<sampletext> so, needed to get away from it all
<sampletext> i hope none of you think you were the cause
<sampletext> because that is 110% not the case
<Caku> awwwww
<sampletext> its relieving to be around real friends, not fake ass scumbags who make my situation worse
<sampletext> cant even put into words how much i missed you all
<sampletext> srsly
<sampletext> <333333333333333333333333333333
<grit> sheeiit man that clonazepam hit me like a cannonball
<grit> gonna blog about it
<jihad> giv klonopin
<grit> for Cocku
<jihad> well welcome back sampletext
<grit> jihad: uhm
<grit> i would send you some
<jihad> FBI NOTE: NO HE WOULD NOT
<grit> but it should be some better package
<Eismc2> sampletext: :[ i'm sorries, sampletext
<Eismc2> mayb e it will start gettin better
<grit> not one bottle
<jihad> https://twitter.com/wvualphasoldier/status/954241838990479360
<sampletext> i wanted to stay away from any potential drama faggots so that i could put all my time and energy into *actually* getting the fuck out of this total hellhole, and also to get away from the fake friends that say theyre going to help me but dont have any actual intention to.
<sampletext> thanks a lot jihad
<sampletext> i missed you ;3
<sampletext> guess my nick got dropped
<sampletext> :(
<grit> jihad: we may talk about that later
<jihad> NO
<sampletext> fucking GABE
<Caku> God i'm gonna get ryan in here
<jihad> lol
<grit> maybe we will figure out something
<jihad> NO
<gabe> SAM
<jihad> STOP
<gabe> SAM
<jihad> STOP IT
<jihad> YOU'RE NOT SENDING ME PILLS
<jihad> lol
<grit> stop what / who
<gabe> get ryan in here
<Eismc2> lmao
<sampletext> ryan was one of the major reasons i wanted to stay away for so long
<grit> lol ok whatever
<grit> u said it
<Eismc2> sampletext: what happenedw ith that
<jihad> yeah you're right
<sampletext> he bluffed me for years about helping me
<Caku> sampletext, no worries he's broke
<Eismc2> well
<Eismc2> yeah
<Caku> btc fell to shit
<sampletext> and made a shitload of more drama and bullshit for me over NOTHING
<sampletext> so yea, fake friend
<Eismc2> sampletext: he's an interesting one for sure
<Caku> I heard otherwise
<sampletext> i have far better ones than that
<jihad> anyone that goes by ryan on the internet is not to be trusted
<jihad> i tried to tell you
<jihad> ;_;
<sampletext> and will be spending my time around them from now on
<sampletext> ive known him for many years jihad
<sampletext> and know more about him than i think anyone else
<Eismc2> you think that
<sampletext> so it would follow...
<sampletext> but i guess not
<Eismc2> but people are
<Eismc2> ...
<Eismc2> well
<Eismc2> yeah
<jihad> reserved is a good way to put it
<jihad> without the negative connotations that he deserves
<sampletext> i dont call anyone who dangles my livelihood in front of my face like that a friend
<sampletext> god
<Caku> did you get a job
<jks> OOOOOOOOOOOOO
<sampletext> you guys have no concept whatsoever how bad it is here
<jks> OKIFHDAOSIFHWFIOWEFQWEf
<jks> DUUUUDEEEE
<jks> sampletext:
<jks> wb
<sampletext> no Caku im a cryptotext now
<sampletext> jks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
<sampletext> wow all my friends are all here at the same time
<sampletext> :D
<sampletext> i missed the fuck out of you jks
<sampletext> <333333
<jks> :D
<jks> SAME
<jks> <3
<jks> dude
<jks> get on discord
<sampletext> srsly you guys are the realest friends
<jks> same
<sampletext> nah i cant do discord
<jks> where were you?
<sampletext> little too much more me right now lol
<sampletext> here, daytrading
<jks> crypto?
<sampletext> staying away from the pieces of shit that caused me stress and drama for nothing
<jks> dude lol
<jks> discord is a different game
<jks> i use it for VC
<sampletext> yea, holding 460 lumens atm
<jks> its great
<jks> what are lumens
<sampletext> XLM
<jks> and what are they worth
<sampletext> i think .50 right now
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<sampletext> we should start a crypto channel
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<Caku> yes please
<jks> join buttcoins
<jks> #buttcoins
<jks> hmm
<beefcake> this sounds complicated
<jks> but the only crypto nerds are you and me
<Caku> it was buttcons
<sampletext> but honestly i was really, really down for a long time with all that shit hitting me at once - inescapable drama and stress, and the realization that who i thought was my best friend was actually just a complete fraud
<sampletext> god damn what a relief to be back here
<Caku> Ryan still comes in here sam
<jks> sampletext: i had an ongoing mental break down also but i still was on irc
<sampletext> i wont be talking to him anymore
<sampletext> hes not a real friend
<sampletext> just pretends to be
<Eismc2> yeah
<sampletext> same with bae
<jks> hmm
<sampletext> shes a piece of shit too
<jks> ok so
<jks> did irc leak out in the real world?
<sampletext> ive just been so mentally exhausted from everything compounding that i just couldnt deal with any of this
<beefcake> it seems like it did in america
<beefcake> jks
<sampletext> jihad didju unregister my nick?
<sampletext> :(
<Eismc2> sampletext: couldhave told you that
<jks> typical jihad
<Eismc2> considering who she runs with
<Caku> 6month ruule sampletext
<jihad> no if happens automatically if you don't use it for X number of days
<jks> nah the nicks direg if not used for a period of time
<sampletext> ah word
<sampletext> fuck :3
<jks> yeah
<jihad> confirmed your nick sampletext
<sampletext> cant believe i wasted so much of my time and energy on such fake people
<sampletext> thanks buddeh <3333
<Eismc2> sampletext: happens
<Eismc2> sampletext: just look at me
<Caku> fake people
<Eismc2> sampletext: i was marrie dot jackal
<sampletext> not gonna happen again tho
<Eismc2> for years
<jihad> Eismc2: never heard of em
<sampletext> yea i know emmi but im much more strict than most people for who i choose to get close to
<sampletext> so it is unlike me to be in such situations
<sampletext> never
<sampletext> ever
<sampletext> again.
<Eismc2> sampletext: happens
<sampletext> damn im really sorry for being gone for so long, or at least not stopping in and confirming that im alive lol
<Eismc2> you're alright
<jihad> also can we confirm this is sampletext
<sampletext> i did have a few police incidents tho, so paranoia reached critical mass
<Eismc2> oh that's lovely
<sampletext> i think ive proven i am the real sampletext lol
<jks> sampletext: ok spook stories time
<jks> the other day i said
<sampletext> alright....
<sampletext> get this shit
<jks> get sampletext on the phone
<jks> and you showed up like
<jks> today
<sampletext> so i live in a townhouse
<sampletext> and on one side is a family of indians who own the dunkin donuts down the street from me
<sampletext> and on the other side, a couple who have a daughter
<sampletext> dont know anything about em, dont really care
<sampletext> so a few months ago, i saw a ton of cops surround my house and block the cars in
<sampletext> and i yanked my laptop out of the wall and threw it into my backpack and ran out my back door
<jks> that explains the paranoia you had before leaving
<sampletext> ran down to the library, and tried to figure out wtf was going on
<sampletext> checking news, etc.
<sampletext> so i went back a few hours later after scoping it out, and realizing that my house wasnt broken into
<jks> HEADLINE NEWS; local maniac hiding in library
<sampletext> so i asked my mom what the fuck happened
<sampletext> and she was like
<sampletext> "oh the neighbors overdosed"
<sampletext> that explains them in front of my house
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<sampletext> but i didnt see the ambulance come because my first instinct was to get up and run asap lol
<sampletext> this happened like 3 more times
<jks> thats why you need to update your *nix and use a word deanonizer
<sampletext> i reformatted tho ;p
<jks> good
<sampletext> yea even tho it was just a case of white trash junkies overdosing a few times, it still has me really paranoid
<sampletext> so yea it fucked me up for a long time lol
<sampletext> and like just a month before that, one of my best friends died from a heroin overdose
<sampletext> which was like 3 weeks after my stepmom died
<jks> .........
<sampletext> so yea lots of shitty things in sampletext's life
<jks> 1000% drama everywhere
<sampletext> yea dude tell me about it
<jks> lol
<sampletext> and then fake ass faggots like ryan and bae go and make more for me over absolutely nothing
<zaiger> anyone got 20 they can lend us on gaypal
<sampletext> and then wonder why i dont talk to them~
<sampletext> omg its fkn zaiger
<sampletext> ZAIGER
<zaiger> HI
<sampletext> HOW DID THINGS GO?!?!?!?!?!
<zaiger> sampletext:  <3
<sampletext> <3333333333333333333333
<zaiger> im well, just findraising to pay the site shit
<zaiger> fundraising
<sampletext> glad everytrhing is still around bb ;3
<sampletext> jihad rereg'd me, can i has ops back pls
<zaiger> yeah of course
<zaiger> yeah sure
<jks> sampletext: bonzi was on a few days ago for asshurts irc memorial
<zaiger> !access add sampletext 9
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<jks> hes a different man
<sampletext> wewwww
<sampletext> i never knew asshurt
<Eismc2> h zaiger
<sampletext> but ill give condolences for everyone else
<jks> sampletext: you were never on #rustleleague?
<sampletext> nah
<beefcake> soon we can rehost the site on the internet 3.0!
<zaiger> h Eismc2
<jks> could've swore you were
<sampletext> my life's been pretty fucked up for a long time dude, i never really had the time to play around like that
<sampletext> :/
<jks> :/
<sampletext> now my only chance of getting out of this fucking hellhole once and for all is with crypto
<Eismc2> i went to the memorial
<Eismc2> it was sad, but cathartic
<sampletext> i invested $60 into lumens and now im way up
<Eismc2> and turned into a really good time
<sampletext> good to hear it turned out ok emmi
<sampletext> i thought about you guys every single day FYI
<sampletext> but yea, things are not good at all for our hero sampletext
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<sampletext> but i wanted to be around REAL friends to get me feeling a little happier
<sampletext> after all this fucking shit happened to me
<jks> hahah
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<sampletext> jks i figured you were a whale by now ;3
<sampletext> and where the fuck is darkmage
<Caku> mike is installing znc
<gabe> i actually havent seen darkmage in a long ass time
<jks> sampletext: sold everything because of UNI
<Caku> or learning how to make ascii
<jks> i swear to god i would've had like 3 btc if it wasnt for uni
<sampletext> NUUUUUUUUUUU
<sampletext> dude fuck skool
<jks> and around 10 if i were more carefull on what i wanted to experiment with 2012
<sampletext> crypto = retirement
<jks> sampletext: dude
<jks> even that chumchange
<sampletext> i want to see you retired and living your dream jks
<sampletext> same with you gabe
<sampletext> i missed the shit out of you, you fuck
<sampletext> srsly
<sampletext> <333333
<jks> that was floating on my pool hub i used to mine had like ~20$ there
<gabe> <3333
<jks> lol
<sampletext> gahhhhh this is everything i needed
<jks> gabe: i think you came in later after sample disapeared
<gabe> jks: did you get angery when bitcoin collapsed?
<gabe> actually no
<jks> gabe: happy
<sampletext> im very sincerely sorry to have worried you all and gotten you down perhaps
<jks> because i have some cash
<jks> that im saving
<gabe> i was here way before he went "missing"
<jks> for crypto
<gabe> i used to talk to him
<jks> sampletext: there are other oportunities i wanna pursue
<jks> like i need to learn german and move to austria soonish
<sampletext> but you need lots of money mate :(
<zaiger> anyone help a website out with a cloudflare bill, need 20 bucks on paypal
<jks> sampletext: i know how to croundfund
<jks> i know the jewish basics
<sampletext> hahahahahahaha
<jks> i mean
<jks> i see you slinging dick
<jks> EZ
<jks> tb fair
<jks> i never lost on crypto
<jks> like all my losts were sub 10%
<jks> biggest win was x3 my shit
<tiresias> nice
<sampletext> but dude how are you gonna make anonymous purchases without monero ;3
<jks> o man
<jks> yeah true
<sampletext> THATS THE BEST COIN EVER LOL
<jks> im more focused on lightning network
<jks> thats how :3
<jks> have you read the white paper and how it works
<sampletext> i wish i had a computer to mine with
<sampletext> cant do shit on this homoerotic laptop
<sampletext> i dont think so tbh
<jks> sampletext: honestly mining is nigger work
<jks> cornbread crypto basics
<sampletext> dude you just sit there lol
<sampletext> its the best job ever
<tiresias> is btc mining even worth a shit anymore
<sampletext> make money doing nothing
<sampletext> yea no one would mine btc tiresias
<sampletext> we mean mining altcoins
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<tiresias> i see
<sampletext> altho monero's difficulty shot way up recently
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<jks> sampletext: yeah but like i dont wanna play farmville with coinminingwatch.com and min-max my mining all weekend like i used to
<sampletext> TOYDRAGON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
<sampletext> TOYDRAGON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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<sampletext> omfg
<jks> 3 month card returns like fuck those days are over
<sampletext> i missed you so much bofhers <333333
<jks> now its 10 months return
<sampletext> yea :/
<sampletext> im in an irc with some old warnetters who are all trying to get rich off crypto
<sampletext> so they been helping me
<sampletext> but i help lots too
<toydragon> sampletext YOU"RE BACK!
<jks> sampletext: pm me the room
<sampletext> i wanna set something like that up for all my cryptobros here
<jks> can i lurk?
<sampletext> now that im in the thing
<toydragon> nice nice
<sampletext> ofc jks
<toydragon> one of them found me earlier
<toydragon> i told 'em to give you a gif
<sampletext> yea toydragon im back for good now, i left because of all the drama that fake "friends" like ryan and bae made for me
<sampletext> on top of a truckload of RL drama and funerals
<toydragon> oh
<sampletext> yea, overwhelmed with stress and had to leave
<jks> you know
<jks> all this shit you've been telling me
<jks> dwarfs my current problems
<jks> like my biggest problem rn is
<jks> debating on to shave off my beard or not
<jihad> heh i've been debating the same thing jks
<jihad> well maybe not all of it
<sampletext> i didnt iamgine you to be a bearded man m'jks
<tiresias> i shaved it off recently
<sampletext> jihad you know better than to do that.
<tiresias> it itches
<sampletext> >:(
<sampletext> you are our resident beardliest
<jks> sampletext: yeah in looks i have two options
<jks> 1) baby man face
<jks> 2) .c programmer from the 90's
<jihad> yeah sampletext i want to keep my beard but idk planning on flying soon and contemplating shaving my beard down more to try and not get "special" treatment at the airport
<sampletext> LOL
<jks> hard pick tbh
<sampletext> dude i always keep my face cleanly shaven
<gabe> i have a beard
<gabe> i hate it
<jks> jihad has an old java 3.0 beard thing going on ever since i knew him
<sampletext> im trying to buy a laser hair removal device to keep it that way too haha
<sampletext> nah jihad's beard is some gentoo shit
<jks> yeah lol exactly
<tiresias> gentto lunix
<jihad> i trimmed my beard kind of recently
<jihad> for family christmas, actually lmao
<jks> sampletext: like i have that thing where i cant actually get any hair on my cheeks
<jks> that bugs me
<wilirc> isn't shaving how terrorists make some of their final preparation?
<gabe> the only reason why i dont shave
<jks> and i can grow a weak cat whiskers mustache
<gabe> is because im lazy af
<tiresias> same
<jks> tiresias: honestly
<jks> what i saw on tinychat that day
<jks> was p similar to what i have
<jks> except longer
<tiresias> what i had?
<jks> the cat whiskers on your face lol
<tiresias> lmao
<tiresias> yeah
<tiresias> its longer now