Alivi: Hey hun
[11:47pm] Alivi: how are you feeling?
[11:49pm] AgentFlowers: still pretty shit
[11:50pm] Alivi: So…the Gm team was all talking
[11:50pm] Alivi: Are you sure you dont think you should take a break from the staff thing?
[11:50pm] Alivi: You are under a lot of stress irl. Taking a break from the crap that goes on here could do you a lot of good.
[11:50pm] AgentFlowers: I am taking a break
[11:51pm] Alivi: really?
[11:52pm] AgentFlowers: I have absolutely no desire to talk with any of the others right now
[11:52pm] Alivi: Well we were thinking maybe for about 2 months you can take a break from the staff stuff. You know? Dont enter the room just chill in OOC and IC. Cause honestly even if you dont wanna talk with the others. It is better for you not to read it just cause that might make you just as upset you know?
[11:53pm] Alivi: When I was upset at Gwen
[11:53pm] Alivi: it was hard to even see whatever he was saying.
[11:53pm] Alivi: And right now you need more peace of mind not stress.
[11:55pm] AgentFlowers: No, see, if I take a break, it'll be from FR entirely
[11:55pm] AgentFlowers: I'll still lurk, so I'm up to date on what's going on,
[11:55pm] Alivi: Alright.
[11:55pm] AgentFlowers: but I'm not taking part.
[11:55pm] Alivi: Well either way. Maybe it is best you dont lurk in staff chat. Just so you are less stressed out.
[11:56pm] AgentFlowers: This sounds a lot like something you were told to tell me
[11:56pm] Alivi: Honestly even if I was, I've been thinking it.
[11:57pm] Alivi: Being on staff is stressful and all the other stressors in your life right now. It is something that is easily taken a break from and relieves you of a temporary stress till you feel better.
[11:57pm] Alivi: And right now I think what everyone wants to see, is you feeling better. I know I do.
[11:57pm] AgentFlowers: Bullshit
[11:58pm] Alivi: Flowers.
[11:58pm] AgentFlowers: If that were a thing, they'd talk to me, not about me when I'm not around.
[11:58pm] Alivi: You weren't around at the time.
[11:58pm] Alivi: Roget came on and he was getting filled in on what happened yesterday
[11:58pm] Alivi: he asked several people and the topic came up about how you've been stressed.
[12:00am] AgentFlowers: What happened was I was doing the only thing I could to keep an argument from becoming a full blown fight, and Pres jumped down my throat in front of everyone like an asshole.
[12:00am] Alivi: I know.
[12:00am] Alivi: And Pres admitted he was wrong
[12:00am] Alivi: and apologized.
[12:01am] Alivi: Flowers you are latching onto something. And right now you are filled with a lot of hurt and emotions. You are stressed out. It isn't healthy.
[12:01am] AgentFlowers: I haven't accepted his apology
[12:01am] Alivi: Its okay to take a break for a bit. And come back.
[12:01am] Alivi: Even if you havent accepted it flowers
[12:01am] Alivi: he was the one who came forward and admitted he was wrong
[12:01am] AgentFlowers: because it's honestly part of a larger pattern of being ignored and people assuming I was the one who did something
[12:02am] Alivi: He's worried about you, Soulless is worried about you, Roget is worried about you. Even Snowshoe and I would assume SWL would be worried about you.
[12:02am] Alivi: We just want you to be okay
[12:03am] AgentFlowers: I'm not okay. I don't feel like they care at all, I feel like they're just kicking me out.
[12:03am] Alivi: They arent
[12:03am] Alivi: we do care
[12:03am] Alivi: one of the biggest things that they said is they wanna be here for you
[12:03am] Alivi: but we know the staff stuff is stressing you out
[12:03am] Alivi: By taking a 2 month break from staff
[12:03am] Alivi: and lurking in OOC and IC
[12:04am] Alivi: You get the time you need and then you can come back and everything will be okay
[12:05am] Alivi: Also you arent ignored or disregarded
[12:05am] Alivi: we want you to be okay
[12:05am] Alivi: And right now this is a hard thing you are going through
[12:05am] Alivi: instead of dealing with bitchy players and mean peeps. Relax
[12:05am] AgentFlowers: I never get any support when I'm writing a run or an incident
[12:06am] Alivi: i mean people are busy. You know I would help if you asked and I sometimes have to pester roget and the others but eventually they come around.
[12:06am] AgentFlowers: Even right now, the others are ignoring me
[12:06am] Alivi: Right now they dunno what to do
[12:06am] Alivi: since that way wasnt exactly...
[12:07am] Alivi: a good way to approch
[12:07am] AgentFlowers: I'm trying to tell them as succinctly as possible what is making me feel bad
[12:09am] Alivi: i know
[12:09am] Alivi: but there are other ways
[12:09am] Alivi: of going about it.
[12:10am] Alivi: its difficult and hard.
[12:10am] Alivi: i know it doesnt seem that way. But they do care
[12:12am] AgentFlowers: this is the only way I know how
[12:12am] Alivi: i know...