Things That Have Not Cured My Depression - transcript

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Things that have not cured my depression:

Drinking green smoothies
Eating less meat
The paleo diet,
Mental health retreats

Staying single
Being a slut
Orgasms are hard
When you're stuck in a rut

Therapy, counselling
Psychologists too
Kids help line is helpless
I'm well beyond blue

Razors and scissors
Teeth, nails
Quinoa, acai bowls
Tabouleh or kale

Lemon tea in the morning
Milk tea at night
Getting up to go jogging
At first break of light

A whole block of chocolate
A bottle of red
Hedonism is tough
When there's death in your head

Tai-chi or chai tea
Lists of food to avoid
Yoga or yoghurt or
Checking my thyroid

Holding my arms up
for seven minutes
...........................
......theres no way i can finish

Omega-3 fish oil,
calcium, zinc
Mum still hides the razors
Under the sink

Inhaling fresh air
Pause--- for positive thinking
Breathing out slow
Excessive binge drinking

Taking a bath
Painting my nails
As trains pass I see myself
Under the rails

Netflix tv shows
Or vine compilations
24 hour news
Too sad to swap stations

Napping all day
Not sleeping for weeks
Talking my feelings
Or refusing to speak

Moving in with my parents
Moving away
Pretending i'm straight
Or obnoxiously gay

Taking my prozac
Flying a kite
Staying indoors
Or getting more light

Praying to deities
Burning my bra
Skipping my meals
Cos I only taste tar

Hoarding my anger
Learning to forgive
None of these things
Make it easy to live

And especially not
Each time someone's said
"Oh don't worry sweetheart
It's all in your head!"