TrivialYesterday at 9:28 PM
this joke seriously needs to end
its not even a joke
cause they actually thought I was abusing my dog
its the most fucking idiotic shit ever

ZhaenYesterday at 9:29 PM
I was afk when someone started it
I was like wtf did you guys say

TrivialYesterday at 9:29 PM
yeah and then they actually thought I was abusing my dog
fucking washey or whoever started this shit
I am literally going to beat the shit out of them
man
I just want it to stop
I come home from work and have these things said behind my back and I feel like every little thing I might mess up with wishbone makes me an animal abuser
I don't know what to do
I love wishbone I just want it to stop

TrivialYesterday at 9:43 PM
I don't know what to do justin
everytime I try to vocalize my discomfort with something the arguing meme comes into play or any number of other things to belittle my point comes into play
I am actually having a breakdown right now
cause I don't know wtf to do
It gotten to the point where I feel like everyone actively goes away from me because they think I am some sort of narcissistic animal abuser.
because these memes have existed for years and I can't tell anyone to stop because it just makes it worse
like because I have voiced my level of discomfort with being called an animal abuser I will now not hear the end of it forever
and then it becomes true to everyone who hears it
peter literally knew jack shit about my situation and thought I should get rid of wishbone
can you please just talk to me?
I am not really even mad right now
I am just extremely sad
I can't really control my emotions

ZhaenYesterday at 9:54 PM
was in a league game
gimme a minute

ZhaenYesterday at 10:03 PM
u wanna talk?

TrivialYesterday at 10:07 PM
ya I don't know I just got off the floor
I don't know if I am having a breakdown or something but I can't stop crying
another problem is I don't know if anybody who started this stuff will ever have a reasonable conversation with me. I am expected to be perfect, but I am also belittled by everyone.
I never asked for any of this shit
I am fine with being made fun of, but to this degree I just can't handle anymore
I was ignored by my own roommates for almost 2 months
I might still be being actively ignored
I can't tell anymore
I feel like no one legitimately enjoys talking to me

ZhaenYesterday at 10:14 PM
tyler^2 are acting like children

TrivialYesterday at 10:14 PM
I can't handle this anymore

ZhaenYesterday at 10:15 PM
I tried telling them to just fucking talk to you about whats bothering them
I dont know what to do there
sorry

TrivialYesterday at 10:16 PM
they just hate me or something
I don't know what I did

ZhaenYesterday at 10:16 PM
im sorry they were being cunts today I was afk when the shots were fired

TrivialYesterday at 10:16 PM
but its a point of hatred what they do to me
I don't get how peter mutes cliffie for lacking empathy towards dog owners
and then comes around and says I am abusing wishbone with no knowledge
that was his and your main reason for hating cliffie so much
and then he comes around and fucking does this and doesn't see how it makes me feel
the dude behaves like a trash human being and then stands up on a morale podium and judges sinners

ZhaenYesterday at 10:21 PM
was making coffee sorry
yeah no one likes to be told they're mistreating their dog
it makes you mad
I got really mad with the shadow doesnt even know his own name thing
I get it
but if instead of responding with
fucking kill yourselfs
or deflecting to tyler is a worse dog person than me
you could have tried to be heartfelt with them
I think that could work

TrivialYesterday at 10:23 PM
With nick and peter?

ZhaenYesterday at 10:23 PM
yeah

TrivialYesterday at 10:23 PM
a heartfelt conversation with them ends with them muting me
or joking about muting me

ZhaenYesterday at 10:24 PM
you dont know until you try

TrivialYesterday at 10:24 PM
also I know I fuck up with her and fuck up with my emotions sometimes which is why it hurts.
cause little fuck ups make me feel like I am actually abusing her
and I can't handle situations perfectly everytime

ZhaenYesterday at 10:24 PM
I know
when its a little bit of truth it hurts alot more
when people would insult shadow or loki

TrivialYesterday at 10:25 PM
I miss one of my three walks with her

ZhaenYesterday at 10:25 PM
I would get more mad because there was a bit of truth
its work with dogs and its hard

TrivialYesterday at 10:26 PM
the difference is no one is making fun of nova who you started training recently loki and shadow you had since you were kids.

ZhaenYesterday at 10:26 PM
ive gotten pretty decent but buddy still isnt perfect

TrivialYesterday at 10:26 PM
nova is like the perfect dog in everyones mind

ZhaenYesterday at 10:26 PM
buddy still chews on couches when hes having temper tantrums

TrivialYesterday at 10:26 PM
and wishbone is considered a trash dog

ZhaenYesterday at 10:26 PM
people are always gonna compare
you dont need to listen to them
nova isnt perfect
been working on her heel
but its hard when ive been depressed

TrivialYesterday at 10:27 PM
but the only difference is jordan isn't in here telling everyone you are actively ignoring and abusing her.

ZhaenYesterday at 10:27 PM
she pulls so much

TrivialYesterday at 10:27 PM
to the point where ignoring wishbone is now a meme

ZhaenYesterday at 10:28 PM
is that what was said at first
cause I was telling them that you werent abusing her
like jesus thats so far over not being perfect
you'll get better at it
keep going to puppy classes

TrivialYesterday at 10:29 PM
like I feel like I am doing everything that other dog owners do
I am not the dog whisperer
but she is well behaved to a certain degree
more well behaved than my dachshunds at my moms house

ZhaenYesterday at 10:29 PM
I dont like that trainer you were seeing
the retirement home to me is like shadow and loki
you love them but you wish you did better by them
and you feel sad and guilty about it

TrivialYesterday at 10:31 PM
Idk I read 3 walks is fine for her and she has been fine in my room. So when washey and tyler think she is being cooped up in my room all day I am actually playing with her most of the time

ZhaenYesterday at 10:31 PM
thats good

TrivialYesterday at 10:31 PM
She almost knows fetch really well
and release

ZhaenYesterday at 10:31 PM
im happy you took my advice to walk her more
like really

TrivialYesterday at 10:31 PM
but like it doesn't matter
because I do all of this
and I am still treated like shit
like I am an animal abuser

ZhaenYesterday at 10:32 PM
you aren't

TrivialYesterday at 10:32 PM
I am to everyone that washey or tyler told I was

ZhaenYesterday at 10:32 PM
talk to them

TrivialYesterday at 10:32 PM
they don't listen to me
thats literally the meme

ZhaenYesterday at 10:32 PM
I can come mediate if you'll get them to agree

TrivialYesterday at 10:33 PM
I already messaged them
they may talk to me they may not
but I sent them
TrivialToday at 9:31 PM
whether it was you or washey that spread this meme that I am abusing wishbone I just want to let you know that I am actually crying right now because I don't know how me taking wishbone on 3 walks a day and loving her warrants being called an animal abuser
I am just actually really hurt right now
I am doing my best
and I just want it to please stop

ZhaenYesterday at 10:33 PM
btw you should go to petco dog training
its actually solid
thats pretty heartfelt
might work
its frustrating because they wont stop acting like children  and communicate

TrivialYesterday at 10:37 PM
idk peter or nick won't talk to me again
after I flipped at them

ZhaenYesterday at 10:38 PM
I dont even know if its better to let it cooldown with them or not
cause its gonne be another stupid meme

TrivialYesterday at 10:38 PM
like dude they do it because they are gratified by everyone else that its a good thing
so its just a circle of shit

ZhaenYesterday at 10:40 PM
gratified by everyone else that its a good thing
what do you mean by that

TrivialYesterday at 10:40 PM
laughter or in general people complicit with the shit they spew
it just lets them think that everyone is fine with this shit
the circlejerk shit has chased away so many people from wanting to hang out in the discord.
probably for similar reasons as to me

ZhaenYesterday at 10:42 PM
who else besides cliffy did it chase out?

TrivialYesterday at 10:42 PM
drew, nick, bryan to a certain degree
I mean it doesn't have to be a lot
to be a problem
idk if this hypocritical animal abuser thing is the new meme about me I am done
I can't be around that

ZhaenYesterday at 10:44 PM
yeah I feel you

TrivialYesterday at 10:44 PM
peter and you literally ostricized cliffie for the reason of lacking empathy to animal owners
and then he turns around and thinks that a meme that lacks empathy to an animal owner is fine to spew
its fucking disgusting
like it should be a clear cut you know maybe zak has a point here
but no instead I got the "yeah your always right zak" meme that happens whenever I might have a legitimate point
also everyone just running away to another discord
instead of talking to me

ZhaenYesterday at 10:47 PM
I just left
you kept telling people to kill themselves

TrivialYesterday at 10:47 PM
I told nick to do that

ZhaenYesterday at 10:47 PM
I was like im not dealing with this

TrivialYesterday at 10:48 PM
because he is a vitriolic cunt
who has done similar things to people out of nowhere
first thing he says to me in like weeks is don't you need to go ignore wishbone more
that was last week
then he sits here and does it again
with peter this time
he knows jackshit about everything and thinks being vitriolic and stupid is the nature of being funny
and maybe that is the case in that discord
so I just gave him a taste of his own medicine for like a minute
and then everyone all of the sudden thinks I am going too far and leaves
dude does that shit daily
no one leaves
how many times has nick told like everyone to kill themselves
and then I tell him to do it and I am a fucking lunatic
it feels like there is a double standard because there is
I am expected to act a certain way and just let everyone act their own way and then minute I act their way we gotta go

ZhaenYesterday at 10:54 PM
there is a difference between sarcastically saying kill yourself
and growling kill yourself
you had actual inten
or it sounded like it
so I was out

TrivialYesterday at 10:55 PM
so nick didn't have intent in raid when he told jofu to kill himself?
while he was mad