4 years ago I graduated from high school and moved on to college. I had an acceptance to Arizona State University I could have taken for their business school and my life could have changed drastically from what it is now if I decided to take that path. Instead I decided I didn't want to move out of state for college because I would miss the friends I made and the family that care for me here, so I decided to just go to a local community college a mile away from me. During my time at that community college I decided to take 5 classes at once, and the workload from those classes I took wore down on me HARD. It was a much different and more heavy workload than I expected just having graduated from high school and I didn't know how to deal with it at all. I ended up passing 1 of those classes and failed the rest. Fast forward to next semester I took 4 classes thinking things would be better and that this would be my time to shine. Well I was dead wrong. I tried my hardest and I still couldn't keep up no matter what I tried to do, so by the end of the semester I got a letter from the community college telling me they're kicking me out. During that time my friends and I were growing really distant because of how they were acting towards me and my family was beyond upset with everything that happened with me during college. It wasn't a good time to be alive for me, and I had horrible depression and suicidal thoughts that I kept to myself during that year at college, and they only got worse afterwards. My one saving grace was Twitch. I had started streaming and speedrunning in February that 2nd semester of college. I met and befriended some of the most amazing people I have ever known in my entire life just through playing video games for people on the internet. I finally felt like I was a part of something during that time, that I meant something to someone, and those thoughts alone clouded out a lot of my own thoughts about ending my life or continuing to live a depressed life where things were not looking good for me at all. To this day I still don't know what I want to do with my life now that it's been 2 1/2 years since I got kicked out of college, but I still hold on to the thoughts that other people care about me and want to see me succeed in whatever gives me any sort of enjoyment, and that keeps me going every day. Life is uncertain and life can be cruel, and I don't know if I'll ever be able to make something out of it given what's happened to me in the past, but I still keep going every day with the hope that some day I can make a career out of whatever I enjoy and it helps people positively in some way. MarioMan, you have people that care about you and want to see your success, even if they don't show it all the time. I hope you see this and realize that at the very least. I know you've at least had similar experiences when it comes to Twitch and you've met some amazing people that you can call friends. You even went to AGDQ this year and met up with some of them! Plus just look at everyone who's responded to this tweet so far. They all care about you and don't want to see you go at all. If you're still with us, and we all hope you are, please feel free to PM me and we can talk things out. My Discord is Shasta#3187 and my Twitter DMs are open. I'll leave you with this quote from my favorite game ever: The World Ends With You.

"Enjoy every moment with all you got. The world ends with you. If you want to enjoy life, expand your world. You gotta push your horizons out as far as they'll go" - Mr. H, The World Ends With You