287
- Just a practical joke.
- 913
- 00:47:06,289 --> 00:47:08,054
- Neal?
- 914
- 00:47:08,056 --> 00:47:09,423
- No, no real damage.
- 915
- 00:47:09,425 --> 00:47:11,124
- That's a relief.
- 916
- 00:47:11,126 --> 00:47:12,260
- Where's Ponce?
- 917
- 00:47:12,262 --> 00:47:13,494
- I don't know.
- 918
- 00:47:13,496 --> 00:47:15,496
- I'm sure he's
- here somewhere.
- 919
- 00:47:15,498 --> 00:47:17,898
- - Mom? Where's Ponce?
- - You just checked the whole house.
- 920
- 00:47:17,900 --> 00:47:19,900
- - Yeah.
- - He's probably just hiding.
- 921
- 00:47:19,902 --> 00:47:20,802
- You didn't see him?
- 922
- 00:47:20,804 --> 00:47:23,037
- - No.
- - I wanna find Ponce.
- 923
- 00:47:23,039 --> 00:47:24,505
- - You know what? It's way past our bed time.
- - Ponce!
- 924
- 00:47:24,507 --> 00:47:26,072
- - Shh, upstairs.
- - But mo-o-om.
- 925
- 00:47:26,074 --> 00:47:27,575
- Ponce!
- 926
- 00:47:27,577 --> 00:47:30,311
- - I wanna find Ponce.
- - No, shh, upstairs.
- 927
- 00:47:30,313 --> 00:47:32,479
- Fuck.
- 928
- 00:47:32,481 --> 00:47:34,615
- Ponce!
- 929
- 00:47:34,617 --> 00:47:36,349
- Come on, Poncey!
- 930
- 00:47:36,351 --> 00:47:38,052
- Come on, Poncey!
- 931
- 00:47:38,054 --> 00:47:39,186
- I bet he just...
- 932
- 00:47:39,188 --> 00:47:40,655
- you know, went
- out exploring.
- 933
- 00:47:40,657 --> 00:47:42,356
- No, he didn't.
- 934
- 00:47:42,358 --> 00:47:46,459
- Sweetie, he is just having
- a Christmas adventure.
- 935
- 00:47:46,461 --> 00:47:47,461
- All right?
- 936
- 00:47:47,463 --> 00:47:49,296
- Come on, boy!
- 937
- 00:47:49,298 --> 00:47:50,530
- Ponce!
- 938
- 00:47:50,532 --> 00:47:52,335
- OK, snuggled in.
- 939
- 00:47:53,469 --> 00:47:55,436
- <i>Front door.</i>
- 940
- 00:47:55,438 --> 00:47:58,005
- I can't find him anywhere.
- 941
- 00:47:58,007 --> 00:47:59,606
- And he'd never run off.
- 942
- 00:47:59,608 --> 00:48:01,108
- Someone took him.
- 943
- 00:48:02,177 --> 00:48:04,512
- Who would steal our dog?
- 944
- 00:48:04,514 --> 00:48:08,218
- You come back, and
- then this happens?
- 945
- 00:48:09,619 --> 00:48:10,988
- This is on you.
- 946
- 00:48:28,438 --> 00:48:31,671
- <i>Front door.</i>
- 947
- 00:48:31,673 --> 00:48:33,307
- Tomorrow,
- when you wake up,
- 948
- 00:48:33,309 --> 00:48:34,708
- it's gonna be Christmas.
- 949
- 00:48:34,710 --> 00:48:37,380
- With presents and Ponce.
- 950
- 00:48:38,246 --> 00:48:40,347
- All right. I love you.
- 951
- 00:48:40,349 --> 00:48:42,615
- Try to sleep, and I'll
- be right back, OK?
- 952
- 00:48:42,617 --> 00:48:43,985
- Love you.
- 953
- 00:48:43,987 --> 00:48:44,985
- Leave the light on.
- 954
- 00:48:44,987 --> 00:48:46,422
- Of course I will.
- 955
- 00:48:59,668 --> 00:49:01,135
- What are you doing?
- 956
- 00:49:01,137 --> 00:49:03,003
- You aren't calling
- the cops, are you?
- 957
- 00:49:03,005 --> 00:49:04,405
- I am.
- 958
- 00:49:04,407 --> 00:49:07,407
- No, Neal.
- No cops. Not yet.
- 959
- 00:49:07,409 --> 00:49:08,541
- Where is he?
- 960
- 00:49:08,543 --> 00:49:10,010
- Why wasn't
- the alarm on?
- 961
- 00:49:10,012 --> 00:49:11,412
- Because Ben was with us.
- 962
- 00:49:11,414 --> 00:49:14,215
- He's the reason we got the
- alarm in the first place.
- 963
- 00:49:14,217 --> 00:49:15,615
- Where is he?
- 964
- 00:49:15,617 --> 00:49:16,987
- He left.
- 965
- 00:49:23,059 --> 00:49:24,428
- Go.
- 966
- 00:49:27,697 --> 00:49:29,032
- Holly.
- 967
- 00:49:31,034 --> 00:49:32,099
- Holly?
- 968
- 00:49:32,101 --> 00:49:33,603
- <i>Left door.</i>
- 969
- 00:49:41,177 --> 00:49:43,579
- Jesus. Ben!
- 970
- 00:49:45,047 --> 00:49:46,579
- Ben!
- 971
- 00:49:46,581 --> 00:49:49,650
- Every fucking thing
- I do turns to shit.
- 972
- 00:49:49,652 --> 00:49:51,519
- - No, honey...
- - No, no matter how
- 973
- 00:49:51,521 --> 00:49:53,621
- hard I try, everything
- just turns to shit.
- 974
- 00:49:53,623 --> 00:49:55,188
- Please, just get in the car.
- 975
- 00:49:55,190 --> 00:49:56,190
- I didn't do it.
- 976
- 00:49:56,192 --> 00:49:57,590
- Obviously.
- 977
- 00:49:57,592 --> 00:49:59,325
- But I'm... I'm the reason
- that somebody did.
- 978
- 00:49:59,327 --> 00:50:00,661
- I put you in danger.
- 979
- 00:50:00,663 --> 00:50:04,097
- I put my... I put my
- family in danger.
- 980
- 00:50:04,099 --> 00:50:05,465
- And...
- 981
- 00:50:05,467 --> 00:50:07,668
- And I should've
- known. I'm so stupid.
- 982
- 00:50:07,670 --> 00:50:10,507
- No, you're not.
- Please, get in the car.
- 983
- 00:50:11,606 --> 00:50:14,378
- Jesus.
- Where are you going?
- 984
- 00:50:15,244 --> 00:50:16,709
- Ben!
- 985
- 00:50:16,711 --> 00:50:18,211
- Will you stop?
- 986
- 00:50:18,213 --> 00:50:19,847
- I have to fix it.
- I have to fix it.
- 987
- 00:50:19,849 --> 00:50:21,215
- I gotta find Ponce.
- 988
- 00:50:21,217 --> 00:50:22,249
- OK, well, just think.
- 989
- 00:50:22,251 --> 00:50:23,684
- I am. God, damn it.
- 990
- 00:50:23,686 --> 00:50:24,751
- What?
- 991
- 00:50:24,753 --> 00:50:26,454
- H-How?
- 992
- 00:50:26,456 --> 00:50:27,755
- You don't understand.
- 993
- 00:50:27,757 --> 00:50:30,092
- There are so many people
- that it could be.
- 994
- 00:50:33,362 --> 00:50:37,798
- All right, well, we'll just
- take it one asshole at a time.
- 995
- 00:50:37,800 --> 00:50:39,803
- Well, get in the car.
- 996
- 00:50:48,244 --> 00:50:49,546
- Seat belt.
- 997
- 00:51:00,655 --> 00:51:03,527
- No, don't turn here.
- Don't turn on Elm.
- 998
- 00:51:06,128 --> 00:51:07,394
- Not Pleasant.
- 999
- 00:51:07,396 --> 00:51:09,699
- All right. Just tell
- me where to turn.
- 1000
- 00:51:11,199 --> 00:51:12,266
- Tell me where.
- 1001
- 00:51:12,268 --> 00:51:13,501
- - Fuck!
- - What?
- 1002
- 00:51:13,503 --> 00:51:15,672
- I've... I've used there.
- 1003
- 00:51:24,713 --> 00:51:27,183
- I robbed someone there. I...
- 1004
- 00:51:41,563 --> 00:51:42,795
- This place?
- 1005
- 00:51:42,797 --> 00:51:44,430
- - Yeah.
- - What's here?
- 1006
- 00:51:44,432 --> 00:51:45,833
- You cannot ask, Mom.
- 1007
- 00:51:45,835 --> 00:51:47,367
- If we're...
- 1008
- 00:51:47,369 --> 00:51:49,637
- If we're doing this together,
- 1009
- 00:51:49,639 --> 00:51:50,670
- you cannot ask.
- 1010
- 00:51:50,672 --> 00:51:52,706
- OK, I won't ask.
- 1011
- 00:51:52,708 --> 00:51:53,840
- I'll just... OK.
- 1012
- 00:51:53,842 --> 00:51:55,511
- No. No, Mom.
- 1013
- 00:51:59,548 --> 00:52:01,182
- But I'm not letting
- you out of my sight.
- 1014
- 00:52:01,184 --> 00:52:03,452
- You won't have to.
- Just stay here.
- 1015
- 00:52:25,541 --> 00:52:26,843
- Well.
- 1016
- 00:52:28,277 --> 00:52:29,545
- It's about time.
- 1017
- 00:52:30,246 --> 00:52:31,579
- Come in.
- 1018
- 00:52:41,923 --> 00:52:44,594
- Did you take...
- did you take my dog?
- 1019
- 00:52:57,472 --> 00:52:58,505
- No luck.
- 1020
- 00:52:58,507 --> 00:53:00,407
- Who was that?
- 1021
- 00:53:00,409 --> 00:53:02,376
- Mom, we had a deal.
- 1022
- 00:53:02,378 --> 00:53:03,646
- Let's go.
- 1023
- 00:53:12,487 --> 00:53:14,487
- - I recognize him.
- - Mom.
- 1024
- 00:53:14,489 --> 00:53:15,824
- I know I know him.
- 1025
- 00:53:18,527 --> 00:53:20,630
- God, he looks so familiar.
- 1026
- 00:53:21,264 --> 00:53:22,496
- Mr. Richman.
- 1027
- 00:53:22,498 --> 00:53:23,530
- Your history teacher?
- 1028
- 00:53:23,532 --> 00:53:24,867
- Yeah.
- 1029
- 00:53:30,273 --> 00:53:31,871
- His mother had cancer.
- 1030
- 00:53:31,873 --> 00:53:33,440
- Hospice.
- 1031
- 00:53:33,442 --> 00:53:36,813
- He had lots of oxy.
- Jars full, and endless supply.
- 1032
- 00:53:39,382 --> 00:53:40,884
- We had an arrangement.
- 1033
- 00:53:46,554 --> 00:53:48,021
- Oh, God.
- 1034
- 00:53:48,023 --> 00:53:50,423
- Oh, my God.
- 1035
- 00:53:52,360 --> 00:53:53,829
- Oh, that piece of shit.
- 1036
- 00:54:17,452 --> 00:54:19,389
- Mom, we gotta
- keep going.
- 1037
- 00:54:56,659 --> 00:54:58,361
- I think it's...
- 1038
- 00:55:00,596 --> 00:55:01,862
- What's here?
- 1039
- 00:55:01,864 --> 00:55:04,067
- Maggie's dad lives
- in one of these.
- 1040
- 00:55:06,668 --> 00:55:08,637
- Why would he
- take Ponce?
- 1041
- 00:55:09,572 --> 00:55:10,974
- Who hates me more?
- 1042
- 00:55:19,148 --> 00:55:20,450
- It's one of these.
- 1043
- 00:55:34,797 --> 00:55:36,365
- That's him.
- 1044
- 00:55:43,672 --> 00:55:44,974
- No Ponce.
- 1045
- 00:55:54,717 --> 00:55:56,485
- Heartbreaking, that.
- 1046
- 00:55:58,420 --> 00:56:00,554
- Sometimes it catches.
- 1047
- 00:56:00,556 --> 00:56:04,791
- - Why don't you let me try?
- - I got it.
- 1048
- 00:56:04,793 --> 00:56:05,992
- Just... you're being too
- herky-jerky with it.
- 1049
- 00:56:05,994 --> 00:56:07,427
- I'm not being
- herky-jerky.
- 1050
- 00:56:07,429 --> 00:56:08,695
- Sweetie, I'm not
- criticizing you.
- 1051
- 00:56:08,697 --> 00:56:10,563
- I'm just saying.
- 1052
- 00:56:10,565 --> 00:56:12,800
- - Mom, I know how to...
- - I don't... apparently not this exact seatbelt
- 1053
- 00:56:12,802 --> 00:56:14,635
- - you know how to put on.
- - Holy...!
- 1054
- 00:56:14,637 --> 00:56:16,103
- - Shit!
- - Oh, my God!
- 1055
- 00:56:16,105 --> 00:56:19,139
- What the fuck are
- you doing here?
- 1056
- 00:56:19,141 --> 00:56:21,474
- You fucking junkie
- piece of shit!
- 1057
- 00:56:21,476 --> 00:56:22,508
- Get the fuck out!
- 1058
- 00:56:22,510 --> 00:56:23,846
- Oh, the fuck?!
- 1059
- 00:56:30,085 --> 00:56:32,719
- We are going to
- have to talk about this.
- 1060
- 00:56:32,721 --> 00:56:34,521
- I mean, I get to
- ask questions.
- 1061
- 00:56:34,523 --> 00:56:36,023
- I get...
- 1062
- 00:56:36,025 --> 00:56:38,958
- I'm gonna have to explain
- the window to Neal.
- 1063
- 00:56:38,960 --> 00:56:42,729
- He tried to bash in
- my head, and he should.
- 1064
- 00:56:42,731 --> 00:56:43,963
- Don't say that.
- 1065
- 00:56:43,965 --> 00:56:45,798
- If you were him,
- you'd want me dead
- 1066
- 00:56:45,800 --> 00:56:47,668
- for what I did.
- 1067
- 00:56:47,670 --> 00:56:49,503
- All right, well, then you're
- going to have to help me here.
- 1068
- 00:56:49,505 --> 00:56:50,840
- What did you do?
- 1069
- 00:57:08,891 --> 00:57:10,791
- Who are we
- looking for?
- 1070
- 00:57:10,793 --> 00:57:12,195
- You'll know when I know.
- 1071
- 00:57:15,498 --> 00:57:16,900
- Thank you.
- 1072
- 00:57:27,510 --> 00:57:28,978
- I got Maggie hooked.
- 1073
- 00:57:37,820 --> 00:57:40,523
- I told her how
- great it was.
- 1074
- 00:57:42,023 --> 00:57:44,557
- Did you tie her down and
- stick a needle in her arm?
- 1075
- 00:57:44,559 --> 00:57:46,659
- - No, but...
- - And, at that time,
- 1076
- 00:57:46,661 --> 00:57:52,065
- didn't you think it was
- the best thing ever?
- 1077
- 00:57:52,067 --> 00:57:54,934
- Then, you
- told her the truth.
- 1078
- 00:57:54,936 --> 00:57:58,271
- At that time,
- that was your truth.
- 1079
- 00:57:58,273 --> 00:57:59,139
- But it was wrong.
- 1080
- 00:57:59,141 --> 00:58:02,642
- Didn't you just want
- her to be happy?
- 1081
- 00:58:02,644 --> 00:58:04,978
- This... this is so twisted.
- 1082
- 00:58:04,980 --> 00:58:07,583
- Well, what did
- you want her to feel?
- 1083
- 00:58:08,817 --> 00:58:11,050
- Do you hear
- yourself right now?
- 1084
- 00:58:11,052 --> 00:58:13,623
- What did you want
- her to feel?
- 1085
- 00:58:20,795 --> 00:58:22,064
- Safe.
- 1086
- 00:58:24,833 --> 00:58:26,566
- Loved.
- 1087
- 00:58:26,568 --> 00:58:28,538
- Alive. Whole.
- 1088
- 00:58:31,106 --> 00:58:33,076
- Something that nobody...
- 1089
- 00:58:33,943 --> 00:58:36,175
- not even you could ever...
- 1090
- 00:58:36,177 --> 00:58:37,579
- make me feel.
- 1091
- 00:58:42,851 --> 00:58:44,119
- OK.
- 1092
- 00:58:47,789 --> 00:58:49,858
- You know what
- you did wrong.
- 1093
- 00:58:51,126 --> 00:58:53,997
- You lived,
- and she didn't.
- 1094
- 00:58:55,130 --> 00:58:56,932
- And we'll never know why.
- 1095
- 00:58:58,701 --> 00:59:00,036
- It should've been me.
- 1096
- 00:59:00,735 --> 00:59:02,004
- No.
- 1097
- 00:59:03,771 --> 00:59:05,671
- You ready to order?
- 1098
- 00:59:05,673 --> 00:59:09,742
- Um, yes, I will have
- you soup of the day
- 1099
- 00:59:09,744 --> 00:59:11,047
- and a combo, please.
- 1100
- 00:59:16,985 --> 00:59:18,651
- Hi, honey, I was
- about to call you.
- 1101
- 00:59:18,653 --> 00:59:21,324
- <i>I'm going out of my mind.
- Where are you?</i>
- 1102
- 00:59:22,291 --> 00:59:24,324
- Um, I'm... I'm with Ben.
- 1103
- 00:59:24,326 --> 00:59:28,095
- It took me a while to find
- find him, but I did, and, uh,
- 1104
- 00:59:28,097 --> 00:59:29,996
- <i>We're just
- getting a bite.</i>
- 1105
- 00:59:29,998 --> 00:59:32,231
- - Daddy.
- - We're supposed to be a united front.
- 1106
- 00:59:32,233 --> 00:59:35,001
- We are.
- You just have to trust me.
- 1107
- 00:59:35,003 --> 00:59:36,168
- Well, you're making
- that very hard.
- 1108
- 00:59:36,170 --> 00:59:38,005
- <i>You need to come home.</i>
- 1109
- 00:59:38,007 --> 00:59:39,972
- Not without Ponce.
- 1110
- 00:59:39,974 --> 00:59:43,010
- Those kids are waking
- up with their dog.
- 1111
- 00:59:43,012 --> 00:59:45,311
- And there's no need
- for cops because
- 1112
- 00:59:45,313 --> 00:59:47,380
- we've got this,
- Ben and I.
- 1113
- 00:59:47,382 --> 00:59:48,081
- Don't we, Ben?
- 1114
- 00:59:48,083 --> 00:59:49,349
- <i>You've got this.</i>
- 1115
- 00:59:49,351 --> 00:59:51,952
- - You and the drug addict. You got this.
- - Daddy?
- 1116
- 00:59:51,954 --> 00:59:53,256
- Please...
- 1117
- 00:59:54,322 --> 00:59:55,856
- Baby.
- 1118
- 00:59:55,858 --> 00:59:57,157
- Here's an ideal, Neal.
- 1119
- 00:59:57,159 --> 00:59:59,793
- Why don't you take
- care of our kids?
- 1120
- 00:59:59,795 --> 01:00:00,894
- And I'll deal with mine.
- 1121
- 01:00:00,896 --> 01:00:02,195
- Hm?
- 1122
- 01:00:02,197 --> 01:00:04,067
- <i>I'm going to bed.</i>
- 1123
- 01:00:05,701 --> 01:00:06,969
- Neal.
- 1124
- 01:00:13,409 --> 01:00:15,175
- What?
- 1125
- 01:00:15,177 --> 01:00:16,945
- He's a bit of a dick.
- 1126
- 01:00:17,278 --> 01:00:18,345
- Wow.
- 1127
- 01:00:18,347 --> 01:00:19,979
- Weren't you just
- complaining?
- 1128
- 01:00:19,981 --> 01:00:23,182
- No, I can think
- or say about him
- 1129
- 01:00:23,184 --> 01:00:25,952
- whatever I want because
- he is my husband,
- 1130
- 01:00:25,954 --> 01:00:28,155
- and I love him,
- but you...
- 1131
- 01:00:28,157 --> 01:00:30,126
- God, you clearly
- don't get it.
- 1132
- 01:00:30,858 --> 01:00:32,124
- You're here,
- 1133
- 01:00:32,126 --> 01:00:35,295
- and without Neal,
- you wouldn't be.
- 1134
- 01:00:35,297 --> 01:00:36,829
- Mm, don't be so sure.
- 1135
- 01:00:36,831 --> 01:00:38,130
- How many rehabs
- is it now?
- 1136
- 01:00:38,132 --> 01:00:39,365
- I couldn't've paid for it.
- 1137
- 01:00:39,367 --> 01:00:40,967
- Insurance won't anymore.
- 1138
- 01:00:40,969 --> 01:00:42,702
- The government
- doesn't give a fuck.
- 1139
- 01:00:42,704 --> 01:00:45,171
- And, heaven help you
- if you're poor,
- 1140
- 01:00:45,173 --> 01:00:48,742
- which, because of Neal,
- we aren't anymore.
- 1141
- 01:00:48,744 --> 01:00:53,813
- He took out a second mortgage on
- the house to pay for you this time.
- 1142
- 01:00:53,815 --> 01:00:56,985
- The only thing you should
- say about Neal is thank you.
- 1143
- 01:00:58,286 --> 01:00:59,885
- No way, man.
- 1144
- 01:00:59,887 --> 01:01:01,153
- Go!
- 1145
- 01:01:01,155 --> 01:01:03,055
- - Relax.
- - No, I'm not relaxing. Go.
- 1146
- 01:01:03,057 --> 01:01:04,257
- I said get out.
- 1147
- 01:01:04,259 --> 01:01:05,492
- What is it?
- 1148
- 01:01:05,494 --> 01:01:06,492
- Oh, shit.
- 1149
- 01:01:07,530 --> 01:01:09,666
- What's going on?
- 1150
- 01:01:28,150 --> 01:01:29,483
- Who'd you tell?
- 1151
- 01:01:29,485 --> 01:01:30,617
- About what?
- 1152
- 01:01:30,619 --> 01:01:32,219
- - That I'm back.
- - Everyone knows you're back.
- 1153
- 01:01:32,221 --> 01:01:33,820
- 'Cause of you.
- 1154
- 01:01:33,822 --> 01:01:34,820
- Where's my dog?
- 1155
- 01:01:34,822 --> 01:01:36,322
- Who took my dog?
- 1156
- 01:01:36,324 --> 01:01:37,824
- Oh, so you can steal other
- people's shit all you want?
- 1157
- 01:01:37,826 --> 01:01:39,762
- But someone steals
- yours you get all holy?
- 1158
- 01:01:40,762 --> 01:01:43,028
- OK, was it Tommy?
- 1159
- 01:01:43,030 --> 01:01:44,030
- No.
- 1160
- 01:01:44,032 --> 01:01:45,030
- Was it Bumgarner?
- 1161
- 01:01:45,032 --> 01:01:46,099
- Jail.
- 1162
- 01:01:46,101 --> 01:01:47,369
- Was it Clayton?
- 1163
- 01:01:55,476 --> 01:01:56,812
- Who's that?
- 1164
- 01:01:58,347 --> 01:01:59,482
- My mom.
- 1165
- 01:02:01,016 --> 01:02:02,452
- Oh, oh, hey, Mrs. B.
- 1166
- 01:02:03,085 --> 01:02:04,353
- Long time.
- 1167
- 01:02:05,186 --> 01:02:06,952
- Spencer?
- 1168
- 01:02:06,954 --> 01:02:08,854
- I... I go by Spider now, Mrs. B.
- 1169
- 01:02:08,856 --> 01:02:10,293
- Feels more like me.
- 1170
- 01:02:11,293 --> 01:02:12,795
- You look terrible.
- 1171
- 01:02:14,295 --> 01:02:16,765
- You always say it
- like it is, Mrs. B.
- 1172
- 01:02:19,835 --> 01:02:21,568
- Oh, my God.
- 1173
- 01:02:21,570 --> 01:02:22,568
- I'm sorry, Mrs. B.
- 1174
- 01:02:36,585 --> 01:02:38,885
- Oh, God, that little shit.
- 1175
- 01:02:38,887 --> 01:02:39,885
- It's okay.
- 1176
- 01:02:39,887 --> 01:02:41,086
- Let me just help.
- 1177
- 01:02:41,088 --> 01:02:42,491
- - It's not helping.
- - OK.
- 1178
- 01:02:43,391 --> 01:02:45,325
- I know who has Ponce.
- 1179
- 01:02:45,327 --> 01:02:48,360
- - Well, that's great. That's something.
- - No, no.
- 1180
- 01:02:48,362 --> 01:02:51,099
- It's the person I
- hoped it wouldn't be.
- 1181
- 01:03:00,409 --> 01:03:02,111
- It's gonna take more.
- 1182
- 01:03:03,045 --> 01:03:05,412
- That's my daily limit.
- 1183
- 01:03:05,414 --> 01:03:07,947
- I can write a check, but...
- 1184
- 01:03:07,949 --> 01:03:10,318
- these aren't check
- people, are they?
- 1185
- 01:03:11,119 --> 01:03:12,387
- No.
- 1186
- 01:03:16,858 --> 01:03:18,126
- Take this.
- 1187
- 01:03:20,262 --> 01:03:21,564
- It's worth a lot.
- 1188
- 01:03:22,864 --> 01:03:24,132
- It's just a thing.
- 1189
- 01:03:28,103 --> 01:03:29,405
- I'm sorry.
- 1190
- 01:03:31,639 --> 01:03:33,141
- I never liked it.
- 1191
- 01:03:41,182 --> 01:03:44,150
- Turn your lights off.
- 1192
- 01:03:44,152 --> 01:03:45,985
- All right. Let's...
- You know what?
- 1193
- 01:03:45,987 --> 01:03:48,021
- Let's just... let's just
- turn right around
- 1194
- 01:03:48,023 --> 01:03:50,557
- because Ponce was a rescue,
- and we had a good run.
- 1195
- 01:03:50,559 --> 01:03:52,124
- You did not
- just say that.
- 1196
- 01:03:52,126 --> 01:03:53,959
- Yes, I did.
- Ponce is just a dog.
- 1197
- 01:03:53,961 --> 01:03:56,662
- I love five people,
- and Ponce is two of them.
- 1198
- 01:03:56,664 --> 01:03:58,430
- OK, well, he is
- a pee in the house,
- 1199
- 01:03:58,432 --> 01:03:59,499
- crap on the carpet dog,
- 1200
- 01:03:59,501 --> 01:04:00,967
- and you are
- so much more.
- 1201
- 01:04:00,969 --> 01:04:03,436
- Fuck, what are we doing?
- This is madness.
- 1202
- 01:04:03,438 --> 01:04:05,438
- No. No, this is manageable.
- 1203
- 01:04:05,440 --> 01:04:07,273
- It's Clayton.
- We go way back.
- 1204
- 01:04:07,275 --> 01:04:08,508
- I'll pay up,
- 1205
- 01:04:08,510 --> 01:04:09,575
- and maybe we'll
- have a good laugh.
- 1206
- 01:04:09,577 --> 01:04:11,010
- You don't believe that.
- 1207
- 01:04:11,012 --> 01:04:12,545
- If I don't deal with this,
- 1208
- 01:04:12,547 --> 01:04:16,219
- then it could be worse next
- time for you and the family.
- 1209
- 01:04:18,619 --> 01:04:21,554
- OK, you go in,
- pay the man,
- 1210
- 01:04:21,556 --> 01:04:23,423
- get Ponce, and get
- right back out.
- 1211
- 01:04:26,228 --> 01:04:28,228
- You're coming out.
- 1212
- 01:04:28,230 --> 01:04:29,865
- Yeah, I'm coming out.
- 1213
- 01:04:34,036 --> 01:04:35,338
- Be careful.
- 1214
- 01:04:39,974 --> 01:04:40,974
- Lock the door.
- 1215
- 01:04:40,976 --> 01:04:42,311
- Lock the door.
- 1216
- 01:05:28,523 --> 01:05:30,459
- Just be calm.
- 1217
- 01:05:32,728 --> 01:05:33,726
- I can't be calm.
- 1218
- 01:05:33,728 --> 01:05:35,063
- I'll just go in.
- 1219
- 01:06:01,222 --> 01:06:02,488
- Mom.
- 1220
- 01:06:02,490 --> 01:06:04,057
- Mom, what are you doing?
- 1221
- 01:06:04,059 --> 01:06:05,057
- Oh, my God.
- 1222
- 01:06:05,059 --> 01:06:06,492
- Get over here.
- 1223
- 01:06:06,494 --> 01:06:07,726
- What happened?
- Where's Ponce?
- 1224
- 01:06:07,728 --> 01:06:09,429
- All right, I got in,
- and I got out.
- 1225
- 01:06:09,431 --> 01:06:10,429
- And that's the good news.
- 1226
- 01:06:10,431 --> 01:06:11,563
- What's the bad?
- 1227
- 01:06:11,565 --> 01:06:13,233
- I just need you
- to drive, OK?
- 1228
- 01:06:13,235 --> 01:06:14,233
- Let me do the thinking.
- 1229
- 01:06:14,235 --> 01:06:16,302
- OK.
- 1230
- 01:06:16,304 --> 01:06:18,007
- Oh, Jesus.
- 1231
- 01:06:24,346 --> 01:06:25,648
- Oh, my God.
- 1232
- 01:06:26,748 --> 01:06:28,680
- Easy. Easy, Mom.
- 1233
- 01:06:28,682 --> 01:06:30,050
- You're trying too hard.
- 1234
- 01:06:30,052 --> 01:06:31,050
- OK, of course I am.
- 1235
- 01:06:31,052 --> 01:06:33,086
- It's what I do.
- 1236
- 01:06:33,088 --> 01:06:35,320
- Stop. Stop, you're
- flooding the engine.
- 1237
- 01:06:35,322 --> 01:06:36,322
- You've gotta
- give it a rest.
- 1238
- 01:06:36,324 --> 01:06:37,657
- Oh, sorry.
- 1239
- 01:06:37,659 --> 01:06:39,659
- Clayton doesn't deal
- out of here anymore.
- 1240
- 01:06:39,661 --> 01:06:42,762
- He's gone up the chain,
- and he's not happy with me.
- 1241
- 01:06:42,764 --> 01:06:43,829
- Oh, my God.
- 1242
- 01:06:43,831 --> 01:06:46,066
- But I got a plan,
- so I need you to listen to me.
- 1243
- 01:06:46,068 --> 01:06:48,200
- I can't help but think if
- I hadn't left your dad...
- 1244
- 01:06:48,202 --> 01:06:49,735
- He left us, so just
- please listen to me.
- 1245
- 01:06:49,737 --> 01:06:51,838
- You took it so
- hard you blamed yourself.
- 1246
- 01:06:51,840 --> 01:06:52,738
- OK, just stop.
- 1247
- 01:06:52,740 --> 01:06:54,273
- It was something
- that... it changed you.
- 1248
- 01:06:54,275 --> 01:06:55,744
- Just move... move over.
- 1249
- 01:06:59,414 --> 01:07:01,417
- A boy needs a dad.
- 1250
- 01:07:03,085 --> 01:07:04,249
- A boy needs a dad.
- 1251
- 01:07:04,251 --> 01:07:05,418
- Mom.
- 1252
- 01:07:05,420 --> 01:07:07,387
- No, it... that's
- what you needed.
- 1253
- 01:07:07,389 --> 01:07:08,691
- Not that dad.
- 1254
- 01:07:12,226 --> 01:07:13,795
- Fuck, we need gas.
- 1255
- 01:07:15,697 --> 01:07:17,796
- You tried so hard
- to keep me happy.
- 1256
- 01:07:17,798 --> 01:07:20,766
- And what kid wouldn't crack
- under the weight of that.
- 1257
- 01:07:20,768 --> 01:07:22,070
- Mom.
- 1258
- 01:07:23,271 --> 01:07:24,336
- What?
- 1259
- 01:07:24,338 --> 01:07:25,641
- What is it?
- 1260
- 01:07:40,155 --> 01:07:41,887
- You need to go home.
- 1261
- 01:07:41,889 --> 01:07:43,123
- Not without you.
- 1262
- 01:07:43,125 --> 01:07:44,389
- You cannot go
- where I'm going.
- 1263
- 01:07:44,391 --> 01:07:45,592
- It's not safe.
- 1264
- 01:07:45,594 --> 01:07:46,825
- Then I'm definitely going.
- 1265
- 01:07:46,827 --> 01:07:48,128
- No. No.
- 1266
- 01:07:48,130 --> 01:07:49,262
- Go home.
- 1267
- 01:07:49,264 --> 01:07:50,329
- I'll be there soon.
- 1268
- 01:07:50,331 --> 01:07:51,697
- No, I don't believe you.
- 1269
- 01:07:51,699 --> 01:07:53,833
- OK, so now you
- don't believe me.
- 1270
- 01:07:53,835 --> 01:07:55,267
- No, I don't.
- 1271
- 01:07:55,269 --> 01:07:57,704
- Mom, you don't know
- what you're doing.
- 1272
- 01:07:57,706 --> 01:08:00,206
- - I do.
- - You don't know what you're doing.
- 1273
- 01:08:00,208 --> 01:08:01,740
- I'm not worth it.
- 1274
- 01:08:01,742 --> 01:08:03,742
- If you really knew me,
- you'd be done with me.
- 1275
- 01:08:03,744 --> 01:08:04,911
- No, honey, I wouldn't.
- 1276
- 01:08:04,913 --> 01:08:06,579
- - And I know you...
- - No.
- 1277
- 01:08:06,581 --> 01:08:08,313
- - I know you.
- - You don't, Mom. You don't know me.
- 1278
- 01:08:08,315 --> 01:08:10,150
- You don't.
- 1279
- 01:08:10,152 --> 01:08:13,686
- My sponsor told me
- not to come back.
- 1280
- 01:08:13,688 --> 01:08:15,621
- He said it was
- a shit idea.
- 1281
- 01:08:15,623 --> 01:08:17,423
- That I was not ready.
- 1282
- 01:08:17,425 --> 01:08:18,491
- That's not true.
- 1283
- 01:08:18,493 --> 01:08:19,826
- Yes, it is.
- It is true.
- 1284
- 01:08:19,828 --> 01:08:22,195
- And I didn't get the
- drugs from the girl.
- 1285
- 01:08:22,197 --> 01:08:23,428
- They were in the attic
- 1286
- 01:08:23,430 --> 01:08:26,833
- above Liam and
- Lacey's room.
- 1287
- 01:08:26,835 --> 01:08:28,701
- And within an hour
- of coming home,
- 1288
- 01:08:28,703 --> 01:08:30,473
- they were in my pocket.
- 1289
- 01:08:33,875 --> 01:08:35,842
- I told you not
- to believe me,
- 1290
- 01:08:35,844 --> 01:08:39,312
- and you didn't
- fucking listen.
- 1291
- 01:08:39,314 --> 01:08:41,748
- Do you... I mean, I could...
- I could... I could go on.
- 1292
- 01:08:41,750 --> 01:08:43,249
- Do you want
- me to go on?
- 1293
- 01:08:43,251 --> 01:08:44,317
- There's so much more.
- 1294
- 01:08:44,319 --> 01:08:45,585
- I killed Maggie.
- 1295
- 01:08:45,587 --> 01:08:47,253
- - It's not working.
- - I killed Maggie!
- 1296
- 01:08:47,255 --> 01:08:48,524
- It's not working.
- 1297
- 01:08:50,192 --> 01:08:51,857
- Please, go home!
- 1298
- 01:08:51,859 --> 01:08:54,861
- You have to go
- home, please.
- 1299
- 01:08:54,863 --> 01:08:57,330
- Please. I'm not
- worth it, please.
- 1300
- 01:08:57,332 --> 01:08:58,430
- Please, go home.
- 1301
- 01:08:58,432 --> 01:09:00,469
- I will not leave you.
- 1302
- 01:09:32,234 --> 01:09:33,636
- Get whatever you want.
- 1303
- 01:09:41,775 --> 01:09:43,543
- Oh, and I know
- you are not open,
- 1304
- 01:09:43,545 --> 01:09:45,410
- so you have
- a Merry Christmas!
- 1305
- 01:09:45,412 --> 01:09:46,778
- You, too.
- 1306
- 01:09:46,780 --> 01:09:48,615
- Can you get me that
- blue drink I really like?
- 1307
- 01:09:48,617 --> 01:09:49,918
- Yeah.
- 1308
- 01:09:51,685 --> 01:09:54,656
- Mom, you're the best.
- 1309
- 01:10:00,028 --> 01:10:02,965
- So, its just these
- two and one more.
- 1310
- 01:10:06,501 --> 01:10:07,733
- Honey, which one is it?
- 1311
- 01:10:07,735 --> 01:10:10,573
- Because there is more
- than one choice.
- 1312
- 01:10:15,810 --> 01:10:16,946
- Ben?
- 1313
- 01:10:31,960 --> 01:10:34,326
- <i>Hey, it's Ben.
- You know what to do.</i>
- 1314
- 01:10:35,697 --> 01:10:38,865
- No. No, I don't, Ben.
- I don't know what to do.
- 1315
- 01:10:38,867 --> 01:10:41,904
- Get fucking back
- here right now.
- 1316
- 01:10:47,007 --> 01:10:48,711
- No!
- 1317
- 01:11:17,971 --> 01:11:19,274
- I'm sorry.
- 1318
- 01:11:22,409 --> 01:11:25,010
- I... I... I didn't know
- where else to go.
- 1319
- 01:11:25,012 --> 01:11:26,347
- He took my car.
- 1320
- 01:11:28,449 --> 01:11:31,653
- And he's gone somewhere
- and I don't know what to do.
- 1321
- 01:11:35,356 --> 01:11:36,759
- Come... come in.
- 1322
- 01:11:44,099 --> 01:11:47,069
- I can't tell my husband.
- He'll call the cops.
- 1323
- 01:11:47,902 --> 01:11:49,434
- Someone took our dog,
- 1324
- 01:11:49,436 --> 01:11:51,774
- and Ben's just out
- trying to find our dog.
- 1325
- 01:11:52,506 --> 01:11:53,908
- Come on, Holly.
- 1326
- 01:11:54,743 --> 01:11:56,576
- He's an addict.
- 1327
- 01:11:56,578 --> 01:11:58,477
- And he's out there.
- 1328
- 01:12:04,386 --> 01:12:05,754
- Stay put.
- 1329
- 01:12:25,172 --> 01:12:27,809
- Holly, you'll need
- to listen closely.
- 1330
- 01:12:28,943 --> 01:12:31,544
- He has a shelf-life
- of 18 to 24 months,
- 1331
- 01:12:31,546 --> 01:12:33,513
- and it's been over
- two years, but...
- 1332
- 01:12:33,515 --> 01:12:36,715
- It should be strong enough
- if it's the only kit available.
- 1333
- 01:12:36,717 --> 01:12:37,983
- I'm such a smug bitch.
- 1334
- 01:12:37,985 --> 01:12:40,820
- I'd never thought
- I'd need this.
- 1335
- 01:12:40,822 --> 01:12:43,121
- First you pull off
- the yellow caps.
- 1336
- 01:12:43,123 --> 01:12:45,657
- You screw in the
- applicator tip.
- 1337
- 01:12:45,659 --> 01:12:47,192
- You take off this cap,
- 1338
- 01:12:47,194 --> 01:12:48,693
- and insert it here.
- 1339
- 01:12:48,695 --> 01:12:50,996
- Half a dose in
- each nostril.
- 1340
- 01:12:50,998 --> 01:12:53,766
- I c... I can't. I don't
- know what I'm doing.
- 1341
- 01:12:53,768 --> 01:12:55,634
- I'd... If you couldn't
- save Maggie...
- 1342
- 01:12:55,636 --> 01:12:57,005
- We can't save them.
- 1343
- 01:12:59,606 --> 01:13:02,411
- But you'll hate yourself
- if you don't try.
- 1344
- 01:13:15,657 --> 01:13:16,958
- Go find him.
- 1345
- 01:14:18,185 --> 01:14:20,788
- Now's starting to
- feel like Christmas.
- 1346
- 01:14:23,056 --> 01:14:24,225
- Here.
- 1347
- 01:14:28,563 --> 01:14:29,931
- This is my mom's.
- 1348
- 01:14:31,666 --> 01:14:33,034
- And it's worth a lot.
- 1349
- 01:14:37,805 --> 01:14:40,842
- I'm good for the rest,
- and I'll make it right.
- 1350
- 01:14:44,578 --> 01:14:45,880
- Yeah, well...
- 1351
- 01:14:47,114 --> 01:14:49,585
- It's not just about
- the money, Burns.
- 1352
- 01:14:51,185 --> 01:14:54,189
- I mean, I had big plans
- for you. You were my guy.
- 1353
- 01:14:55,689 --> 01:14:56,688
- I know.
- 1354
- 01:15:04,097 --> 01:15:05,630
- Look, just give
- me my dog back,
- 1355
- 01:15:05,632 --> 01:15:08,034
- and leave my family
- out of this because
- 1356
- 01:15:08,036 --> 01:15:09,735
- they didn't do anything.
- 1357
- 01:15:09,737 --> 01:15:11,736
- I wish it were that easy.
- 1358
- 01:15:11,738 --> 01:15:12,838
- It can be.
- 1359
- 01:15:18,112 --> 01:15:20,148
- Fuck it. It's Christmas, right?
- 1360
- 01:15:24,018 --> 01:15:25,351
- All right. Come on.
- 1361
- 01:15:25,353 --> 01:15:26,855
- Take this.
- 1362
- 01:15:28,989 --> 01:15:32,960
- All I need is for you to do
- me just one more little favor.
- 1363
- 01:15:36,130 --> 01:15:37,599
- What's that?
- 1364
- 01:16:04,658 --> 01:16:06,692
- Merry Christmas.
- How can I help you?
- 1365
- 01:16:06,694 --> 01:16:10,164
- So, I have this, and it's expired.
- I need it replaced.
- 1366
- 01:16:20,007 --> 01:16:21,976
- Excuse me, ma'am.
- 1367
- 01:16:23,211 --> 01:16:24,744
- Ma'am.
- 1368
- 01:16:24,746 --> 01:16:27,013
- We don't carry this.
- 1369
- 01:16:27,015 --> 01:16:28,947
- What do you mean
- you don't carry it?
- 1370
- 01:16:28,949 --> 01:16:30,316
- You need to try
- another pharmacy.
- 1371
- 01:16:30,318 --> 01:16:31,983
- No, you're the
- only one open.
- 1372
- 01:16:31,985 --> 01:16:33,753
- What do you mean
- you don't carry it?
- 1373
- 01:16:33,755 --> 01:16:38,257
- It's our policy not to encourage
- irresponsible behavior.
- 1374
- 01:16:38,259 --> 01:16:41,326
- All right, well, then why don't
- you discontinue the oxys,
- 1375
- 01:16:41,328 --> 01:16:44,830
- the perk 30s, and the...
- the... the benzo cheerios
- 1376
- 01:16:44,832 --> 01:16:46,165
- or whatever you call them.
- 1377
- 01:16:46,167 --> 01:16:47,799
- If you'd like to file a
- complaint, there is a...
- 1378
- 01:16:47,801 --> 01:16:49,670
- I'm fucking filing one!
- 1379
- 01:16:52,073 --> 01:16:53,339
- God, fucking damn it.
- 1380
- 01:17:25,038 --> 01:17:29,043
- Yo. Yo, yo, yo.
- 1381
- 01:18:08,882 --> 01:18:10,284
- Spare some change?
- 1382
- 01:18:20,161 --> 01:18:23,262
- Mrs. B. Mrs. B, I'm... I'm...
- I'm... I'm not gonna hurt you.
- 1383
- 01:18:23,264 --> 01:18:26,268
- I'm not gonna hurt you.
- I-I-I'm t-too sick.
- 1384
- 01:18:27,167 --> 01:18:29,134
- Spencer.
- 1385
- 01:18:29,136 --> 01:18:30,438
- Get in the car.
- 1386
- 01:18:35,810 --> 01:18:38,110
- Where is he?
- 1387
- 01:18:38,112 --> 01:18:40,278
- I'm sorry, Mrs. B.
- I-I-I'm not...
- 1388
- 01:18:40,280 --> 01:18:43,182
- I'm not doing
- my best thinking.
- 1389
- 01:18:43,184 --> 01:18:45,151
- I need... I need to get well.
- 1390
- 01:18:45,153 --> 01:18:46,418
- You mean get high.
- 1391
- 01:18:46,420 --> 01:18:49,321
- Fuck, there's
- no high anymore.
- 1392
- 01:18:49,323 --> 01:18:52,825
- I just don't want...
- I just don't wanna be sick.
- 1393
- 01:18:52,827 --> 01:18:54,393
- Help me. H-Help me.
- 1394
- 01:18:54,395 --> 01:18:57,428
- I just... I just... I just need
- a little... a little money.
- 1395
- 01:18:57,430 --> 01:19:01,135
- OK, I will help you,
- but you have to help me.
- 1396
- 01:19:02,069 --> 01:19:03,369
- Where can I find him?
- 1397
- 01:19:03,371 --> 01:19:05,273
- He used to run for Clayton.
- 1398
- 01:19:06,541 --> 01:19:09,407
- You don't... you don't
- leave Clayton.
- 1399
- 01:19:09,409 --> 01:19:10,843
- That's where Ben went.
- 1400
- 01:19:10,845 --> 01:19:12,210
- Shit.
- 1401
- 01:19:12,212 --> 01:19:14,345
- - I j... I just snitched.
- - No, I-I-I...
- 1402
- 01:19:14,347 --> 01:19:16,982
- I need more. Tell me
- everything you know.
- 1403
- 01:19:16,984 --> 01:19:18,286
- I can't.
- 1404
- 01:19:27,228 --> 01:19:28,529
- You can.
- 1405
- 01:19:32,065 --> 01:19:34,235
- - Where is he?
- - OK.
- 1406
- 01:19:35,368 --> 01:19:38,773
- Go to the pawn shop
- across the bridge.
- 1407
- 01:19:39,841 --> 01:19:42,875
- It's in Yonkers.
- Ask around.
- 1408
- 01:19:42,877 --> 01:19:45,376
- And that's all I could... I
- could tell you Mrs. B.
- 1409
- 01:19:45,378 --> 01:19:47,278
- Anything else,
- and they'll kill me.
- 1410
- 01:19:47,280 --> 01:19:49,447
- OK?
- 1411
- 01:19:49,449 --> 01:19:51,920
- You said you'd
- help me get well.
- 1412
- 01:19:54,622 --> 01:19:56,988
- Your mother and
- I were friends
- 1413
- 01:19:56,990 --> 01:19:58,389
- when you and
- Ben were babies.
- 1414
- 01:19:58,391 --> 01:19:59,858
- I changed your diaper.
- 1415
- 01:19:59,860 --> 01:20:01,125
- This is so fucked.
- 1416
- 01:20:01,127 --> 01:20:02,961
- Yeah, Mrs. B. It is.
- 1417
- 01:20:02,963 --> 01:20:06,434
- Call you mother, and tell
- her that you're not dead.
- 1418
- 01:20:27,255 --> 01:20:28,419
- Honey, are you OK?
- 1419
- 01:20:28,421 --> 01:20:30,555
- Just... Just tell
- me you're OK.
- 1420
- 01:20:30,557 --> 01:20:32,491
- You need to be calm.
- 1421
- 01:20:32,493 --> 01:20:35,894
- <i>I'm calm. Are you OK?</i>
- 1422
- 01:20:35,896 --> 01:20:37,465
- Yup, we are on it.
- 1423
- 01:20:38,298 --> 01:20:39,898
- Just totally safe,
- 1424
- 01:20:39,900 --> 01:20:42,000
- and closing in.
- 1425
- 01:20:42,002 --> 01:20:43,035
- OK. OK.
- 1426
- 01:20:43,037 --> 01:20:44,436
- Is that my mom?
- 1427
- 01:20:44,438 --> 01:20:46,437
- Where are you? Because
- I'm coming to get you.
- 1428
- 01:20:46,439 --> 01:20:48,040
- No, Neal.
- 1429
- 01:20:48,042 --> 01:20:49,540
- - Is that my mom?
- - OK. Yes, it is.
- 1430
- 01:20:49,542 --> 01:20:51,543
- <i>Can I please
- talk to her?</i>
- 1431
- 01:20:51,545 --> 01:20:53,614
- Yes, you may.
- Hold on one second.
- 1432
- 01:20:55,483 --> 01:20:56,851
- Mommy?
- 1433
- 01:21:07,261 --> 01:21:08,593
- You need to be in bed.
- 1434
- 01:21:08,595 --> 01:21:10,428
- Ben and I have this
- this under control,
- 1435
- 01:21:10,430 --> 01:21:13,065
- and we will see you
- in the morning.
- 1436
- 01:21:13,067 --> 01:21:15,166
- Why are you lying?
- 1437
- 01:21:15,168 --> 01:21:17,169
- <i>I'm not.</i>
- 1438
- 01:21:17,171 --> 01:21:22,074
- Mom, I'm the one who set up
- the phones for everybody.
- 1439
- 01:21:22,076 --> 01:21:23,575
- You're not with Ben.
- 1440
- 01:21:23,577 --> 01:21:25,477
- Ben is in a whole
- other town.
- 1441
- 01:21:25,479 --> 01:21:28,080
- <i>And I've been calling
- you and texting you</i>
- 1442
- 01:21:28,082 --> 01:21:29,714
- <i>and you won't pick up.</i>
- 1443
- 01:21:29,716 --> 01:21:32,418
- And I didn't tell Neal
- because he'll call the cops,
- 1444
- 01:21:32,420 --> 01:21:36,324
- but now I'm freaking out
- because you lied to me.
- 1445
- 01:21:37,358 --> 01:21:40,362
- We split up to cover
- more ground.
- 1446
- 01:21:42,095 --> 01:21:43,361
- I don't believe you.
- 1447
- 01:21:43,363 --> 01:21:44,696
- Ivy?
- 1448
- 01:21:44,698 --> 01:21:47,398
- What am I... what am
- I supposed to do?
- 1449
- 01:21:47,400 --> 01:21:48,567
- All right, sweetheart.
- 1450
- 01:21:48,569 --> 01:21:50,335
- You need to be
- calm and hang up.
- 1451
- 01:21:50,337 --> 01:21:51,602
- Deal with Neal.
- 1452
- 01:21:51,604 --> 01:21:53,237
- <i>Call me back as
- soon as you can</i>
- 1453
- 01:21:53,239 --> 01:21:54,373
- <i>from your own phone.</i>
- 1454
- 01:21:54,375 --> 01:21:56,308
- <i>All right?</i>
- 1455
- 01:21:56,310 --> 01:21:57,308
- <i>Yeah?</i>
- 1456
- 01:21:57,310 --> 01:21:59,210
- Ivy?
- 1457
- 01:21:59,212 --> 01:22:00,514
- OK.
- 1458
- 01:22:34,715 --> 01:22:35,714
- Hi, honey.
- 1459
- 01:22:35,716 --> 01:22:37,415
- <i>Hi, Mom.</i>
- 1460
- 01:22:37,417 --> 01:22:39,684
- OK, I want you to help me
- find your brother, yeah?
- 1461
- 01:22:39,686 --> 01:22:43,324
- Keep going, and, um, if
- you turn left on Millwood.
- 1462
- 01:22:46,560 --> 01:22:48,396
- <i>Keep going straight...</i>
- 1463
- 01:22:49,430 --> 01:22:51,295
- and turn right
- on 23rd street.
- 1464
- 01:22:51,297 --> 01:22:52,430
- <i>Do you see that?</i>
- 1465
- 01:22:52,432 --> 01:22:54,970
- This is 23rd street,
- right? OK.
- 1466
- 01:22:57,304 --> 01:22:59,037
- OK, and, um...
- 1467
- 01:22:59,039 --> 01:23:01,443
- <i>just keep going
- straight for a bit.</i>
- 1468
- 01:23:03,310 --> 01:23:06,144
- You're doing great, Ivy.
- 1469
- 01:23:06,146 --> 01:23:07,681
- You're getting really close.
- 1470
- 01:23:10,451 --> 01:23:12,284
- <i>OK, turn before
- the intersection.</i>
- 1471
- 01:23:12,286 --> 01:23:13,755
- <i>Mom, turn now.</i>
- 1472
- 01:23:21,529 --> 01:23:24,065
- <i>You're really close.
- Do you see him?</i>
- 1473
- 01:23:26,766 --> 01:23:28,135
- <i>Mom?</i>
- 1474
- 01:23:29,569 --> 01:23:31,605
- He should be right there.
- 1475
- 01:23:33,707 --> 01:23:35,206
- <i>I'm gonna call his phone.</i>
- 1476
- 01:23:35,208 --> 01:23:36,744
- OK, good idea.
- 1477
- 01:23:41,347 --> 01:23:42,649
- <i>OK, it's ringing.</i>
- 1478
- 01:23:47,188 --> 01:23:48,519
- <i>Do you hear it?</i>
- 1479
- 01:23:51,158 --> 01:23:53,224
- I'll call you right back.
- 1480
- 01:23:53,226 --> 01:23:54,226
- Don't hang up.
- 1481
- 01:23:54,228 --> 01:23:56,030
- No. Mom?
- 1482
- 01:24:17,350 --> 01:24:19,218
- <i>I got him.</i>
- 1483
- 01:24:19,220 --> 01:24:20,852
- OK, God.
- 1484
- 01:24:20,854 --> 01:24:22,854
- So, so, so, we're
- good, sweetie.
- 1485
- 01:24:22,856 --> 01:24:25,389
- <i>Can I just talk to
- him really quick?</i>
- 1486
- 01:24:25,391 --> 01:24:26,758
- We gotta keep moving.
- 1487
- 01:24:26,760 --> 01:24:30,398
- We're going to be home
- so soon with Ponce.
- 1488
- 01:24:31,231 --> 01:24:32,397
- Let me talk to Ben.
- 1489
- 01:24:32,399 --> 01:24:34,398
- <i>No, we gotta keep
- moving, honey.</i>
- 1490
- 01:24:34,400 --> 01:24:35,834
- No, Mom.
- 1491
- 01:24:35,836 --> 01:24:39,606
- Sweetie, listen, I just... I
- need you to go to sleep.
- 1492
- 01:24:40,807 --> 01:24:42,708
- I can tell there's
- something wrong.
- 1493
- 01:24:42,710 --> 01:24:45,680
- <i>Everything's going to
- be OK. Just trust me.</i>
- 1494
- 01:24:46,479 --> 01:24:47,912
- <i>Mom.</i>
- 1495
- 01:24:47,914 --> 01:24:49,149
- OK, sweetie.
- 1496
- 01:24:50,484 --> 01:24:51,820
- OK, I'll see you.
- 1497
- 01:25:08,536 --> 01:25:09,837
- Excuse me.
- 1498
- 01:25:11,771 --> 01:25:13,108
- Excuse me.
- 1499
- 01:25:14,274 --> 01:25:15,676
- I'm looking for my son.
- 1500
- 01:25:17,278 --> 01:25:19,847
- His name is Ben.
- I know he was just here.
- 1501
- 01:25:24,284 --> 01:25:25,686
- Over by the river.
- 1502
- 01:25:27,488 --> 01:25:29,457
- That's where
- they all end up.
- 1503
- 01:25:49,777 --> 01:25:51,578
- Hey! Get up!
- 1504
- 01:26:22,309 --> 01:26:23,645
- Ben?
- 1505
- 01:26:25,979 --> 01:26:27,314
- Ben.
- 1506
- 01:26:53,740 --> 01:26:55,877
- Mmm, you did good.
- 1507
- 01:26:56,743 --> 01:26:59,311
- Hey, he did good, right?
- 1508
- 01:26:59,313 --> 01:27:01,682
- You made a lot of
- people happy today.
- 1509
- 01:27:06,287 --> 01:27:07,718
- For all your hard work.
- 1510
- 01:27:07,720 --> 01:27:09,756
- Just give me my dog, man.
- 1511
- 01:27:56,904 --> 01:27:57,902
- Holly.
- 1512
- 01:27:57,904 --> 01:27:59,437
- Holly?
- 1513
- 01:27:59,439 --> 01:28:00,807
- <i>I lost him.</i>
- 1514
- 01:28:01,442 --> 01:28:03,741
- What?
- 1515
- 01:28:03,743 --> 01:28:06,678
- I didn't want to
- tell you I've been...
- 1516
- 01:28:06,680 --> 01:28:07,882
- lying to you.
- 1517
- 01:28:11,051 --> 01:28:14,322
- I've looked everywhere,
- and I-I-I can't find him.
- 1518
- 01:28:16,657 --> 01:28:18,293
- But I tried.
- 1519
- 01:28:22,563 --> 01:28:24,396
- I know you did.
- 1520
- 01:28:24,398 --> 01:28:26,934
- <i>I lost him a long
- time ago. I just...</i>
- 1521
- 01:28:28,502 --> 01:28:32,970
- I don't know where to
- look, and I'm so tired.
- 1522
- 01:28:32,972 --> 01:28:36,007
- And I don't know
- what to do.
- 1523
- 01:28:36,009 --> 01:28:39,044
- <i>Tell me where you are.
- I'm coming to get you.</i>
- 1524
- 01:28:39,046 --> 01:28:41,015
- And we'll find
- him together.
- 1525
- 01:28:44,650 --> 01:28:47,654
- No, I'm co... I'm
- coming home.
- 1526
- 01:28:50,390 --> 01:28:52,092
- <i>I'm just gonna
- come home.</i>
- 1527
- 01:29:03,936 --> 01:29:06,873
- Hey, boy. Hey, boy.
- 1528
- 01:30:33,159 --> 01:30:34,895
- Anything else?
- 1529
- 01:31:07,793 --> 01:31:09,063
- Here, bud.
- 1530
- 01:32:03,684 --> 01:32:05,016
- Excuse me.
- 1531
- 01:32:05,018 --> 01:32:06,250
- Excuse me. I'm sorry.
- I need help, please.
- 1532
- 01:32:06,252 --> 01:32:08,620
- Ma'am, need to
- wait your turn.
- 1533
- 01:32:08,622 --> 01:32:10,988
- No, I can't... I can't wait my turn because
- my son, who's... he's not a bad kid.
- 1534
- 01:32:10,990 --> 01:32:13,924
- No, no, no, no, I can't. There's
- not time for that right now.
- 1535
- 01:32:13,926 --> 01:32:14,925
- He stole my car.
- 1536
- 01:32:14,927 --> 01:32:15,994
- Please.
- 1537
- 01:32:15,996 --> 01:32:17,262
- Excuse me, sir.
- 1538
- 01:32:17,264 --> 01:32:18,897
- Ma'am, hold on a second.
- 1539
- 01:32:18,899 --> 01:32:20,898
- - Can you find...?
- - Hello. Hold on one second.
- 1540
- 01:32:20,900 --> 01:32:22,200
- Ma'am, standing there
- 1541
- 01:32:22,202 --> 01:32:24,335
- - won't help you...
- - I just need you to
- 1542
- 01:32:24,337 --> 01:32:27,606
- please find my son
- and arrest him!
- 1543
- 01:32:27,608 --> 01:32:29,610
- I'm begging you!
- 1544
- 01:32:30,877 --> 01:32:32,680
- [Ponce barking
- 1545
- 01:32:40,686 --> 01:32:44,054
- If you just wanna calm down and
- have a seat, I'll start the form.
- 1546
- 01:32:44,056 --> 01:32:45,190
- Thank you.
- I'm sorry.
- 1547
- 01:32:59,905 --> 01:33:01,242
- Hello?
- 1548
- 01:33:47,119 --> 01:33:49,356
- Good boy.
- Good boy.
- 1549
- 01:33:50,356 --> 01:33:52,025
- Oh, my God.
- 1550
- 01:33:52,426 --> 01:33:53,761
- Honey?
- 1551
- 01:33:54,961 --> 01:33:56,760
- Wake up, Ben.
- 1552
- 01:33:56,762 --> 01:33:57,861
- Wake up, honey.
- 1553
- 01:33:57,863 --> 01:33:59,165
- Come on.
- 1554
- 01:34:01,935 --> 01:34:02,933
- OK.
- 1555
- 01:34:02,935 --> 01:34:04,201
- All right.
- 1556
- 01:34:04,203 --> 01:34:05,706
- We've got this. OK.
- 1557
- 01:34:06,872 --> 01:34:08,208
- All right.
- 1558
- 01:34:12,445 --> 01:34:14,144
- Come on.
- 1559
- 01:34:14,146 --> 01:34:15,813
- Come on. Hang in there.
- 1560
- 01:34:15,815 --> 01:34:16,981
- Come back to me.
- 1561
- 01:34:16,983 --> 01:34:18,252
- Come on.
- 1562
- 01:34:18,851 --> 01:34:20,121
- Fuck.
- 1563
- 01:34:23,122 --> 01:34:24,658
- Just stay with me.
- 1564
- 01:34:27,327 --> 01:34:29,727
- OK. OK.
- 1565
- 01:34:29,729 --> 01:34:31,698
- OK. Ready?
- 1566
- 01:34:36,737 --> 01:34:37,768
- OK.
- 1567
- 01:34:37,770 --> 01:34:38,836
- Wake up.
- 1568
- 01:34:38,838 --> 01:34:40,341
- Wake up.
- 1569
- 01:34:43,009 --> 01:34:44,310
- Please.
- 1570
- 01:34:58,190 --> 01:35:00,424
- Please. Please, come back.
- 1571
- 01:35:00,426 --> 01:35:02,960
- Come back.
- Please, come back.
- 1572
- 01:35:02,962 --> 01:35:04,264
- Please.
- 1573
- 01:35:09,435 --> 01:35:11,302
- Oh, my boy.
- Please.
- 1574
- 01:35:11,304 --> 01:35:13,138
- Please. I know
- you can do this.
- 1575
- 01:35:20,780 --> 01:35:22,082
- Ben.
- 1576
- 01:35:23,783 --> 01:35:25,786
- My boy. Please.
- 1577
- 01:35:58,844 --> 01:36:03,844
- Subtitles by explosiveskull
Advertisement
Add Comment
Please, Sign In to add comment
Advertisement