> Paloma: Feelings jam with Amaloc.

-- vicariousVisionary [VV] began trolling absoluteAltitude [AA] at 05:41 --
VV: hey pall.
AA: <\ Hey, Ama! What's up? />
VV: i wennt to visit aoifah againn.
AA: <\ How'd it go...? />
VV: commpllicated.
AA: <\ Start at the beginning, okay? />
VV: wellll, we tallked about the flleet a bit.
VV: onne of her friennds is joinninng soonn.
AA: <\ I see... />
VV: yeah.
VV: we had a nnice tallk for the mmost part.
AA: <\ But? />
VV: wellll, there's stillll the trammpllebeast inn the roomm.
VV: i mmenntionned the wholle "stop visitinng" idea.
VV: she said she stillll wannted to see mme
VV: she's beenn llookinng forward to the visits.
AA: <\ I'm not surprised... pity can't be chained by a church. />
VV: yeah.
VV: she's worried she's hurtinng mme though.
AA: <\ Is she? />
VV: yeah.
VV: i tolld her it's allll right.
AA: <\ Oh, Ama... />
VV: it hurts sommetimmes, but nnot as mmuch as havinng to avoid her.
AA: <\ I... I can understand that very well. />
VV: i'mm just worried.
VV: she said a few thinngs her order woulldnn't llike.
AA: <\ That's tricky... on the one hand, you're not about to tell her order about what she said. On the other hand, if she said them, she's feeling them, and so they might come out in front of the order... />
VV: yeah.
VV: she's lleadinng the order, annd she's startinng to thinnk their goddess is cruell.
AA: <\ Oh, dear... />
VV: yeah.
VV: she's feellinng guillty about allll this.
AA: <\ Are you, too? />
VV: yeah.
VV: she woulldnn't have this troublle if nnot for mme.
AA: <\ Ama... you're opening up whole new worlds for her. That, that isn't necessarily a bad thing. />
VV: but i'mm tearinng downn her enntire worlld.
AA: <\ If she's so conflicted about this, how many non-order friends do you think she's really had before now? She's probably never even been exposed to this stuff before. Maybe it's good for her to let a little moonlight from the outside world in...? />
AA: <\ Even if it might hurt initially. />
VV: mmaybe.
VV: i just donn't wannt to jollt her too mmuch.
AA: <\ Take it slow. />
VV: yeah.
AA: <\ You talked about joining the fleet earlier, we all have to do it eventually. When we do, we're going to have to face up to the real world, without anything religious to protect us. />
AA: <\ What I'm trying to say is, I don't think you're a bad thing for her... />
VV: wellll, she'llll mmove onn to llead her order inn the flleet.
AA: <\ I suppose, but still... />
VV: yeah, mmaybe you're right.
VV: we've sort of agreed to a mmutuall frienndzonne, but it's stillll nnice to be with her.
AA: <\ So long as you really mean that. It's no good to just pretend you're happy. />
VV: it's nnot what i wannt, realllly.
VV: but i llike spenndinng timme with her.
AA: <\ I'm glad you can at least have that. />
VV: mme too.
VV: i'mm gllad i'mm pursuinng this.
AA: <\ Good. />
VV: it's nnot easy, but it's worth it.
VV: you knnow, i had a fllushcrush before.
AA: <\ And now? />
VV: wellll yeah i have onne nnow too.
VV: but thannks to you, i've got the gts to do sommethinng about it.
AA: <\ I'm glad. ^n_n^ />
VV: yeah.
VV: thannks, palle pall.
AA: <\ You're welcome! And thank you too, Ama. <> />
VV: <>
VV: allll thinngs connsidered, llife's beenn good to mme llatelly.
AA: <\ I'm so glad things are looking up for you. />
VV: yeah.
VV: how have thinngs beenn with you?
AA: <\ Cucali and I watched movies last night! />
VV: great!
VV: have a good date?
AA: <\ It, it wasn't a date! We, we were just - />
AA: <\ Do you think I could call that a date? />
VV: wellll nnot to her yet.
VV: she's stillll nnot ready to admmit thinngs, right?
AA: <\ No... but she didn't mind me cuddling up to her a little when we were watching things. />
VV: great progress.
VV: who knnows, she mmight be ready to tallk feellinngs soonn.
AA: <\ I don't know about that... but I do know I was happy. />
AA: <\ Her skin's so cool, you know? But it's nice, being near her... />
VV: yeah.
VV: cllose conntact llike that is ann immportannt step.
AA: <\ Yeah... yeah, it is. />
VV: i got to holld hannds with aoifah a bit the other nnight.
AA: <\ Oh, that's wonderful! />
VV: yeah.
VV: she llet mme touh her face, too.
VV: *touch
AA: <\ That must have been so great! />
VV: yeah.
VV: she's pretty, fromm what i fellt.
AA: <\ I bet she is. ^n_n^ />
VV: i wish i coulld see her.
AA: <\ I wish I could help with that... />
VV: nnothinng to be donne, realllly.
AA: <\ As your moirail, I'm allowed to wish I could make things better for you! Even when it's impossible. />
VV: poinnt there.
VV: thannks, pall.
AA: <\ You're always welcome! />
VV: what sort of mmovies did you two watch?
AA: <\ Some of them were really scary, honestly... although Cucali put her arm around me to reassure me, so I'm not entirely complaining, hee hee... />
AA: <\ But the last one we watched was really good! />
VV: cllever girll.
AA: <\ Hee! />
VV: she mmay have beenn tryinng to spook you innto cuddllinng up for protectionn.
AA: <\ Oh my! You really think so? />
VV: it's a possibillity.
AA: <\ She, she definitely didn't push me away... />
VV: what was the llast mmovie?
AA: <\ You know, the one with the suave interplanetary spy who goes around solving problems with lots of explosions? />
VV: right.
VV: hmmmm
VV: scary mmovies, follllowed by onne about a suave expllosives expert.
VV: cann't hellp wonnderinng if she had a pllann.
AA: <\ Well I, I did insist on something which had a happier ending than those bleak scary movies, to be fair... but now that you mention it, it is a little suspicious... />
VV: a good kinnd of suspicious, though.
AA: <\ Yeah! />
AA: <\ I, I mean, it's almost like she planned it. />
VV: mmaybe she's goinng to admmit her feellinngs soonn.
AA: <\ I don't know if I'd hope for that, but... it would be nice, wouldn't it? />
VV: yeah.
VV: good lluck, palle pall.
AA: <\ Thank you! />
VV: wellll, afraid i gotta runn.
VV: see you llater, pall.<>
AA: <\ Goodbye for now, Ama. <> />
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