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yesterday offered and I look so gross

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okay so about it so where you go here

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when I live streamed yesterday you know

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I was so gross that's first what's the

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to I'm so sorry so no a lot of people

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aren't here so basically yesterday I

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explained my situation with the ABS it

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went on my handle is so gross I hate my

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hands bye so yeah I explained the odd

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thing oh my gosh

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I knew talking about it would get this

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kind of like these kind of reactions and

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stuff

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people like thinking they're so funny

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because they're saying something stuck

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over me like wow cool you know anyways a

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lot of people were like you should um

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I'm so embarrassed by this like you

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should

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oh my gosh I hear my voice that's gross

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I thought I'd turn this down all the way

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all right

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oh my gosh can I like die I want to die

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okay so what I talked about yesterday

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people were like yeah they they were

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like you shouldn't you should message

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Shane Dawson about this fuck up Ethan is

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my god you should have messaged Shane

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Dawson about this so maybe he can like

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expose musically and um so I couldn't

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last night so this morning my phone was

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broken look at this this thing right

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here was broken so I was gonna

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livestream me typing it out and stuff

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but I couldn't um phone was broken and I

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fixed it like later on so um I typed out

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a really long email to - Shane's um

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email thingy or whatever that what cuz

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everyone's like use this email to

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contact Shane something like all right

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cool I'll do that

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so I spent two hours writing out the

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message and I went to send it and oh my

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gosh I can help it didn't send because

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the email doesn't exist and I got I

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literally got the right email and

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everything I did everything correctly I

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think and it said this email isn't

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taking messages right now I was like oh

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shit you know I just this what was that

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supposed to me

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yeah probably so that's fun I I guess I

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can try

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GM's but I doubt that'll work so I mean

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yeah oh my gosh am I gonna have to like

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fog for this okay yeah I was hoping he'd

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explode musically and give them a really

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bad reputation but not Kevin I know I

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was like you know and then I saw like

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after I wrote it I still has video and I

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felt bad so I'm just like it's better

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than I it's like for the best of Athens

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some dicks

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you know like Oh live with the ABS I'll

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deal with my frickin direction it'll be

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fine yeah I mean just want to let y'all

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know oh my gosh Frank another problem

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that I said like in the email is that I

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can't block people in here like I can

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block them for a day or a week or so and

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then their page will be right back

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like they'll be unblocked I don't know

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how but they're not blocked anymore so

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it did that keep showing up and saying

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all these things about me it's like

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showing up with the same account that I

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blocked him with yesterday and I noticed

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this happen like a lot so um yeah

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musically musically journey really sucks

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like it seriously just really like I

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can't even blog people on here it is so

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bad I don't okay yeah that's cool um my

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music shut off that's a little foot

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so yeah I enjoyed on the other side

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hence the name I just okay thank you

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very much I dislike it right now cuz

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this is over awesome shut the fuck up

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before this what a god eat like I forget

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I can't say these things I'm sure it was

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so ugly right now kind of gross am i I

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can say that though I shaved my head I

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slightly did and I'll do it again and I

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just like the fact that shit bitch guys

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eyebrows like a lot the only reason I

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did it was for my etiquette cosplay I

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shaved I literally just fucking machine

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come off and I regret --ax I look so

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ugly without makeup and everything is

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like you know so I'm glad I have like

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bangs to hide my rest

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you know I mean

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thank you so much oh good I'm looking

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sick I'm looking at ill I looked

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genuinely like you know like I just came

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out of hospital push it

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thank you I don't know I had a bouncer

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name um I won't call your mom okay mama

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something thank you very much I really

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appreciate it

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record is pretty talking about Apple

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well here's the thing that the reason I

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shaved them I've tried this extinct blue

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thing like so many times

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thank you for concert Viking something I

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can't sit this day thank you I I tried

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the glue thing I literally tried a bunch

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of tries to believe my eyebrows down it

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didn't it didn't work like at all it's

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just it looks really rough and gross and

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I tried it a bunch of times it didn't

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work so I just I got so frustrated

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issues Imam Ali

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so you know who doesn't work for me

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what's wrong with your eyebrows

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and like quitting that seems to be a big

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question and keep getting asked in the

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comments some videos I'm I don't know

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I'm going on like a don't quit I don't

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know I think I'm going to I'll tell you

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I'm so embarrassed why do you have to

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like catch me on my ugliness I I really

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do honestly want to quit and just like

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stop cosplaying completely you just

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ended honestly like that's it I mean

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what's the point

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shut up oh my god what's the point of

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staying on here if I'm trying to be

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dramatic what's the point of staying on

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here if I'm just gonna constantly get

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sexually crossed over and over and I'm

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gonna propose to porn sites and I'm just

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gonna be everywhere but what the fuck is

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the point of that it's me it's basically

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fault honestly I wish I could do

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something so awful to them that's not

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bad you reading them leave each so

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fucked it's like yeah I genuinely

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genuinely genuinely hate musically and

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take talk whatever that's stuck okay it

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is so unfair that they've done this to

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me like you know it's caused so much oh

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my god okay

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seriously I want to quit I want to just

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stop I want to leave and I want to

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delete all my videos and I want to just

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die honestly I'm so done with it it's

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disgusting I want to end it but I can't

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because there's no point in endian

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because even if I delete my entire

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account nothing is gonna happen

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they'll still use me for ads but they

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still have my Roxy means going out of

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there who are still gonna find my house

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they're still gonna harass me they're

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still gonna do these things to me so

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there's no point in like deleting it you

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know like I can private my account I can

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do all these things but I have to go

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through freaking six hundred thousand

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people and blog little old man that's

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not possible

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I could try but it's not possible I

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can't you know I don't forget it you

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know I I can't just I can't quit

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no I want to quit really bad I want to

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stop because cosplaying isn't funny

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anymore it's so anyone we just awful

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it's horrible for me and I but I spent

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so much money you would costumes and

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wigs and like lenses and if you know

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like there's nothing I can do

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exactly

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it ended very abruptly because I guess

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musically did like the fact I was

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trash-talking now

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okay the columns are working on this

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look at this that's fun yeah it said I

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did something he gets to Community

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Guidelines so you know um that's fun I

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guess

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this is pilots I'm goin down fite

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thinking about this song so much

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basically really hates me they do not

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want me talking about them actually this

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morning I'm going to see if they respond

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to it which I that they didn't smile at

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they respond I know I wasn't expecting

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you sweat the show sucks

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I don't and the channel that posted my

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videos never not taking down even though

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somebody says like they really count

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they took down they never got taken down

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so I don't know what that's about that

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that sucks

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yeah probably if it's not raining I'm

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going to cross by a Todoroki tomorrow I

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think it depends it's been the weather's

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been really bad

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yeah don't work Todoroki guess yes I did

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allow Homestuck nerd to post it but I I

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didn't expect it to get that much

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attention and they really needed to take

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him down because oh my gosh I don't even

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was gonna have to walk back I think okay

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I did allow them to post it but I need

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them to take it down as soon as possible

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because um I are a lot of harassment

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from that video it's not Homestuck nerds

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fault like at all I assure this username

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it's not their fault at all like I mean

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I gave them permission to post it but I

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needed to take it down because of course

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I can't do anything without getting

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harassed and so yeah

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hey any videos of me on youtube take it

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down like immediately I been like all my

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friends have been requesting them like

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the people with our videos still up to

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take their videos down but they aren't

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listening of course so there's nothing I

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can really do

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I don't know what I know like why can't

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people just like respect me I so upset

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last night

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just thinking about it because I kept I

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don't know it hurt to think about

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because there are really pathetic people

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out there who do this a lot knowing like

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to underage people they do this quite a

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lot so you know I mean like how can some

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be like excess like help people just

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like how can people live with themselves

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knowing they like harass with kids

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online and like that's disgusting no and

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it's like it's always old men they think

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they're so funny and they're so like

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cool and it's so disgusting it's really

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really disgusting you know

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I don't know it's like I can't do

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anything without getting harassed like

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anything at all I can't quit like

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nothing will work I can't quit because

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people still have my videos out there if

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I die and I it won't make a difference

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if I freakin if if something happens no

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matter what I do it's not gonna solve I

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don't know what I'm sister supposed to

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do because I can't do anything you know

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because there's always gonna be people

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out there who say these things it's all

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music Lee school it's all this stupid

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obstacle because they use me without my

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consent

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I don't know I can't do anything

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I'm gonna quit when I'm older I'm just

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gonna like drop off the face of the

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earth when I'm a little nervous

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what's the point I mean like cuz you

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know like I said when I'm older

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yeah

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so yeah there's nothing I can do when

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I'm older I'm gonna quit cosplay I'm

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just gonna like completely stop good

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after that I'm not gonna be protected

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anymore I'm stuck

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oh look like he's finally of age we can

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do like whatever we wanted and was like

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you know I I'm gonna quit I'm just gonna

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stop and gonna like stop existing

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completely nor internet nowhere nothing

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that's it like I'm done I don't know

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what I'm supposed to be doing now

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something you really can do now so you

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know yeah I am ugly I'm just gonna like

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quit everything I'm just stop my

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existence completely because we don't

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when I'm older it's it's gonna wait get

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worse it's definitely gonna get worse so

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cosplaying I'm just probably gonna get

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rid of all my cosplays think you'll be

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all my social medias and like that's it

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like you know that's all I said I was

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everything was like I agree yeah I mean

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like nothing else I can do it's not

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definitely not gonna get better when I'm

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older so I'm just gonna like keep I

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don't know like keep

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I'm not sure what I'm saying right now

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but so yeah I mean like I'm done I'm

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done with it I'm just not gonna do it

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anymore I'm gonna do what just happened

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[Applause]

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yeah I hope like people buy my cost he

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was when I get rid of that like I'm only

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gonna give myself um yeah so I'm just

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gonna stop everything like that's it

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I mean I'll keep going till them like 17

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or maybe 16 and that's it I'm just not

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gonna do it anymore I'm gonna like like

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climb a tree or something I don't know

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like yeah it's just

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hopefully over but a lot laughs I guess

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so

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I mean yeah we're gonna keep doing it

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for now but we're holders there's no

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point

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[Applause]

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[Music]

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yeah I don't know what I'm gonna do in a

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wall I think I'm just I mean I always

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hoped job like you know like cost they

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would become like my own a job or

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something I don't know like I learned it

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to have something to do with like cost

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you stuff for like acting or something

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like that but that's I can't let that

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happen

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no it's not it's not going to be will

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happen so yeah just I don't know

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[Applause]

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they're also to be doing that

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I don't know I mean like I'm going

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insane like literally going insane cuz I

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keep doing this and I keep cosplaying

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and keep like you know I keep it's just

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driving me insane so that's costly

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enough fun it's awful I mean like other

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people it's great but to me it's it's

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this awful thing it's disgusting and the

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thing is I thought Homestuck would be

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like when the safest based cosplay

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because like it's Homestuck I mean like

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not it's you know I mean I care Lee

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described as a few moments it's not um

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something Isis but you know I thought

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it'd be like kind of protected I guess

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like you know I just I thought it was

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gonna be safe so I would stuff like you

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know home soak it's gonna be safe it's

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it's gonna be great um but then my Roxy

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that's what has ruined me completely so

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yeah I mean a whole SEC isn't that safe

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anymore it's bad for me um it's you know

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like I've been I haven't been doing

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Homestuck I haven't done that in a while

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I was thinking about doing like a troll

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or something but you know I don't know

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about that anymore I don't know about

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like anything about that you know it's

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bad so I don't know what's a good job I

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mean no idea

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just like I don't know you're just kind

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of stuck

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McDonald's oh great I love McDonald's

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sure have you ever been to McDonald's in

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like two years so I mean at least I have

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Shane Dawson to comfort me

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I'm older watch those videos over and

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over again because that's been doing

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right now yeah um

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no I don't want to do anything where

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there's like like acting is not a choice

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anymore in cosplay isn't a choice like

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putting myself out there is Dawne choice

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I can't put myself out there anymore you

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know so no I'm not gonna do acting I'm

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not gonna cosplay I'm not gonna do

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anything that involves you know putting

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myself out there or anything like that

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you know join the military I just might

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honestly I think a little too um insane

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for the

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no I'm not gonna do anything involving

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the internet that's the last thing I

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want to do so love animals bad I love

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animals but I can't stand hearing

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animals a hearing and it was like in

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pain or like anything like that I can't

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do anything like advanced and it has to

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be something like I don't know

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no I'm supposed to be doing I mean like

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I thought I'd always be kind of

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cosplaying

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but work with Chris Hanson oh yes I

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freaking I will honestly like come on

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does he still like make things or

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something costume designer are no I

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still always want to be a therapist I

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mean like those were my main things like

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before I started cosplay or whatever I

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was like are they therapists like I want

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to help people like I wanna I want to

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figure out people's problems and like

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help them because I I've always been

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kind of um street smart I guess I just

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think I was actually smart and I was

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like no you're not I'm just like okay so

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maybe like a therapist or something but

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I'm not even good at like helping myself

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so I don't know how I'd help other

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people yeah it can be like scary so not

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that I've got nothing left

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[Music]

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so yeah like yeah I'm homeschooled so

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it's not like I have like friends or

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like anything like that's it I'm gonna

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have one but we never hang out we have

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about like a year old I talk sometimes

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so you know there's kind of nothing I'm

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too dumb for everything so oh yeah I'm

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your lanky I don't know my battery's

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dying it's like 10% I mean if I if the

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stream randomly shuts down that's why

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but um yeah I guess I'll quit one roller

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[Applause]

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you know like Burger King freak yes I

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will I will literally work there I did

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there at your blade my gosh there is a

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one girl I thought checked I was like

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[Applause]

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yeah I guess no more cosplaying when I'm

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older that's gonna be like the most

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dangerous thing ever for me chick-fil-a

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guys Thank You Justin so I have like a

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essential thank you very much

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[Applause]

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yeah I'm freaking all my friends and my

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family's like I should go to college but

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like then I think cranek so I don't know

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I am so awful so dumb like honestly am i

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stupid

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wait what why would you bring it up dude

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anymore so sorry Hanna shouts official

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boyfriend later yeah so yeah um no I

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don't know

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I'm tube dumb let's go school I hate the

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fact that I'm like I don't wanna hear

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any more of it's too late it'd be awful

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if I went to school now at this age with

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this much anxiety like that would

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actually look poopy Hospital I mean like

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what is there to do just I mean a lot of

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people

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[Applause]

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oh no I mean like other people nowadays

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their job involves like social media

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like putting themselves out there like

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youtubers I'm like like other users

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stuff like that

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I do like drawing but I'm not that good

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at it I'm pretty freaking awful so um

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now they interest me like at all

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why doesn't I paint my walls orange I

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want to look good see I'm looking at

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this I'm just like that looks nice I

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should paint walls yeah I could find

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something new but I I doubt myself I

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have no talents there's nothing I can do

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I should like nevermind musically it's

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gonna like destroy my life show again um

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a hallmark reader yeah why not you know

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like

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[Applause]

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[Music]

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so I mean I guess that's it for me um I

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don't really cook when I'm like 7 km

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something you know I thought I'll be it

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for me if I still forget nothing

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oh just oh my gosh ma'am

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summing accounts you forget you're

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freaking harassing that's annoying gosh

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um yeah that's it I'm just that's it I

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gotta go now

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yeah I mean like enjoy my videos mildly

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laughs they're gonna be here that long

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yeah I'm gonna go but thank you for

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joining and you know support yeah I just

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saw you eat myself boy now for my

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battery dies thank you