Użytkownik Blue Stigma mówi
Michael, I need to have words with thee upon your return. It's imperative something be done.
Użytkownik Michał Błądek mówi
I am back Blues.
What is it that you need?
Użytkownik Blue Stigma mówi
Alex...
She's...and I...and we...it...
I guess it's reliant on your time, and how much of it you can spare.
Użytkownik Michał Błądek mówi
Quite a lot. Please continue. You have all my attention.
Użytkownik Blue Stigma mówi
I'll summarize it from when you told me about this initially.
She didn't want to talk about it until later, and I pleaded with her when she came back home.
No amount of my curiosity and concern could get her to talk, so I took a guess from what you told me.
She said it was right, and promptly left to sleep.
Few hours passed.
We spoke again around midnight EST, and it quickly went into that same topic.
She was conflicted, she wasn't feeling well, she didn't want help...
It ended with my router causing me to d/c, and I couldn't get back online.
That leads to her...not being online right now.
That can't be helped, I suppose, but I'm really worried at this moment.
Użytkownik Michał Błądek mówi
First thing when she comes back you should explain what exactly happened.
Użytkownik Blue Stigma mówi
I know that, I'm going to.
Użytkownik Michał Błądek mówi
I talked to her a bit at 9 my time.
which is
about 6 hours ago
Użytkownik Blue Stigma mówi
That's about after I was forced off.
Ah, what did you talk to her about, if you don't mind my asking?
Użytkownik Michał Błądek mówi
She was questioning if it was really okay to have such feeling and that maybe she should just close her heart to be able to help others. She feels bad for feeling bad basically.
Użytkownik Blue Stigma mówi
This is where my side has to do something.
I can't just sit back and let her feel bad like this, because my feelings are gone for some unexplained reason.
Thinking about love just isn't easy when I'm this worried.
Użytkownik Michał Błądek mówi
Yeah she said I should talk to you, but you seem to know what you want to do.
So my advice isn't needed, I think
Użytkownik Blue Stigma mówi
I wouldn't say that.
Using you as a third wheel isn't something I want to do, so I won't ask you to tell her X or Y.
Użytkownik Michał Błądek mówi
I think it's best to confront it head on too.
Użytkownik Blue Stigma mówi
It's just that she's constantly been denying my feelings for her, I thought it would make everything right if they were gone.
Now, the result of the very thing she's been telling me to do has gotten her hurt.
Użytkownik Michał Błądek mówi
All of it is very contradictory.
Użytkownik Blue Stigma mówi
I want to love her.
In that way.
Użytkownik Michał Błądek mówi
I think the best thing for you to do atm. is try to be there for her when she's feeling bad. The issues of feelings can't be resolved in one day. This clearly needs time as well.
Blues I personally feel that
abandoning love when you know it's love and not something you just misinterpret as it, is simply bad and it's like abandoning a part of yourself
Użytkownik Blue Stigma mówi
I'm confused, though.
Was it love, in the end?
If it was, then why and how did I inadvertantly abandon it without a second thought?
Those are the questions on my side I think have to be answered, but I'm completely clueless.
Użytkownik Michał Błądek mówi
I think only you can answer them though.
I myself love someone in the particular way that my feelings cannot yet be returned if ever.
But I'm still not going to abandon it, because I have hope
and I have trust in the person I love
Użytkownik Blue Stigma mówi
I...suppose I understand.
Użytkownik Michał Błądek mówi
and I don't care if I'm going to hurt
If I can't bare this much then it means my love wasn't genuine
Użytkownik Blue Stigma mówi
That's honestly quite a lot to shoulder on your own, isn't it?
Użytkownik Michał Błądek mówi
I know, but that's the only way I can do things. I can't work miracles, I don't have luck.
I can only work hard for it.
Marc I believe
hard work and patience
always pays off
Użytkownik Blue Stigma mówi
I believe that, too.
The harder road is always the one worth traveling through, in the end.
...why those things didn't come to mind when I was suffering must say something.
Użytkownik Michał Błądek mówi
I don't think there's a way of acquiring what you want without effort.
and without getting hurt in the process
Użytkownik Blue Stigma mówi
Do you think it's possible to regain what I lost?
And...do you think I can do it before Alex gives up, too?
Użytkownik Michał Błądek mówi
I truly can't say Marc. I know Alex won't abandon you.
Użytkownik Blue Stigma mówi
That much helps me, at the least.
I won't abandon her either.
Użytkownik Michał Błądek mówi
I know you wouldn't. I believe I at least know you that much.
I think in the end I'm the only that could get abandonded by the one I love, but I won't believe it until it actually happens.
Użytkownik Blue Stigma mówi
I don't think she would be able to abandon others so easily.
Then again, I'm kinda in no position to say that, so...anyway...
What do you propose I do next?
Użytkownik Michał Błądek mówi
Please be there for her when she needs you. That's the best thing you can do.
Użytkownik Blue Stigma mówi
I can be there for her, I WILL do that.
...but I don't think she's ever needed me.
Użytkownik Michał Błądek mówi
She wouldn't say she missed you if that was the case.
Użytkownik Blue Stigma mówi
But she's never asked me for help, at least on the scale she's helped me.
This case, too, she said that she "couldn't depend on [me]".
Użytkownik Michał Błądek mówi
I think you should do something to make her think otherwise.
By something I don't know what that could be, but she already trusts you quite a lot.
Użytkownik Blue Stigma mówi
I don't know what'd be possible to get her to change her mind, either.
Be there for her, let time do its work, convince her I can be depended upon, and put every ounce of inner strength into it.
Did I forget anything?
Użytkownik Michał Błądek mówi
Stay true to what you just said.
Don't be weak.
Użytkownik Blue Stigma mówi
Don't act strong, be strong.
Użytkownik Michał Błądek mówi
Yes, that's the best way to describe it.
Użytkownik Blue Stigma mówi
Alright.
Thanks again.
Użytkownik Michał Błądek mówi
I hope I've been at least a bit useful. I didn't really provide much advice. Just my own thoughts on the matter more or less.
Użytkownik Blue Stigma mówi
I feel I've regained confidence.
That's enough reason to thank you.
On a side note, I think you're too much of a sage-like figure since I've been going to you for advice for a few days.
Użytkownik Michał Błądek mówi
I don't think I'm like that at all.
Użytkownik Blue Stigma mówi
Well, I don't ACTUALLY SEE YOU as a sage, but I think I've been going to you just a bit too much.
Użytkownik Michał Błądek mówi
It's okay.
I'm always willing to help.
If I can that is.
Użytkownik Blue Stigma mówi
I'm not a guy who likes going to others for help; always feels like I inconvenience others in doing so.
Not dissimilar to Alex in that regard.