Hey, sorry to bother you again, like I say I know you've said not to message you about relationship things but I just wanted to say this one last thing regarding everything.

These past few months haven't been easy for me I've been struggling with my phsycial and mental health a lot and I'm trying my best to better my life. I also think your exams didn't help the whole situation as we've not been spending time together because of that and it's been stressing you out. Not seeing each other in 8 months has played a bit part in this whole situation and I feel had we seen each other sooner we wouldn't be apart now.

I acknowledge that I've had my faults in the relationship, we both have. I think the main reason we had arguements or either one of us got really angry was because we were playing competitive games and not spending as much time together, I know that I spent far too much time on World of Warcraft when I should of been spending it with you so I sincerely apologise for that. In the beginning of the relationship I realise the reason we both worked so well was because it was just me and you, spending alone time together. We didn't have anyone else interfering and we had the time for one another. We would spend all of our time together and that's what made the relationship really work well because we both listened to one another, we physically saw each other on cam and we really had that deep connection that made us fall in love. When we've been on Discord in group chats we don't speak to each other on a personal level and I think that's something we should of addressed. I also feel like when we would argue or fall out instead of addressing the issue we had would blame one another and not really talk about it and resolve it so it would never get fixed. We would get upset and then make up without talking about things in a mature way and that's important for a relationship so we can move forward.

In a text you wrote to me earlier this week you said "You don't deserve to have your heart broken all the time and be played with" and that I'd have to give you a "good reason" to take me back.

I know I've said in the past that I wouldn't break up with you again and no matter what I say it will be hard for you to believe that I won't do it again, I've never wanted to not be with you but the reason I've broken up in the past was because I wasn't happy with the relationship and we weren't fixing our issues.

I should of been more vocal and explained to you how I truly felt, I'm sorry for what I've put you through and if you could forgive me, I promise this wouldn't happen again.

If we both sit down and talk about what we really want from the relationship, we can make it work and be happy together. I've took on board what you've said about being a better listener and I will listen to everything you say in a calm manner.

I'm sorry for shouting at you and getting angry I realise that it really hurt you, regardless of what happens YOU made me realise that this is a problem I have and I am going to improve it the best I can.

The past few days have made me realise what you and this relationship truly mean to me, I've not been the man that you deserve and need I understand that now and if you considered giving me another chance I'd be more patient with you, spend more time with you and quit World of Warcraft as I see now that it was negatively effecting our relationship.

I'm not asking you to rush back into a relationship with me as I think that would be too sudden for both of us, but I do truly believe we can work this out. I would like you to really think about this whole situation and really think about how we can be happy again like we once were in the beginning, by making the changes I've listed above I feel like this would fix our relationship. I'm asking you to give this and us a chance, by doing so I can prove to you that I have changed and I will be the Jamie that you fell in love with and the partner you deserve, I really want to prove to you that I can make you happy.

I will never break your heart in this way again and honestly I didn't know that you said if I break up with you again that it would be the last chance but regardless I shouldn't of taken it for granted. I promise you that I will never break up with you again and if we argue in future that I will discuss things with you and give you the respect you deserve.

Thank you for all the memories we've had over the past few years, you've been amazing and I'll never forget you. You're an amazing, beautiful women on the inside and outside and regardless of what you respond to this you deserve the world.

I hope that you can find it in your heart one last time to give me one last chance, I promise I won't let you down. You'll always have a special place in my heart.


Just wanted to add that the reason I wouldn’t do it again is because I realise what I’ve put you through these last few days it’s been hell for me. I’m really sorry from the bottom of my heart and I understand truly how you feel. So I’d never play with your heart like that again. I’m so sorry that I have caused you this pain and I hope you can love me once again.

If you still decide that you’d like to continue without me, know that I’ll always be here to support you and chat if you need me. I will always love you and you’ll always be special to me.

Additionally, I think it would of been really good for both of us to get away and enjoy a break together in Spain. We would make amazing memories that would last a lifetime and I truly think you’d be happy.

I keep thinking back to holding you tightly in my bed with your head on my chest whilst I comfort you and gently kiss your head. These moments I will miss forever.

I will miss your parents a lot too as they’re very kind and lovely people. I hope your dad sorts his drinking out so he can be there for you to support you and your mum.

Just remember as well whatever decision you make you don’t have to do this alone and I’ll be there for you. Please don’t shut me out as I’d still love to be in your life as you’re a big part of me. The cards, paintings/pictures and everything you’ve gave me I’ll treasure them forever. They were made with pure love and will always be close to my heart.

This is the last time I will ask you to reconsider everything and give me another chance. But like I say please really think about what you’re doing as we could have an amazing life together. I know if you decide not get back with me that I’ve tried my best to convince you to forgive me and I’ve gone out fighting for you. Of course this will take some work but you’re not alone and I’ll be with you every step of the way.

I do think we should try and sort this out as we never truly gave that a shot by doing so we would both finally get that closure that we needed. I want to prove to you that I’ve changed.

Sorry to message you again as I said I would give you space and I will just I’ve been thinking really hard about this whole situation and wanted to add this final piece.

Additionally my Mum got rushed into hospital today as they think she has a bleed on her brain. They’re not 100% sure but she’s going to find out ASAP. I would ask for your support but I don’t want to bother you when you need space right now.

Again message me when you’ve thought about it, thank you.