Euphoria (2018)

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It is so good to see you.

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I - I was afraid you'd cancel.

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- Hello. We have a reservation for a double room.
- Your name?

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- Emilie Thompson.
- Ines Thompson.

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- So... Let me know if there's anything you need.
- Thank you.

6
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- What a place.
- I wanted to treat us.

7
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It's huge.

8
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Yeah. It's so nice to get out of New York.

9
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I read some reviews this morning
about your new exhibition.

10
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That's fine...

11
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I thought they were mean.
I'm sure you worked very hard.

12
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They used to love you.

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That's how it goes.

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People don't like my work, but
at least they feel something.

15
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It's very fancy.

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I got more than I was expecting for my flat.

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- You've sold your apartment?
- Yeah. I moved out last week.

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If I'm gonna go back to my studies,
a student room will be just fine.

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Ladies, may I take your order?

20
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Umm...

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I'll have the Lobster and champagne.

22
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The same.

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I found this.

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Look!

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- What's this?
- Mum's ring.

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I found this when I went through my stuff,
I thought you might want it?

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No, keep it.

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[piano playing in background]

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Cheers.

30
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I'm so glad you came.
Grateful, that you took the time.

31
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Of course.

32
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- Excuse me?
- Yes?  - Please...

33
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Would one of you beautiful ladies
care to dance?

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- Yeah.
- No.

35
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- Why not.

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Emilie.

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So... Tell me about yourself, Emilie.

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What is there to say?

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I'm nobody. Alone, unimportant.

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Full of unfulfilled dreams.
[Emilie laughing]

41
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Actually, I'm here on holiday with my sister.

42
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Now, when her career isn't going
so well, she finally agrees to see me.

43
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I don't have time to lie.

44
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And why is that?

45
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Just dance with me please...

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[piano music stops]

47
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You've got sensitive hands.

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I'd love to go to bed with you, but...
- (emilie sighs)

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I don't think that's possible I'm afraid.

50
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Good night.

51
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- Emilie?
- What happened to you? Is everything fine?

52
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What happens? What...
Get the fuck...

53
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I probably shouldn't have
drunk champagne.

54
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There's just been a lot going
on in my head.

55
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I just need to relax.

56
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This place we're going
to will be so nice.

57
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So calm.

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So peaceful.

59
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It'll be perfect.

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Just perfect.

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- Look!
- Oh!

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That's so gorgeous!

63
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- c'mon
- no. nope. Emilie?

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- Tell me! Tell me!

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Where are we going?

66
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We are going to the most beautiful
place in the world.

67
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Yeah, you already said that. C'mon.

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It's, it's... very special.

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The question is, can I have a
massage there?

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- Of course, madame. As many as you wish
- Oh! Good!

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Then I am happy.

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Hello?, Hi!
(laughs)

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Hello, can you hear me?

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Well, I umm...

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I saw the, the press photo
you're using and...

76
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That's what you chose.
(on phone)

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Well, I want you to use the other one.

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The one where I'm not smiling.
(Ines sighs)

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Hello?

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We're leaving the country.

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I thought I told you?
Don't worry. It's not far now.

82
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This is it.

83
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Shouldn't they have a
sign-post or something?

84
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They probably want to keep it
as anonymous as possible.

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(Ines laughs)
Well they've definitely succeeded with that.

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- You must be Emilie.
- Yes.

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And you must be her sister?

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- And you are?
- I'm Marina. I'm Emilie's personal companion.

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I'm so glad you made it. Most of our
guests prefer the helicopter option.

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It's a bit of a walk, but if you
get tired, we'll help you.

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Are we going through here?

92
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It's not so far.
You'll manage.

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Here we are.

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- Is it like you imagined?
- Even better.

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This is where most of the guests
love to come when they're alone.

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Or with their
partners or friends.

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Just sit here, play
chess, be quiet.

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You have to sign in first.
Reception is through there.

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Let me know if there is
anything you need.

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Hello? Hi! Welcome.

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Please, come in.

102
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Hi. Aaron.

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- And you must be Emilie.
-Yes.

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Please, sit down.

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(Aaron sighs)

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So, first things first.
Passports please.

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Thank you.

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Here you go.

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We have a medical certificate, lawyer's
documents, and proof of payment.

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So everything seems to be
in order. Thank you.

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I'm sure you know how
everything works here -

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- but I'm legally required to run it
all through with you -

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in person, before we can continue.

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Unlike other organizations, we offer our guests
a service created for, and by the individual.

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Freedom of choice is our utmost concern,
and serving that choice is our aim.

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There are a selection of activities you can chose
from - you'll find a schedule by the front entrance.

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We try to accommodate our guests'
unique desires and wishes -

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- in order to make their final days as fulfilling
and comforting as possible.

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Emilie. Should you choose to continue -

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- your leaving will take place
in six days from now.

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Each leaving, is preceded by a bell.

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The individual is taken to the leaving cabin and
is offered a drink containing a strong sedative -

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- that will put them to sleep.

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What do you mean?

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The choice to drink is left
entirely to the individual.

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A week later, the body will be transported
to the address you have provided..

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Photographs are not permitted.

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Do you have any questions?

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Where are my bags?

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- I don't know.
- well can you go and get somebody to get my bags.

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Try to calm down. I'm not well.

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Your bags are already
in your room.

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- I will take you there.
- What are you doing?

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- It's ok
- what the...

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Don't you fucking touch me!

136
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You do not have to do anything.
You just have to stay with me.

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What do you mean you're not well?

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What are you talking about?

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I'm gonna have a shower. We can
talk when you have calmed down.

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I'm not going to calm down! I want you to
tell me what is going on!

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I just want a bath!

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I was diagnosed three years ago.

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I had chemo, but it didn't work.

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It's everywhere.

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I don't have long left.

146
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Why didn't you tell me?

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I didn't want to scare you.

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I didn't want to give you
a reason not to come.

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I had the right to know.

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Really?

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I dont 'think so.

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I tried.

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I tried to call.

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But you didn't pick up.

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I waited, but you
never called back.

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A while later you emailed
saying that you were busy.

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And then...

158
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I do not know.

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Time went by and...

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I lost the words.

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And this place?

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This is how I want to leave.

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Emilie?

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Sugar Puffs?

165
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Yeah. We always had them when we
were little. Don't you remember?

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No.

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Mum's Blueberry Pancakes.

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I sent them the recipe.

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Perfect.

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I'm sorry if you feel like I
do not respect you -

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- but I really think that
we should get out of here.

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You need proper care.

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If you leave, I'll still do it.

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Have some pancakes. They're good.

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jezuz...

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Good morning.

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- Did you sleep well?
- Yes.

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And breakfast was wonderful.
Everything, just as I wanted.

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Oh, I'm glad to hear that!

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And Ines, how are you today?

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Fine.

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- Well I thought that...
- Excuse me, umm...

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What are you doing with these people?

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- We're helping them.
- Really?

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We can't save their lives, but
these last days are important.

186
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So people can leave in the
right way for them.

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This is a free zone.

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Without the world to judge.

189
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So Emilie, what would you like to do today?

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I was hoping the three of
us could sit and talk.

191
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Of course.

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- Follow me.
- Emilie...

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No music, thank you.
(Marina speaking softly)

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So... Emilie?

195
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There's some I wanted to talk about, umm...

196
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I wrote them down.

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I have never been able
to control my feelings.

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Everything has always flooded
straight into me.

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My sister, on the other hand -

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- has always been very clear.

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She can turn her emotions on and off
feeling exactly what she wants to feel -

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-  when she wants to feel it.

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It all began when dad left
with another woman.

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I was nine, my sister was seven.

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Mum, never got over it.

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I stayed by her side. I tried to stop her
from slipping through the gaps.

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- but there was no way...

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Five years ago she hung
herself in the woods.

209
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Just stop it.

210
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What are you doing?

211
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What could she possibly say about that?

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You told me yesterday that you were dying,
and now you want me to sit here in this place -

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- in front of this woman and talk about
our childhood. Is that what you want?

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You never wanted to talk about it.

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I don't need to listen to this.

216
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This is not going to happen.

217
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Those charming bells of death.

218
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I do not think that is allowed.

219
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It's personal. For inspiration.

220
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So you're above the rules, are you?

221
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Art's above the rules.

222
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I don't dislike rules.

223
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It's just that I have never found any
sufficiently worthwhile to follow.

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- I understand everything.
- hmm..

225
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But I have yet to find the
meaning in anything.

226
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Can I take a photo of you?

227
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It's alright.

228
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I have a stage three
terminal brain tumour.

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- What about you? You do not look sick.
- I'm here with my sister.

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Is she artistic too?

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No.

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It's just me.

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It keeps me together.

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I don't understand this place.

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People tend to think that there's
some kind of meaning.

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Something they should be able to understand before they die.

237
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There is nothing to understand.

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You just die.

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They refuse to accept that their
lives are completely meaningless.

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Especially women.

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I mean, why would a life suddenly become
important only because you are about to die?

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People come here and give up.

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It's pathetic.

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So what's the alternative?

245
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Carry on with futile
hospital treatments?

246
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More suffering, for
even higher bills?

247
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I don't think so...

248
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Thankfully, places like this allow
those of us who can afford it -

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- to pay for a comfortable death.

250
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In the end, we're all pathetic.

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That's quite artistic, don't you think?

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Yes, to be one with the night

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one with myself

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00:33:55,208 --> 00:33:58,628
with the candles flame which
looks me in the eyes...

255
00:34:00,583 --> 00:34:04,133
unfathomable and still

256
00:34:05,250 --> 00:34:07,920
one with the aspen

257
00:34:08,042 --> 00:34:10,632
like trembles and whispers

258
00:34:12,333 --> 00:34:17,333
one with the crowds of the flowers
leaning out of the darkness

259
00:34:17,500 --> 00:34:21,210
and listening to something
I had on my tongue to say

260
00:34:22,583 --> 00:34:24,713
but never got said...

261
00:34:26,917 --> 00:34:31,707
something I don't want to
reveal, even if I could.

262
00:34:34,583 --> 00:34:36,633
I'm sorry.

263
00:34:40,250 --> 00:34:42,710
And the flame rises

264
00:34:43,500 --> 00:34:47,580
It is as though the flowers crowded

265
00:34:47,708 --> 00:34:51,828
nearer, nearer

266
00:34:52,000 --> 00:34:54,500
and nearer the light

267
00:34:54,625 --> 00:34:58,125
in a rainbow of shimmering points

268
00:34:59,833 --> 00:35:04,213
Aspen trembles and plays,
the evening roots go on.

269
00:35:04,375 --> 00:35:06,575
I will do my best.

270
00:35:10,250 --> 00:35:13,380
And all that was inexpressible

271
00:35:13,500 --> 00:35:15,830
and distant

272
00:35:16,000 --> 00:35:18,580
and inexpressible

273
00:35:18,708 --> 00:35:20,788
and near.

274
00:35:23,583 --> 00:35:26,833
I sing about the only
thing that reconciles

275
00:35:28,583 --> 00:35:31,713
only of what is practical

276
00:35:31,917 --> 00:35:33,827
To all alike...

277
00:35:35,000 --> 00:35:40,000
I'm tring to think about the things
that have been beautiful in my life.

278
00:35:42,375 --> 00:35:44,375
Like what?

279
00:35:45,917 --> 00:35:49,207
Just small...

280
00:35:49,375 --> 00:35:51,705
everyday things, really.

281
00:35:53,833 --> 00:35:55,833
Sunrises.

282
00:35:57,708 --> 00:36:00,778
When it's cold in winter and
you come into the warm.

283
00:36:02,917 --> 00:36:05,377
Soft things.

284
00:36:08,125 --> 00:36:12,415
I've never had particularly great sex.

285
00:36:12,583 --> 00:36:15,213
- No?
- No.

286
00:36:16,625 --> 00:36:20,245
Maybe I was just scared.

287
00:36:20,417 --> 00:36:23,997
I think I've spent my entire
life being scared.

288
00:36:28,792 --> 00:36:30,832
Of what?

289
00:36:32,000 --> 00:36:34,210
Come on.

290
00:36:34,375 --> 00:36:39,205
Tell me about the best
sex you've ever had.

291
00:36:42,208 --> 00:36:46,678
Uh, I don't know...
(laughs)  Umm...

292
00:36:48,500 --> 00:36:52,420
Well there was this time, in Madrid.

293
00:36:52,583 --> 00:36:57,833
It was after a dinner with this gallery
artist after an exhibition.

294
00:36:58,000 --> 00:37:03,580
You have sex with the gallery artist?
- No, it wasn't.

295
00:37:03,708 --> 00:37:06,578
It was his son.

296
00:37:08,000 --> 00:37:12,920
And the son also had a
very cute girlfriend.

297
00:37:14,625 --> 00:37:16,625
Go on.

298
00:37:16,833 --> 00:37:19,583
Go on?? What do you want me to say?

299
00:37:19,708 --> 00:37:22,828
Details. I want details.

300
00:37:23,708 --> 00:37:26,378
They drove me to my hotel -

301
00:37:26,500 --> 00:37:31,130
- and I guess had way too
much to drink -

302
00:37:31,333 --> 00:37:35,253
- and definitely.. I couldn't guess what...

303
00:37:36,792 --> 00:37:42,212
well, they just asked if they could
join me up to my room, really...

304
00:37:42,417 --> 00:37:44,827
- They did?
- Yeah.

305
00:37:46,792 --> 00:37:49,212
Did you like it?

306
00:37:51,250 --> 00:37:53,130
Yes.

307
00:37:53,250 --> 00:37:55,580
Come on. I want to know.

308
00:37:57,250 --> 00:37:59,830
Really, what do you want me to say?

309
00:38:00,000 --> 00:38:06,710
Details? Details, you want me to tell how she
unbuttoned my blouse and how she kissed my breasts?

310
00:38:06,833 --> 00:38:10,133
Yes, you tell me! I want to know everything.

311
00:38:10,250 --> 00:38:12,420
Why?

312
00:38:12,583 --> 00:38:14,833
Becasue, you owe me

313
00:38:22,917 --> 00:38:24,917
We went up to my room.

314
00:38:28,583 --> 00:38:31,423
She took my hand...

315
00:38:31,625 --> 00:38:34,705
and she laid me down on the bed.

316
00:38:34,917 --> 00:38:39,037
And then she pulled my knickers aside
and let her tongue slide in.

317
00:38:42,625 --> 00:38:49,375
He unbuttoned his trousers
and walks across the room...

318
00:38:51,125 --> 00:38:55,995
towards the bed and I turned
around and I pulled her up her skirt...

319
00:38:56,208 --> 00:39:00,208
and licked her beautiful,
wonderful cunt...

320
00:39:03,375 --> 00:39:06,785
while her boyfriend
penetrated me from behind.

321
00:39:15,708 --> 00:39:17,828
Oh my God !!!

322
00:39:22,500 --> 00:39:27,040
- Happy?
- When was this?

323
00:39:27,208 --> 00:39:30,378
I do not know.

324
00:39:30,500 --> 00:39:34,210
Summer, like four or five years ago.

325
00:39:34,417 --> 00:39:37,627
August. Five years ago.

326
00:40:17,708 --> 00:40:20,208
How long have you been awake?

327
00:40:22,333 --> 00:40:25,213
- Coffee?
- Yes please.

328
00:40:31,125 --> 00:40:33,785
What are you doing?

329
00:40:33,917 --> 00:40:38,037
Do you have any idea how much
work it is to arrange a funeral?

330
00:40:41,000 --> 00:40:43,710
- You won't be arranging mine, will you?
- Emilie

331
00:40:43,833 --> 00:40:49,833
You'll just hire some party
planner to sort it all out.

332
00:40:50,000 --> 00:40:51,710
No...

333
00:40:51,917 --> 00:40:56,827
So while I was burying Mum alone -

334
00:40:57,000 --> 00:41:01,920
- were you in Madrid having
the best sex of your life.

335
00:41:02,125 --> 00:41:06,995
I just can't stand what goes through someones head
when they don't turn up to their own mothers funeral

336
00:41:12,375 --> 00:41:14,915
Maybe it was a case of
being constructive.

337
00:41:15,125 --> 00:41:17,495
She was dead already.

338
00:41:18,250 --> 00:41:25,130
You don't automatically become a better person
just because you've lived your life in floods of tears.

339
00:41:28,125 --> 00:41:30,415
What the fuck!!

340
00:41:33,000 --> 00:41:35,210
Stop it!  Stop it!

341
00:41:35,417 --> 00:41:38,127
What is it? What happens?

342
00:41:38,250 --> 00:41:42,710
- (Emilie gasping)  I cannot breathe.
- Yes, you can. Yes you can. Shhhhh...

343
00:41:42,833 --> 00:41:45,213
Gently... Gently

344
00:41:45,417 --> 00:41:48,497
I don't want to feel this like this!!

345
00:41:48,708 --> 00:41:52,208
I do not want to be the kind of
person who who feels like this!

346
00:41:52,417 --> 00:41:57,917
Emilie, you can do this. You know you can.
Don't be afraid. Come on.

347
00:41:58,125 --> 00:42:01,705
Come on, you can do this. Come on.
Come on, we'll go to a quiet place.

348
00:42:10,792 --> 00:42:13,712
No point talking when you're like
this, you have to calm down.

349
00:42:13,833 --> 00:42:17,233
- I want to know why.
- What?

350
00:42:17,250 --> 00:42:21,790
- Why don't you respect me?
- Here we go...

351
00:42:21,917 --> 00:42:24,127
You treat me like shit!

352
00:42:26,125 --> 00:42:28,325
You left me to take care of mum.

353
00:42:28,500 --> 00:42:33,210
In and out of hospital just
trying to keep her alive.

354
00:42:33,375 --> 00:42:37,535
I waited for you to call. She
asked for you, do you know that?

355
00:42:37,827 --> 00:42:38,383
No.

356
00:42:39,208 --> 00:42:41,998
And I lied. Different lies all the time...

357
00:42:42,208 --> 00:42:48,498
"She swamped at work. Yeah, she
called yesterday, but she's broken her leg."

358
00:42:48,625 --> 00:42:51,705
I just couldn't tell her you
didn't give a fuck about us.

359
00:42:54,500 --> 00:42:58,500
You know I can't be responsible
for your happiness!

360
00:42:58,625 --> 00:43:01,245
It just doesn't work that way!
Life doesn't work that way.

361
00:43:01,417 --> 00:43:05,497
You're not human.
You think like a machine.

362
00:43:05,625 --> 00:43:11,125
You don't get any bonus points in heaven, just
because walk around feeling so bloody sorry for yourself!

363
00:43:11,333 --> 00:43:15,383
Maybe that's not the world you
want to live in, but that's how it is.

364
00:43:15,500 --> 00:43:21,940
That's reality. That's what it's like to ge a grown-up.
Sometimes you have to shut things down to survive.

365
00:43:24,917 --> 00:43:27,917
That's what everything has
always been about.

366
00:43:29,708 --> 00:43:33,248
You, and your fucking survival.

367
00:43:45,625 --> 00:43:51,415
Scroll down.. Scroll down... Stop.
Take out any reference to that woman.

368
00:43:51,625 --> 00:43:54,245
Barking mad. Now...

369
00:43:54,417 --> 00:43:59,377
down to this, umm, you know, all those poor
people. Can we get into that?

370
00:44:06,375 --> 00:44:08,415
May I...?

371
00:44:16,042 --> 00:44:20,922
Yes. now. Can we make it look
as if I am hugging refugee?

372
00:44:23,417 --> 00:44:25,127
What are you doing?

373
00:44:25,250 --> 00:44:28,830
She can tweak things about you on the net.

374
00:44:29,000 --> 00:44:33,130
So that if anybody googles you
in a few years time

375
00:44:33,250 --> 00:44:38,580
- you'll appear to be much nicer than
the person you perhaps really are...

376
00:44:38,708 --> 00:44:40,208
Emilie?

377
00:44:40,417 --> 00:44:42,417
Look. I'm sorry.

378
00:44:44,625 --> 00:44:48,035
Google Ines Thompson.

379
00:44:48,208 --> 00:44:50,708
- What are you doing?
- Ines Thompson...

380
00:44:52,917 --> 00:44:58,037
Uh, there are some photos here,
serveral reviews...

381
00:44:58,208 --> 00:45:01,998
Was there something specific
you wanted me to change for you?

382
00:45:04,375 --> 00:45:07,415
Go ahead. You know how to handle this.

383
00:45:08,833 --> 00:45:11,503
Wait... Wait!

384
00:45:12,625 --> 00:45:15,705
I understand that you must be
going through hell right now.

385
00:45:15,917 --> 00:45:19,207
You have no FUCKING idea!!

386
00:46:41,000 --> 00:46:43,250
I was miles away.

387
00:46:49,625 --> 00:46:51,915
Would you like a drink?

388
00:47:09,375 --> 00:47:11,785
Your sister is scared.

389
00:47:14,917 --> 00:47:17,917
I was naive to bring her here.

390
00:47:18,125 --> 00:47:23,125
You are not naive, Emilie. You are
thoughtful, kind, and intelligent.

391
00:47:24,583 --> 00:47:27,503
And, you've done everything you can.

392
00:47:36,417 --> 00:47:37,917
Here.

393
00:47:38,862 --> 00:47:41,175
[glasses clink]

394
00:48:02,500 --> 00:48:04,920
Why are you here?

395
00:48:08,917 --> 00:48:11,417
I came with my husband
two years ago.

396
00:48:12,708 --> 00:48:16,578
- Where is he now?
- He left here.

397
00:48:18,833 --> 00:48:21,043
And you've been here ever since?

398
00:48:23,208 --> 00:48:26,828
I found no reason to go back.

399
00:52:32,208 --> 00:52:33,998
Stop. No.

400
00:52:34,208 --> 00:52:37,498
Emilie? Tell me. Tell me.

401
00:52:37,708 --> 00:52:39,998
Where are we going?

402
00:52:42,375 --> 00:52:45,625
We're going to the most
beautiful place in the world.

403
00:52:45,833 --> 00:52:47,923
Yeah, you already said that, c'mon.

404
00:52:48,042 --> 00:52:50,582
It's. It's very special.

405
00:53:35,708 --> 00:53:38,628
Excuse me but uh...
(Ines clears throat)

406
00:53:38,792 --> 00:53:42,832
- When does the helicopter leave?
- Tomorrow morning.

407
00:53:43,000 --> 00:53:46,130
Is there room for one more person?

408
00:53:46,333 --> 00:53:48,713
There you are.

409
00:53:48,833 --> 00:53:50,793
Grab a drink.

410
00:53:52,000 --> 00:53:55,830
- What's going on?
- It's my farewell party.

411
00:53:58,500 --> 00:54:03,380
I paid them so much money
they couldn't possibly refuse.

412
00:54:03,500 --> 00:54:06,630
Do not be party pooper! Relax!
[wine glasses clinking...]

413
00:54:07,792 --> 00:54:16,800
♫

414
00:54:23,125 --> 00:54:27,125
You're on your way to making
an old man very happy! It's True!

415
00:54:36,708 --> 00:54:40,828
Are you enjoying yourself Just take care of you.

416
00:55:28,208 --> 00:55:31,628
Great... Fireworks!!!

417
00:55:33,692 --> 00:55:35,592
[Mr. Daren laughing ]

418
00:55:35,917 --> 00:55:37,997
Cheer up.

419
00:55:40,100 --> 00:55:41,600
Wooo !!

420
00:55:42,125 --> 00:55:44,575
OH! Look at that...

421
00:55:56,125 --> 00:55:58,625
I'd like to sleep with you.

422
00:56:02,000 --> 00:56:04,710
What?

423
00:56:04,833 --> 00:56:07,833
Sorry... Nothing.

424
00:56:08,625 --> 00:56:11,495
You do not know me.

425
00:56:11,625 --> 00:56:14,205
Does that matter?

426
00:56:20,417 --> 00:56:24,787
I look ridiculous.
I have scars everywhere.

427
00:56:27,417 --> 00:56:29,827
My dick doesn't work.

428
00:56:31,625 --> 00:56:34,705
So I can't...

429
00:56:34,917 --> 00:56:36,707
fuck.

430
00:56:41,208 --> 00:56:43,128
I do not know...

431
00:56:45,625 --> 00:56:47,915
But when I saw you here...

432
00:56:50,000 --> 00:56:52,330
You were just so beautiful.

433
00:57:04,125 --> 00:57:06,125
Fucking hell.

434
00:57:09,042 --> 00:57:13,332
It's like everything I'm thinking's
just coming out of my mouth... Sorry.

435
00:57:20,708 --> 00:57:22,628
Okay.

436
00:57:26,000 --> 00:57:29,580
I didn't mean to force my self on you in any way.

437
00:57:37,417 --> 00:57:39,707
Right... More music!!

438
00:57:39,917 --> 00:57:45,127
Go on, play my favorite, the one I like.
It's what your paid for, come on.

439
01:00:31,708 --> 01:00:35,498
Uh, yeah, enough. That's
enough, enough, enough, enough enough...

440
01:00:38,042 --> 01:00:40,502
Talk about flogging a dead horse....

441
01:00:42,125 --> 01:00:44,495
Oh, nevermind.

442
01:01:06,583 --> 01:01:08,923
I want you to comfort me.

443
01:01:09,042 --> 01:01:11,332
Just give me s... put the
fucking macaroon down

444
01:01:11,500 --> 01:01:17,380
Comfort me! It's what you're paid for.
Give me some comfort you FUCKING wanker!

445
01:01:20,833 --> 01:01:24,253
You're just a, a fucking amateur!

446
01:01:24,417 --> 01:01:26,327
y... christ !

447
01:01:30,125 --> 01:01:32,415
Alright, Alright, Alright.

448
01:01:44,375 --> 01:01:46,205
Oh God...

449
01:02:05,125 --> 01:02:07,325
Okay.

450
01:02:07,500 --> 01:02:09,790
Okay.

451
01:02:15,000 --> 01:02:17,420
I'm ready.

452
01:02:50,375 --> 01:02:52,625
Are you gonna let him go out like this?

453
01:02:52,792 --> 01:02:58,042
Our job, is to allow him to
make his own decisions.

454
01:02:58,208 --> 01:03:00,828
He's free.

455
01:03:10,708 --> 01:03:12,998
I was, umm...

456
01:03:13,125 --> 01:03:15,625
professional football player.

457
01:03:18,917 --> 01:03:21,627
...going straight to the top.

458
01:03:25,125 --> 01:03:27,785
I could have been so fucking good.

459
01:03:30,125 --> 01:03:32,705
What happened?

460
01:03:37,375 --> 01:03:39,625
Car crash.

461
01:03:40,708 --> 01:03:43,328
That's all?

462
01:03:48,833 --> 01:03:52,213
It might not mean much to you.

463
01:03:52,417 --> 01:03:56,787
- But for me...
- But, you're healthy otherwise

464
01:03:56,917 --> 01:03:59,247
You are not sick.

465
01:03:59,417 --> 01:04:02,497
It's just your legs?

466
01:04:05,375 --> 01:04:09,325
My whole life went down the
drain when I lost them.

467
01:04:11,000 --> 01:04:13,000
Everything I was.

468
01:04:13,208 --> 01:04:16,418
But the rest of your body...

469
01:04:16,625 --> 01:04:19,205
I hate this body.

470
01:04:21,375 --> 01:04:23,205
It's fucking...

471
01:04:25,250 --> 01:04:27,830
disability...

472
01:04:31,792 --> 01:04:34,632
I don't know what to do with it.

473
01:04:37,375 --> 01:04:39,785
It disgusts me.

474
01:04:43,000 --> 01:04:45,580
How can you say that?

475
01:05:30,917 --> 01:05:33,917
I can't do this anymore.

476
01:05:34,125 --> 01:05:35,995
I can see that.

477
01:05:42,250 --> 01:05:46,000
Can we go somewhere?

478
01:05:46,208 --> 01:05:48,918
Just you and I.

479
01:05:49,042 --> 01:05:50,922
Before I leave.

480
01:06:03,000 --> 01:06:04,830
So...

481
01:06:06,833 --> 01:06:09,833
What will you do when you get home?

482
01:06:15,500 --> 01:06:19,380
- I do not know.
- Of course you do.

483
01:06:19,500 --> 01:06:21,500
Tell me.

484
01:06:22,625 --> 01:06:25,495
What are you doing next week?

485
01:06:35,417 --> 01:06:37,787
I've ordered some, umm...

486
01:06:37,917 --> 01:06:39,707
some new...

487
01:06:39,917 --> 01:06:42,207
walls for my studio.

488
01:06:43,917 --> 01:06:48,127
But I do not know if they're gonna fit
through the back door.

489
01:06:50,500 --> 01:06:52,420
What else?

490
01:06:58,125 --> 01:07:00,785
Sleep. Sleep, Maybe...

491
01:07:04,833 --> 01:07:07,213
I'm gonna...

492
01:07:08,500 --> 01:07:12,830
start to... look for my next.. project

493
01:07:15,125 --> 01:07:17,575
After those reviews...

494
01:07:17,708 --> 01:07:19,918
Something new.

495
01:07:23,500 --> 01:07:26,210
I guess there'll be...

496
01:07:26,417 --> 01:07:28,827
just a lot of work to do.

497
01:07:47,417 --> 01:07:51,147
You've always left me!
You've always left me!

498
01:08:02,417 --> 01:08:04,827
Emilie?

499
01:08:05,000 --> 01:08:06,830
I'm sorry. Emilie?

500
01:08:07,000 --> 01:08:09,210
Come here. So...

501
01:08:09,375 --> 01:08:12,245
Hey. Wake up. Emilie?

502
01:08:12,417 --> 01:08:14,577
Hey...

503
01:08:14,708 --> 01:08:17,578
Emilie?

504
01:08:17,708 --> 01:08:20,328
Help!

505
01:08:20,500 --> 01:08:22,420
Help!

506
01:08:29,375 --> 01:08:31,825
She doesn't have much time left.

507
01:08:33,000 --> 01:08:35,630
But she's not going to die today.

508
01:08:36,917 --> 01:08:39,417
The helicopter is ready.

509
01:08:49,583 --> 01:08:52,003
So you're leaving.

510
01:08:54,583 --> 01:08:57,043
I just make things worse.

511
01:09:00,250 --> 01:09:04,000
There's something I wanted to
show you before you go.

512
01:09:04,208 --> 01:09:06,918
Just come with me. They'll wait for you.

513
01:09:20,000 --> 01:09:22,000
Come on in.

514
01:09:34,625 --> 01:09:36,825
Open it! - Open it!
[door shaking]

515
01:10:27,250 --> 01:10:30,130
She drowns in her emotions

516
01:10:31,917 --> 01:10:35,127
She's always been like that.

517
01:10:37,625 --> 01:10:41,125
Dad left, and she and mum just clung to
each other - dragged each other down.

518
01:10:41,333 --> 01:10:43,423
I refuse to live as a victim.

519
01:10:43,583 --> 01:10:46,383
Your mother died of a broken heart.

520
01:10:47,125 --> 01:10:49,625
Mum died because of weakness.

521
01:10:50,583 --> 01:10:54,713
She died because she couldn't
handle life, as it is.

522
01:10:57,833 --> 01:11:00,333
She stopped going to work.

523
01:11:02,500 --> 01:11:04,580
She woudn't eat.

524
01:11:04,708 --> 01:11:06,628
She couldn't...

525
01:11:06,833 --> 01:11:09,423
She couldn't pay the bills
She couldn't go and buy cigarettes.

526
01:11:09,590 --> 01:11:11,395
So you had to go and do that.

527
01:11:11,460 --> 01:11:16,124
You had to go out and buy cigarettes and milk
for the money that you got from social services -

528
01:11:16,125 --> 01:11:21,375
because your mother was no longer a mother
because your family was no longer a family

529
01:11:23,417 --> 01:11:25,707
She failed.

530
01:11:39,708 --> 01:11:44,248
drowning herself in the bath, putting
her head in the oven... sleeping pills

531
01:11:44,417 --> 01:11:48,707
Do you know what? When she actually
succeeded, that was a relief.

532
01:11:52,625 --> 01:11:54,205
Yes.

533
01:11:57,708 --> 01:12:00,918
That's how it was when mum died.

534
01:12:02,333 --> 01:12:04,253
A relief.

535
01:14:34,417 --> 01:14:37,527
- Come here.
- No...

536
01:14:38,823 --> 01:14:40,951
Shhh... Shhhh...

537
01:14:42,137 --> 01:14:44,476
shhhhh....

538
01:14:58,917 --> 01:15:01,207
It is okay.

539
01:15:10,250 --> 01:15:12,830
I miss my mum.

540
01:15:19,375 --> 01:15:22,035
I miss her so much.

541
01:16:27,708 --> 01:16:30,918
Do you remember that summer in the house?

542
01:16:36,417 --> 01:16:39,127
That houses out on the island.

543
01:16:46,125 --> 01:16:48,785
Mum borrowed it from someone.

544
01:17:02,833 --> 01:17:06,923
- Do you remember?
- It was so hot.

545
01:17:11,917 --> 01:17:14,577
You taught me to swim.

546
01:17:16,250 --> 01:17:19,210
That was summer before dad left.

547
01:17:24,250 --> 01:17:28,130
There was a piano upstairs.

548
01:17:28,333 --> 01:17:31,333
And dad used to sit and play.

549
01:17:32,375 --> 01:17:35,915
The window was open.

550
01:17:36,042 --> 01:17:38,502
All night, yeah.

551
01:17:41,000 --> 01:17:43,210
It was so hot.

552
01:17:54,917 --> 01:17:57,497
I was happy then.

553
01:18:05,833 --> 01:18:08,713
Everybody was happy that summer.

554
01:18:20,417 --> 01:18:23,127
You used to braid my hair in the morning.

555
01:18:28,833 --> 01:18:33,633
There was a kiosk we used to
walk to, to buy ice cream.

556
01:18:33,792 --> 01:18:35,922
Remember?

557
01:18:40,417 --> 01:18:42,997
We were bare foot.

558
01:18:45,625 --> 01:18:48,375
Sometimes we passed a tractor.

559
01:18:54,000 --> 01:18:56,330
I held your hand.

560
01:18:58,500 --> 01:19:01,210
You held it tight like mum
said you should.

561
01:19:05,375 --> 01:19:08,035
You held my hand.

562
01:20:50,125 --> 01:20:53,245
- Emilie Thompson?
- Yes.

563
01:20:53,417 --> 01:20:56,327
Please...

564
01:21:59,000 --> 01:22:05,130
I hereby ask you, Emilie Thompson,
if you are absolutely certain -

565
01:22:05,333 --> 01:22:11,133
- answering of your own free will
that you wish to leave

566
01:22:11,250 --> 01:22:13,920
Yes.

567
01:22:18,000 --> 01:22:20,630
As you know, it tastes bitter.

568
01:22:20,792 --> 01:22:25,832
After you drink it, I will offer you
a sweet to take away the taste.

569
01:22:26,000 --> 01:22:29,330
Then, a few seconds later
you will fall asleep.

570
01:22:29,500 --> 01:22:34,920
And, in a few minutes,
your breathing will cease.

571
01:22:35,042 --> 01:22:39,332
Are you sure this is what you want?

572
01:22:39,500 --> 01:22:40,920
Yes.

573
01:27:42,625 --> 01:27:45,035
I have something for you.

574
01:28:02,042 --> 01:28:05,502
Tell me. What are you going
do with your material?

575
01:28:09,000 --> 01:28:14,000
- What do you mean?
- The images you took here. The films.

576
01:28:14,125 --> 01:28:16,375
Are you going to use them in your work?

577
01:28:19,042 --> 01:28:21,382
I don't know.

578
01:28:22,708 --> 01:28:26,208
Just be honest with
yourself, that's all...

579
01:28:54,333 --> 01:28:56,043
Off you go now.

580
01:28:58,708 --> 01:29:00,418
Go on.

581
01:29:28,625 --> 01:29:30,205
Thank you so much.