Wyatt Chat log

.Wyatt: I'd like to start this of by saying that I am not writing this to be unbanned from the server or anything like that. I just am really feeling bad about how I made you feel. I know that I made a real jackass with myself and definitely should have stopped all this bullying when the rule came out. I don't know what kept my going. I flew too close to the sun and now I reap the consequences. I didn't mean any of the trap stuff personally against you, it's just that you seemed like you ran with the punches in the beginning. I intended to make these jokes in a playful matter, but now it's apparent that I eat being just crude and mean. Hindsight is twenty twenty, as they say. Another reason I focused on you is that you were always so friendly to all the people on the server, as far as I know. Some of the other staff members were just very direct when it came to dealing with me. At the time I just felt they were being rude but I realize that it was mostly justified.

.Wyatt: That's part one, give me a sec

.Wyatt: I'm on my phone and discords character limit is small

Dawn Felstar:  same here

.Wyatt: I just feel like with some staff like you and xenon I had a more friend like relationship with when compared to other staff members who were just not able to tolerate my admittedly, pretty awful behavior at times. .

.Wyatt: I don't have a concrete answer as towhy my attitude was so unacceptable on the server, but I have a few ideas. I know the last thing you want to hear is my whining but I think I just need to tell someone about this, since it's been on my shoulders for a while. I recently graduated high school and I'm going to start college in less than a month.  I try to paint myself in a light of calmness and tranquility for my friends and family to keep them calm, because some people in my life are pretty worried about things going on right now. In actuality, I'm as panicked, if not more than most of them. This is a whole new experience for me and I feel like I'm so unprepared for everything. Another source of stress for me is a falling out between me and my best friend of 5 years. He recently told me that he loved me and wanted to be in a relationship with me but I was really not into the idea. I was afraid of our friendship not being the same. I was also still coming to terms with my sexuality and not many people that I knew at the time were aware that I am bisexual so that was a whole ordeal. But since he asked me out things have not been the same. We haven't talked the whole summer and I think he's just trying to cut off all ties with me. This plus the whole college thing is driving me crazy but I feel like I can't let anyone know about it. I guess what I'm saying is that like many people close to me like my family don't know what's completely going on with my life, I don't know what's going on with other people's lives, including yours. I just can't imagine what it's like to put up with my  constant tormenting and bullying. I really feel bad about how immature and stupid I was acting and I know I need to apologize to you.  I completely understand if you're still upset and don't accept my apology but I just needed to get all this off my chest. I'm so sorry about what I put you through and I really hope you feel better

.Wyatt: Alright that's it. It's a little difficult for me to re access this account since it's going through a VPN, fake email, phone browser, and more

.Wyatt: So if you added me as a friend on my.normal.account I could.pm you there too

.Wyatt: But I'll just keep the phone screen open on this for now

.Wyatt: And uh, id also appreciate if no one else knew about some of the stuff I said here, so like if you could just keep it on the DL I'd immensely appreciate that :smiley:

Dawn Felstar:  ok, so i accept your apologies but i cant un ban you as what your account had been leading up to was kinda bad. I mean goodness, my boyfriend was furious and kinda upset and the rest of the server thought that it was justified.

Im nice to eveyone because I can understand some things that others cant, i usually sit on the fence about things and when it comes to the server and making sure that everything goes smoothly i make sure i have the best Community presence i can. I have a sort of persona on the server, its very similar to my normal personality but i try my hardest to not swear there because i know what my position is, in personal servers i dont hold back.

Anyhow. I will be sharing this with the rest of the  staff and my boyfriend and thats it. I will ask that they keep on the down low about it but like i said, im not unbanning you. I hope you find another Comunity to join. Cya

.Wyatt: Very understandable

.Wyatt: Also I sent this to you in a dm on Reddit because I wasn't sure if I'd be able to communicate with you through discord. So you can ignore that

.Wyatt: Would it be too much for me to just say bye to a few people on the discord server on this account? If not that is perfectly fine

Dawn Felstar:  i use discord more but i would have seen the reddit dm just not any time today as i usually check once a day

Dawn Felstar:  Um, hmm u guess i could let you but keep in mind you should just say goodbye and leave as if a mod other than me notices you will get banned again. Probably should send then via dms

.Wyatt: Understood, thank you

.Wyatt: Alright, I'm done. Bye Dawn, keep making the server a better place