First I would like to say, I would appreciate this not being shown to anyone else. I will send it to people that I would like, but I suppose it's out of my control what happens to it after it gets out. At the very least I would hope it doesn't get shown to the people that I talk about in it. Who knows if it will even matter.

There was a girl that was created by someone who was lonely, someone who had given up on trying to love people because they were scared of what might happen as a result of getting too close to someone. The girl saw the things that hurt the person that created her, and she wanted to help. She wanted to be the strong one that helped make life not so painful for her creator. They finally learned how to switch who was in control of their body, the girl was overjoyed. She worked on making a lot of friends, and through everything she found someone that she even loved. As she got closer to the person she loved, she was able to get in to a relationship with them. Then as she got even closer, she realized she was falling in to the same trapping thought patterns that her creator had suffered from. She started to worry, but she thought she could keep it from getting too bad. Then she told a friend that she also thought she loved about her plans with the person she loved. The friend became upset at the one she loved for reasons that are unimportant, but this caused an arguement to break out between the one she loved and the friend. She tried to help patch things up between the two of them. This was her first mistake. She hurt both of them even more by trying to help. Then as things progressed between the one she loved and her friend, the friend got upset at her for taking the side of the one she loved and claiming to love them too.
She tried to help patch things up between the two of them. This was her first mistake. She hurt both of them even more by trying to help. Then as things progressed between the one she loved and her friend, the friend got upset at her for taking the side of the one she loved and claiming to love them too. The girl tried hard to keep both of them happy, but always sided with the one she loved because she was a victim to the same thoughts as her creator and was too attached. The girl couldn't take it anymore and started to leave the friend. The girl was called the most selfish person ever by a friend for doing what she was doing. The girl felt confused. She never wanted to hurt anyone but didn't know how to deal with everything. The girl thought that she wasn't that selfish. The girl then spends all of her time with the one she loves. She starts to worry that everything that happens is showing that all of the friends she had didn't enjoy her. She starts to feel even worse about herself. She starts to worry that she is a terrible person. She starts to be depressed around the one she loves. She realizes the one she loves has started to act more distant. She asks the one she loves why. The one she loves points out how different she is, and how she is depressed all of the time and it is pushing away the one she loves from her.
She understands. She tries to get back what she had by trying to shove down everything and trying to be happy again. It works until she cracks. And then she does it again. And again. The girl starts to drown in her own feelings. She wants to scream. How does she try to prevent people from getting pushed away due to her bad feelings but get suffocated by fear that no one actually likes her that much? She tries to hide it from everyone as much as she can. She can no longer take it. She decides to leave her friends with no messages and hope they just forget about her and move on, after all, they will probably be happier without her. Everyone messages her asking if she is okay. She drowns more. They seem to care but she wants them to not. She tries to steel her resolve again and comes back. She tries to be the best friend she can. She still feels every small thing is proof that the friend's don't care if she around. The girl eventually realizes she lost the one she loved a long time ago due to her feelings. The one she loves finds someone else. The girl is happy for the one she loves for finding someone else that won't weigh down the one she loves like she does. She feels even sadder that her own stupidity caused her to miss out on the one she loves.

The girl also critisized her creator for ignoring important tasks such as doing homework when it's needed. When the girl first becomes the one in control of the body, she is determined to correct that mistake. The girl fails. She does the same things her creator does. She hates herself.
She spent long periods being upset at her creator for putting off important things and sometimes not getting them done, and then she does the same things. Perhaps the friend that called her the most selfish person ever was right.

The girl can't take the weight of all of her mistakes crushing down on her. She types this story. She does not know why. She does not know what she is going to do. She knows that she either has to fix herself or disappear. She has tried so hard and for so long to fix herself. She has made no progress. She does not know what to do. She weeps.