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- 00:01:00,310 --> 00:01:02,222
- Corky, why don't you tell us your story.
- 2
- 00:01:04,106 --> 00:01:06,689
- Well, as you know, my story is not
- 3
- 00:01:07,401 --> 00:01:09,939
- a "really tragic" story, unless...
- 4
- 00:01:11,029 --> 00:01:12,361
- boredom is tragic.
- 5
- 00:01:13,532 --> 00:01:14,739
- I, um...
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- 00:01:15,242 --> 00:01:20,112
- you know, I was married.
- I had every comfort you could ask for.
- 7
- 00:01:21,081 --> 00:01:24,415
- I thought that's what was gonna
- make my life meaningful.
- 8
- 00:01:25,502 --> 00:01:28,916
- I just stopped wanting
- to go to parties, and...
- 9
- 00:01:31,425 --> 00:01:33,337
- play tennis...
- 10
- 00:01:35,178 --> 00:01:37,170
- with my girlfriends.
- 11
- 00:01:37,681 --> 00:01:38,888
- For the record, I'd like to say
- 12
- 00:01:38,974 --> 00:01:42,092
- that I think I'd rather iron sheets
- than play tennis any day.
- 13
- 00:01:42,603 --> 00:01:46,722
- When I was, uh, about 11 years old,
- 14
- 00:01:46,815 --> 00:01:50,434
- I lived with my grandmother
- near the Black Forest, and...
- 15
- 00:01:50,527 --> 00:01:53,486
- In a little house, second floor,
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- 00:01:53,572 --> 00:01:54,688
- and I had a cat.
- 17
- 00:01:55,949 --> 00:01:57,565
- Her name was Fifi.
- 18
- 00:01:58,118 --> 00:02:01,577
- Well, I did get
- an Oregon Cultural Heritage Award.
- 19
- 00:02:01,830 --> 00:02:04,197
- Ah, these awards are not important.
- 20
- 00:02:04,291 --> 00:02:06,078
- - Please.
- - Okay.
- 21
- 00:02:06,168 --> 00:02:10,583
- I got a prescription for Valium,
- which at least made the days go...
- 22
- 00:02:11,381 --> 00:02:12,997
- by quicker.
- 23
- 00:02:13,091 --> 00:02:15,378
- Yeah, okay, there's this rock
- 24
- 00:02:15,469 --> 00:02:18,553
- that was about this big
- that had these grooves in it,
- 25
- 00:02:18,639 --> 00:02:21,347
- like, uh, you know, little bumps, and I said,
- 26
- 00:02:21,433 --> 00:02:23,971
- "Well, Aunt Janey, what is this?"
- 27
- 00:02:24,478 --> 00:02:26,219
- And she said, "What?
- You don't know what that is?"
- 28
- 00:02:26,313 --> 00:02:27,645
- And I was like, "No."
- 29
- 00:02:27,731 --> 00:02:29,267
- And she's like, "Well, that's my titty rock."
- 30
- 00:02:29,858 --> 00:02:32,601
- And I was like, "Your titty rock?"
- She was like, "Yeah, my titty rock."
- 31
- 00:02:33,904 --> 00:02:35,315
- "That's for when you get
- in fights with girls.
- 32
- 00:02:35,405 --> 00:02:38,523
- You punch 'em in the tit with it."
- Not joking, not kidding.
- 33
- 00:02:38,617 --> 00:02:41,234
- Then one day, I just, like,
- 34
- 00:02:41,870 --> 00:02:45,329
- took off all my clothes
- and walked down the street.
- 35
- 00:02:47,209 --> 00:02:48,199
- And...
- 36
- 00:02:49,086 --> 00:02:50,122
- the mailman...
- 37
- 00:02:50,962 --> 00:02:52,123
- found me and...
- 38
- 00:02:52,214 --> 00:02:56,504
- he brought me home
- and called my husband, like I was a child.
- 39
- 00:02:57,052 --> 00:02:59,590
- And I, you know,
- I'm still wearing my wedding ring, but...
- 40
- 00:03:00,263 --> 00:03:01,174
- I'm...
- 41
- 00:03:01,640 --> 00:03:04,132
- divorced now, and I'm... I'm much happier.
- 42
- 00:03:04,643 --> 00:03:07,386
- Maybe life's actually not supposed to be...
- 43
- 00:03:08,689 --> 00:03:11,523
- as meaningful as we think it is.
- 44
- 00:03:12,359 --> 00:03:14,316
- - Thanks, Corky.
- - Thanks, Corky.
- 45
- 00:03:14,403 --> 00:03:15,314
- Mm.
- 46
- 00:04:51,082 --> 00:04:52,414
- <i>Ladies and gentlemen,</i>
- 47
- 00:04:52,501 --> 00:04:56,120
- <i>please welcome to the stage
- Portland's celebrity cartoonist</i>
- 48
- 00:04:56,213 --> 00:04:58,296
- <i>John Callahan!</i>
- 49
- 00:05:14,231 --> 00:05:16,268
- Hi. My name is John, and I'm an alcoholic.
- 50
- 00:05:16,358 --> 00:05:18,099
- Hi, John.
- 51
- 00:05:18,193 --> 00:05:19,900
- Hi. It's good to be here.
- 52
- 00:05:20,862 --> 00:05:22,319
- The last day that I walked,
- 53
- 00:05:23,448 --> 00:05:25,906
- I... I woke up without a hangover.
- 54
- 00:05:31,289 --> 00:05:34,077
- The last day I walked,
- I woke up without a hangover.
- 55
- 00:05:34,918 --> 00:05:37,410
- I was still loaded
- from drinking the night before.
- 56
- 00:06:00,652 --> 00:06:04,362
- I knew I had an hour or so
- of grace before the...
- 57
- 00:06:04,447 --> 00:06:05,437
- nervousness...
- 58
- 00:06:07,492 --> 00:06:09,449
- of withdrawal symptoms set in.
- 59
- 00:06:23,258 --> 00:06:25,716
- What if I lost control, flipped out?
- 60
- 00:06:27,721 --> 00:06:28,632
- Fuck.
- 61
- 00:06:34,644 --> 00:06:37,261
- The closest store where I could buy booze
- 62
- 00:06:37,731 --> 00:06:40,189
- was near a major intersection.
- 63
- 00:06:51,661 --> 00:06:53,448
- - How are you?
- - Staying cool?
- 64
- 00:06:53,955 --> 00:06:55,446
- - It's hot out there, isn't it?
- - Yeah.
- 65
- 00:06:55,540 --> 00:06:57,327
- - Good beach weather.
- - Yeah. Whew.
- 66
- 00:06:57,417 --> 00:06:58,908
- <i>I tried to talk to the...</i>
- 67
- 00:06:59,336 --> 00:07:01,794
- owner of the store and act real casual.
- 68
- 00:07:01,880 --> 00:07:03,246
- I work for Alvarado house painter.
- 69
- 00:07:03,340 --> 00:07:04,751
- - Oh.
- - We got tons of work.
- 70
- 00:07:04,841 --> 00:07:07,128
- Oh, you know,
- like I had everything under control.
- 71
- 00:07:07,886 --> 00:07:09,593
- But...
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- 00:07:09,679 --> 00:07:12,092
- they'd have to be blind
- not to see my hand shaking.
- 73
- 00:07:13,016 --> 00:07:13,972
- Um...
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- 00:07:15,018 --> 00:07:18,386
- Yeah, I guess I'll just
- take that, uh, Tres Abuelos.
- 75
- 00:07:18,480 --> 00:07:19,596
- Yeah, tequila.
- 76
- 00:08:07,028 --> 00:08:08,269
- Hey, how's it going?
- 77
- 00:08:09,614 --> 00:08:11,321
- Wow, pretty groovy day, huh?
- 78
- 00:08:11,574 --> 00:08:12,690
- Oh, yeah.
- 79
- 00:08:12,784 --> 00:08:15,071
- - Surf's coming up.
- - Yeah.
- 80
- 00:08:15,495 --> 00:08:18,579
- Sky gets any bluer,
- it'll be singing a Muddy Waters tune.
- 81
- 00:08:18,999 --> 00:08:19,989
- Sorry?
- 82
- 00:08:21,459 --> 00:08:22,870
- I'm a songwriter.
- 83
- 00:08:22,961 --> 00:08:25,294
- I listen to a lot of different music.
- 84
- 00:08:26,297 --> 00:08:27,413
- - Um...
- - Want a drink?
- 85
- 00:08:28,133 --> 00:08:29,499
- I'm... I'm good.
- 86
- 00:08:29,592 --> 00:08:31,754
- Um, I'll see you around sometime, okay?
- 87
- 00:08:31,845 --> 00:08:33,086
- Oh. All right.
- 88
- 00:08:40,145 --> 00:08:42,387
- You've got a problem, Callahan.
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- 00:08:45,150 --> 00:08:47,233
- I know three things about my real mother:
- 90
- 00:08:47,318 --> 00:08:50,106
- she was Irish-American, she had red hair,
- 91
- 00:08:50,196 --> 00:08:51,357
- she was a school teacher.
- 92
- 00:08:52,240 --> 00:08:53,276
- Oh, yeah.
- 93
- 00:08:55,326 --> 00:08:56,612
- And she didn't want me.
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- 00:08:57,412 --> 00:08:58,323
- Okay.
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- 00:08:58,913 --> 00:09:01,371
- Four things.
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- 00:09:01,458 --> 00:09:04,496
- The way with
- illegitimate Catholic babies in those days
- 97
- 00:09:04,586 --> 00:09:06,999
- was to remove them
- from the mother of birth...
- 98
- 00:09:07,088 --> 00:09:09,751
- ...and put them in the care
- of the nuns for six months
- 99
- 00:09:09,841 --> 00:09:11,958
- in case the natural mother
- should change her mind.
- 100
- 00:09:14,054 --> 00:09:16,091
- Was my mother a queen?
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- 00:09:16,514 --> 00:09:17,504
- Was she a whore?
- 102
- 00:09:18,558 --> 00:09:22,222
- Could I locate her and surprise her,
- say, at a bank teller's window?
- 103
- 00:09:22,312 --> 00:09:24,269
- "Yeah, I'd like to cash this check, Mom."
- 104
- 00:09:56,346 --> 00:09:58,508
- Oh, fuck. Help!
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- 00:10:02,227 --> 00:10:04,435
- - Oh, hey.
- - Dude, you wiped out.
- 106
- 00:10:04,521 --> 00:10:05,887
- - Nice.
- - Can you help me up?
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- 00:10:06,231 --> 00:10:07,893
- - Yeah, all right.
- - Easy, though.
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- 00:10:07,982 --> 00:10:09,689
- - Okay.
- - All right, now, nice and easy.
- 109
- 00:10:09,776 --> 00:10:10,937
- Don't try and show off.
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- 00:10:11,027 --> 00:10:13,019
- - Yeah! Oh!
- - Here, come around, turn around.
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- 00:10:13,113 --> 00:10:14,445
- - Here we go.
- - All right.
- 112
- 00:10:14,531 --> 00:10:15,863
- - Okay.
- - Watch it.
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- 00:10:15,949 --> 00:10:18,066
- - Careful, careful.
- - There we go. There we go.
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- 00:10:18,159 --> 00:10:20,025
- Yeah, lift him up.
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- 00:10:20,120 --> 00:10:22,612
- - You guys smell that?
- - Oh, what's that smell?
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- 00:10:22,705 --> 00:10:24,037
- - Oh, that reeks, man.
- - Oh.
- 117
- 00:10:24,124 --> 00:10:26,207
- Yeah, pull up that right leg right there.
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- 00:10:26,292 --> 00:10:27,282
- - Right here?
- - Yeah.
- 119
- 00:10:27,377 --> 00:10:28,538
- - You got it, dude.
- - Yeah.
- 120
- 00:10:28,628 --> 00:10:30,494
- Yeah, you lift up that right pant leg there.
- 121
- 00:10:30,588 --> 00:10:32,500
- Be brave.
- 122
- 00:10:32,590 --> 00:10:34,456
- Yeah, just attach that into the white thing.
- 123
- 00:10:35,218 --> 00:10:36,754
- All right.
- 124
- 00:10:37,804 --> 00:10:39,420
- - Thank you.
- - You draw this?
- 125
- 00:10:39,514 --> 00:10:40,595
- - Yeah.
- - Whoa.
- 126
- 00:10:40,682 --> 00:10:41,889
- - You get it?
- - Awesome. Yeah.
- 127
- 00:10:41,975 --> 00:10:42,886
- Yeah.
- 128
- 00:10:44,936 --> 00:10:46,393
- Don't worry, boys.
- 129
- 00:10:46,479 --> 00:10:48,266
- He won't get far on foot.
- 130
- 00:10:48,356 --> 00:10:49,312
- It's a wheelchair.
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- 00:10:49,399 --> 00:10:51,436
- He can't get far because he's injured, right?
- 132
- 00:10:51,526 --> 00:10:53,062
- - That's right. Yeah.
- - Okay, all right!
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- 00:10:53,153 --> 00:10:54,564
- Yeah, well, you know,
- 134
- 00:10:54,654 --> 00:10:56,316
- my grandmom's in a wheelchair, so...
- 135
- 00:10:56,406 --> 00:10:57,567
- - Oh, yeah?
- - Yeah.
- 136
- 00:10:57,657 --> 00:10:58,693
- - Sorry about that.
- - Yeah.
- 137
- 00:10:58,783 --> 00:11:00,365
- I draw these for a living, but, you know,
- 138
- 00:11:00,451 --> 00:11:02,283
- people get mad at me
- 'cause of the subject matter.
- 139
- 00:11:02,370 --> 00:11:04,032
- - Not us.
- - That's ridiculous.
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- 00:11:04,122 --> 00:11:05,658
- - These are awesome.
- - All right. Cool.
- 141
- 00:11:05,748 --> 00:11:07,410
- - Is that a car crash?
- - Yeah.
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- 00:11:07,500 --> 00:11:08,786
- - What is that?
- - There's, like, a dead guy
- 143
- 00:11:08,877 --> 00:11:10,368
- - under the car.
- - Are those all booze and stuff?
- 144
- 00:11:10,461 --> 00:11:11,417
- Whoa.
- 145
- 00:11:11,504 --> 00:11:13,996
- There's a five-dollar bill
- in my left shirt pocket.
- 146
- 00:11:14,090 --> 00:11:15,422
- Go get me a short case.
- 147
- 00:11:33,818 --> 00:11:37,061
- Oh, they could do it
- and they'll do it over there!
- 148
- 00:11:44,829 --> 00:11:45,945
- Hey, Snickers.
- 149
- 00:11:46,497 --> 00:11:47,453
- How was your day?
- 150
- 00:11:48,291 --> 00:11:50,157
- Did you find any time
- to get in some exercise?
- 151
- 00:11:58,009 --> 00:12:00,422
- You fucking asshole!
- 152
- 00:12:00,887 --> 00:12:03,721
- You're fucking late!
- I've been sitting here all goddamn day!
- 153
- 00:12:03,806 --> 00:12:05,468
- It's been fucking wet!
- 154
- 00:12:05,558 --> 00:12:08,392
- I got shit all over my pants
- and there's no fucking drinks!
- 155
- 00:12:08,478 --> 00:12:10,435
- You didn't leave me a goddamn fucking drink!
- 156
- 00:12:10,521 --> 00:12:11,807
- It's been three fucking hours!
- 157
- 00:12:11,898 --> 00:12:13,890
- What do you actually fucking do?
- 158
- 00:12:13,983 --> 00:12:16,817
- I signed up to be your attendant,
- not your slave.
- 159
- 00:12:17,612 --> 00:12:20,650
- Bossing me around, you fucking
- don't even give me five seconds
- 160
- 00:12:20,740 --> 00:12:22,402
- before you're telling me what to do.
- 161
- 00:12:22,492 --> 00:12:25,030
- I told you I fucking hate it
- when you give me orders.
- 162
- 00:12:25,119 --> 00:12:26,951
- I'm gonna get to it
- when I feel like it, John.
- 163
- 00:12:27,372 --> 00:12:30,740
- All right? How would you like it
- if I started pushing you around all day?
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- 00:12:34,796 --> 00:12:36,003
- I'll give you a bath in a minute.
- 165
- 00:12:36,756 --> 00:12:38,793
- I need to wind down. Here you go.
- 166
- 00:12:39,717 --> 00:12:41,083
- Celebrate your independence.
- 167
- 00:12:54,232 --> 00:12:56,098
- <i>President Carter's standing</i>
- 168
- 00:12:56,192 --> 00:13:00,027
- <i>in our NBC News Associated Press poll
- has declined again.</i>
- 169
- 00:13:00,113 --> 00:13:03,072
- <i>Not much, but the decline has been steady.</i>
- 170
- 00:13:03,157 --> 00:13:05,774
- <i>This is one of the findings
- in our latest telephone sample</i>
- 171
- 00:13:05,868 --> 00:13:09,532
- <i>of the opinions of about 1,600 people
- around the country last week.</i>
- 172
- 00:13:27,932 --> 00:13:30,219
- <i>I drink, I hit rock bottom.</i>
- 173
- 00:13:31,686 --> 00:13:34,474
- <i>And I'd drink more and hit rock bottom again.</i>
- 174
- 00:13:35,648 --> 00:13:38,937
- <i>I had to admit to myself
- that I was powerless over alcohol.</i>
- 175
- 00:13:39,777 --> 00:13:41,484
- <i>I was searching for something else.</i>
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- 00:13:42,280 --> 00:13:44,192
- You sure you want to go
- to an AA meeting, John?
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- 00:13:45,199 --> 00:13:46,906
- I've never really believed
- in their whole thing.
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- 00:14:05,928 --> 00:14:07,044
- Oh, I'm sorry,
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- 00:14:07,597 --> 00:14:10,385
- but, uh, we can't have anybody
- quite this grotesque in here.
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- 00:14:12,310 --> 00:14:14,472
- For the love of God, I'm Reba.
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- 00:14:14,562 --> 00:14:16,724
- Oh, hi. I'm John.
- 182
- 00:14:16,814 --> 00:14:18,851
- Welcome to the Alano Club.
- 183
- 00:14:20,735 --> 00:14:22,442
- I thought you were serious.
- 184
- 00:14:22,528 --> 00:14:24,565
- No dogs, no quads.
- 185
- 00:14:24,655 --> 00:14:26,317
- No. Come on, now.
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- 00:14:35,458 --> 00:14:36,949
- God, grant me the serenity...
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- 00:14:37,043 --> 00:14:40,753
- ...serenity to accept the things
- I cannot change,
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- 00:14:40,838 --> 00:14:43,501
- the courage to change the things I can,
- 189
- 00:14:43,591 --> 00:14:45,924
- and the wisdom to know the difference.
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- 00:14:47,387 --> 00:14:48,798
- Anyone under 90 days?
- 191
- 00:14:51,391 --> 00:14:54,350
- Hi, I'm Felix, and I'm an alcoholic.
- 192
- 00:14:54,435 --> 00:14:56,392
- Hi, Felix.
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- 00:14:56,479 --> 00:14:58,471
- - Hi, guys. Uh...
- - Welcome.
- 194
- 00:14:58,564 --> 00:15:00,430
- This is day 14.
- 195
- 00:15:00,525 --> 00:15:01,436
- Good job.
- 196
- 00:15:06,364 --> 00:15:09,823
- Uh, hi. I'm Joseph. I'm an alcoholic.
- 197
- 00:15:09,909 --> 00:15:11,571
- Hi, Joseph.
- 198
- 00:15:11,994 --> 00:15:13,826
- Today, I have 56 days.
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- 00:15:13,913 --> 00:15:16,246
- Awesome.
- 200
- 00:15:18,334 --> 00:15:20,826
- It's tough, 'cause, you know, out there,
- 201
- 00:15:21,295 --> 00:15:24,663
- I feel like people want to hear
- how many years you've been sober.
- 202
- 00:15:24,757 --> 00:15:27,044
- But, uh, you know, coming here,
- 203
- 00:15:27,135 --> 00:15:30,549
- I'm reminded how special it is
- that I'm where I'm at, so...
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- 00:15:30,972 --> 00:15:33,464
- I remember a time when I didn't
- think 30 days was possible,
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- 00:15:33,558 --> 00:15:36,801
- but here I am, so... thank you.
- 206
- 00:15:42,650 --> 00:15:44,391
- Anyone else want to speak?
- 207
- 00:15:45,069 --> 00:15:47,436
- My name's John Callahan,
- and I don't know who my real mother is,
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- 00:15:47,530 --> 00:15:49,237
- and I was paralyzed in a car accident.
- 209
- 00:15:53,161 --> 00:15:54,197
- And...
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- 00:15:55,538 --> 00:15:57,074
- and I'm an alcoholic.
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- 00:15:57,790 --> 00:15:59,656
- Hi, John.
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- 00:15:59,959 --> 00:16:01,951
- Good to know you, John Callahan,
- 213
- 00:16:02,044 --> 00:16:03,376
- who is an alcoholic.
- 214
- 00:16:04,213 --> 00:16:06,079
- You're in the right place, I think.
- 215
- 00:16:07,508 --> 00:16:09,545
- I'm Donnie, and I'm an alcoholic.
- 216
- 00:16:09,635 --> 00:16:11,171
- Hi, Donnie.
- 217
- 00:16:11,262 --> 00:16:13,174
- Hi.
- 218
- 00:16:13,264 --> 00:16:16,098
- And when I first entered the program,
- 219
- 00:16:16,184 --> 00:16:19,518
- I had two pairs of pants,
- 220
- 00:16:20,104 --> 00:16:22,221
- one with shit in them and one without.
- 221
- 00:16:23,983 --> 00:16:27,602
- And I didn't care which one
- of them I was wearing.
- 222
- 00:16:30,323 --> 00:16:33,236
- Today, I celebrate mediocrity.
- 223
- 00:16:34,494 --> 00:16:38,329
- I woke up and I put on
- a non-shitty pair of pants.
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- 00:16:38,414 --> 00:16:41,748
- And I walked to get a cup of coffee,
- 225
- 00:16:41,834 --> 00:16:44,076
- and it was fucking delicious.
- 226
- 00:16:44,170 --> 00:16:47,709
- And my day's been pretty good,
- 227
- 00:16:47,798 --> 00:16:50,336
- until I came in here and saw all of you.
- 228
- 00:16:52,762 --> 00:16:54,344
- Continue your story, John.
- 229
- 00:16:56,057 --> 00:16:57,093
- Oh, right.
- 230
- 00:16:57,850 --> 00:17:00,183
- The story. Um...
- 231
- 00:17:01,020 --> 00:17:03,728
- Well, I got back to the house around 4:00,
- 232
- 00:17:04,774 --> 00:17:08,267
- <i>and saw Jesus Alvarado, my...</i>
- 233
- 00:17:09,278 --> 00:17:10,314
- <i>employer.</i>
- 234
- 00:17:17,578 --> 00:17:18,864
- Shit.
- 235
- 00:17:18,955 --> 00:17:20,321
- John, what's up?
- 236
- 00:17:23,751 --> 00:17:24,832
- I want you to meet Bill.
- 237
- 00:17:26,629 --> 00:17:27,460
- - Hey.
- - Hey.
- 238
- 00:17:27,547 --> 00:17:31,086
- My small-town experience was...
- 239
- 00:17:32,426 --> 00:17:35,089
- limited concerning disability.
- 240
- 00:17:35,179 --> 00:17:36,761
- - How you doing? John.
- - Good, good.
- 241
- 00:17:37,390 --> 00:17:39,632
- <i>Jesus wanted me</i> <i>to look at the guy's pen.</i>
- 242
- 00:17:42,186 --> 00:17:43,142
- Check that out.
- 243
- 00:17:44,355 --> 00:17:45,721
- Got to turn it upside down.
- 244
- 00:17:50,695 --> 00:17:53,108
- Uh, I went inside for a drink.
- 245
- 00:17:55,491 --> 00:17:57,357
- I'm coming back for events.
- 246
- 00:17:57,451 --> 00:17:59,317
- - Oh, my God, I've lost it.
- - Ah! Yes!
- 247
- 00:17:59,412 --> 00:18:00,778
- - What's going on?
- - I've lost the touch.
- 248
- 00:18:00,871 --> 00:18:01,907
- - My shoe!
- - Hi, John.
- 249
- 00:18:01,998 --> 00:18:03,705
- - This is Bonnie.
- - Oh, hi.
- 250
- 00:18:03,791 --> 00:18:05,373
- I hear you're from, um, Oregon.
- 251
- 00:18:05,459 --> 00:18:06,290
- That's right.
- 252
- 00:18:06,377 --> 00:18:07,743
- What do you guys do up there for fun?
- 253
- 00:18:07,837 --> 00:18:09,544
- Well, there's not a lot to do in Oregon,
- you know?
- 254
- 00:18:09,630 --> 00:18:11,872
- So a certain percentage of the population
- drives down here
- 255
- 00:18:11,966 --> 00:18:13,798
- to Long Beach to look for jobs.
- 256
- 00:18:13,884 --> 00:18:16,251
- We are going to a party tonight,
- if you want to come.
- 257
- 00:18:16,345 --> 00:18:17,256
- Oh, really?
- 258
- 00:18:17,597 --> 00:18:18,428
- - Uh-huh.
- - Yeah.
- 259
- 00:18:18,514 --> 00:18:19,880
- - Well...
- - Want to drive us there?
- 260
- 00:18:19,974 --> 00:18:22,136
- - I mean, I... Ooh.
- - Oh.
- 261
- 00:18:25,688 --> 00:18:26,519
- Oh.
- 262
- 00:18:26,606 --> 00:18:28,268
- We're...
- 263
- 00:18:28,899 --> 00:18:30,731
- We're getting in trouble tonight.
- 264
- 00:18:31,110 --> 00:18:32,226
- Am I happy?
- 265
- 00:18:32,820 --> 00:18:34,231
- No. So...
- 266
- 00:18:34,322 --> 00:18:36,609
- Divorced? Yeah.
- 267
- 00:18:36,699 --> 00:18:38,281
- I'm seeing a couple guys now.
- 268
- 00:18:38,367 --> 00:18:40,575
- I've been going to therapy.
- Have you ever gone?
- 269
- 00:18:41,162 --> 00:18:43,074
- It'd be so good for you.
- 270
- 00:18:43,164 --> 00:18:44,780
- Just gotten off meat.
- 271
- 00:18:44,874 --> 00:18:46,331
- Been kicking dairy.
- 272
- 00:18:46,417 --> 00:18:49,626
- I'm gonna do life without eggs now.
- 273
- 00:18:49,712 --> 00:18:52,955
- Hey, um, I just need to use
- the bathroom really quick.
- 274
- 00:18:53,049 --> 00:18:55,041
- - Will you... will you be here?
- - Uh, yeah. Okay.
- 275
- 00:19:18,032 --> 00:19:20,524
- Hey, Terry, where's that girl
- I was just talking to?
- 276
- 00:19:20,618 --> 00:19:22,905
- - Um, the redhead girl?
- - Yeah.
- 277
- 00:19:22,995 --> 00:19:25,328
- I think she just left with some friends.
- 278
- 00:19:25,414 --> 00:19:26,530
- - She left the party?
- - Mm-hmm.
- 279
- 00:19:26,624 --> 00:19:28,957
- Well, good for her.
- 280
- 00:19:29,043 --> 00:19:30,659
- - You guys are still here.
- - She got places to be.
- 281
- 00:19:30,753 --> 00:19:31,664
- - You're stuck with us.
- - Yeah.
- 282
- 00:19:31,754 --> 00:19:35,247
- - Nah.
- - Far fucking out. Dexter.
- 283
- 00:19:35,341 --> 00:19:37,674
- I'm Dexter. Hey. I'm Dexter.
- 284
- 00:19:38,719 --> 00:19:39,675
- John.
- 285
- 00:19:40,096 --> 00:19:41,177
- - John.
- - Yeah.
- 286
- 00:19:41,263 --> 00:19:42,253
- How 'bout that girl?
- 287
- 00:19:43,307 --> 00:19:45,390
- Ho, ho, ho, ho, ho, ho.
- 288
- 00:19:46,060 --> 00:19:47,267
- She left.
- 289
- 00:19:47,812 --> 00:19:50,020
- - She was digging you, man.
- - Yeah.
- 290
- 00:19:50,106 --> 00:19:51,813
- Yeah. Take you home,
- 291
- 00:19:52,233 --> 00:19:55,021
- have a little sophisticated LA sex.
- 292
- 00:19:56,195 --> 00:19:58,562
- No, all she wanted to do
- was talk about her colon.
- 293
- 00:19:58,656 --> 00:20:02,821
- That's what all people in LA talk about,
- their colons.
- 294
- 00:20:02,910 --> 00:20:04,867
- And that's 'cause they're all assholes.
- 295
- 00:20:04,954 --> 00:20:07,116
- Yes. Where are you from?
- 296
- 00:20:07,206 --> 00:20:10,620
- - I'm not from here...
- - Ah, shit. Turn that shit off, man!
- 297
- 00:20:11,168 --> 00:20:12,875
- - Making me sick!
- - What are you talking about?
- 298
- 00:20:12,962 --> 00:20:14,419
- - Too much Dylan!
- - Too much Dylan?
- 299
- 00:20:14,505 --> 00:20:16,462
- - You don't know what you're talking about.
- - The answer, my friend
- 300
- 00:20:16,549 --> 00:20:17,585
- - is blowin' in the wind.
- - He's a poet!
- 301
- 00:20:17,675 --> 00:20:20,543
- The answer, my friend, is getting blown
- 302
- 00:20:20,636 --> 00:20:22,172
- - in the wind.
- - You sound like an idiot.
- 303
- 00:20:22,263 --> 00:20:24,471
- - What are you...
- - The answer's getting blown
- 304
- 00:20:24,557 --> 00:20:26,890
- in the wind.
- 305
- 00:20:26,976 --> 00:20:28,467
- Guy's getting blown,
- 306
- 00:20:28,561 --> 00:20:30,052
- and he's whining about it!
- 307
- 00:20:30,146 --> 00:20:32,513
- He's not talking about getting blown.
- 308
- 00:20:32,606 --> 00:20:34,347
- Getting blown in the wind,
- 309
- 00:20:34,442 --> 00:20:36,729
- - you fucking moron!
- - I know!
- 310
- 00:20:37,194 --> 00:20:39,026
- I was fucking with you!
- 311
- 00:20:41,615 --> 00:20:42,776
- You think I don't know?
- 312
- 00:20:42,867 --> 00:20:44,654
- Johnny, Johnny,
- 313
- 00:20:44,744 --> 00:20:47,031
- listen to me, listen to me.
- 314
- 00:20:47,121 --> 00:20:48,032
- Seriously.
- 315
- 00:20:48,748 --> 00:20:51,616
- I know a party that's ten times
- better than this shit-bag.
- 316
- 00:20:52,251 --> 00:20:55,244
- Let's go there now.
- There's ten times hotter babes.
- 317
- 00:20:56,213 --> 00:20:59,547
- We plow the Milagro Beanfield.
- 318
- 00:21:01,302 --> 00:21:04,420
- Huh? You and me. Come on.
- 319
- 00:21:04,513 --> 00:21:06,175
- What a promise.
- 320
- 00:21:08,809 --> 00:21:10,345
- I guess we thought that
- 321
- 00:21:11,228 --> 00:21:14,892
- "the babes"
- were fairer on the other side of town.
- 322
- 00:21:16,650 --> 00:21:21,395
- So I left Terry and her friends,
- and we headed to the next party.
- 323
- 00:21:22,406 --> 00:21:25,990
- But not before we got even more wasted.
- 324
- 00:21:26,076 --> 00:21:27,942
- Hey. Clink it.
- 325
- 00:21:31,791 --> 00:21:33,032
- Keep 'em comin', bro!
- 326
- 00:21:34,460 --> 00:21:35,701
- Oh.
- 327
- 00:21:37,797 --> 00:21:40,005
- Some people tell me I look like
- Burt Reynolds.
- 328
- 00:21:40,090 --> 00:21:41,171
- I don't see it.
- 329
- 00:21:41,967 --> 00:21:42,923
- Do you see it?
- 330
- 00:21:43,552 --> 00:21:45,839
- - Yeah. I do.
- - Thank you.
- 331
- 00:21:45,930 --> 00:21:47,796
- - You're a sexy man.
- - Thank you, man!
- 332
- 00:21:47,890 --> 00:21:50,223
- You're a sexy man.
- 333
- 00:21:50,810 --> 00:21:52,597
- Can you keep 'em comin'?
- I don't want to say it.
- 334
- 00:21:56,190 --> 00:21:58,853
- I know you got a lot of people
- up and down to take care of,
- 335
- 00:21:58,943 --> 00:22:01,185
- but 'member who the main customer...
- 336
- 00:22:01,278 --> 00:22:03,110
- How 'bout the whole bottle?
- 337
- 00:22:03,197 --> 00:22:04,187
- How 'bout the whole bottle?
- 338
- 00:22:05,157 --> 00:22:06,273
- How 'bout the whole bottle?
- 339
- 00:22:07,326 --> 00:22:08,567
- Is that good enough?
- 340
- 00:22:09,453 --> 00:22:11,570
- - Hey. Don't get sad.
- - No.
- 341
- 00:22:11,664 --> 00:22:12,825
- There's so many more.
- 342
- 00:22:16,210 --> 00:22:18,668
- Keep 'em comin', bro. We talked about this.
- 343
- 00:22:23,551 --> 00:22:24,541
- Take the wheel.
- 344
- 00:22:27,721 --> 00:22:28,632
- I'm back.
- 345
- 00:22:29,932 --> 00:22:31,389
- Wash it down?
- 346
- 00:22:36,438 --> 00:22:38,430
- Guess who you're driving with.
- 347
- 00:22:38,774 --> 00:22:42,142
- I'm the cunnilingus king
- of Orange County, man.
- 348
- 00:22:43,070 --> 00:22:45,153
- I just love yodeling into it.
- 349
- 00:22:48,868 --> 00:22:51,906
- Oh, shit! That's Scott's Adventure Land!
- 350
- 00:22:51,996 --> 00:22:53,328
- That's Scott's Adventure Land!
- 351
- 00:22:53,414 --> 00:22:55,701
- What's Scott's Adventure Land?
- 352
- 00:22:55,791 --> 00:22:58,750
- You never been to Scott's Adventure Land?
- I never been to... Let's go there.
- 353
- 00:22:58,836 --> 00:23:00,293
- Make a U-turn.
- 354
- 00:23:00,379 --> 00:23:01,961
- Just fucking jump over the wall, man.
- 355
- 00:23:20,149 --> 00:23:23,062
- Oh, yeah. Oh, God.
- 356
- 00:23:26,989 --> 00:23:28,105
- Draw!
- 357
- 00:23:30,284 --> 00:23:31,320
- Oh, really?
- 358
- 00:23:31,410 --> 00:23:32,617
- Don't be a fool, brother.
- 359
- 00:23:32,703 --> 00:23:35,491
- You just tussled with the wrong cowboy.
- 360
- 00:23:39,001 --> 00:23:40,537
- You son of a...
- 361
- 00:23:41,503 --> 00:23:43,415
- No!
- 362
- 00:23:44,089 --> 00:23:45,000
- No!
- 363
- 00:23:55,559 --> 00:23:57,767
- - My car, I drive.
- - You're in no condition to drive, friend.
- 364
- 00:23:57,853 --> 00:23:59,640
- - My car, I drive.
- - I'm gonna take the fucking keys.
- 365
- 00:23:59,730 --> 00:24:02,188
- - Hey. Hey.
- - I'm gonna take the fucking keys.
- 366
- 00:24:02,274 --> 00:24:03,981
- - You guys are in no condition to drive!
- - Aah!
- 367
- 00:24:21,627 --> 00:24:23,289
- Babes.
- 368
- 00:24:43,399 --> 00:24:44,515
- <i>And that was it.</i>
- 369
- 00:24:46,110 --> 00:24:49,899
- <i>Dexter had mistaken
- a Con Edison light pole for an exit</i>
- 370
- 00:24:49,989 --> 00:24:52,527
- and slammed into it at 90 miles an hour.
- 371
- 00:25:09,675 --> 00:25:11,416
- Let me know when you're ready. I think...
- 372
- 00:25:12,261 --> 00:25:14,674
- On three. One, two, three.
- 373
- 00:25:20,769 --> 00:25:22,761
- Hello, John. I'm Dr. Mirione.
- 374
- 00:25:26,108 --> 00:25:27,895
- Bright, bright lights.
- 375
- 00:25:28,235 --> 00:25:29,646
- Surprisingly noisy, isn't it?
- 376
- 00:25:30,070 --> 00:25:33,939
- Well, there's very little peace and quiet
- for the dying and nearly dying.
- 377
- 00:25:34,450 --> 00:25:35,566
- I'm dying?
- 378
- 00:25:36,285 --> 00:25:39,323
- The average survival time for
- catastrophic patients here is 12 hours.
- 379
- 00:25:40,497 --> 00:25:42,739
- Nasty accident you had in that Volkswagen.
- 380
- 00:25:42,833 --> 00:25:43,949
- I saw the car.
- 381
- 00:25:44,835 --> 00:25:47,077
- Looks terrible. Looked terrible.
- 382
- 00:25:50,090 --> 00:25:51,501
- I can't hear you. Talk louder.
- 383
- 00:25:52,468 --> 00:25:54,551
- What happened to the driver?
- 384
- 00:25:54,636 --> 00:25:56,252
- What happened to Dexter?
- 385
- 00:25:56,346 --> 00:25:57,712
- Oh, Dexter Marzynski?
- 386
- 00:25:58,098 --> 00:25:59,589
- He walked away with a few scratches.
- 387
- 00:25:59,892 --> 00:26:01,053
- He was very, very lucky.
- 388
- 00:26:03,854 --> 00:26:04,935
- Jesus Christ.
- 389
- 00:26:05,439 --> 00:26:06,646
- My heart really goes out to you.
- 390
- 00:26:06,732 --> 00:26:09,270
- I mean, possibly paralyzed for life.
- 391
- 00:26:11,320 --> 00:26:12,401
- Nice sunrise, though.
- 392
- 00:26:19,411 --> 00:26:22,154
- <i>Susan Henry</i> <i>to the nurses' station.</i>
- 393
- 00:27:15,717 --> 00:27:16,628
- Okay.
- 394
- 00:27:18,095 --> 00:27:19,631
- Let's see here.
- 395
- 00:27:21,849 --> 00:27:24,762
- This is a C5, C6,
- 396
- 00:27:24,852 --> 00:27:28,095
- which is a complete cervical six lesion.
- 397
- 00:27:28,188 --> 00:27:29,929
- Uh, good shoulder movement.
- 398
- 00:27:30,023 --> 00:27:32,936
- Uh, complete paralysis of the body and legs.
- 399
- 00:27:33,026 --> 00:27:35,018
- No finger movement, but good, uh...
- 400
- 00:27:35,112 --> 00:27:36,899
- I'm not an impostor.
- 401
- 00:27:36,989 --> 00:27:39,652
- - I'm a real quadriplegic.
- - Spinal cord severed
- 402
- 00:27:39,741 --> 00:27:42,905
- between the fifth and sixth vertebrae,
- counting down from the top.
- 403
- 00:27:42,995 --> 00:27:46,534
- Somewhere between decathlon champion
- and rigor mortis.
- 404
- 00:27:46,623 --> 00:27:49,081
- ...half his deltoid, half his, uh, diaphragm.
- 405
- 00:27:49,168 --> 00:27:52,661
- But if he's not careful,
- he can choke to death. Yeah.
- 406
- 00:27:52,754 --> 00:27:58,000
- Uh, this patient over here is
- a C4-5 neurologically intact.
- 407
- 00:27:58,635 --> 00:28:01,127
- Uh, a tibia plateau fracture.
- 408
- 00:28:01,597 --> 00:28:03,338
- Not as catastrophic an injury.
- 409
- 00:28:16,612 --> 00:28:17,773
- Hi, John.
- 410
- 00:28:18,572 --> 00:28:19,562
- My name is Annu.
- 411
- 00:28:21,825 --> 00:28:24,283
- Wow. You're very good-looking.
- 412
- 00:28:34,379 --> 00:28:35,915
- How are things going here, John?
- 413
- 00:28:37,549 --> 00:28:38,710
- It's bad.
- 414
- 00:28:40,594 --> 00:28:41,880
- It's really bad.
- 415
- 00:28:43,722 --> 00:28:45,133
- I can't move.
- 416
- 00:28:45,224 --> 00:28:48,843
- I can't feel my body, and where I can,
- it just hurts.
- 417
- 00:28:50,479 --> 00:28:52,471
- I can't take a whiz or anything.
- 418
- 00:28:52,564 --> 00:28:55,056
- I just feel like I'm going fucking crazy.
- 419
- 00:28:55,150 --> 00:28:56,231
- Yeah.
- 420
- 00:28:56,318 --> 00:28:58,401
- Yeah, it doesn't sound
- like it's going too well.
- 421
- 00:28:59,154 --> 00:29:01,817
- No, it doesn't.
- 422
- 00:29:02,532 --> 00:29:06,025
- It's awful. I just don't even know
- how I'm gonna, like...
- 423
- 00:29:08,163 --> 00:29:10,951
- I don't know how I can live
- any life after this.
- 424
- 00:29:11,041 --> 00:29:13,875
- I just feel like
- I'm not gonna have any future.
- 425
- 00:29:14,544 --> 00:29:16,627
- And the doctors don't tell me anything,
- 426
- 00:29:16,713 --> 00:29:20,753
- but it looks like I'm just
- gonna be like this for life.
- 427
- 00:29:20,842 --> 00:29:22,879
- I can't understand this.
- 428
- 00:29:22,970 --> 00:29:24,836
- Doesn't seem fair.
- 429
- 00:29:24,930 --> 00:29:28,173
- John, you're a very special person.
- 430
- 00:29:29,059 --> 00:29:29,970
- I feel it.
- 431
- 00:29:32,312 --> 00:29:35,020
- I brought you some flowers.
- I hope you like them.
- 432
- 00:29:35,983 --> 00:29:36,939
- Thank you.
- 433
- 00:29:38,110 --> 00:29:39,442
- Can I smell them?
- 434
- 00:29:44,533 --> 00:29:46,274
- That's nice. Thank you.
- 435
- 00:29:46,368 --> 00:29:48,360
- Would you like me to rub your shoulders?
- 436
- 00:29:49,705 --> 00:29:51,662
- Yes, please.
- 437
- 00:29:52,582 --> 00:29:55,450
- It was a lovely day out. Very hot.
- 438
- 00:29:55,877 --> 00:29:57,334
- Drove here in my convertible.
- 439
- 00:29:58,463 --> 00:30:00,546
- Do you really think I'm good-looking?
- 440
- 00:30:01,550 --> 00:30:04,008
- Yes, you're very good-looking.
- That hasn't changed.
- 441
- 00:30:04,553 --> 00:30:06,010
- And you have tremendous strength.
- 442
- 00:30:06,430 --> 00:30:08,422
- You'll go on to have
- a wonderful life. I can tell.
- 443
- 00:30:09,349 --> 00:30:11,011
- I pray that I will.
- 444
- 00:30:13,395 --> 00:30:15,728
- I make prayers to God, you know.
- 445
- 00:30:16,440 --> 00:30:18,682
- I remember all the promises to God
- 446
- 00:30:18,775 --> 00:30:23,270
- and pacts with the devil
- made by characters in Dickens
- 447
- 00:30:23,363 --> 00:30:26,527
- or, like, <i>Rosemary's Baby,</i>
- 448
- 00:30:27,576 --> 00:30:30,489
- to, you know, like,
- change history and make things better
- 449
- 00:30:30,579 --> 00:30:32,662
- or escape horrible fates.
- 450
- 00:30:33,081 --> 00:30:34,538
- And what do you say to God?
- 451
- 00:30:36,668 --> 00:30:39,251
- I say, "Please, don't let me be paralyzed."
- 452
- 00:30:40,172 --> 00:30:42,164
- I just can't be paralyzed.
- 453
- 00:30:42,674 --> 00:30:44,540
- Things work out for John Callahan.
- 454
- 00:30:44,634 --> 00:30:46,921
- I'm just not one of the ones
- who ends up paralyzed.
- 455
- 00:30:47,012 --> 00:30:48,219
- I just can't be.
- 456
- 00:30:51,016 --> 00:30:53,258
- And what about when you're
- talking to the devil, John?
- 457
- 00:30:56,146 --> 00:30:58,012
- I say, "I'll give you anything.
- 458
- 00:30:59,441 --> 00:31:02,559
- Anything you want, just change this."
- 459
- 00:31:03,862 --> 00:31:05,228
- And you're from Oregon?
- 460
- 00:31:06,281 --> 00:31:07,192
- That's your home?
- 461
- 00:31:08,033 --> 00:31:08,944
- Yes.
- 462
- 00:31:09,743 --> 00:31:11,325
- Yes. The...
- 463
- 00:31:13,205 --> 00:31:14,696
- The Dalles.
- 464
- 00:31:22,506 --> 00:31:24,122
- It's sort of a hick town.
- 465
- 00:31:28,720 --> 00:31:30,837
- We're a bunch of gomers.
- 466
- 00:31:30,931 --> 00:31:34,049
- Gomers? What is "gomers"?
- 467
- 00:31:35,268 --> 00:31:37,760
- I like how you say it. "Gomers."
- 468
- 00:31:39,356 --> 00:31:41,439
- I don't know. I think it just...
- 469
- 00:31:42,150 --> 00:31:44,608
- you know, it, like,
- means you're from the country.
- 470
- 00:31:44,694 --> 00:31:45,935
- It's derogatory.
- 471
- 00:31:46,029 --> 00:31:46,985
- Ah.
- 472
- 00:31:48,240 --> 00:31:49,447
- Where are you from?
- 473
- 00:31:49,533 --> 00:31:50,523
- From Stockholm.
- 474
- 00:31:51,493 --> 00:31:53,576
- There's a lot of fishing there,
- lots of salmon.
- 475
- 00:31:53,662 --> 00:31:55,198
- Oh, same with The Dalles.
- 476
- 00:31:57,624 --> 00:31:59,832
- - Yeah?
- - Yeah, lots of salmon.
- 477
- 00:32:00,335 --> 00:32:01,951
- Now we have something in common.
- 478
- 00:32:02,045 --> 00:32:04,037
- I think we have a lot in common, John.
- 479
- 00:32:05,006 --> 00:32:06,793
- Yeah. Salmon.
- 480
- 00:32:06,883 --> 00:32:08,715
- And we're both gomers.
- 481
- 00:32:10,470 --> 00:32:11,802
- And what else, John?
- 482
- 00:32:11,888 --> 00:32:13,971
- I look at the sunrise.
- 483
- 00:32:15,725 --> 00:32:17,637
- - The sunrise is nice.
- - Mm-hmm.
- 484
- 00:32:18,061 --> 00:32:19,552
- It's very calming.
- 485
- 00:32:20,856 --> 00:32:23,018
- I've been watching the gymnasts out there.
- 486
- 00:32:37,247 --> 00:32:39,364
- I have to go to my next
- appointment now, John.
- 487
- 00:32:39,916 --> 00:32:41,373
- But I'll be seeing you again soon.
- 488
- 00:32:41,460 --> 00:32:43,668
- - When?
- - One day next week.
- 489
- 00:32:45,839 --> 00:32:47,671
- Very nice to meet you, John.
- 490
- 00:32:47,757 --> 00:32:49,714
- I liked meeting you, too, Annu.
- 491
- 00:32:50,218 --> 00:32:52,756
- Thank you. Thank you for my flowers.
- 492
- 00:32:53,305 --> 00:32:54,295
- See you soon.
- 493
- 00:32:56,266 --> 00:32:57,302
- Bye.
- 494
- 00:33:04,566 --> 00:33:05,932
- I'm glad I met Annu.
- 495
- 00:33:06,651 --> 00:33:09,519
- What about us, John?
- Aren't you glad you met us?
- 496
- 00:33:09,613 --> 00:33:10,694
- John doesn't like us.
- 497
- 00:33:10,780 --> 00:33:12,021
- Well, of course I like you.
- 498
- 00:33:12,532 --> 00:33:14,774
- I just can't get laid with any of you.
- 499
- 00:33:14,868 --> 00:33:16,905
- Have you tried?
- 500
- 00:33:20,248 --> 00:33:21,489
- Well, have you tried?
- 501
- 00:33:23,001 --> 00:33:25,539
- One, two and three.
- 502
- 00:33:25,629 --> 00:33:26,790
- Here we go.
- 503
- 00:33:26,880 --> 00:33:27,791
- All right.
- 504
- 00:33:28,298 --> 00:33:30,335
- Adjust him on three.
- 505
- 00:33:30,425 --> 00:33:31,961
- One, two, three.
- 506
- 00:33:32,636 --> 00:33:34,252
- - There we go.
- - There you go.
- 507
- 00:33:34,346 --> 00:33:35,302
- All set.
- 508
- 00:33:39,684 --> 00:33:41,016
- That's the power button right here.
- 509
- 00:33:41,686 --> 00:33:42,676
- Enjoy.
- 510
- 00:34:13,677 --> 00:34:14,838
- Oh.
- 511
- 00:35:14,029 --> 00:35:14,940
- Oh.
- 512
- 00:35:17,657 --> 00:35:18,693
- Ah.
- 513
- 00:35:18,783 --> 00:35:20,149
- Ah, nice shot.
- 514
- 00:35:20,577 --> 00:35:22,819
- - Hey, man. How you doing?
- - Pretty good. How you doing?
- 515
- 00:35:22,912 --> 00:35:25,199
- Pretty good. We're just shooting some hoops.
- 516
- 00:35:25,290 --> 00:35:27,282
- Fucking "A." I'm John.
- 517
- 00:35:27,959 --> 00:35:30,576
- - Charles-Marie. Welcome.
- - Nice to meet you. Thanks.
- 518
- 00:35:41,931 --> 00:35:44,218
- <i>Sexual activity</i> <i>is an opportunity</i>
- 519
- 00:35:44,309 --> 00:35:46,346
- <i>to get to know yourself again.</i>
- 520
- 00:35:46,436 --> 00:35:49,053
- <i>It's an opportunity to build confidence.</i>
- 521
- 00:35:49,147 --> 00:35:52,140
- After your accident, John,
- your body doesn't have
- 522
- 00:35:52,233 --> 00:35:54,190
- ordinary psychogenic erections anymore,
- 523
- 00:35:54,277 --> 00:35:57,065
- so you have to use reflexogenic erections.
- 524
- 00:35:57,906 --> 00:35:59,738
- Reflexogenic erections.
- 525
- 00:36:00,033 --> 00:36:01,149
- Sounds sexy.
- 526
- 00:36:01,785 --> 00:36:05,074
- So, how would I go about achieving that?
- 527
- 00:36:05,163 --> 00:36:07,029
- - Can you demonstrate?
- - Behave.
- 528
- 00:36:07,957 --> 00:36:10,449
- Have you thought about
- asking that little nurse of yours
- 529
- 00:36:10,543 --> 00:36:12,580
- to sit on your face some night, John?
- 530
- 00:36:13,213 --> 00:36:15,079
- Hey, Lilly, may I ask you a question?
- 531
- 00:36:15,674 --> 00:36:17,506
- Sure, yeah. Ask me anything.
- 532
- 00:36:18,426 --> 00:36:19,792
- Can you sit on my face?
- 533
- 00:36:21,888 --> 00:36:26,349
- That's a shocking yet wildly exciting idea.
- 534
- 00:36:27,018 --> 00:36:28,259
- But no. I mean...
- 535
- 00:36:28,687 --> 00:36:30,178
- Would that be appropriate?
- 536
- 00:36:30,271 --> 00:36:31,807
- Who cares if it's appropriate?
- 537
- 00:36:31,898 --> 00:36:33,105
- John.
- 538
- 00:36:33,525 --> 00:36:34,515
- You're thinking about it.
- 539
- 00:36:38,780 --> 00:36:40,942
- Good night.
- 540
- 00:36:44,703 --> 00:36:45,659
- Did you hear that?
- 541
- 00:36:46,079 --> 00:36:46,990
- You scored.
- 542
- 00:36:47,706 --> 00:36:48,696
- Not quite.
- 543
- 00:36:49,374 --> 00:36:50,364
- She'll be back.
- 544
- 00:36:50,834 --> 00:36:52,871
- My job's to get you the erection.
- 545
- 00:36:52,961 --> 00:36:54,202
- That's all I care about.
- 546
- 00:36:54,963 --> 00:36:57,000
- Worse she could say is no,
- and if she says no,
- 547
- 00:36:57,090 --> 00:36:58,581
- then you come back and ask me.
- 548
- 00:36:59,384 --> 00:37:00,374
- That's a deal.
- 549
- 00:37:00,844 --> 00:37:05,555
- Reflexogenic simply means
- that it has to be from the touch, okay?
- 550
- 00:37:05,640 --> 00:37:06,756
- If she sits there...
- 551
- 00:37:07,934 --> 00:37:13,555
- ...the touch will stimulate blood flow
- to here, hence causing an erection.
- 552
- 00:37:14,274 --> 00:37:15,230
- <i>Okay?</i>
- 553
- 00:37:18,778 --> 00:37:20,815
- - Really?
- - But you can't just think about it.
- 554
- 00:37:20,905 --> 00:37:22,897
- You can't just imagine it anymore.
- 555
- 00:37:32,667 --> 00:37:33,874
- - Are you feeling me?
- - Yeah.
- 556
- 00:37:33,960 --> 00:37:35,622
- That's where my dick used to be.
- 557
- 00:37:41,718 --> 00:37:44,005
- Pull it.
- I'm trying to get further and further.
- 558
- 00:37:45,221 --> 00:37:46,302
- And down.
- 559
- 00:37:46,389 --> 00:37:47,470
- Can you do it?
- 560
- 00:37:48,767 --> 00:37:51,100
- Annu, sometimes I just want to drink.
- 561
- 00:37:52,061 --> 00:37:55,771
- You know, it doesn't seem fair
- that we can't have a drink.
- 562
- 00:37:56,441 --> 00:37:59,775
- But, you know, we can go
- to Tiny's Tavern on the weekends
- 563
- 00:37:59,861 --> 00:38:01,773
- and drink as much as we want.
- 564
- 00:38:02,238 --> 00:38:05,231
- Might give it to us for free,
- you know, 'cause they feel bad for us.
- 565
- 00:38:05,325 --> 00:38:06,281
- You know, we milk it.
- 566
- 00:38:10,121 --> 00:38:12,078
- Oh, you're not gonna believe
- what happened the other night.
- 567
- 00:38:12,165 --> 00:38:15,203
- So, we're coming back from Tiny's Tavern,
- 568
- 00:38:15,293 --> 00:38:19,537
- me and Charles-Marie, and we're crossing
- the railroad tracks on our way back here.
- 569
- 00:38:21,216 --> 00:38:24,129
- And Charles-Marie's chair got stuck
- in the railroad tracks.
- 570
- 00:38:25,595 --> 00:38:26,927
- Shit!
- 571
- 00:38:29,641 --> 00:38:32,884
- And he said, "Let me die.
- 572
- 00:38:33,394 --> 00:38:35,556
- Let me die. It's better this way."
- 573
- 00:38:35,647 --> 00:38:37,934
- Just let me die! It's better this way!
- 574
- 00:38:38,024 --> 00:38:40,357
- Grab on to my chair. Grab on to my chair!
- 575
- 00:38:43,029 --> 00:38:45,271
- And you know what's funny?
- 576
- 00:38:45,782 --> 00:38:47,774
- He meant it.
- 577
- 00:38:48,701 --> 00:38:52,615
- I think, in that moment,
- he really wanted to die.
- 578
- 00:38:52,705 --> 00:38:54,492
- That's not very funny, John.
- 579
- 00:38:54,916 --> 00:38:56,157
- That sounds dangerous.
- 580
- 00:39:00,088 --> 00:39:01,875
- All in a day of being a quad.
- 581
- 00:39:14,811 --> 00:39:15,642
- Hello.
- 582
- 00:39:15,728 --> 00:39:17,435
- Hey, uh, is this Donnie?
- 583
- 00:39:17,522 --> 00:39:18,353
- Yeah, who's this?
- 584
- 00:39:18,439 --> 00:39:20,226
- <i>Hey, Donnie, this is John Callahan.</i>
- 585
- 00:39:20,316 --> 00:39:23,275
- I'm the neon cripple from outer space.
- 586
- 00:39:23,361 --> 00:39:25,193
- Oh, the man with the tangerine hair?
- 587
- 00:39:25,280 --> 00:39:28,114
- Well, I always thought
- of my hair as electric orange,
- 588
- 00:39:28,825 --> 00:39:31,158
- but, yeah, that's me. Uh...
- 589
- 00:39:31,244 --> 00:39:33,577
- <i>Look, I got your number off the board.</i>
- 590
- 00:39:33,663 --> 00:39:35,074
- <i>I'm calling because</i>
- 591
- 00:39:35,999 --> 00:39:38,286
- I need a sponsor.
- 592
- 00:39:38,751 --> 00:39:40,993
- I do have a lot of piglets at the moment.
- 593
- 00:39:41,087 --> 00:39:43,500
- <i>What are piglets? I need a sponsor.</i>
- 594
- 00:39:43,590 --> 00:39:45,206
- My sponsees are piglets.
- 595
- 00:39:46,217 --> 00:39:47,833
- That's funny.
- 596
- 00:39:47,927 --> 00:39:50,169
- - <i>Wow.</i>
- - You want me to help you get sober.
- 597
- 00:39:50,263 --> 00:39:52,801
- Well, I saw you speak, and, uh,
- 598
- 00:39:53,349 --> 00:39:55,215
- I really like what you had to say
- 599
- 00:39:55,310 --> 00:39:57,097
- <i>about the two pairs of pants
- and the woman's...</i>
- 600
- 00:39:57,186 --> 00:39:59,269
- See, John, I know. I just...
- 601
- 00:39:59,355 --> 00:40:00,721
- <i>And I don't know if you're serious.</i>
- 602
- 00:40:00,815 --> 00:40:01,896
- Oh, Jesus Christ.
- 603
- 00:40:01,983 --> 00:40:03,224
- Oh, I call him Chucky.
- 604
- 00:40:03,318 --> 00:40:04,229
- What?
- 605
- 00:40:04,819 --> 00:40:06,731
- <i>I don't know, John Callahan. I don't...</i>
- 606
- 00:40:06,821 --> 00:40:08,483
- I'm serious. I am serious.
- 607
- 00:40:08,573 --> 00:40:10,656
- I... You know, sometimes I just, I make jokes
- 608
- 00:40:10,742 --> 00:40:14,986
- 'cause I get nervous, but I'm,
- I need, I need something.
- 609
- 00:40:15,079 --> 00:40:16,741
- <i>You know...</i>
- 610
- 00:40:16,831 --> 00:40:21,451
- every day, like clockwork at 4:00 p.m.,
- 611
- 00:40:21,544 --> 00:40:24,082
- I get massively depressed.
- 612
- 00:40:24,172 --> 00:40:25,913
- <i>Well, I'm depressed
- from the moment I wake up,</i>
- 613
- 00:40:26,007 --> 00:40:28,545
- - so got you there.
- <i>- Listen.</i>
- 614
- 00:40:28,635 --> 00:40:31,969
- We're having a group talk,
- my place on Saturday.
- 615
- 00:40:32,055 --> 00:40:33,091
- <i>Why don't you drop by?</i>
- 616
- 00:40:33,181 --> 00:40:35,298
- Ooh, a talk?
- 617
- 00:40:35,391 --> 00:40:36,552
- <i>We'll talk about Chucky.</i>
- 618
- 00:40:36,643 --> 00:40:39,807
- The other piglets are coming by at 1:00.
- 4014 Northwest Johnson.
- 619
- 00:40:39,896 --> 00:40:41,478
- - <i>Don't be late.</i>
- - Tim.
- 620
- 00:40:41,564 --> 00:40:43,305
- 4014 Northwest Johnson.
- 621
- 00:40:43,399 --> 00:40:45,061
- - <i>1:00 p.m.</i>
- - Are you talking to me?
- 622
- 00:40:45,610 --> 00:40:47,442
- - All right, thank you. I'll see you then.
- - <i>Okay.</i>
- 623
- 00:40:47,528 --> 00:40:49,394
- Drink water. Bye.
- 624
- 00:40:53,117 --> 00:40:54,278
- 40... Wait, what was it?
- 625
- 00:40:54,369 --> 00:40:56,782
- - 4014 Southwest Johnson.
- - Okay.
- 626
- 00:40:56,871 --> 00:40:59,409
- Let's go.
- 627
- 00:40:59,499 --> 00:41:01,991
- Hey, Sam, get back and clean up this mess.
- 628
- 00:41:02,085 --> 00:41:04,168
- And get out of here and go grab some PT.
- 629
- 00:41:04,504 --> 00:41:05,915
- You grab some PT.
- 630
- 00:41:06,255 --> 00:41:07,666
- - Hi.
- - Oh.
- 631
- 00:41:07,757 --> 00:41:09,089
- - Oh, hi.
- - Oh, sorry.
- 632
- 00:41:09,175 --> 00:41:10,040
- - That's okay.
- - Hi.
- 633
- 00:41:10,134 --> 00:41:11,375
- Hi. I'm Debbie.
- 634
- 00:41:11,469 --> 00:41:13,210
- - Hi, I'm John.
- - Hi, what's up?
- 635
- 00:41:13,304 --> 00:41:16,138
- Um, I'm gonna go out to the park.
- Do you want to come with me?
- 636
- 00:41:16,224 --> 00:41:17,089
- Uh...
- 637
- 00:41:17,183 --> 00:41:19,220
- fuck, today is Monday...
- 638
- 00:41:20,186 --> 00:41:21,552
- - Fuck yeah.
- - Yes?
- 639
- 00:41:21,646 --> 00:41:23,603
- - Oh, yeah.
- - Thank you. Good, let's go.
- 640
- 00:41:23,690 --> 00:41:24,601
- Okay.
- 641
- 00:41:30,905 --> 00:41:33,192
- <i># We're gonna have a funky, good time... #</i>
- 642
- 00:41:33,282 --> 00:41:34,489
- You're good. You did it.
- 643
- 00:41:35,743 --> 00:41:37,780
- Not bad.
- 644
- 00:41:37,870 --> 00:41:40,738
- <i># We're gonna have a funky, good time #</i>
- 645
- 00:41:41,833 --> 00:41:44,166
- <i># We're gonna have a funky, good time #</i>
- 646
- 00:41:44,252 --> 00:41:45,413
- <i># Take 'em up #</i>
- 647
- 00:41:45,503 --> 00:41:46,664
- <i># We gotta take you #</i>
- 648
- 00:41:46,754 --> 00:41:51,044
- <i># Higher #</i>
- 649
- 00:41:52,552 --> 00:41:54,885
- <i># We gotta take you higher... #</i>
- 650
- 00:42:00,518 --> 00:42:02,350
- <i># We're gonna have a funky, good time... #</i>
- 651
- 00:42:02,437 --> 00:42:04,474
- Got it. Yeah.
- 652
- 00:42:04,564 --> 00:42:06,681
- <i># We're gonna have a funky, good time... #</i>
- 653
- 00:42:06,774 --> 00:42:08,481
- You got it. You got it.
- 654
- 00:42:08,568 --> 00:42:10,855
- - Hey, you're a good dancer.
- - Oh, well...
- 655
- 00:42:10,945 --> 00:42:11,901
- <i># Play it, Georgia #</i>
- 656
- 00:42:11,988 --> 00:42:14,105
- <i># We're gonna have a funky, good time #</i>
- 657
- 00:42:14,198 --> 00:42:15,530
- <i># Take 'em up #</i>
- 658
- 00:42:15,616 --> 00:42:20,736
- <i># We gotta take you higher #</i>
- 659
- 00:42:23,207 --> 00:42:28,419
- <i># We gotta take you higher #</i>
- 660
- 00:42:35,178 --> 00:42:36,043
- Hello.
- 661
- 00:42:36,137 --> 00:42:37,423
- Hey, is Donnie here?
- 662
- 00:42:37,513 --> 00:42:39,129
- - Yeah, he is.
- - Oh.
- 663
- 00:42:39,223 --> 00:42:41,089
- - Hi, I'm John.
- - Hi, John.
- 664
- 00:42:41,184 --> 00:42:43,471
- - I'm so sorry we're late.
- - How you doing?
- 665
- 00:42:44,604 --> 00:42:45,936
- John, welcome to the group.
- 666
- 00:42:46,022 --> 00:42:47,638
- Hi. Thanks. Sorry we're late.
- 667
- 00:42:47,732 --> 00:42:49,974
- - Oh...
- - Tim thought it was Southwest.
- 668
- 00:42:50,068 --> 00:42:51,479
- - Why'd you think Southwest?
- - It's okay.
- 669
- 00:42:51,569 --> 00:42:53,276
- Yeah, Southwest, but we got here, didn't we?
- 670
- 00:42:53,571 --> 00:42:55,688
- This is Reba, who I think you've met.
- 671
- 00:42:55,782 --> 00:42:58,946
- - Hello.
- - Martingale, Corky, Hans, Mike.
- 672
- 00:42:59,035 --> 00:42:59,866
- - Hi.
- - Hello.
- 673
- 00:42:59,952 --> 00:43:00,863
- Welcome.
- 674
- 00:43:01,287 --> 00:43:02,198
- That's Tim.
- 675
- 00:43:03,122 --> 00:43:04,579
- - Welcome, Tim.
- - Tim.
- 676
- 00:43:04,665 --> 00:43:05,997
- - Hi, Tim.
- - Hello, Tim.
- 677
- 00:43:06,542 --> 00:43:08,408
- And now that we're getting all acquainted,
- 678
- 00:43:09,504 --> 00:43:11,962
- how was everyone's week?
- Anybody want to speak?
- 679
- 00:43:12,048 --> 00:43:13,584
- Um, I have something to talk about.
- 680
- 00:43:13,674 --> 00:43:15,791
- Oh, John, just so you know,
- since you're new here,
- 681
- 00:43:16,219 --> 00:43:17,050
- I'm a poet.
- 682
- 00:43:17,136 --> 00:43:18,126
- A street poet.
- 683
- 00:43:18,888 --> 00:43:20,004
- And a gay activist.
- 684
- 00:43:21,557 --> 00:43:23,594
- So, I was at the Pendleton Round-Up,
- 685
- 00:43:23,684 --> 00:43:26,848
- and I took the opportunity
- to read one of my poems,
- 686
- 00:43:26,938 --> 00:43:30,477
- which has in it a number
- of references to young cocks.
- 687
- 00:43:31,234 --> 00:43:32,190
- This is it.
- 688
- 00:43:33,194 --> 00:43:34,105
- "Hot...
- 689
- 00:43:35,029 --> 00:43:36,361
- in the summer sun.
- 690
- 00:43:37,657 --> 00:43:40,775
- Working all day, hustling hay.
- 691
- 00:43:41,869 --> 00:43:43,610
- It's getting harder
- 692
- 00:43:44,122 --> 00:43:45,738
- and harder
- 693
- 00:43:45,832 --> 00:43:47,698
- and harder...
- 694
- 00:43:48,209 --> 00:43:51,293
- ready to pop out of their button fly.
- 695
- 00:43:52,046 --> 00:43:52,957
- Pop!
- 696
- 00:43:53,548 --> 00:43:54,584
- Pop!"
- 697
- 00:43:54,674 --> 00:43:56,461
- We got it. Pop!
- 698
- 00:43:56,551 --> 00:44:00,636
- - Pop! It's all about penises, please.
- - Oh, stop.
- 699
- 00:44:00,721 --> 00:44:05,182
- And just like that, some cowboy stops me
- and says my poem is X-rated.
- 700
- 00:44:05,268 --> 00:44:06,509
- And you don't think it was?
- 701
- 00:44:07,812 --> 00:44:09,428
- No. It wasn't.
- 702
- 00:44:09,856 --> 00:44:11,597
- It was a red-blooded, American poem.
- 703
- 00:44:11,691 --> 00:44:12,807
- All right.
- 704
- 00:44:12,900 --> 00:44:15,517
- So, the cowboy tells me
- to stop, and I say to him,
- 705
- 00:44:15,611 --> 00:44:20,447
- "I'm an American reading an American poem
- about an American institution."
- 706
- 00:44:21,325 --> 00:44:22,486
- He didn't like that.
- 707
- 00:44:22,827 --> 00:44:24,989
- He accused me of being drunk.
- 708
- 00:44:25,079 --> 00:44:28,368
- I say to him, "I've been sober
- now for three years.
- 709
- 00:44:28,833 --> 00:44:30,495
- I'm a proud member of AA."
- 710
- 00:44:31,169 --> 00:44:32,159
- And I walked off.
- 711
- 00:44:33,254 --> 00:44:35,541
- Anyone want to respond to Martingale's story?
- 712
- 00:44:36,257 --> 00:44:38,874
- Well, the poems make straight guys angry.
- 713
- 00:44:38,968 --> 00:44:41,130
- - I'm not angry, Hans.
- - See?
- 714
- 00:44:41,220 --> 00:44:45,681
- But here's the thing: that kind of anger
- can get in the way of your recovery.
- 715
- 00:44:46,517 --> 00:44:49,430
- I think we can all agree that being out there
- 716
- 00:44:49,520 --> 00:44:52,058
- and having a good time,
- not drinking, we get it...
- 717
- 00:44:52,899 --> 00:44:54,015
- feels really good.
- 718
- 00:44:54,400 --> 00:44:58,485
- But it's one thing to read your poems
- in front of people that you know
- 719
- 00:44:58,571 --> 00:45:00,608
- in your Greek cafes late at night,
- 720
- 00:45:00,698 --> 00:45:03,611
- but it's another to read it
- in front of rednecks at a rodeo.
- 721
- 00:45:03,701 --> 00:45:04,691
- It's a little bit dangerous.
- 722
- 00:45:04,785 --> 00:45:06,902
- - I think he was really brave.
- - Mm.
- 723
- 00:45:06,996 --> 00:45:08,203
- - Yeah, I do, too, Martingale.
- - Yeah.
- 724
- 00:45:08,289 --> 00:45:09,575
- - I mean, I...
- - Fuck the rednecks, right?
- 725
- 00:45:09,665 --> 00:45:11,531
- - That's right.
- - Hey. I'm a mullet-haired redneck,
- 726
- 00:45:11,626 --> 00:45:12,867
- and you know I'll kick your ass.
- 727
- 00:45:12,960 --> 00:45:14,292
- You know I can kick your ass.
- 728
- 00:45:14,378 --> 00:45:15,994
- - John, any comments?
- - What?
- 729
- 00:45:16,088 --> 00:45:17,044
- John.
- 730
- 00:45:19,258 --> 00:45:22,092
- What I want to know is,
- with all the poems that you have,
- 731
- 00:45:22,178 --> 00:45:23,635
- they can't all be about penises.
- 732
- 00:45:23,721 --> 00:45:26,054
- I mean, you probably got
- some pretty ones, I'm sure.
- 733
- 00:45:26,140 --> 00:45:27,551
- Well, what I believe
- 734
- 00:45:27,642 --> 00:45:31,181
- is we all have led, in our non-sober periods,
- 735
- 00:45:31,270 --> 00:45:33,262
- somewhat chaotic lives.
- 736
- 00:45:33,606 --> 00:45:36,394
- And I think there's a very fine line
- 737
- 00:45:36,484 --> 00:45:40,273
- between creating chaos
- because of the adventure
- 738
- 00:45:40,363 --> 00:45:43,982
- and creating chaos
- because of the dependency on it.
- 739
- 00:45:45,451 --> 00:45:49,570
- Now, John isn't speaking very much,
- so perhaps he thinks he's better than us.
- 740
- 00:45:50,039 --> 00:45:51,905
- So, John, do you want
- to tell us about your drinking?
- 741
- 00:45:54,252 --> 00:45:55,959
- Oh.
- 742
- 00:45:57,046 --> 00:45:59,003
- Is this... Do I say,
- "John, I'm an alcoholic"?
- 743
- 00:45:59,090 --> 00:46:01,173
- Just tell us about your drinking.
- 744
- 00:46:04,136 --> 00:46:05,217
- Um...
- 745
- 00:46:06,430 --> 00:46:08,296
- Well, I, um,
- 746
- 00:46:08,391 --> 00:46:11,930
- I started drinking when I was, uh, 13.
- 747
- 00:46:13,854 --> 00:46:14,970
- Um...
- 748
- 00:46:16,107 --> 00:46:20,477
- I stole a bottle of gin from my Aunt Diane.
- 749
- 00:46:21,570 --> 00:46:24,358
- And, um, I liked it.
- 750
- 00:46:25,241 --> 00:46:26,197
- A lot.
- 751
- 00:46:27,159 --> 00:46:28,650
- And I never stopped.
- 752
- 00:46:30,288 --> 00:46:31,199
- Okay.
- 753
- 00:46:31,831 --> 00:46:33,538
- Um, yeah...
- 754
- 00:46:35,459 --> 00:46:36,575
- Keep going.
- 755
- 00:46:37,586 --> 00:46:40,454
- I mean, I kept drinking, I guess,
- 756
- 00:46:41,632 --> 00:46:45,797
- maybe because I was adopted. I was adopted.
- 757
- 00:46:46,178 --> 00:46:47,294
- And, um,
- 758
- 00:46:48,556 --> 00:46:52,266
- maybe it made me not care as much about that.
- 759
- 00:46:53,561 --> 00:46:54,472
- Or...
- 760
- 00:46:55,396 --> 00:46:56,307
- Yeah.
- 761
- 00:46:57,064 --> 00:46:58,555
- I don't, I don't really know.
- 762
- 00:47:00,067 --> 00:47:01,979
- - Yeah...
- - Corky drank 'cause her name is Corky.
- 763
- 00:47:05,489 --> 00:47:07,355
- I drank 'cause my shoes were too tight.
- 764
- 00:47:07,450 --> 00:47:09,658
- You know,
- 765
- 00:47:09,744 --> 00:47:11,576
- I'm glad you find this amusing.
- 766
- 00:47:11,871 --> 00:47:15,080
- John, what we're trying to point out
- is that we all have excuses.
- 767
- 00:47:15,708 --> 00:47:20,169
- I resent you characterizing
- such a painful part of my childhood,
- 768
- 00:47:20,546 --> 00:47:22,788
- such as being an orphan, as an excuse.
- 769
- 00:47:24,508 --> 00:47:28,843
- I mean, it is a fact, among others.
- 770
- 00:47:28,929 --> 00:47:32,422
- Like, for instance, I can't move
- one fucking muscle below my chest.
- 771
- 00:47:32,516 --> 00:47:34,633
- Would that qualify as an excuse?
- 772
- 00:47:34,727 --> 00:47:37,970
- - What are you laughing at?
- - We were waiting for that.
- 773
- 00:47:38,064 --> 00:47:40,056
- We just knew you were gonna
- say that, that's all.
- 774
- 00:47:40,149 --> 00:47:41,890
- - You fucking cow!
- - Oh.
- 775
- 00:47:41,984 --> 00:47:44,852
- You wouldn't know pain if it crawled up
- your fucking ass and devoured you!
- 776
- 00:47:44,945 --> 00:47:46,186
- How dare you!
- 777
- 00:47:46,280 --> 00:47:48,488
- I'm sorry. Well...
- 778
- 00:47:49,909 --> 00:47:53,619
- As a matter of fact,
- I have cancer of the heart.
- 779
- 00:47:56,999 --> 00:48:00,788
- And just let me tell you something
- about your "poor me"s, okay?
- 780
- 00:48:00,878 --> 00:48:04,667
- You keep it up, "poor me, poor me,"
- and you're gonna find yourself saying,
- 781
- 00:48:04,757 --> 00:48:06,498
- - "Pour me another drink."
- - Mm.
- 782
- 00:48:07,426 --> 00:48:08,462
- And for the record,
- 783
- 00:48:08,886 --> 00:48:12,971
- when I first came here,
- I was a fat, worthless cow.
- 784
- 00:48:13,057 --> 00:48:14,514
- But I worked these 12 steps,
- 785
- 00:48:14,600 --> 00:48:16,808
- and I carved out a little bit
- of a life for myself.
- 786
- 00:48:17,353 --> 00:48:18,719
- I'm sorry, Reba.
- 787
- 00:48:20,648 --> 00:48:22,059
- I'm sorry, everybody.
- 788
- 00:48:22,149 --> 00:48:23,890
- - It's okay.
- - It's expected.
- 789
- 00:48:23,984 --> 00:48:27,022
- It's okay, John.
- 790
- 00:48:27,113 --> 00:48:29,150
- You're right on schedule, sweetheart.
- 791
- 00:48:30,282 --> 00:48:32,399
- And I'm glad you're here.
- I want to tell you that.
- 792
- 00:48:33,077 --> 00:48:34,443
- - Thank you.
- - I'm glad you're here.
- 793
- 00:48:40,960 --> 00:48:42,201
- I like you guys.
- 794
- 00:48:43,003 --> 00:48:45,746
- You're fucking crazy.
- 795
- 00:48:49,218 --> 00:48:51,505
- We like you, too, man.
- 796
- 00:48:51,595 --> 00:48:53,461
- Well, wait till you get to know me.
- 797
- 00:49:39,226 --> 00:49:40,137
- Hey, bro.
- 798
- 00:49:41,103 --> 00:49:42,435
- Shot of that wine?
- 799
- 00:49:43,439 --> 00:49:46,352
- Goddamn it, I haven't even had
- my first fucking drink.
- 800
- 00:49:46,442 --> 00:49:48,650
- There's one in my right shirt pocket here.
- 801
- 00:49:48,736 --> 00:49:50,978
- The jacket here. Go get it.
- It's another quart.
- 802
- 00:50:04,585 --> 00:50:06,542
- Okay, great. Thanks, now.
- 803
- 00:50:07,963 --> 00:50:09,625
- Mr. Katz will see you.
- 804
- 00:50:10,216 --> 00:50:11,206
- Oh, thank you.
- 805
- 00:50:20,518 --> 00:50:21,884
- Afternoon.
- 806
- 00:50:21,977 --> 00:50:22,967
- Good afternoon.
- 807
- 00:50:23,771 --> 00:50:25,512
- Thanks so much for taking the time to see me.
- 808
- 00:50:25,606 --> 00:50:26,596
- Not at all.
- 809
- 00:50:27,274 --> 00:50:29,937
- - What can I do for you?
- - My name is John Callahan.
- 810
- 00:50:30,027 --> 00:50:33,111
- I was born in 1950
- at the old Saint Vincent's Hospital.
- 811
- 00:50:33,864 --> 00:50:35,776
- I know three things about my real mother:
- 812
- 00:50:36,283 --> 00:50:39,196
- she was Irish-American, she had red hair,
- 813
- 00:50:39,286 --> 00:50:40,743
- - she was a school teacher.
- - Mm-hmm.
- 814
- 00:50:40,829 --> 00:50:42,991
- Oh, yeah. And she didn't want me.
- 815
- 00:50:43,457 --> 00:50:45,073
- So, four things.
- 816
- 00:50:45,709 --> 00:50:47,826
- Anyway, I was hoping
- you could help me find her.
- 817
- 00:50:47,920 --> 00:50:52,506
- I made this sketch of what
- I think she might look like.
- 818
- 00:50:53,175 --> 00:50:54,382
- Maybe it'll help you out.
- 819
- 00:50:59,598 --> 00:51:00,509
- It's very nice.
- 820
- 00:51:01,016 --> 00:51:01,881
- Callahan.
- 821
- 00:51:01,976 --> 00:51:03,012
- Yeah, John.
- 822
- 00:51:03,644 --> 00:51:05,010
- Old Saint Vincent's Hospital.
- 823
- 00:51:06,355 --> 00:51:08,517
- Well... let's see.
- 824
- 00:51:17,283 --> 00:51:18,490
- That's really my file?
- 825
- 00:51:18,576 --> 00:51:20,033
- All right. This is the one.
- 826
- 00:51:20,119 --> 00:51:21,200
- That's it? Let me look at it.
- 827
- 00:51:21,620 --> 00:51:22,952
- How about we go back over there?
- 828
- 00:51:25,416 --> 00:51:26,702
- All right.
- 829
- 00:51:34,842 --> 00:51:36,003
- What's it say?
- 830
- 00:51:37,386 --> 00:51:38,342
- Uh...
- 831
- 00:51:39,346 --> 00:51:41,303
- Well, Mr. Callahan, there's little I can do.
- 832
- 00:51:42,308 --> 00:51:44,220
- Wait. No, you saw something.
- 833
- 00:51:44,310 --> 00:51:46,017
- - Mr. Callahan. Mr. Callahan.
- - What's in there? What'd you...
- 834
- 00:51:46,103 --> 00:51:47,514
- The State of Oregon has a law.
- 835
- 00:51:47,605 --> 00:51:49,346
- Forget the State of Oregon, man. Come on.
- 836
- 00:51:49,440 --> 00:51:50,931
- Mr. Callahan, I could lose my job.
- 837
- 00:51:51,025 --> 00:51:53,358
- - There's just nothing I can do.
- - Wait, what does that say?
- 838
- 00:51:53,777 --> 00:51:55,985
- Is that... is that "Maggie Lynch"?
- 839
- 00:51:56,071 --> 00:51:57,437
- - I can't say, Mr. Callahan.
- - Is that her name?
- 840
- 00:51:57,531 --> 00:51:58,863
- - Maggie Lynch?
- - Mr. Callahan, I can't say.
- 841
- 00:51:58,949 --> 00:52:00,861
- What do you mean you can't say?
- It's written down right there.
- 842
- 00:52:00,951 --> 00:52:02,533
- I just saw it.
- Is that her name, Maggie Lynch?
- 843
- 00:52:02,620 --> 00:52:05,078
- Mr. Callahan, I am not gonna lose my job.
- 844
- 00:52:05,164 --> 00:52:06,325
- Screw your job, man.
- 845
- 00:52:06,415 --> 00:52:09,533
- You've probably been sitting behind
- this desk for 25 fucking years.
- 846
- 00:52:09,627 --> 00:52:10,913
- - Get out.
- - You have a miserable life.
- 847
- 00:52:11,003 --> 00:52:11,834
- - Be a man!
- - Get out.
- 848
- 00:52:11,920 --> 00:52:13,627
- Aw, go fuck yourself.
- 849
- 00:52:30,606 --> 00:52:32,973
- Maybe it's your battery
- or a connection or something.
- 850
- 00:52:34,610 --> 00:52:35,521
- There you are.
- 851
- 00:52:36,528 --> 00:52:38,315
- - Could you spare a quarter?
- - Yeah.
- 852
- 00:52:38,405 --> 00:52:41,273
- Two-three-four...
- 853
- 00:52:41,367 --> 00:52:42,903
- Two-four-five-nine.
- 854
- 00:52:44,870 --> 00:52:45,781
- Here you go.
- 855
- 00:52:46,747 --> 00:52:47,954
- Thank you, sir.
- 856
- 00:52:48,040 --> 00:52:48,951
- You bet.
- 857
- 00:52:49,500 --> 00:52:51,241
- <i>Disability Resource Center.</i>
- 858
- 00:52:51,335 --> 00:52:52,701
- Hey, it's John.
- 859
- 00:52:53,045 --> 00:52:54,081
- <i>Just a moment.</i>
- 860
- 00:52:55,547 --> 00:52:56,583
- This is Suzanne.
- 861
- 00:52:57,007 --> 00:52:59,499
- <i>Hey, Suzanne. It's John.</i>
- 862
- 00:53:00,928 --> 00:53:03,841
- My chair broke down.
- Could somebody come down here to help me?
- 863
- 00:53:03,931 --> 00:53:04,762
- <i>John?</i>
- 864
- 00:53:04,848 --> 00:53:08,216
- John, this is the third time
- in a couple of months this has happened.
- 865
- 00:53:08,310 --> 00:53:11,348
- You know, we have cutbacks
- ever since the new president came in.
- 866
- 00:53:11,438 --> 00:53:13,521
- - <i>We have our own problems.</i>
- - Oh, please don't start.
- 867
- 00:53:14,274 --> 00:53:16,231
- Please don't start. Suzanne...
- 868
- 00:53:16,318 --> 00:53:18,605
- <i>John, I'm sorry, I do not make the rules.</i>
- 869
- 00:53:19,446 --> 00:53:21,062
- What did I do to you?
- 870
- 00:53:21,156 --> 00:53:23,148
- What did I do to piss you off so much?
- 871
- 00:53:23,242 --> 00:53:24,608
- - Why you gotta treat me like this?
- - <i>You know,</i>
- 872
- 00:53:24,702 --> 00:53:26,989
- I hear you're putting
- a lot more mileage on that wheelchair
- 873
- 00:53:27,079 --> 00:53:28,115
- than the average quadriplegic.
- 874
- 00:53:28,205 --> 00:53:32,700
- Yeah, because I'm an active worker!
- I'm not a fucking nursing home vegetable!
- 875
- 00:53:32,793 --> 00:53:35,331
- So I'm just asking
- for a little bit of goddamn help!
- 876
- 00:53:35,754 --> 00:53:36,710
- - Take care, John.
- - <i>Suzanne,</i>
- 877
- 00:53:36,797 --> 00:53:38,959
- please, please, I fucking beg you.
- 878
- 00:53:39,049 --> 00:53:41,462
- - I ask for forgiveness!
- - Take care of yourself, please.
- 879
- 00:53:41,552 --> 00:53:42,668
- <i>Please, please!</i>
- 880
- 00:53:54,064 --> 00:53:58,604
- One of the objectives of group
- is to provoke a new awareness to unwanted
- 881
- 00:53:58,694 --> 00:54:02,563
- or unnecessary emotional problems
- that we sit with.
- 882
- 00:54:03,407 --> 00:54:07,117
- And left unprovoked,
- we sit alone with these problems,
- 883
- 00:54:07,202 --> 00:54:08,738
- and they can fester into...
- 884
- 00:54:09,371 --> 00:54:12,614
- drinking habits, drug habits, gambling.
- 885
- 00:54:13,333 --> 00:54:14,494
- Other bad habits.
- 886
- 00:54:15,210 --> 00:54:16,951
- What are "other bad habits"?
- 887
- 00:54:17,546 --> 00:54:19,003
- I mean, it could be anything.
- 888
- 00:54:19,089 --> 00:54:22,708
- It could be hoarding, bank robbing, suicide.
- 889
- 00:54:22,801 --> 00:54:24,133
- It happens, amiga.
- 890
- 00:54:24,219 --> 00:54:25,300
- Mike.
- 891
- 00:54:26,513 --> 00:54:27,924
- Why don't you tell us your story.
- 892
- 00:54:28,724 --> 00:54:30,590
- Talk about your employment;
- start from the beginning.
- 893
- 00:54:30,684 --> 00:54:31,765
- What was the name of the company?
- 894
- 00:54:32,060 --> 00:54:33,050
- Uh...
- 895
- 00:54:33,812 --> 00:54:36,680
- Burnside Exploratory Systems Technology.
- 896
- 00:54:36,774 --> 00:54:38,310
- And we called it BEST for short.
- 897
- 00:54:38,776 --> 00:54:40,358
- I, uh...
- 898
- 00:54:40,861 --> 00:54:43,194
- had an administrator there
- I didn't care for very much.
- 899
- 00:54:44,656 --> 00:54:46,272
- Wants a war going on, and she didn't care
- 900
- 00:54:46,366 --> 00:54:48,278
- whether we were winning or losing
- when I worked there,
- 901
- 00:54:48,368 --> 00:54:49,904
- and we were handed a lot of bullshit.
- 902
- 00:54:49,995 --> 00:54:51,406
- Slow down, Mike. Y-You...
- 903
- 00:54:51,497 --> 00:54:53,955
- - "She," meaning your administrator?
- - Yeah.
- 904
- 00:54:54,958 --> 00:54:56,165
- Yeah, and she...
- 905
- 00:54:57,377 --> 00:55:00,495
- would just keep to herself up in her cubicle.
- 906
- 00:55:01,173 --> 00:55:03,790
- Then we'd hear her prerecorded voice
- come over the loudspeaker.
- 907
- 00:55:04,843 --> 00:55:07,802
- Can you tell us a little bit
- about this administrator?
- 908
- 00:55:07,888 --> 00:55:08,719
- Yeah.
- 909
- 00:55:08,806 --> 00:55:12,516
- Yeah, well, first the sentry
- in our, uh, attack unit was...
- 910
- 00:55:13,018 --> 00:55:14,384
- Uh, fuck.
- 911
- 00:55:16,146 --> 00:55:17,603
- I'm sorry, Donnie, can we, uh...
- 912
- 00:55:17,689 --> 00:55:19,146
- can we talk about something else?
- 913
- 00:55:19,608 --> 00:55:20,598
- No.
- 914
- 00:55:20,692 --> 00:55:22,149
- How did she make you feel?
- 915
- 00:55:22,694 --> 00:55:23,935
- Well, we were like family.
- 916
- 00:55:24,029 --> 00:55:26,191
- You know, you spend enough time
- with your family, you...
- 917
- 00:55:27,574 --> 00:55:29,816
- end up wanting to strangle your mom,
- you know?
- 918
- 00:55:30,244 --> 00:55:31,485
- May I ask something?
- 919
- 00:55:31,578 --> 00:55:32,568
- Go ahead, Corky.
- 920
- 00:55:32,663 --> 00:55:34,905
- Were there any women in your operation?
- 921
- 00:55:35,958 --> 00:55:36,869
- Yeah.
- 922
- 00:55:37,459 --> 00:55:39,451
- The administrator, but we never saw her.
- 923
- 00:55:40,879 --> 00:55:44,498
- I'm curious why there's a lack of women
- in your stories.
- 924
- 00:55:44,967 --> 00:55:47,801
- In your childhood, growing up,
- 925
- 00:55:48,428 --> 00:55:49,635
- in your company.
- 926
- 00:55:50,889 --> 00:55:53,848
- There must have been women
- in your command unit.
- 927
- 00:55:57,688 --> 00:55:59,224
- Because women can't handle it over there!
- 928
- 00:55:59,314 --> 00:56:01,021
- - Hey! Hey!
- - Okay? Let me tell you,
- 929
- 00:56:01,108 --> 00:56:02,440
- - neither of you would've
- - Hey!
- 930
- 00:56:02,526 --> 00:56:04,358
- - lasted two fucking seconds over there!
- - Hey!
- 931
- 00:56:04,444 --> 00:56:07,733
- - Mike, hey! Hey.
- - Mike. Mike.
- 932
- 00:56:07,823 --> 00:56:08,984
- - This is group.
- - Yeah.
- 933
- 00:56:09,074 --> 00:56:12,567
- Martingale, sit down. Mike, sit down,
- or you'll be thrown out of the group.
- 934
- 00:56:15,122 --> 00:56:16,033
- I'm sorry.
- 935
- 00:56:16,665 --> 00:56:18,748
- - You all take this so seriously.
- - I'm sorry, Donnie.
- 936
- 00:56:18,834 --> 00:56:21,292
- If you just went down
- to Saint Luke's Church on Sunday services,
- 937
- 00:56:21,378 --> 00:56:24,837
- I'm pretty sure you'd be able to find
- the salvation that you're looking for.
- 938
- 00:56:24,923 --> 00:56:27,506
- Tim, you are very fucking cute.
- 939
- 00:56:27,593 --> 00:56:30,427
- Now shut the fuck up,
- 'cause no one asked you, okay?
- 940
- 00:56:31,930 --> 00:56:32,966
- Everyone, breathe.
- 941
- 00:56:33,932 --> 00:56:35,048
- Mike, you okay?
- 942
- 00:56:36,852 --> 00:56:40,352
- Tim, you think you can pull my pants down so
- I don't have to speak through my fucking fly?
- 943
- 00:56:46,737 --> 00:56:47,853
- There you go, buddy.
- 944
- 00:56:54,202 --> 00:56:56,068
- Hey, you forgot to open the bottle!
- 945
- 00:56:56,163 --> 00:56:57,779
- Tim!
- 946
- 00:56:57,873 --> 00:56:59,489
- Don't lock the door! Tim!
- 947
- 00:57:11,762 --> 00:57:13,003
- Oh, fuck.
- 948
- 00:57:15,599 --> 00:57:17,261
- Bet you could open this bottle, Snickers.
- 949
- 00:57:17,351 --> 00:57:18,842
- Fuck.
- 950
- 00:57:20,354 --> 00:57:22,061
- No!
- 951
- 00:57:25,233 --> 00:57:26,144
- Oh, fuck.
- 952
- 00:57:47,130 --> 00:57:49,338
- Fuck. Fuck.
- 953
- 00:57:53,637 --> 00:57:55,674
- Fuck!
- 954
- 00:58:23,291 --> 00:58:24,532
- Oh.
- 955
- 00:58:30,215 --> 00:58:32,377
- Oh, God, you son of a bitch.
- 956
- 00:59:19,014 --> 00:59:21,597
- Please, please, please...
- 957
- 01:00:09,773 --> 01:00:10,980
- Snickers!
- 958
- 01:00:28,125 --> 01:00:29,241
- Mom.
- 959
- 01:00:36,133 --> 01:00:37,419
- Where are you?
- 960
- 01:00:40,095 --> 01:00:41,506
- You fucker.
- 961
- 01:00:42,264 --> 01:00:43,596
- You tart.
- 962
- 01:00:48,270 --> 01:00:50,136
- You left me here.
- 963
- 01:00:53,066 --> 01:00:54,523
- I'm a cripple.
- 964
- 01:00:58,155 --> 01:01:00,522
- Where are you?
- 965
- 01:01:19,509 --> 01:01:21,717
- <i>You are a good person, John.</i>
- 966
- 01:01:25,098 --> 01:01:26,589
- <i>You can help yourself.</i>
- 967
- 01:01:27,893 --> 01:01:29,725
- <i>You can stop drinking,</i>
- 968
- 01:01:29,811 --> 01:01:33,475
- <i>and you can become happy and healthy.</i>
- 969
- 01:01:34,316 --> 01:01:35,898
- <i>I know you're calling for me.</i>
- 970
- 01:01:37,194 --> 01:01:38,275
- <i>I love you.</i>
- 971
- 01:01:42,866 --> 01:01:44,823
- <i>Just please don't call me a tart.</i>
- 972
- 01:01:57,422 --> 01:01:58,412
- Hi, Tim.
- 973
- 01:02:00,634 --> 01:02:01,624
- Something...
- 974
- 01:02:02,636 --> 01:02:05,504
- really profound just happened to me, man.
- 975
- 01:02:07,641 --> 01:02:08,802
- Yeah, that's, uh...
- 976
- 01:02:10,185 --> 01:02:11,096
- that's great.
- 977
- 01:02:11,561 --> 01:02:13,348
- I don't think I'm gonna drink anymore.
- 978
- 01:02:13,772 --> 01:02:15,354
- You mind if I have some of these cookies?
- 979
- 01:02:19,194 --> 01:02:20,105
- Can I?
- 980
- 01:02:20,445 --> 01:02:21,356
- Yeah, man.
- 981
- 01:02:21,446 --> 01:02:22,937
- - Knock yourself out.
- - Thank you.
- 982
- 01:02:23,448 --> 01:02:25,155
- What the fuck happened in here? It's a wreck.
- 983
- 01:02:25,700 --> 01:02:26,611
- What... where's Snickers?
- 984
- 01:02:26,701 --> 01:02:29,489
- I mean, there's really no reason
- why you should believe me.
- 985
- 01:02:33,375 --> 01:02:35,037
- Donnie, why do you call them piglets?
- 986
- 01:02:35,418 --> 01:02:37,330
- 'Cause I'm a triple Aries, Callahan.
- 987
- 01:02:38,630 --> 01:02:39,962
- And 'cause they let me.
- 988
- 01:02:42,384 --> 01:02:43,340
- See you.
- 989
- 01:02:43,426 --> 01:02:47,170
- And 'cause a piglet is a small,
- timid animal who tries to be brave
- 990
- 01:02:47,264 --> 01:02:49,096
- and occasionally conquers his fears.
- 991
- 01:02:50,016 --> 01:02:51,507
- Look, there's just four things:
- 992
- 01:02:51,935 --> 01:02:54,643
- Keep going to meetings.
- Read this book I'm giving you.
- 993
- 01:02:54,729 --> 01:02:55,560
- Don't drink.
- 994
- 01:02:55,647 --> 01:02:58,105
- And if you think you're gonna drink,
- call me first, never after.
- 995
- 01:03:41,568 --> 01:03:42,854
- Last two weeks,
- 996
- 01:03:42,944 --> 01:03:46,233
- we were talking about art and craft.
- 997
- 01:03:47,324 --> 01:03:50,237
- All art has craft. All craft has art.
- 998
- 01:03:51,202 --> 01:03:54,695
- But craft seeks full perfection.
- 999
- 01:03:55,790 --> 01:03:57,372
- And art seeks full expression.
- 1000
- 01:03:58,460 --> 01:03:59,371
- That's why...
- 1001
- 01:04:00,378 --> 01:04:04,213
- the craftsman's job is
- every time always the same.
- 1002
- 01:04:04,591 --> 01:04:06,173
- Repeat every time.
- 1003
- 01:04:08,636 --> 01:04:11,925
- That's why we don't have two <i>Mona Lisa.</i>
- 1004
- 01:04:14,851 --> 01:04:16,467
- And <i>Mona Lisa,</i> by the way,
- 1005
- 01:04:17,270 --> 01:04:19,808
- one can say is a controlled accident.
- 1006
- 01:04:20,357 --> 01:04:22,770
- <i>While working through</i>
- <i>the steps of the fellowship,</i>
- 1007
- 01:04:22,859 --> 01:04:26,523
- I began to feel a huge rush of energy.
- 1008
- 01:04:27,238 --> 01:04:30,151
- I suddenly realized that I had been,
- 1009
- 01:04:30,617 --> 01:04:35,408
- <i>or should have been,
- a cartoonist, a gagman, all along.</i>
- 1010
- 01:05:47,402 --> 01:05:48,609
- - Here you go.
- - Thanks.
- 1011
- 01:06:22,020 --> 01:06:25,764
- I refer to my higher power as Chucky,
- when the word "God" doesn't suffice.
- 1012
- 01:06:26,441 --> 01:06:28,603
- You know, like the character
- from the horror movie.
- 1013
- 01:06:29,319 --> 01:06:33,529
- Not because I'm terrified of my higher power.
- 1014
- 01:06:33,615 --> 01:06:38,906
- It's 'cause I find
- my higher power is unpredictable.
- 1015
- 01:06:39,496 --> 01:06:42,580
- The thing for you to grasp,
- my little piglets,
- 1016
- 01:06:42,665 --> 01:06:45,123
- is that we don't control the universe.
- 1017
- 01:06:45,210 --> 01:06:48,544
- And, in fact, it will go on in our absence.
- 1018
- 01:06:49,130 --> 01:06:50,621
- We can't ask for help
- 1019
- 01:06:50,715 --> 01:06:52,923
- if we don't think there's
- anyone out there to give it.
- 1020
- 01:06:53,009 --> 01:06:55,342
- You have to grasp this concept.
- 1021
- 01:06:56,012 --> 01:06:59,005
- And that doesn't have to be
- fucking Jesus Christ
- 1022
- 01:06:59,098 --> 01:07:01,181
- or Buddha or Vanna White.
- 1023
- 01:07:01,267 --> 01:07:04,135
- So, can I choose the genitalia
- of Raquel Welch?
- 1024
- 01:07:04,729 --> 01:07:06,937
- I would advise against that, Callahan.
- 1025
- 01:07:07,023 --> 01:07:07,934
- Why?
- 1026
- 01:07:08,358 --> 01:07:09,940
- 'Cause it's not a fucking joke.
- 1027
- 01:07:10,860 --> 01:07:15,571
- If you can't look outside yourself, and you
- can't find a higher power, you're fucked.
- 1028
- 01:07:17,992 --> 01:07:19,073
- - Yeah.
- - Thanks, Donnie.
- 1029
- 01:07:19,160 --> 01:07:20,241
- - Of course.
- - See you, John.
- 1030
- 01:07:20,995 --> 01:07:22,361
- - Bye, John.
- - Bye, Hans.
- 1031
- 01:07:23,665 --> 01:07:25,907
- Beat yourself with a feather, not a bat.
- 1032
- 01:07:28,044 --> 01:07:29,455
- Be outside. I'm gonna have a smoke.
- 1033
- 01:07:31,506 --> 01:07:34,465
- Don't linger too long on belief.
- Just jump in, do the work.
- 1034
- 01:07:34,551 --> 01:07:36,417
- Trust God. Clean house.
- 1035
- 01:07:37,595 --> 01:07:38,506
- Take this book.
- 1036
- 01:07:39,889 --> 01:07:41,846
- Lao-Tzu. Check it out.
- 1037
- 01:07:43,059 --> 01:07:45,472
- There's some valuable proverbs in there.
- 1038
- 01:07:47,939 --> 01:07:48,850
- Okay.
- 1039
- 01:07:50,233 --> 01:07:52,520
- Um, you need any information?
- 1040
- 01:07:52,610 --> 01:07:55,068
- Yeah, can you take a look
- at this cartoon for me?
- 1041
- 01:07:55,154 --> 01:07:56,941
- - Give me your thoughts.
- - Yeah, let me...
- 1042
- 01:07:57,699 --> 01:07:59,361
- Let's see.
- 1043
- 01:08:04,205 --> 01:08:05,036
- Mm.
- 1044
- 01:08:05,123 --> 01:08:07,115
- - It's pretty good. Pretty...
- - I can tell you don't like it.
- 1045
- 01:08:07,208 --> 01:08:08,324
- Here, look at another one?
- 1046
- 01:08:11,212 --> 01:08:12,373
- Let's see.
- 1047
- 01:08:21,514 --> 01:08:22,470
- You like that.
- 1048
- 01:08:22,557 --> 01:08:24,014
- - Yeah.
- - Okay.
- 1049
- 01:08:24,100 --> 01:08:25,307
- That's good.
- 1050
- 01:08:25,393 --> 01:08:27,350
- - Yeah, that's one of my favorites.
- - Yeah.
- 1051
- 01:08:27,437 --> 01:08:29,269
- - Aw, thank you.
- - Very good.
- 1052
- 01:08:30,523 --> 01:08:32,014
- Hey. Annu?
- 1053
- 01:08:34,611 --> 01:08:36,147
- - John?
- - Is that you?
- 1054
- 01:08:39,365 --> 01:08:40,981
- Look at you.
- 1055
- 01:08:41,075 --> 01:08:42,987
- You're looking very handsome.
- 1056
- 01:08:43,077 --> 01:08:44,158
- Oh.
- 1057
- 01:08:44,245 --> 01:08:46,032
- How have you been?
- 1058
- 01:08:46,623 --> 01:08:47,955
- Good. I mean...
- 1059
- 01:08:48,041 --> 01:08:49,532
- God, you look beautiful.
- 1060
- 01:08:49,626 --> 01:08:50,867
- What-what is this?
- 1061
- 01:08:50,960 --> 01:08:53,623
- Oh, I have a new job now.
- I work for Air Scandinavia.
- 1062
- 01:08:53,713 --> 01:08:56,205
- Wow, "Air Scandi-nah-via."
- 1063
- 01:08:57,008 --> 01:08:57,919
- Really something.
- 1064
- 01:08:58,009 --> 01:08:59,295
- - Yeah?
- - Yeah.
- 1065
- 01:08:59,385 --> 01:09:01,593
- I was promoted. I'm group captain now.
- 1066
- 01:09:01,679 --> 01:09:03,170
- - Group captain.
- - Mm.
- 1067
- 01:09:03,514 --> 01:09:06,006
- Wow, yeah, so you're just up in, uh,
- first class
- 1068
- 01:09:06,100 --> 01:09:08,057
- - with all the hot businessmen?
- - Yeah.
- 1069
- 01:09:08,144 --> 01:09:09,601
- - Yeah.
- - But I don't really like them.
- 1070
- 01:09:09,687 --> 01:09:12,805
- Are... are you... are you flying out?
- Are you in town for a while?
- 1071
- 01:09:12,899 --> 01:09:15,141
- Do you... do you want to...
- get something to eat?
- 1072
- 01:09:15,234 --> 01:09:16,645
- Yeah, I'm on layover.
- 1073
- 01:09:16,736 --> 01:09:18,147
- - Really?
- - That'd be really nice.
- 1074
- 01:09:18,237 --> 01:09:20,729
- Yeah, well, let's find a place to,
- you know...
- 1075
- 01:09:22,784 --> 01:09:23,991
- "layover."
- 1076
- 01:09:25,953 --> 01:09:29,321
- "Let me put it this way,
- don't buy any hacky sack balls."
- 1077
- 01:09:30,249 --> 01:09:31,706
- That's really funny.
- 1078
- 01:09:31,793 --> 01:09:33,079
- - It's you. Yeah?
- - Yeah.
- 1079
- 01:09:33,169 --> 01:09:34,956
- Wait, are you... you...
- you really think it's funny?
- 1080
- 01:09:35,588 --> 01:09:36,999
- - You sure?
- - Yeah.
- 1081
- 01:10:13,167 --> 01:10:14,829
- I'm gonna, I'm gonna come.
- 1082
- 01:10:17,213 --> 01:10:18,579
- I'm coming!
- 1083
- 01:10:18,673 --> 01:10:20,665
- - I'm coming!
- - Oh, Jesus!
- 1084
- 01:10:20,758 --> 01:10:22,624
- Oh! Jesus Christ! John, I'm...
- 1085
- 01:10:22,719 --> 01:10:25,427
- I'm so sorry. John, I am so sorry.
- 1086
- 01:10:29,225 --> 01:10:32,593
- You have to promise
- that Tim will walk in to serve breakfast
- 1087
- 01:10:32,687 --> 01:10:34,053
- at the same time every morning.
- 1088
- 01:10:35,148 --> 01:10:35,979
- Okay.
- 1089
- 01:11:27,867 --> 01:11:29,904
- Donnie, I see gymnasts in the park.
- 1090
- 01:11:29,994 --> 01:11:34,409
- Mm. Maybe they're preparing
- for the Olympics next year.
- 1091
- 01:11:34,499 --> 01:11:36,491
- I'm fucking serious.
- 1092
- 01:11:36,584 --> 01:11:39,122
- I've been seeing them
- since my physical recovery.
- 1093
- 01:11:39,212 --> 01:11:42,330
- Oh, maybe they're manifestations
- of your sobriety,
- 1094
- 01:11:42,423 --> 01:11:44,710
- if you first saw them in the emergency ward.
- 1095
- 01:11:44,801 --> 01:11:47,168
- Maybe they're sticking around
- to get what they want.
- 1096
- 01:11:47,261 --> 01:11:49,378
- Well, what the fuck do they want?
- 1097
- 01:11:50,014 --> 01:11:51,550
- For you to come with them.
- 1098
- 01:11:51,641 --> 01:11:54,224
- Yeah. Where to?
- 1099
- 01:11:54,644 --> 01:11:57,512
- 'Cause they're waving to me, you know?
- 1100
- 01:11:57,605 --> 01:11:59,642
- To the big park in the sky.
- 1101
- 01:12:00,107 --> 01:12:01,973
- They could be calling from the other side.
- 1102
- 01:12:02,068 --> 01:12:03,934
- Yeah, that's what I'm afraid of.
- 1103
- 01:12:04,904 --> 01:12:06,691
- I don't want to go to the park in the sky.
- 1104
- 01:12:06,781 --> 01:12:09,524
- Callahan, don't obsess over the gymnasts.
- 1105
- 01:12:10,117 --> 01:12:12,905
- Go to meetings, don't drink, read the book.
- 1106
- 01:12:12,995 --> 01:12:14,827
- That's all you have to focus on.
- 1107
- 01:12:15,122 --> 01:12:16,738
- And you have to work on the second step.
- 1108
- 01:12:16,833 --> 01:12:19,166
- Like, you have to believe
- that a power greater than yourself
- 1109
- 01:12:19,252 --> 01:12:20,459
- can restore you to sanity.
- 1110
- 01:12:22,672 --> 01:12:26,507
- Yeah, yeah, yeah. I know, I know, I know.
- 1111
- 01:12:26,592 --> 01:12:30,336
- And besides, how are you gonna
- do gymnastics anyway, Callahan?
- 1112
- 01:12:33,349 --> 01:12:35,056
- - Honestly.
- - Oh, that's so funny.
- 1113
- 01:12:35,142 --> 01:12:39,102
- Oh, tomorrow I fly to New York City
- to get my boogie on.
- 1114
- 01:12:39,438 --> 01:12:42,181
- Yeah, good for you, man. You deserve it.
- 1115
- 01:12:42,275 --> 01:12:43,356
- Thank you.
- 1116
- 01:12:43,860 --> 01:12:45,817
- So, will I be able to reach you, though?
- 1117
- 01:12:51,826 --> 01:12:52,816
- You drew this?
- 1118
- 01:12:52,910 --> 01:12:54,367
- Yeah. Oh, which one's that? I mean, yeah,
- 1119
- 01:12:54,453 --> 01:12:56,820
- I drew 'em all, but...
- Oh, yeah. That's my dad.
- 1120
- 01:12:59,041 --> 01:13:00,907
- This is good stuff, man.
- This is really great.
- 1121
- 01:13:02,920 --> 01:13:04,411
- So...
- 1122
- 01:13:04,505 --> 01:13:06,622
- You got it, man.
- We'd like to give you a panel.
- 1123
- 01:13:06,716 --> 01:13:07,627
- Really?
- 1124
- 01:13:16,642 --> 01:13:18,634
- Hey, Officer, take a look at this.
- 1125
- 01:13:23,774 --> 01:13:24,730
- Very nice.
- 1126
- 01:13:24,817 --> 01:13:27,400
- Very nice, right? Thank you.
- 1127
- 01:13:27,486 --> 01:13:29,819
- - Hey.
- - Hey, John. How are you, hon?
- 1128
- 01:13:29,906 --> 01:13:31,363
- Really good. Take a look at this.
- 1129
- 01:13:31,449 --> 01:13:32,360
- What you got?
- 1130
- 01:13:34,702 --> 01:13:37,570
- Oh, hon. Lisa, look-it,
- John's in the <i>Vanguard.</i>
- 1131
- 01:13:40,249 --> 01:13:41,239
- Hmm.
- 1132
- 01:13:44,378 --> 01:13:46,461
- - Thank you.
- - I like the shading.
- 1133
- 01:13:47,965 --> 01:13:48,921
- Okay.
- 1134
- 01:13:49,342 --> 01:13:51,459
- You want to see? Look, puppy, look at that.
- 1135
- 01:13:51,552 --> 01:13:52,588
- - You drew that?
- - Yeah.
- 1136
- 01:13:58,100 --> 01:13:59,011
- That's offensive.
- 1137
- 01:13:59,852 --> 01:14:00,842
- Offensive?
- 1138
- 01:14:04,982 --> 01:14:06,814
- Hey, some fellow artists.
- 1139
- 01:14:06,901 --> 01:14:08,984
- Check this out. Look at this.
- 1140
- 01:14:09,070 --> 01:14:11,562
- No, I'm not trying to sell you anything.
- I just want you to look at...
- 1141
- 01:14:12,239 --> 01:14:15,073
- They published my cartoon, you fuckers!
- 1142
- 01:14:19,121 --> 01:14:21,329
- <i># Shake it, shake it #</i>
- 1143
- 01:14:26,587 --> 01:14:28,670
- <i># Shake it, shake it #</i>
- 1144
- 01:14:29,131 --> 01:14:30,542
- <i># Groovin' loose #</i>
- 1145
- 01:14:30,633 --> 01:14:32,499
- <i># Or heart to heart #</i>
- 1146
- 01:14:32,593 --> 01:14:35,586
- <i># We put in motion every single part #</i>
- 1147
- 01:14:36,514 --> 01:14:39,598
- <i># Funky sounds, wall to wall #</i>
- 1148
- 01:14:40,017 --> 01:14:43,761
- <i># We're bumpin' booties,
- Having us a ball, y'all #</i>
- 1149
- 01:14:43,854 --> 01:14:45,436
- <i># Shake your groove thing #</i>
- 1150
- 01:14:45,523 --> 01:14:47,515
- <i># Shake your groove thing, yeah, yeah... #</i>
- 1151
- 01:14:49,235 --> 01:14:51,352
- Hello?
- 1152
- 01:14:51,821 --> 01:14:53,107
- <i>I just can't fucking do this.</i>
- 1153
- 01:14:53,197 --> 01:14:55,314
- I'm gonna kill Tim.
- I'm gonna kill my attendant.
- 1154
- 01:14:56,200 --> 01:14:58,362
- You know, Callahan, you can't ask for help
- 1155
- 01:14:58,452 --> 01:15:00,614
- if you don't think there's
- anyone out there to give it.
- 1156
- 01:15:00,705 --> 01:15:04,574
- Yeah, I'm asking you for help, Donnie.
- That's why I'm calling you.
- 1157
- 01:15:04,667 --> 01:15:05,703
- <i>Well, tough shit.</i>
- 1158
- 01:15:05,793 --> 01:15:08,376
- Donnie's on a plane
- to New York City in half an hour.
- 1159
- 01:15:08,462 --> 01:15:09,998
- And I'm not gonna be back till Monday.
- 1160
- 01:15:11,340 --> 01:15:13,377
- There's this new gay disco
- there called The Saint,
- 1161
- 01:15:13,467 --> 01:15:15,424
- <i>and I'm gonna be having the time of my life</i>
- 1162
- 01:15:15,511 --> 01:15:17,924
- <i>with Howard Rosenman and Andy Warhol,
- getting discovered...</i>
- 1163
- 01:15:18,014 --> 01:15:21,098
- I don't give a fuck
- about your sex life, Donnie.
- 1164
- 01:15:21,183 --> 01:15:22,469
- <i>Tell me what to do.</i>
- 1165
- 01:15:23,811 --> 01:15:25,268
- What are the first three steps?
- 1166
- 01:15:25,604 --> 01:15:27,061
- Donnie, come on.
- 1167
- 01:15:27,440 --> 01:15:28,351
- That, one?
- 1168
- 01:15:30,151 --> 01:15:33,815
- One, that I'm powerless over alcohol
- and my life has become unmanageable.
- 1169
- 01:15:33,904 --> 01:15:36,487
- <i>Two, I came to believe that
- a power greater than myself</i>
- 1170
- 01:15:36,574 --> 01:15:37,610
- <i>can restore me to sanity.</i>
- 1171
- 01:15:38,117 --> 01:15:40,484
- And three, I made a decision
- to turn my will and my life
- 1172
- 01:15:40,578 --> 01:15:42,740
- over to the care of God, as I understand it.
- 1173
- 01:15:42,830 --> 01:15:44,196
- <i>So you believe you're powerless?</i>
- 1174
- 01:15:45,666 --> 01:15:46,577
- Yeah.
- 1175
- 01:15:46,667 --> 01:15:49,876
- You believe that a higher power other
- than yourself can restore you to sanity?
- 1176
- 01:15:50,171 --> 01:15:51,082
- Yes.
- 1177
- 01:15:51,172 --> 01:15:52,834
- <i>And you made a decision
- to turn your will and life</i>
- 1178
- 01:15:52,923 --> 01:15:55,165
- over to the care of God,
- as you understand him,
- 1179
- 01:15:55,259 --> 01:15:57,216
- in your case, Raquel Welch's snatch.
- 1180
- 01:15:57,303 --> 01:15:59,420
- And remember, this is a choice
- of higher power I don't approve of.
- 1181
- 01:15:59,930 --> 01:16:01,296
- - Yes.
- - <i>Great.</i>
- 1182
- 01:16:01,390 --> 01:16:04,098
- Now, wouldn't you like to turn
- this immediate problem over to Chucky?
- 1183
- 01:16:04,852 --> 01:16:05,763
- Yes.
- 1184
- 01:16:06,145 --> 01:16:07,602
- <i>Don't you feel better already?</i>
- 1185
- 01:16:11,567 --> 01:16:14,560
- Okay, yeah, but, Donnie, you tricked me.
- 1186
- 01:16:14,653 --> 01:16:16,110
- <i>I know what you just did.</i>
- 1187
- 01:16:16,197 --> 01:16:18,655
- No, Callahan, no. Fuck.
- 1188
- 01:16:19,283 --> 01:16:20,649
- Make a God basket.
- 1189
- 01:16:20,743 --> 01:16:22,700
- Write your problems on paper,
- crumple them up,
- 1190
- 01:16:22,787 --> 01:16:24,028
- and throw them into the basket.
- 1191
- 01:16:24,580 --> 01:16:26,412
- <i>Drink water.</i>
- 1192
- 01:16:30,086 --> 01:16:32,829
- "I'm afraid. Who will protect me?"
- 1193
- 01:16:42,223 --> 01:16:44,055
- Tim. Tim?
- 1194
- 01:16:45,226 --> 01:16:46,182
- Hey, man.
- 1195
- 01:16:46,268 --> 01:16:49,011
- Can you pick up that piece of paper
- and toss it in the God basket?
- 1196
- 01:16:56,529 --> 01:16:58,361
- Oh, yeah. Yeah.
- 1197
- 01:16:58,447 --> 01:17:00,279
- Hey, you know, this is actually pretty fun.
- 1198
- 01:17:00,741 --> 01:17:04,951
- John, as the editors
- of the Portland State <i>Vanguard,</i>
- 1199
- 01:17:05,037 --> 01:17:07,996
- some of us really enjoy your humor,
- 1200
- 01:17:08,082 --> 01:17:12,247
- but some of us are worried
- that things might have gone too far.
- 1201
- 01:17:13,546 --> 01:17:16,254
- We have 55 letters here from the student body
- 1202
- 01:17:16,841 --> 01:17:18,798
- complaining about your cartoons.
- 1203
- 01:17:18,884 --> 01:17:22,377
- "Mr. Callahan, I am appalled
- by your simplistic scribbling,
- 1204
- 01:17:22,471 --> 01:17:25,339
- your misinformed ideas about humor,
- and the audacity you have..."
- 1205
- 01:17:25,432 --> 01:17:28,140
- - That's real?
- - "to think the public enjoys your work."
- 1206
- 01:17:28,227 --> 01:17:30,059
- Yes. It's from Woodburn, Oregon.
- 1207
- 01:17:30,479 --> 01:17:31,686
- We have many of them.
- 1208
- 01:17:32,189 --> 01:17:33,521
- All right, look, guys,
- 1209
- 01:17:33,607 --> 01:17:36,224
- I know that people have
- come by the editorial offices
- 1210
- 01:17:36,318 --> 01:17:37,900
- to register complaints about me...
- 1211
- 01:17:37,987 --> 01:17:41,822
- Christians, queers, teachers,
- foreign nationals, janitors, lab rats
- 1212
- 01:17:41,907 --> 01:17:45,150
- all find me offensive, which, uh, you know...
- 1213
- 01:17:46,078 --> 01:17:47,944
- It's a good... Is it a good thing?
- 1214
- 01:17:48,038 --> 01:17:49,700
- We have a small pile of threats.
- 1215
- 01:17:49,790 --> 01:17:51,952
- There's one here from the <i>Willamette Week.</i>
- 1216
- 01:17:52,668 --> 01:17:54,250
- John, this is, frankly, shocking.
- 1217
- 01:17:54,336 --> 01:17:57,795
- What, the paper that
- Gary Larson draws cartoons for?
- 1218
- 01:17:57,882 --> 01:18:03,048
- Yes. And they would like to give you
- your own series.
- 1219
- 01:18:03,137 --> 01:18:05,129
- We think that's going too far.
- 1220
- 01:18:05,222 --> 01:18:06,087
- Are you serious?
- 1221
- 01:18:06,182 --> 01:18:07,923
- Uh...
- 1222
- 01:18:08,017 --> 01:18:09,098
- Can we get a mop? Can we get a mop?
- 1223
- 01:18:09,185 --> 01:18:10,141
- - What happened?
- - Oh.
- 1224
- 01:18:10,227 --> 01:18:12,014
- - Grab a mop, please.
- - Uh...
- 1225
- 01:18:12,646 --> 01:18:13,636
- Mop?
- 1226
- 01:18:13,731 --> 01:18:15,768
- Wait, well, don't do it with the...
- 1227
- 01:18:15,858 --> 01:18:18,100
- - Don't put the urine in the picture.
- - Oh, yikes.
- 1228
- 01:18:18,194 --> 01:18:20,561
- They're publishing your cartoon.
- We're absolutely serious.
- 1229
- 01:18:20,654 --> 01:18:22,816
- - I thought you guys were playing with me.
- - No, no.
- 1230
- 01:18:24,450 --> 01:18:25,611
- In the Funny pile.
- 1231
- 01:18:27,703 --> 01:18:28,614
- No.
- 1232
- 01:18:31,916 --> 01:18:33,248
- Put this one for Annu.
- 1233
- 01:18:38,339 --> 01:18:39,546
- That's real funny.
- 1234
- 01:18:47,473 --> 01:18:48,680
- Why do you call it Chucky?
- 1235
- 01:18:50,351 --> 01:18:51,341
- Why not?
- 1236
- 01:18:53,187 --> 01:18:54,974
- You know, the day I stopped drinking...
- 1237
- 01:18:55,814 --> 01:18:57,601
- I felt a hand on my shoulder.
- 1238
- 01:18:58,817 --> 01:19:00,774
- But when I turned to look at it, there was...
- 1239
- 01:19:01,737 --> 01:19:04,400
- nothing there, but I didn't imagine it.
- 1240
- 01:19:07,952 --> 01:19:09,614
- "Look at it, but you cannot see it.
- 1241
- 01:19:09,703 --> 01:19:12,195
- Because it is formless,
- you call it invisible.
- 1242
- 01:19:13,582 --> 01:19:15,790
- Listen to it, but you cannot hear it.
- 1243
- 01:19:17,378 --> 01:19:19,586
- Because it is soundless,
- you call it inaudible.
- 1244
- 01:19:20,464 --> 01:19:22,706
- Grasp it, but it is out of your reach.
- 1245
- 01:19:23,050 --> 01:19:25,042
- Because it is subtle,
- you call it intangible."
- 1246
- 01:19:26,470 --> 01:19:27,677
- Uh, who's that?
- 1247
- 01:19:28,430 --> 01:19:29,420
- Is that Elton John?
- 1248
- 01:19:30,766 --> 01:19:31,677
- Lao-Tzu.
- 1249
- 01:19:32,977 --> 01:19:34,138
- Chucky.
- 1250
- 01:19:37,231 --> 01:19:40,770
- Oh, hubba, hubba, hubba.
- New heartthrob, Donnie?
- 1251
- 01:19:43,445 --> 01:19:44,561
- Oh, no, no.
- 1252
- 01:19:44,947 --> 01:19:46,404
- Pretty boy, small penis.
- 1253
- 01:19:48,450 --> 01:19:51,238
- Maybe you were weakened
- so you could become strong, Callahan.
- 1254
- 01:19:51,328 --> 01:19:52,694
- You ever think of it like that?
- 1255
- 01:19:56,166 --> 01:19:58,408
- The path to enlightenment
- is to know yourself.
- 1256
- 01:19:59,712 --> 01:20:01,248
- How do I know myself?
- 1257
- 01:20:02,881 --> 01:20:03,962
- Forget yourself.
- 1258
- 01:20:10,514 --> 01:20:11,971
- Oh, what'd the doctor say?
- 1259
- 01:20:12,933 --> 01:20:15,471
- I was gonna tell you about
- when I was in India.
- 1260
- 01:20:15,561 --> 01:20:17,427
- Just let me finish so I don't forget.
- 1261
- 01:20:17,980 --> 01:20:20,063
- I was driving north, to Bombay.
- 1262
- 01:20:20,149 --> 01:20:22,357
- I was meeting a group of teachers
- at the Bombay Hilton...
- 1263
- 01:20:22,443 --> 01:20:23,934
- Oh, yeah, no, you told me this story already.
- 1264
- 01:20:25,154 --> 01:20:26,065
- Have I?
- 1265
- 01:20:26,363 --> 01:20:28,776
- Yeah. With the girl beggar.
- 1266
- 01:20:30,159 --> 01:20:31,570
- I don't remember telling it.
- 1267
- 01:20:33,954 --> 01:20:34,865
- Donnie.
- 1268
- 01:20:36,999 --> 01:20:38,456
- What did the doctor say?
- 1269
- 01:20:46,675 --> 01:20:47,756
- I'm fucked.
- 1270
- 01:20:54,975 --> 01:20:56,557
- I need to drink more water.
- 1271
- 01:21:19,458 --> 01:21:21,825
- Mmm. That feels good. Thank you.
- 1272
- 01:21:27,591 --> 01:21:29,753
- "Dear Mr. Callahan, we regret to inform you
- 1273
- 01:21:29,843 --> 01:21:32,005
- that although your cartoon shows promise,
- 1274
- 01:21:32,471 --> 01:21:35,635
- it's not the caliber of work
- that we're used to at <i>The New Yorker.</i>
- 1275
- 01:21:36,266 --> 01:21:37,757
- Thank you for your submission."
- 1276
- 01:21:38,644 --> 01:21:39,805
- Who reads <i>The New Yorker</i>?
- 1277
- 01:21:44,233 --> 01:21:48,477
- "Mr. Callahan, you should draw
- with your other hand or become a plumber."
- 1278
- 01:21:49,780 --> 01:21:50,941
- "Sincerely, Robert."
- 1279
- 01:21:52,533 --> 01:21:53,865
- Well, that's original.
- 1280
- 01:21:56,453 --> 01:21:57,364
- Hey...
- 1281
- 01:21:59,164 --> 01:22:01,747
- do you think the joke is better
- if I go with paramecium,
- 1282
- 01:22:01,834 --> 01:22:06,124
- dogfish, chimpanzee, Neanderthal, human?
- 1283
- 01:22:06,755 --> 01:22:08,246
- Or should it be...
- 1284
- 01:22:08,966 --> 01:22:13,836
- paramecium, trilobite, raptor, lemur,
- Neanderthal, human?
- 1285
- 01:22:16,181 --> 01:22:17,092
- I don't know.
- 1286
- 01:22:18,225 --> 01:22:20,137
- Let's put that in the Not Ready pile.
- 1287
- 01:22:37,202 --> 01:22:39,319
- Hello. John, can I come in?
- 1288
- 01:22:39,746 --> 01:22:41,703
- Suzanne.
- 1289
- 01:22:41,790 --> 01:22:42,746
- Hey.
- 1290
- 01:22:42,833 --> 01:22:44,699
- What a lovely surprise.
- 1291
- 01:22:49,756 --> 01:22:51,338
- Where'd you get the money for these posters?
- 1292
- 01:22:51,425 --> 01:22:53,007
- Friends, family.
- 1293
- 01:22:53,093 --> 01:22:54,174
- You got to write it down.
- 1294
- 01:22:54,553 --> 01:22:56,920
- You have to report it...
- any gift or donation.
- 1295
- 01:22:57,014 --> 01:22:57,925
- Well...
- 1296
- 01:22:58,765 --> 01:23:01,428
- I bummed a cigarette
- down at Old Town the other day.
- 1297
- 01:23:01,518 --> 01:23:02,725
- Should I report that, too?
- 1298
- 01:23:04,104 --> 01:23:07,017
- Mr. Callahan, I'm sorry.
- I do not make the rules.
- 1299
- 01:23:07,107 --> 01:23:08,689
- Simply trying to get you to understand
- 1300
- 01:23:08,775 --> 01:23:10,937
- the gravity of the situation.
- Your cartoon earnings
- 1301
- 01:23:11,028 --> 01:23:12,815
- could force your benefits to be terminated.
- 1302
- 01:23:12,905 --> 01:23:14,942
- Well, h-how do I avoid that?
- 1303
- 01:23:15,032 --> 01:23:16,068
- I don't know.
- 1304
- 01:23:16,158 --> 01:23:18,491
- But, uh... it doesn't look good for you.
- 1305
- 01:23:19,620 --> 01:23:22,988
- Uh, who do I speak to
- about the specific regulations on this?
- 1306
- 01:23:23,665 --> 01:23:28,126
- I mean, how can I be penalized
- for making a little money this month?
- 1307
- 01:23:28,921 --> 01:23:33,291
- Mr. Callahan, we have reason to believe
- you're a bit of a shady character. Okay?
- 1308
- 01:23:33,759 --> 01:23:35,921
- I just don't want
- your benefits to be terminated.
- 1309
- 01:23:36,637 --> 01:23:39,004
- Every letter starts out the same way.
- 1310
- 01:23:39,515 --> 01:23:40,972
- It's always your fault.
- 1311
- 01:23:41,475 --> 01:23:44,263
- You know, I... I knew, um,
- 1312
- 01:23:44,686 --> 01:23:47,178
- a-a guy that was a former caseworker.
- 1313
- 01:23:47,272 --> 01:23:48,604
- He's since become a buddy.
- 1314
- 01:23:49,066 --> 01:23:53,231
- And he revealed to me
- that any assertive client
- 1315
- 01:23:53,320 --> 01:23:58,611
- was written up in his file
- as a fucking unstable troublemaker.
- 1316
- 01:23:59,076 --> 01:24:00,783
- You fucking believe that?
- 1317
- 01:24:01,161 --> 01:24:03,198
- An unstable troublemaker.
- 1318
- 01:24:04,665 --> 01:24:06,998
- John, this isn't the complaint department.
- 1319
- 01:24:08,085 --> 01:24:09,951
- We don't want to hear about your caseworkers.
- 1320
- 01:24:11,338 --> 01:24:13,580
- Tell your story, talk about yourself.
- 1321
- 01:24:13,966 --> 01:24:18,427
- Well, it is my life.
- I rely on them for everything.
- 1322
- 01:24:18,512 --> 01:24:19,923
- I don't, I don't know what you mean.
- 1323
- 01:24:20,013 --> 01:24:24,178
- What I mean is that what about them
- makes you complain?
- 1324
- 01:24:25,018 --> 01:24:27,226
- It's not about the counselor herself.
- 1325
- 01:24:27,896 --> 01:24:28,852
- Keep going.
- 1326
- 01:24:32,234 --> 01:24:33,600
- I mean, I can't walk.
- 1327
- 01:24:33,694 --> 01:24:34,684
- Why can't you walk?
- 1328
- 01:24:35,237 --> 01:24:38,150
- Because I was in an accident.
- 1329
- 01:24:38,240 --> 01:24:39,151
- Because?
- 1330
- 01:24:39,908 --> 01:24:43,447
- 'Cause the fucking asshole, Dexter,
- 1331
- 01:24:44,121 --> 01:24:46,363
- fell asleep at the fucking wheel.
- 1332
- 01:24:46,456 --> 01:24:47,446
- Why'd he do that?
- 1333
- 01:24:48,000 --> 01:24:49,741
- 'Cause he was fucking drunk.
- 1334
- 01:24:50,085 --> 01:24:51,496
- Okay, and why were you in the car?
- 1335
- 01:24:54,339 --> 01:24:56,456
- 'Cause we were going to the next party.
- 1336
- 01:24:56,550 --> 01:24:59,418
- He was the one that was driving.
- I don't know why I...
- 1337
- 01:24:59,511 --> 01:25:01,252
- - Okay, but why...
- - I couldn't drive.
- 1338
- 01:25:01,346 --> 01:25:04,680
- Wait, Callahan, why did you get in the car
- with him if you knew he was drunk?
- 1339
- 01:25:04,766 --> 01:25:07,725
- I don't know, 'cause I was a fucking kid!
- You don't make mistakes?
- 1340
- 01:25:07,811 --> 01:25:11,851
- Why did you get in the car with him
- if you knew he was drunk?
- 1341
- 01:25:11,940 --> 01:25:14,933
- Why would you do something like that?
- Would you do that right now?
- 1342
- 01:25:15,027 --> 01:25:17,735
- Would you get in the car with someone
- who you knew was drunk?
- 1343
- 01:25:19,406 --> 01:25:20,613
- Why did you do that?
- 1344
- 01:25:21,033 --> 01:25:22,399
- I don't know why.
- 1345
- 01:25:22,492 --> 01:25:26,657
- I... I was so fucking drunk.
- 1346
- 01:25:26,747 --> 01:25:28,830
- I was so fucking drunk.
- 1347
- 01:25:28,915 --> 01:25:31,077
- I was drunk since I was a fucking kid.
- 1348
- 01:25:31,710 --> 01:25:34,418
- I was so embarrassing.
- I know, 'cause I didn't...
- 1349
- 01:25:36,882 --> 01:25:42,719
- I didn't feel loved, I didn't feel wanted,
- so I tried to cover up my feelings.
- 1350
- 01:25:43,263 --> 01:25:44,174
- And it worked.
- 1351
- 01:25:46,516 --> 01:25:48,929
- I was born in 1951.
- 1352
- 01:25:50,604 --> 01:25:52,687
- At the old Saint Vincent's Hospital.
- 1353
- 01:25:55,317 --> 01:25:57,809
- I know three things about my real mother.
- 1354
- 01:26:00,489 --> 01:26:01,855
- She was Irish-American.
- 1355
- 01:26:02,532 --> 01:26:03,693
- She had red hair.
- 1356
- 01:26:04,785 --> 01:26:06,401
- And she was a school teacher.
- 1357
- 01:26:09,373 --> 01:26:10,989
- Oh, yeah.
- 1358
- 01:26:12,167 --> 01:26:13,578
- And she didn't want me.
- 1359
- 01:26:26,682 --> 01:26:28,639
- My alienation from my father...
- 1360
- 01:26:29,434 --> 01:26:31,801
- I hated his guts since I was 11...
- 1361
- 01:26:32,771 --> 01:26:34,808
- extended itself to my whole family.
- 1362
- 01:26:37,234 --> 01:26:39,351
- One Christmas...
- 1363
- 01:26:39,444 --> 01:26:40,560
- at the dinner table...
- 1364
- 01:26:41,488 --> 01:26:44,401
- there was a... disturbance.
- 1365
- 01:26:45,867 --> 01:26:49,611
- And Tommy,
- who was some five years younger than me,
- 1366
- 01:26:51,415 --> 01:26:52,451
- screamed.
- 1367
- 01:26:53,208 --> 01:26:57,919
- Whenever my dad
- punished one of my siblings...
- 1368
- 01:27:01,133 --> 01:27:02,465
- instead of me,
- 1369
- 01:27:03,593 --> 01:27:05,926
- it gave me a guilt-free excuse to...
- 1370
- 01:27:07,305 --> 01:27:08,466
- condemn him.
- 1371
- 01:27:09,474 --> 01:27:11,761
- I guess that was a big thing, you know?
- 1372
- 01:27:13,186 --> 01:27:16,099
- I never felt a part of them.
- 1373
- 01:27:17,232 --> 01:27:19,315
- I never felt like I was one of them.
- 1374
- 01:27:22,696 --> 01:27:26,030
- I thought I'd fucking drink my way
- out of those feelings.
- 1375
- 01:27:26,825 --> 01:27:29,659
- I became such a fuck up...
- 1376
- 01:27:32,122 --> 01:27:34,205
- that I won't ever forgive them.
- 1377
- 01:27:38,044 --> 01:27:39,160
- Oh, I mean that...
- 1378
- 01:27:39,504 --> 01:27:41,461
- I mean, they won't ever forgive me...
- 1379
- 01:27:42,883 --> 01:27:46,297
- for all the stupid shit I did.
- 1380
- 01:27:47,387 --> 01:27:48,673
- What'd you just say?
- 1381
- 01:27:48,764 --> 01:27:49,971
- That they won't...
- 1382
- 01:27:50,682 --> 01:27:52,765
- forgive me for all the stupid shit I did.
- 1383
- 01:27:54,978 --> 01:27:57,937
- That they won't forgive you
- or you won't forgive them?
- 1384
- 01:27:59,524 --> 01:28:01,356
- That they won't forgive me.
- 1385
- 01:28:01,443 --> 01:28:03,150
- You said that you won't forgive them.
- 1386
- 01:28:03,570 --> 01:28:06,688
- Okay, well, w-what would
- I have to forgive them for...
- 1387
- 01:28:08,408 --> 01:28:09,489
- forgive them for?
- 1388
- 01:28:10,327 --> 01:28:12,535
- For making you feel like a black sheep.
- 1389
- 01:28:12,621 --> 01:28:15,580
- For not being your real parents,
- for having other children.
- 1390
- 01:28:17,542 --> 01:28:19,750
- Forgiving your birth mother
- for giving you up.
- 1391
- 01:28:24,716 --> 01:28:25,627
- Think about me!
- 1392
- 01:28:26,009 --> 01:28:27,625
- I won't forgive them.
- 1393
- 01:28:30,806 --> 01:28:32,297
- You're right on time, John.
- 1394
- 01:28:32,891 --> 01:28:35,008
- You're approaching the ninth step,
- 1395
- 01:28:35,101 --> 01:28:39,186
- which is where you get to go
- face-to-face with these people
- 1396
- 01:28:39,272 --> 01:28:40,683
- and forgive them in person.
- 1397
- 01:28:43,235 --> 01:28:44,146
- That's it?
- 1398
- 01:28:47,364 --> 01:28:49,151
- I mean, uh...
- 1399
- 01:28:50,200 --> 01:28:51,441
- I kind of thought that my...
- 1400
- 01:28:52,619 --> 01:28:55,453
- group story would end with an epiphany.
- 1401
- 01:28:55,914 --> 01:28:57,075
- Like, you know, I'd...
- 1402
- 01:28:58,834 --> 01:29:01,577
- break down and cry, and-and, uh...
- 1403
- 01:29:02,379 --> 01:29:03,870
- be cured forever.
- 1404
- 01:29:05,966 --> 01:29:06,922
- Nope.
- 1405
- 01:29:07,008 --> 01:29:10,877
- No, I don't feel that different now.
- I don't...
- 1406
- 01:29:13,473 --> 01:29:15,339
- I don't feel like I had the big moment.
- 1407
- 01:29:15,433 --> 01:29:16,719
- This is the big moment.
- 1408
- 01:29:16,810 --> 01:29:20,554
- There's no lightning bolt that shoots you
- and cures all your shit.
- 1409
- 01:29:20,856 --> 01:29:26,693
- There are discoveries and epiphanies
- and moments of clarity.
- 1410
- 01:29:26,778 --> 01:29:28,610
- But this doesn't just go away.
- 1411
- 01:29:30,782 --> 01:29:32,944
- You have to wrestle with this shit every day.
- 1412
- 01:29:33,034 --> 01:29:35,117
- Some of that pain will remain there forever.
- 1413
- 01:29:35,203 --> 01:29:37,115
- Some of that shame will remain there forever.
- 1414
- 01:29:37,205 --> 01:29:40,414
- But you have to fight with it,
- or you'll fucking die.
- 1415
- 01:29:44,546 --> 01:29:45,536
- Thank you.
- 1416
- 01:29:51,595 --> 01:29:52,676
- Mr. Levine?
- 1417
- 01:29:54,389 --> 01:29:55,880
- - John?
- - Yeah.
- 1418
- 01:29:56,892 --> 01:29:58,099
- It's been so long.
- 1419
- 01:29:58,727 --> 01:29:59,808
- Uh, hey.
- 1420
- 01:29:59,895 --> 01:30:01,386
- - How you been doing?
- - All right.
- 1421
- 01:30:01,479 --> 01:30:02,845
- - You still drawing?
- - Yeah.
- 1422
- 01:30:02,939 --> 01:30:05,522
- I remember you back in high...
- in high school,
- 1423
- 01:30:05,609 --> 01:30:07,145
- you had problems with sketches.
- 1424
- 01:30:07,736 --> 01:30:09,147
- But then you got into oil colors,
- 1425
- 01:30:09,237 --> 01:30:10,773
- - and it sort of reversed on itself.
- - Yeah.
- 1426
- 01:30:11,072 --> 01:30:13,109
- You were quite the student back then.
- 1427
- 01:30:14,159 --> 01:30:15,149
- Hey, um...
- 1428
- 01:30:16,786 --> 01:30:18,573
- Hey, I just want to apologize.
- 1429
- 01:30:18,663 --> 01:30:19,699
- Apologize for what?
- 1430
- 01:30:20,373 --> 01:30:21,409
- Well, I was...
- 1431
- 01:30:22,250 --> 01:30:24,993
- I caused some troubles in class, and...
- 1432
- 01:30:25,086 --> 01:30:26,202
- and you didn't deserve that.
- 1433
- 01:30:26,296 --> 01:30:28,583
- And, uh, I felt bad about it, and...
- 1434
- 01:30:29,174 --> 01:30:30,540
- I just want to make amends.
- 1435
- 01:30:30,634 --> 01:30:33,092
- Well, that's great you should say that, John.
- 1436
- 01:30:33,178 --> 01:30:36,091
- Teenagers, you know,
- you go through these stages, so...
- 1437
- 01:30:36,181 --> 01:30:38,764
- I could see potential in you.
- That was the main thing.
- 1438
- 01:30:38,850 --> 01:30:41,263
- I stole a shirt from this store
- ten years ago,
- 1439
- 01:30:42,062 --> 01:30:44,395
- and I'd like to make it up to you.
- 1440
- 01:30:44,731 --> 01:30:46,814
- It would really screw up our books.
- 1441
- 01:30:46,900 --> 01:30:47,981
- Um...
- 1442
- 01:30:48,068 --> 01:30:52,153
- Just give $5 to a charity,
- and that'll make it good, son.
- 1443
- 01:30:54,449 --> 01:30:55,405
- Hey, John.
- 1444
- 01:31:10,757 --> 01:31:12,168
- What do you want from me, John?
- 1445
- 01:31:12,759 --> 01:31:14,967
- Yeah, I was just thinking, you know,
- 1446
- 01:31:15,053 --> 01:31:18,592
- we've had a pretty
- contentious relationship, and, um...
- 1447
- 01:31:19,140 --> 01:31:21,803
- Probably made you feel bad a lot. And, um...
- 1448
- 01:31:22,519 --> 01:31:26,012
- I realize that
- it must be a really hard job, actually.
- 1449
- 01:31:26,398 --> 01:31:30,017
- And, uh, I probably made it more difficult.
- 1450
- 01:31:31,444 --> 01:31:32,480
- And, um...
- 1451
- 01:31:33,655 --> 01:31:35,066
- and I wanted to apologize.
- 1452
- 01:31:35,991 --> 01:31:39,359
- Well, uh, thanks for apologizing. I...
- 1453
- 01:31:39,786 --> 01:31:42,244
- And, uh... sure. I forgive you.
- 1454
- 01:31:44,791 --> 01:31:47,909
- Hey, I made this drawing for you.
- 1455
- 01:31:54,968 --> 01:31:56,504
- Oh, boy.
- 1456
- 01:31:57,095 --> 01:31:59,553
- Well... I don't know, maybe you can help me.
- 1457
- 01:31:59,848 --> 01:32:02,966
- I'm trying to do something
- with Klansmen, like...
- 1458
- 01:32:03,977 --> 01:32:06,185
- you know, just make them, like,
- more human, you know?
- 1459
- 01:32:06,271 --> 01:32:07,853
- - 'Cause everyone always talks about...
- - Klansmen?
- 1460
- 01:32:07,939 --> 01:32:10,226
- Well, no, because people
- always think about...
- 1461
- 01:32:11,234 --> 01:32:15,069
- racists as, like, just this, like,
- pure evil, but they're your neighbors.
- 1462
- 01:32:15,155 --> 01:32:16,737
- I don't know, I guess...
- 1463
- 01:32:17,115 --> 01:32:18,196
- sheets.
- 1464
- 01:32:18,908 --> 01:32:21,992
- Uh... what I like about sheets
- is they're sort of,
- 1465
- 01:32:22,495 --> 01:32:24,703
- like, warm and fluffy when
- you get 'em out of the dryer.
- 1466
- 01:32:27,167 --> 01:32:29,750
- Don't you love it
- when they're still warm from the dryer?
- 1467
- 01:32:30,587 --> 01:32:33,000
- # <i>What's the matter</i>
- <i>With the crowd I'm seeing? #</i>
- 1468
- 01:32:33,089 --> 01:32:35,456
- <i># Don't you know that They're out of touch? #</i>
- 1469
- 01:32:37,719 --> 01:32:40,006
- <i># Should I be A fucking straight-A student? #</i>
- 1470
- 01:32:40,096 --> 01:32:42,884
- <i># If you are then you think too much... #</i>
- 1471
- 01:32:44,017 --> 01:32:46,054
- Dexter?
- 1472
- 01:32:47,479 --> 01:32:50,847
- <i># You can't dress trashy
- Till you spend a lot of money #</i>
- 1473
- 01:32:50,940 --> 01:32:53,899
- <i># Everybody's talking 'bout
- The new sound... #</i>
- 1474
- 01:32:53,985 --> 01:32:54,896
- You don't remember me?
- 1475
- 01:32:56,362 --> 01:32:57,853
- How you doing?
- 1476
- 01:32:59,824 --> 01:33:02,316
- <i># What's the matter
- With the car I'm driving... #</i>
- 1477
- 01:33:03,578 --> 01:33:04,568
- Man.
- 1478
- 01:33:05,747 --> 01:33:08,490
- Um, you know, I'm, uh...
- 1479
- 01:33:09,584 --> 01:33:12,918
- fucking living.
- I'm just fucking doing my thing here.
- 1480
- 01:33:13,379 --> 01:33:15,871
- <i># Nowadays you can't be Too sentimental... #</i>
- 1481
- 01:33:15,965 --> 01:33:16,921
- How you doing?
- 1482
- 01:33:17,967 --> 01:33:18,923
- I'm good.
- 1483
- 01:33:19,677 --> 01:33:20,758
- I'm really good.
- 1484
- 01:33:22,263 --> 01:33:23,174
- Yeah.
- 1485
- 01:33:23,973 --> 01:33:24,963
- I'm sober now.
- 1486
- 01:33:25,517 --> 01:33:26,928
- - No shit?
- - Yeah.
- 1487
- 01:33:28,520 --> 01:33:29,476
- Yeah.
- 1488
- 01:33:29,562 --> 01:33:32,100
- And, uh... it's good.
- 1489
- 01:33:32,190 --> 01:33:33,146
- It's really good.
- 1490
- 01:33:33,900 --> 01:33:35,812
- I've been doing it, too, on and off,
- 1491
- 01:33:35,902 --> 01:33:37,768
- - for, like, the last seven years, but...
- - Is that right?
- 1492
- 01:33:37,862 --> 01:33:40,570
- I'm fucking... I'm a fuck up,
- though, man. I don't...
- 1493
- 01:33:40,657 --> 01:33:41,693
- Ah, it's okay.
- 1494
- 01:33:41,783 --> 01:33:42,899
- I don't stick to it, but...
- 1495
- 01:33:45,120 --> 01:33:47,703
- Buddy, I came this fucking close
- to reaching out to you,
- 1496
- 01:33:47,789 --> 01:33:51,282
- but, uh, you know,
- I just chicken-shitted out.
- 1497
- 01:33:51,376 --> 01:33:53,117
- I'm so fucking glad you're here.
- 1498
- 01:33:53,795 --> 01:33:56,333
- Yeah. You've been on my mind, too.
- 1499
- 01:33:57,257 --> 01:34:00,125
- I just didn't know what to fucking say.
- I was fucking...
- 1500
- 01:34:01,136 --> 01:34:02,798
- I mean, there's nothing I can say.
- 1501
- 01:34:02,887 --> 01:34:04,298
- There's nothing I can say.
- 1502
- 01:34:06,057 --> 01:34:08,014
- You know, what I've been learning is...
- 1503
- 01:34:08,810 --> 01:34:10,176
- I fucked my shit up.
- 1504
- 01:34:10,270 --> 01:34:12,387
- And it started long before I met you.
- 1505
- 01:34:14,315 --> 01:34:15,351
- It's all right.
- 1506
- 01:34:16,359 --> 01:34:17,645
- It is. Don't feel bad.
- 1507
- 01:34:18,111 --> 01:34:21,525
- No, I actually want
- to tell you that I was sorry.
- 1508
- 01:34:22,282 --> 01:34:24,820
- What do you mean? You're not...
- What are you sorry for?
- 1509
- 01:34:25,535 --> 01:34:29,700
- Hey, man, I'm responsible, too,
- and I'm sure that
- 1510
- 01:34:29,789 --> 01:34:31,371
- it's probably really difficult for you.
- 1511
- 01:34:32,000 --> 01:34:33,957
- I mean, all those years, I imagine.
- 1512
- 01:34:34,043 --> 01:34:36,251
- I don't want you to feel guilty or feel bad.
- 1513
- 01:34:36,337 --> 01:34:39,000
- You need to know I had a good life, man.
- 1514
- 01:34:39,924 --> 01:34:41,756
- Really. Things are good.
- 1515
- 01:34:42,844 --> 01:34:43,925
- It's really good.
- 1516
- 01:34:44,971 --> 01:34:46,803
- - No shit?
- - Yeah.
- 1517
- 01:34:46,890 --> 01:34:49,724
- I've had a fucking shitty fucking life, man.
- 1518
- 01:34:51,102 --> 01:34:52,138
- Sorry.
- 1519
- 01:34:53,980 --> 01:34:54,970
- I'm sorry.
- 1520
- 01:34:59,402 --> 01:35:00,358
- Um...
- 1521
- 01:35:05,491 --> 01:35:07,608
- I'm coming in. I'm coming in.
- 1522
- 01:35:09,245 --> 01:35:11,077
- Ah, ah, it's all right, man.
- 1523
- 01:35:21,174 --> 01:35:22,085
- Hi, Mom.
- 1524
- 01:35:25,220 --> 01:35:26,427
- You look pretty.
- 1525
- 01:35:31,643 --> 01:35:34,010
- I guess I have to forgive you
- more than anyone.
- 1526
- 01:35:37,023 --> 01:35:38,309
- I've cursed you.
- 1527
- 01:35:39,359 --> 01:35:40,895
- I've screamed at you.
- 1528
- 01:35:44,530 --> 01:35:46,112
- I never considered what it...
- 1529
- 01:35:47,158 --> 01:35:48,490
- might have been like for you.
- 1530
- 01:35:51,454 --> 01:35:53,446
- Might be it was really difficult
- to give me up.
- 1531
- 01:35:55,166 --> 01:35:56,282
- Or maybe it wasn't.
- 1532
- 01:35:57,835 --> 01:35:59,246
- And that's okay, too.
- 1533
- 01:36:02,715 --> 01:36:03,626
- I guess...
- 1534
- 01:36:06,261 --> 01:36:10,255
- I guess I'll never find you,
- no matter how much I search.
- 1535
- 01:36:11,891 --> 01:36:14,178
- Looking up every Maggie Lynch that I could.
- 1536
- 01:36:16,062 --> 01:36:19,100
- You know, I even found someone that knew you.
- 1537
- 01:36:22,527 --> 01:36:23,813
- I got close.
- 1538
- 01:36:28,032 --> 01:36:29,068
- But, Mom...
- 1539
- 01:36:31,953 --> 01:36:32,909
- wherever...
- 1540
- 01:36:33,413 --> 01:36:34,620
- wherever you are,
- 1541
- 01:36:35,707 --> 01:36:37,118
- I need you to know...
- 1542
- 01:36:40,253 --> 01:36:41,585
- I forgive you.
- 1543
- 01:36:44,465 --> 01:36:45,546
- It's okay.
- 1544
- 01:36:53,558 --> 01:36:55,049
- What's that painting, Donnie?
- 1545
- 01:36:56,477 --> 01:36:57,513
- I don't know.
- 1546
- 01:36:59,897 --> 01:37:03,106
- I got it the same way I got
- all this shit, inherited it.
- 1547
- 01:37:04,694 --> 01:37:05,605
- It's, like...
- 1548
- 01:37:06,696 --> 01:37:08,278
- my grandparents were, like...
- 1549
- 01:37:09,824 --> 01:37:11,440
- fucking really rich.
- 1550
- 01:37:12,452 --> 01:37:14,444
- So, like, my parents grew up rich,
- 1551
- 01:37:15,288 --> 01:37:17,496
- and then, like, I grew up really rich.
- 1552
- 01:37:17,582 --> 01:37:19,915
- It's, like, so stupid.
- 1553
- 01:37:22,420 --> 01:37:24,036
- It's nice, but it's stupid.
- 1554
- 01:37:26,174 --> 01:37:28,632
- Have you visited everyone
- you felt you wronged?
- 1555
- 01:37:29,844 --> 01:37:31,551
- Forgiven everyone you wanted to forgive?
- 1556
- 01:37:32,096 --> 01:37:33,007
- Yeah.
- 1557
- 01:37:33,848 --> 01:37:34,838
- So...
- 1558
- 01:37:35,516 --> 01:37:37,052
- what, I'm all cleared up, huh?
- 1559
- 01:37:38,353 --> 01:37:39,844
- Step ten, next?
- 1560
- 01:37:40,355 --> 01:37:41,345
- What about yourself?
- 1561
- 01:37:43,733 --> 01:37:44,689
- What do you mean?
- 1562
- 01:37:45,109 --> 01:37:46,816
- It's not all about your mother.
- 1563
- 01:37:48,237 --> 01:37:49,819
- You have to forgive yourself, too.
- 1564
- 01:37:52,200 --> 01:37:54,237
- Forgive yourself for listening to Dexter,
- 1565
- 01:37:54,327 --> 01:37:56,284
- forgive yourself
- for going with him that night.
- 1566
- 01:38:06,798 --> 01:38:08,630
- Hello, Brenda. Hello, all my friends.
- 1567
- 01:38:08,716 --> 01:38:11,424
- How are you? It is a great day today.
- 1568
- 01:38:11,511 --> 01:38:13,969
- Hey, what's happening? What's up, John?
- 1569
- 01:38:14,055 --> 01:38:15,842
- Ah, nothing much.
- 1570
- 01:38:15,932 --> 01:38:17,969
- You know, the usual.
- 1571
- 01:38:18,810 --> 01:38:21,143
- Thought you might want
- to take a look at this.
- 1572
- 01:38:21,938 --> 01:38:22,894
- What's this?
- 1573
- 01:38:23,231 --> 01:38:24,312
- Oh, nothing.
- 1574
- 01:38:26,401 --> 01:38:29,610
- Mm-hmm.
- 1575
- 01:38:30,405 --> 01:38:31,646
- That's funny.
- 1576
- 01:38:31,739 --> 01:38:32,650
- What is this?
- 1577
- 01:38:33,116 --> 01:38:34,573
- <i>Penthouse.</i> Oh, wow, that's nice.
- 1578
- 01:38:35,076 --> 01:38:37,284
- - "Well, that's nice"? That's it?
- - It's great.
- 1579
- 01:38:37,787 --> 01:38:39,779
- "This area's patrolled by lesbians."
- 1580
- 01:38:39,872 --> 01:38:41,283
- What are you saying about lesbians?
- 1581
- 01:38:41,958 --> 01:38:43,449
- Are they intimidating or something?
- 1582
- 01:38:43,543 --> 01:38:46,581
- No, it's not... I'm just saying, you know,
- well, maybe they're, like,
- 1583
- 01:38:46,671 --> 01:38:49,539
- naked construction site security...
- 1584
- 01:38:50,091 --> 01:38:51,798
- Very educational article.
- 1585
- 01:38:51,884 --> 01:38:54,376
- Well, it's just a cartoon.
- I mean, it's just supposed to be funny.
- 1586
- 01:38:54,470 --> 01:38:55,381
- Hey, John!
- 1587
- 01:38:55,721 --> 01:38:56,882
- - John!
- - Yeah?
- 1588
- 01:38:56,973 --> 01:38:57,884
- What do you got?
- 1589
- 01:39:00,893 --> 01:39:02,384
- - Are you ready?
- - Yeah.
- 1590
- 01:39:03,646 --> 01:39:04,557
- Take a look.
- 1591
- 01:39:05,481 --> 01:39:07,017
- All right, let me check.
- 1592
- 01:39:07,108 --> 01:39:09,851
- Okay, that's funny.
- 1593
- 01:39:09,944 --> 01:39:10,980
- - It's funny.
- - That's funny.
- 1594
- 01:39:11,070 --> 01:39:11,935
- - Yeah.
- - Yeah.
- 1595
- 01:39:12,029 --> 01:39:14,146
- It is funny.
- Well, why do you think it's funny?
- 1596
- 01:39:14,824 --> 01:39:15,905
- - Oh, wow.
- - It's, uh...
- 1597
- 01:39:17,618 --> 01:39:18,984
- It's funny 'cause it makes you laugh.
- 1598
- 01:39:19,078 --> 01:39:19,989
- It's not that funny.
- 1599
- 01:39:20,413 --> 01:39:22,325
- The joke is funny because of the sign
- 1600
- 01:39:22,415 --> 01:39:26,329
- suggesting that lesbians will
- kick your ass if you cross.
- 1601
- 01:39:26,419 --> 01:39:28,160
- It's-it's unexpected.
- 1602
- 01:39:28,254 --> 01:39:30,246
- It's-it's like a warning sign
- for attack dogs,
- 1603
- 01:39:30,339 --> 01:39:32,080
- - but instead it's lesbians.
- - Thank you.
- 1604
- 01:39:32,175 --> 01:39:34,212
- I mean, for the-the readers of <i>Penthouse,</i>
- 1605
- 01:39:34,302 --> 01:39:38,012
- these men, this-this plays on
- this shared fear of women.
- 1606
- 01:39:38,097 --> 01:39:41,135
- Just this unexpected mutual fear.
- 1607
- 01:39:41,225 --> 01:39:42,136
- I mean, it's...
- 1608
- 01:39:42,768 --> 01:39:45,010
- Wow. I mean, what's scarier
- than a group of women
- 1609
- 01:39:45,104 --> 01:39:46,470
- that don't need men?
- 1610
- 01:39:48,316 --> 01:39:50,808
- It's also just... really fucking funny.
- 1611
- 01:39:50,902 --> 01:39:52,518
- - That's what I think.
- - That is funny.
- 1612
- 01:39:52,612 --> 01:39:54,604
- - I didn't even think about it.
- - The "lesbian," exclamation point.
- 1613
- 01:39:54,697 --> 01:39:56,529
- - Wow.
- - You guys want another beer?
- 1614
- 01:39:56,616 --> 01:39:58,152
- Let me buy you guys a beer.
- What're you drinking?
- 1615
- 01:39:58,242 --> 01:39:59,153
- Uh...
- 1616
- 01:39:59,744 --> 01:40:00,734
- - Gherkin.
- - Cerveza?
- 1617
- 01:40:00,828 --> 01:40:01,864
- - Yeah.
- - You want a cerveza?
- 1618
- 01:40:01,954 --> 01:40:02,865
- - Same. Yeah.
- - That's fine.
- 1619
- 01:40:02,955 --> 01:40:04,241
- Hey, can I get three cervezas?
- 1620
- 01:40:04,332 --> 01:40:06,289
- You know what? Beer for everybody!
- 1621
- 01:40:08,669 --> 01:40:11,503
- Hey, John. What you got for us?
- 1622
- 01:40:12,507 --> 01:40:14,043
- Yes.
- 1623
- 01:40:14,634 --> 01:40:15,715
- This one's great.
- 1624
- 01:40:15,801 --> 01:40:17,793
- - This came for you, John.
- - Awesome. Thank you.
- 1625
- 01:40:32,527 --> 01:40:34,189
- Hey! Callahan!
- 1626
- 01:40:34,278 --> 01:40:35,814
- Loved that lawyer joke!
- 1627
- 01:40:43,663 --> 01:40:46,701
- - Hey. I loved your Jesus joke, man.
- - Ah, really?
- 1628
- 01:40:46,791 --> 01:40:48,783
- Thank God it's Friday.
- 1629
- 01:40:50,419 --> 01:40:52,661
- Your cartoons are sickening.
- 1630
- 01:40:52,755 --> 01:40:54,587
- You should be dropped from the paper!
- 1631
- 01:40:56,384 --> 01:40:57,215
- She was really mad.
- 1632
- 01:40:57,301 --> 01:40:59,884
- Yeah. I like those reactions
- the best, though.
- 1633
- 01:40:59,971 --> 01:41:01,712
- You know? She's really telling it like it is.
- 1634
- 01:41:02,765 --> 01:41:04,381
- Over here?
- 1635
- 01:41:05,560 --> 01:41:07,222
- - You know what I mean?
- - Mm.
- 1636
- 01:41:07,311 --> 01:41:08,973
- They've been in ten different bands.
- 1637
- 01:41:09,397 --> 01:41:11,480
- Yes!
- 1638
- 01:41:11,566 --> 01:41:12,807
- That's what I'm talking about.
- 1639
- 01:41:12,900 --> 01:41:14,766
- "Harmonious male backpacker..."
- 1640
- 01:41:14,860 --> 01:41:16,647
- Oh. My God, Annu, look at this.
- 1641
- 01:41:16,737 --> 01:41:18,444
- "Harmonious male backpacker
- 1642
- 01:41:18,531 --> 01:41:21,274
- into making 16th-century stringed instruments
- 1643
- 01:41:21,367 --> 01:41:23,950
- seeks radical feminist
- household which will not
- 1644
- 01:41:24,036 --> 01:41:26,073
- tease me about my testicles."
- 1645
- 01:41:27,373 --> 01:41:29,114
- I mean, is this fucking real?
- 1646
- 01:41:29,208 --> 01:41:31,040
- It doesn't seem that strange, John.
- 1647
- 01:41:31,127 --> 01:41:31,992
- It doesn't?
- 1648
- 01:41:32,086 --> 01:41:33,418
- You're just living in the past.
- 1649
- 01:41:34,088 --> 01:41:35,545
- I'm living in the pa... Oh.
- 1650
- 01:41:46,517 --> 01:41:47,678
- Bye for now.
- 1651
- 01:42:08,039 --> 01:42:09,325
- I got you.
- 1652
- 01:42:12,501 --> 01:42:13,833
- Are you working on your sobriety?
- 1653
- 01:42:15,338 --> 01:42:16,624
- Still working on it, man.
- 1654
- 01:42:18,924 --> 01:42:20,335
- Finishing all the levels?
- 1655
- 01:42:21,344 --> 01:42:24,303
- Yep. I spoke at a meeting last week.
- 1656
- 01:42:24,388 --> 01:42:25,970
- - John.
- - Yeah.
- 1657
- 01:42:27,141 --> 01:42:29,133
- That is great.
- 1658
- 01:42:30,269 --> 01:42:31,885
- I love step 12.
- 1659
- 01:42:31,979 --> 01:42:33,220
- Yeah, I mean...
- 1660
- 01:42:34,482 --> 01:42:36,940
- I was nervous, still, but...
- 1661
- 01:42:38,486 --> 01:42:40,068
- I don't know, giving back.
- 1662
- 01:42:42,657 --> 01:42:43,898
- You forgive yourself yet?
- 1663
- 01:42:46,661 --> 01:42:47,697
- I think so.
- 1664
- 01:42:49,372 --> 01:42:50,954
- What'd you forgive yourself for?
- 1665
- 01:42:53,125 --> 01:42:55,242
- I forgave myself for...
- 1666
- 01:42:56,712 --> 01:42:58,248
- looking for better babes.
- 1667
- 01:43:03,260 --> 01:43:05,343
- Did I ever tell you how I stay sober?
- 1668
- 01:43:06,180 --> 01:43:07,136
- Tell me again.
- 1669
- 01:43:10,559 --> 01:43:12,846
- I was with someone for a long time.
- 1670
- 01:43:15,731 --> 01:43:17,893
- He was great. He was a really sweet person.
- 1671
- 01:43:20,361 --> 01:43:23,354
- But I was... I was very selfish.
- 1672
- 01:43:27,576 --> 01:43:28,908
- I was very fucked up.
- 1673
- 01:43:32,206 --> 01:43:33,117
- And, uh...
- 1674
- 01:43:33,958 --> 01:43:36,575
- he... uh, he came home one day,
- 1675
- 01:43:37,253 --> 01:43:39,666
- and I was having a seizure on the floor.
- 1676
- 01:43:40,381 --> 01:43:41,462
- And...
- 1677
- 01:43:51,308 --> 01:43:53,641
- When I get close to wanting a drink,
- 1678
- 01:43:54,145 --> 01:43:58,014
- I... I don't think of myself or my life.
- 1679
- 01:44:03,279 --> 01:44:04,645
- I think of him.
- 1680
- 01:44:06,449 --> 01:44:07,530
- His face.
- 1681
- 01:44:16,375 --> 01:44:18,367
- I don't know how many, uh...
- 1682
- 01:44:19,837 --> 01:44:21,954
- more of these talks
- we're gonna have, 'cause...
- 1683
- 01:44:23,632 --> 01:44:26,591
- I'm seeing the gymnasts on the lawn, John.
- 1684
- 01:44:28,929 --> 01:44:30,090
- Don't say that.
- 1685
- 01:44:35,394 --> 01:44:37,135
- A big part of this program
- 1686
- 01:44:38,230 --> 01:44:40,347
- is losing people you don't want to lose.
- 1687
- 01:44:47,531 --> 01:44:49,693
- Being a model to the world...
- 1688
- 01:44:53,162 --> 01:44:56,405
- eternal virtue will be yours,
- 1689
- 01:44:57,583 --> 01:44:59,666
- and you return to the boundless.
- 1690
- 01:45:02,046 --> 01:45:03,127
- Lao-Tzu.
- 1691
- 01:45:04,006 --> 01:45:05,417
- Chuck E. Cheese.
- 1692
- 01:45:17,228 --> 01:45:19,015
- I think I'm still a little selfish.
- 1693
- 01:45:19,772 --> 01:45:21,809
- I was helping you guys a lot, 'cause...
- 1694
- 01:45:22,566 --> 01:45:23,932
- it was helping me.
- 1695
- 01:45:24,026 --> 01:45:25,938
- My 12th step, being a sponsor.
- 1696
- 01:45:30,449 --> 01:45:32,532
- You were such a pain in the ass, John.
- 1697
- 01:45:33,536 --> 01:45:34,572
- I'm sorry.
- 1698
- 01:45:35,663 --> 01:45:36,904
- You're the best, Donnie.
- 1699
- 01:45:37,957 --> 01:45:38,993
- You really helped me.
- 1700
- 01:45:39,708 --> 01:45:40,869
- You helped all of us.
- 1701
- 01:45:42,795 --> 01:45:45,082
- It is hard teaching people faith.
- 1702
- 01:45:55,850 --> 01:45:56,806
- Give me a hug.
- 1703
- 01:46:02,648 --> 01:46:03,559
- Come here.
- 1704
- 01:46:09,113 --> 01:46:10,024
- Drink water.
- 1705
- 01:46:10,656 --> 01:46:11,567
- You, too.
- 1706
- 01:46:12,366 --> 01:46:14,949
- It doesn't work.
- 1707
- 01:46:15,536 --> 01:46:16,947
- It really doesn't.
- 1708
- 01:46:18,581 --> 01:46:19,697
- <i>Adios, amigo.</i>
- 1709
- 01:46:21,250 --> 01:46:22,161
- - Yeah.
- - Yeah.
- 1710
- 01:46:22,251 --> 01:46:25,289
- He used to wear these
- really, really cool scarves.
- 1711
- 01:46:25,379 --> 01:46:26,870
- Yeah, he looks like a wizard.
- 1712
- 01:46:26,964 --> 01:46:28,956
- Yeah, Donnie got really sick over time.
- 1713
- 01:46:29,466 --> 01:46:31,924
- - And he discovered he had AIDS.
- - Mm.
- 1714
- 01:46:32,219 --> 01:46:34,176
- That was the last time
- I saw him before he died.
- 1715
- 01:46:34,722 --> 01:46:35,633
- - Oh.
- 1716
- 01:46:35,931 --> 01:46:36,842
- - Yeah.
- - The truth...
- 1717
- 01:46:36,932 --> 01:46:38,673
- - Yeah, the truth hurts.
- - Yeah. Yeah.
- 1718
- 01:46:38,767 --> 01:46:40,008
- Unfortunately.
- 1719
- 01:46:40,102 --> 01:46:41,718
- So, do you want to come
- to the skate ramp with us?
- 1720
- 01:46:41,812 --> 01:46:44,270
- - Yeah.
- - Yeah, absolutely. Where is it?
- 1721
- 01:46:44,356 --> 01:46:45,767
- Uh, it's down the block, actually.
- 1722
- 01:46:45,858 --> 01:46:47,440
- - Show me the way.
- - Yeah! It's there.
- 1723
- 01:46:50,362 --> 01:46:51,523
- - That way.
- - That way?
- 1724
- 01:47:13,969 --> 01:47:17,553
- I'd like to thank all those who
- made it possible for me to be here tonight.
- 1725
- 01:47:33,697 --> 01:47:34,608
- I feel...
- 1726
- 01:47:36,909 --> 01:47:39,868
- stimulated, magical.
- 1727
- 01:47:41,205 --> 01:47:43,822
- At night, I seem to think more clearly.
- 1728
- 01:47:44,541 --> 01:47:47,659
- <i>I work hard, but it doesn't feel
- like work to me.</i>
- 1729
- 01:47:50,631 --> 01:47:53,419
- <i>The intellectual clutter of the daytime hours</i>
- 1730
- 01:47:53,509 --> 01:47:57,128
- dissolves from my mind,
- which moves in an almost...
- 1731
- 01:47:57,972 --> 01:48:00,214
- instinctual, animal way.
- 1732
- 01:48:02,017 --> 01:48:03,133
- I'm happy.
- 1733
- 01:48:04,937 --> 01:48:08,647
- I don't care that the job
- or the welfare office
- 1734
- 01:48:08,732 --> 01:48:10,849
- is giving me gray hairs, because...
- 1735
- 01:48:13,487 --> 01:48:18,027
- ideas and images are flowing through me
- 1736
- 01:48:19,118 --> 01:48:20,529
- and onto the paper.
- 1737
- 01:48:23,539 --> 01:48:26,077
- I'd like to thank
- all those who made it possible
- 1738
- 01:48:26,166 --> 01:48:27,407
- for me to be here tonight.
- 1739
- 01:48:31,296 --> 01:48:32,707
- Because if it weren't for you...
- 1740
- 01:48:34,925 --> 01:48:36,257
- I don't think I would have made it.
- 1741
- 01:49:14,631 --> 01:49:16,213
- - Yeah!
- - Yeah!
- 1742
- 01:49:16,300 --> 01:49:17,131
- Oh.
- 1743
- 01:49:17,217 --> 01:49:18,378
- - That was good.
- - Yeah, John.
- 1744
- 01:49:18,469 --> 01:49:19,676
- - Get it!
- - Yeah!
- 1745
- 01:49:19,762 --> 01:49:20,627
- Whoo!
- 1746
- 01:49:20,721 --> 01:49:22,883
- - Oh. Uh-oh.
- - Oh!
- 1747
- 01:49:24,349 --> 01:49:26,386
- - Gnarly!
- - You all right?
- 1748
- 01:49:26,477 --> 01:49:28,343
- Let's go, get him up.
- 1749
- 01:49:28,437 --> 01:49:29,973
- - Get his, get his shoulders.
- - You okay?
- 1750
- 01:49:30,064 --> 01:49:31,851
- Here. Hold up. Uh...
- 1751
- 01:51:19,214 --> 01:51:25,051
- <i># I met you on a highway night #</i>
- 1752
- 01:51:25,429 --> 01:51:29,639
- <i># Inside a Texas rain #</i>
- 1753
- 01:51:31,560 --> 01:51:36,897
- <i># The year that Mama lost her mind #</i>
- 1754
- 01:51:37,524 --> 01:51:42,360
- <i># And Papa went insane #</i>
- 1755
- 01:51:43,614 --> 01:51:48,359
- <i># And Papa went insane #</i>
- 1756
- 01:51:52,789 --> 01:51:58,251
- <i># You took me on a Texas trail #</i>
- 1757
- 01:51:58,921 --> 01:52:02,915
- <i># Laredo to Larue #</i>
- 1758
- 01:52:04,927 --> 01:52:10,468
- <i># It took me all those Texas towns #</i>
- 1759
- 01:52:10,974 --> 01:52:15,218
- <i># To fall in love with you #</i>
- 1760
- 01:52:16,939 --> 01:52:21,024
- <i># To fall in love with you #</i>
- 1761
- 01:52:25,906 --> 01:52:31,447
- <i># The babies came in winter time #</i>
- 1762
- 01:52:32,037 --> 01:52:36,122
- <i># You settled by the stove #</i>
- 1763
- 01:52:40,879 --> 01:52:46,091
- <i># You played a song that seemed so long #</i>
- 1764
- 01:52:46,718 --> 01:52:51,133
- <i># About a road you drove #</i>
- 1765
- 01:52:52,641 --> 01:52:57,181
- <i># About a road you drove #</i>
- 1766
- 01:53:01,858 --> 01:53:06,102
- <i># Once you spoke of Paris #</i>
- 1767
- 01:53:07,197 --> 01:53:11,487
- <i># And Mama said to you #</i>
- 1768
- 01:53:13,745 --> 01:53:18,240
- <i># There's a Paris far away #</i>
- 1769
- 01:53:19,334 --> 01:53:23,920
- <i># And one in Texas, too #</i>
- 1770
- 01:53:25,340 --> 01:53:30,085
- <i># And one in Texas, too #</i>
- 1771
- 01:53:34,224 --> 01:53:40,095
- <i># The moon has set inside the pines #</i>
- 1772
- 01:53:40,605 --> 01:53:44,770
- <i># Your sleep is soft and slow #</i>
- 1773
- 01:53:46,611 --> 01:53:51,481
- <i># When you leave me, leave me here #</i>
- 1774
- 01:53:52,242 --> 01:53:56,452
- <i># In Texas when you go #</i>
- 1775
- 01:53:58,040 --> 01:54:02,876
- <i># In Texas when you go #</i>
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