five minutes to friday: on differentiating deaths

There are two deaths: the death, and the true death

the death is the one most commonly experienced by those who inhabit this world, i.e. the one you are likely to be anticipating as of right now. the thing is, that death is nothing but a death of your self; the death of you, as an abstract; you, as something that was in the process of being made. when you "die", you are finished. there is nothing left to add, at least not within your power.

and then you are born again.

you wont remember, likely, who you were before. there are things that can be done to recall the iterations, but i find this to be a waste of time. you aren't full the things you were, anyway. not simply in a physical sense, either, but in more of that ethereal sense, you are recycled up with quite a few other things when being created into a new existence.

when lost in this ephemeral realm, it is easy to find oneself into the trap of reincarnation. it is not. it is more like recycling. you are thrown in with everything else in a timeless space and then redistributed back into the world in a new pattern.

the same, but different.

the other kind of death is the true death. this death occurs when there is no recycling, when the energy/signal/broadcast/wavelength/supernova fades. so in this, the death is absolute, and there is no returning from it. like when a fire burns out, it cannot be rekindled in the same way as there is only ash. even to put gasoline on would merely create a moment where the last bits of the original wood are immolated in their entirety. one has to build a new fire after that, no question.

the true death is the one i seek.