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  1. [1/19/2015 9:36:33 PM] Scoots: Hello?
  2. [1/19/2015 9:38:38 PM] EC - Personal: Heya Scoots. Sorry for disappearing for a while there. How's everything with you?
  3. [1/19/2015 9:39:02 PM] Scoots: I'm doing fine, just that a lot of people have been really worried about you
  4. [1/19/2015 9:41:57 PM] EC - Personal: Yeah, I've kinda been distracted with irl stuff for the past week. Finally got a bit of a break, and worked up the motivation to start being more active again.
  5. [1/19/2015 9:42:52 PM] EC - Personal: I'm glad to hear that you're doing well, though. I missed talking with you, Will, and Durgon.
  6. [1/19/2015 9:43:38 PM] Scoots: Well, I do have things to note a bit first, I think I might be the only one around at the moment, Will went out to eat and Durgon is probably on his walk right now
  7. [1/19/2015 9:43:49 PM] Scoots: Unless you don't want to hear them, that is fine.
  8. [1/19/2015 9:50:58 PM] EC - Personal: I can wait until they get back if they're away. I've really been wanting to hear from them as well.
  9. [1/19/2015 9:51:23 PM] Scoots: Actually well about Will
  10. [1/19/2015 9:51:56 PM] Scoots: ... He does know if he can speak to you much when your emotions explode because it's very hard for him to handle
  11. [1/19/2015 9:55:39 PM] EC - Personal: I understand. I don't want to upset him again like that, so if he doesn't feel like chatting at the moment, then it's fine with me.
  12. [1/19/2015 9:56:21 PM] Scoots: Also had a talk with Durgon yesterday
  13. [1/19/2015 9:56:34 PM] Scoots: And boy does he miss you
  14. [1/19/2015 9:56:56 PM] Scoots: It was a pretty long talk.
  15. [1/19/2015 10:01:39 PM] Scoots: So why are you tired?
  16. [1/19/2015 10:03:22 PM] EC - Personal: Yeah, I can imagine. And it's just some irl stuff that's been going on recently that's been stressing me out a bit. Things are doing a bit better now, but me and my dad will likely have to move to a new home soon.
  17. [1/19/2015 10:03:45 PM] Scoots: Your dad and you?
  18. [1/19/2015 10:03:55 PM] Scoots: Aren't you trying to cut ties with him?
  19. [1/19/2015 10:05:37 PM] EC - Personal: Yeah, but our current situation is kinda making that difficult. See, the property owner is trying to sell the house while we're still living in it...so, we're thinking about leaving before that happens.
  20. [1/19/2015 10:06:22 PM] Scoots: That is a bad idea, do not do that unless you can financially keep stable enough to live
  21. [1/19/2015 10:12:00 PM] EC - Personal: We don't have too much of an option. If the land-owner sells the house, then we'll be forced to leave anyways. He's already sending potential buyers over to show the house to them while we're still here. That way, the house looks much nicer and 'lived in' then if the house was empty. Plus, the heating system failed, and he's stalling on getting it fixed because it might cost a lot.
  22. [1/19/2015 10:12:37 PM] Scoots: Ugh... I wish I knew what to do.
  23. [1/19/2015 10:12:49 PM] Scoots: And I'm still in the military.
  24. [1/19/2015 10:18:49 PM] EC - Personal: It's all pretty complicated, and that's just one side of it. But it's fine; me and my dad will just have to find another place to live, and then soon after that, I'll move out on my own.
  25. [1/19/2015 10:21:06 PM] Scoots: That just sounds like you going to be twice as busy trying to get out there on your own
  26. [1/19/2015 10:22:19 PM] Scoots: Because I've noticed you Pateron is losing money
  27. [1/19/2015 10:22:28 PM] Scoots: Your only getting 60 a month
  28. [1/19/2015 10:32:49 PM] EC - Personal: Yeah, it'll definitely complicate things with my moving out, but unless I can earn enough to move out on my own before the house is sold, I won't have much choice in the matter. And yeah, Zakk had to take his patreon donation out back in November because of his job, and Duino pulled out probably because of the upcoming Christmas holiday I think. I'll be reviving my Patreon soon with some new ideas and comics that I've been wanting to do, and Zakk said that he'll be giving money again as well.
  29. [1/19/2015 10:34:43 PM] Scoots: Alright, I'm just more worried that you bite a lot more than you can chew with all you get on your plate mate.
  30. [1/19/2015 10:36:16 PM] EC - Personal: You're right, I kinda have a bad habit of taking on too much at one time. That impulse is really something that I need to work on controlling more in the future, to help reduce stress.
  31. [1/19/2015 10:36:38 PM] Scoots: Cause I had a talk with Durgon about that and a few others.
  32. [1/19/2015 10:36:47 PM] Scoots: You like to please people huh?
  33. [1/19/2015 10:38:57 PM] EC - Personal: Yeah, and I've been trying to change it for a while now.
  34. [1/19/2015 10:40:19 PM] Scoots: It's something you really shouldn't be trying to solve on your own either, a lot of your friends care, because that thing is like at an extreme level with all the raffles and gift art.
  35. [1/19/2015 10:40:51 PM] Scoots: Durgon says I really shouldn't stop you from doing it, but I feel that I should and so do a few others because it really seem to pile on to your problems
  36. [1/19/2015 10:54:58 PM | Edited 10:55:03 PM] Scoots: What about your mom EC?
  37. [1/19/2015 10:55:27 PM] Scoots: Really hate when those side bubbles come up, can never see what I'm typing
  38. [1/19/2015 10:57:25 PM] EC - Personal: My mom? I help out at her shop, but we don't talk much...we're not quite on perfect terms either.
  39. [1/19/2015 10:58:47 PM] Scoots: Any other family members willing to help you?
  40. [1/19/2015 11:03:20 PM] EC - Personal: Probably not. My sister is busy and has two children she has to care of, and my brother had the right idea when he went to Greenboro. He's planning to move to Texas with his girlfriend soon, and we probably won't see him for a few years after that.
  41. [1/19/2015 11:07:29 PM] Scoots: Jeesus I am tired of watching this continue...
  42. [1/19/2015 11:11:20 PM] EC - Personal: It's been like this for most of my life. But it's fine, I just need to hold on a bit longer, and I'll finally be out on my own.
  43. [1/19/2015 11:12:54 PM] Scoots: Alright, I'll take your word for it, but if something happens to you again, I'm taking action because it'll be the final time I can hold back from trying to do something, because no one, not a soul should have to suffer like you do.
  44. [1/19/2015 11:12:58 PM] Scoots: NO ONE.
  45. [1/19/2015 11:19:27 PM | Edited 11:19:48 PM] EC - Personal: I really do appreciate that, but you'd likely complicate things further if you intervened, Scoots. Besides, I'm already messed up emotionally, it's too late to change that. And I managed to survive this long, so I might as well go the rest of the way.
  46. [1/19/2015 11:21:45 PM] Scoots: I know that.
  47. [1/19/2015 11:27:03 PM] Scoots: Sorry, this just upset me
  48. [1/19/2015 11:29:31 PM | Edited 11:29:41 PM] EC - Personal: That's one of the reasons why keeping things to myself is another impulse of mine. I don't want people to see me like this. I want them to be happy and feel better.
  49. [1/19/2015 11:31:21 PM] Scoots: But you shouldn't have to hide behind a mask, because then people will always look for what is hiding behind it. Because people are very worried and all they want to do is help, you shouldn't continue trying to go it alone.
  50. [1/19/2015 11:31:49 PM] Scoots: I know it's upsetting, but do you know what even more upsetting? Not knowing about it.
  51. [1/19/2015 11:38:19 PM] EC - Personal: Yeah, that's a good point. Especially considering how badly things turned out with me, you, and Will previously because of my pent-up emotions, I think it's better that I try to let you know about my issues as well. Thinking back, it really upsets me how I displaced my frustrations towards my dad on you, Will, and Durgon. I didn't mean any of those things I said back then.
  52. [1/19/2015 11:39:24 PM] Scoots: I know you didn't, I had to try to reassure both Durgon and Will though because they feel scared for you.
  53. [1/19/2015 11:40:07 PM] Scoots: I've seen people explode before and I always wanted to figure out why that is, what is that trigger.
  54. [1/19/2015 11:41:12 PM] Scoots: It's might complicate things if I did intervene if things got out of hand... But it'd be the right thing to do than just be a bystander and keep watching.
  55. [1/19/2015 11:45:51 PM] EC - Personal: I know why it happens, and it's the same reason why my dad would do the same to me. When you displace your negative emotions like that, you're basically taking the anger and frustration you have for someone who isn't a safe target (like a boss or parent) and throwing it on someone you feel comfortable around (like a friend or loved one...AKA a 'safe target'). It's a horrible and stupid way of venting, but it happens far too often in this world.
  56. [1/19/2015 11:48:00 PM] Scoots: I know, because I've been on the receiving end of it quite a lot.
  57. [1/19/2015 11:48:45 PM] Scoots: If I stood and just continued to hear you continue to suffer every bit of the way, then I am no better than your father if I did nothing.
  58. [1/19/2015 11:49:05 PM] Scoots: If I could grab peoples attention to help you, I would
  59. [1/19/2015 11:49:31 PM] Scoots: But I am not popular and people wouldn't even bat an eye at me if I tired unless I posted something about free art.
  60. [1/19/2015 11:56:49 PM] EC - Personal: But you're nothing like my father, Scoots. You and the others give me someplace where I can feel comfortable, where I can escape all the stress and pressures for a while and just feel happy for a bit. That by itself is keeping me strong and confident that I can do better, that I deserve better than this.
  61. [1/19/2015 11:58:10 PM] Scoots: You may say that, but even if I do give comfort, but the fact that I have to hear about your suffering with me not doing something to actually help you get away from it truly, does make me worse than him.
  62. [1/19/2015 11:59:16 PM] Scoots: Yes you are strong for being able to go through it all this time, but then you do have your moments and it's like it knocks you back down the moment you do get up there, like your father is afraid to see you succeed
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